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4,000,416 | male | 26 | Science | Scorpio | 15,August,2004 | But why I can use list<> template well? I don't know, just remember undefined reference error is incurred by the template!!! |
4,000,416 | male | 26 | Science | Scorpio | 04,August,2004 | the method of sponsor sending key info up along the tree to the children_super, needs to be optimized. but it would be complex... |
4,000,416 | male | 26 | Science | Scorpio | 03,August,2004 | The method of sponsor sending key information up along the tree to the children_super, needs to be optimized. But it would be complex. |
4,000,416 | male | 26 | Science | Scorpio | 03,August,2004 | 1. for children of super node of the sponsor, or JOIN_CHILD_SUPER, The first child_super nodes need to change its mt_co_id, because mt_co_id should be the newly created group address. Also from this mt entry to the top entry, all the mt_key_computed should be set to FALSE. 2. When the sponsor is not a group member, the newly joined node acts as the sponsor. Remember to send newly created group info to the first child_super nodes, regardless they have group members or not. |
4,000,416 | male | 26 | Science | Scorpio | 01,August,2004 | Before the header of a packet p is set, it is all zero. so is the messageid of ah. So the logic has some problems. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 27,March,2004 | Friday, March 26, 2004 I woke up quite late. I am still feeling a bit grumpy with the weather. Boy is it hot. My girlfriend called me up early in the morning. I could not recall what she said except that she is going to march for the graduation. That is cool for at least one of us is able to finish graduate studies. I wish I could say the same for myself. Often, I find myself wishing I were in other places, in other time, in a parallel world where things are better. I know that I have to do something with my thesis-- and fast. I say that to myself to the ninth time. By grace of God, I know I will finish that thing probably just out of sheer persistence. I must otherwise I am in a deep fix. Thus, I ate breakfast late. Health is something I should put more investment in. Admittedly that is not one of my strong suit. I am a slob. Well, a good one at that. I love books but I cannot seem to have all the time and the energy to read my collections. I think by now I have already thousands of books. My collection probably costs hundreds of thousands of pesos. Still, I am always short of money. Pauper, yet well feed, that is me, a walking irony, just like some of my books. My neck also hurts. What else hurts? I could think of many sore muscles in my body. Indeed the mind is willing but the body is weak. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 25,March,2004 | I am writing this while I am naked. Although I just took a bath, the temperature sure feels like hell. Summer time in the Philippines is when everything comes to a standstill or at least in a slow motion mode. After all the school is off and students have already gone home. This the the season when scorching heat of the sun inflicts its brunt on everyone, many are either feeling sleepy or just plain out of energy. I am no exception. The best that I could do to make the heat bearable is to focus the fan to me and take baths as often as possible. I just wish I had an air con, however wishful thinking that may sound for I could never afford one. Anyway a lot has happened these past few months. It is funny that I want to recollect my thoughts and the events that have transpired in my life while I am in my naked glory. Not that I look good, no siree, unless you are one of those whose fetish is to see Shrek naked, it is just that I don’t get to do this-- in fact I haven’t done this at all. While writing this I wonder if my neighbors could see me. Just to be in the safe side, I turned off the lights. They may accused me that by parading in my entire glory I lost my sanity or is doing some satanical ritual or worse reduced myself to a pervert. At this point, I don't care what they think. I am here because it is hot and I want to write. Period. Awhile ago I was watching the television, and I was incensed what our current congressman said in his interview. He claimed, or he made it sound, that he was the one responsible for the many infrastructure projects in our area. For me that sounded delusional. Lest he forget, the money spent on such projects came from the people, in fact the only thing a conressman could do is allocate the people’s money, serve as a conduit and nothing more. It doesn’t take a genius to do that. The spoil system is Philippine's politics. I don’t see any reason why he should boast of such as an achievement. While it is already hot in the Philippines, the election further ticks me off. The set of candidates we have both for local and national election are miserable, sorry excuses for human beings, if they are at all humans. Most do not know what they are running for, what they want to do, and what made them run in the first place, except, obviously, to gain power. Who cannot feel cynical about this whole charade? I cannot stomach it and dare say I refuse to accept it. I mean I can be naked while writing this but I feel extremely violated, even humiliated whenever I hear these candidates speak to toil themselves to high heavens. All words that come out of their mouths are filth, lies and deception devised for us to believe them, taking us as fools, morons, stupids, dregs. Why, I ask is it that our congressmen are obsessed with infrastructure projects when their real jobs are in legislature? Kickbacks, anyone? The patronage politics has led us nowhere, and it seems that this is the very carrot that they offer the voter this coming election. It is a painful reality that makes me shiver, a cold fact that jolts me out of my comfort zone and throws me into deep panic. Election is when all that stinks is gleamed over for the unimpeachable truth that it is all a play, an illusion, when all of us are taken for a ride, and, lo and behold, we thoroughly enjoy the experience, not knowing any better, not knowing the difference of a good leadership from a bad and deceitful one. It is surreal, and by golly, it makes me feeling sick. Elections in this country is something I hate if only for the reason that I have to agonize over its poison reality that it cannot be changed with a make believe magical wand, and that truly, no change, at least the good ones, seems imminent. The old system persists. It is a sad, sad world. There is no magical silver bullet to address this problem and sometimes finding a solution to what plagues this country is overwhelmingly futile. Now, I know that I am sweating and naked, well, these too are also out of the ordinary. I stare at my monitor, hoping that in the end I made sense, I pray that at least I appear sensible. Never mind that my congressman is deluded, or that election in this country is a poor excuse to claim itself a democracy. Finding myself naked and alone in this room are just two of those few things I can afford to do out of sheer lunacy, say even, as my own sign of protest against these seriously dirty traditional politicians whose existence we could happily do with out. I say in closing that the weather is hot-- but the politics in this country sure stinks like hell. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 05,August,2004 | people are asking me who is noel's crush? hmm.... who are the people who sit infront? maybe it is joey say, probably, is it celeste or what if it is ms tejada or que horror carmela( sorry john) others tell me it is isiah ( for gender equality!!!) or( in the second row) jun ...( south and north har har) right. my lips are sealed unless ordered to sing. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 04,August,2004 | yes!!! ok, i didnt exactly ace the persons exam but at least i feel that i was able to salvage some crucial points. i had to re-write my answers many times. the questions were difficult and tricky. good thing i am a teacher, i sensed where the dean was coming from, i suspected sneakiness, so, there was no other option but to stretch my gray area and to analyze fully the questions. some pointers here are proper. publication is essential for a law to be effective no matter what. the executive order 200 that amended art. 2 of the civil code became only effective in 1988. rights are also, in general, subject to waiver as long as it is not contrary to laws, public order, public policy, morals and good custom. in that question, i thought it proper it is within his right anyway his father already died and the waiver is not against those grounds cited. future waiver is prohibited but the right was already ripe... etc, etc.... in sum, the exam was an intellectual exercise, at least different from that statcon exam ( by the way latin is a dead language) which left me reeling with those statutory principles(harharhar). now to make fun of the statcon exam... i say that atty.culling should liberally construe the answers and the instructions in favor of the students. the general rule as stated in the first part of the exam is to put ALL answers in the booklet. at the latter part of the questionnaire, answers should be written at that very questionnaire. talking about ambiguity. asnwers should also be written at separate pages, but what about those true and false part. waste, waste, waste of paper. point is, the instructions are ambiguous. in article 3 of the civil code it states that 'ignorance of the law excuses no one' but tempered with the concepts of mistake of fact( exempting?) and mistake in the interpretation of the law( mitigating). statutory construction is fun, my golly, it makes me deliriously insane. another thing, the teachers seem to like this for i dont know what reason. they said that they would give some objective items, but lo and behold, almost all was essay questions. as to the coverage, the dean said only until article 34 of the civil code, but why include article 36? it is abuse of rights( art 19,20, 21). i wonder if i file a case againts these teachers the case is justiciable? see what this stupid law school is doing to my mind. and did i ever mention the grammar. forget it, i refuse to incriminate myself. :P noel, how many dinners do you owe me now? i am not talking about libis here, just good food man. i miss joy. we were together in sseayp. she married a korean so she is now in korea. yesterday was nanay's bday( my national leader). i sent her a text. she should get married by now. i was also not able to go to cavite yesterday to visit the new batch because of the exam. well, hopefully next week i could go with them. i enjoyed my jog around amoranto stadium last night. i am planning to buy a ball so that i could play basketball in there. jogging unstress my system. it is fun, cheap, and healthy. food intake is a bugging problem. sigh. at least i am going somewhere, as to where, well, as they say only God knows. laws are for the stupid people. people are stupid. that should make us all happy. Ah, the humanity. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 04,August,2004 | last night i was stuck in traffic for two hours. literally my butt was in pain. i saw two people who get into a heated argument because of a traffic altercation. i hate it when people flare up or become unreasonable. i arrived at the house almost 10:00 pm. feeling all weary, i tried reading my civil law books in vain. i fell asleep at 11:40 pm. my life today centers around marriage. well this is the content of exam. i will read more after this blog spot doodle. i feel distressed when i see young people smoking. isn't there a law that prohibits selling cigarretes to minor? it seems though that this law is ineffective for apparently no one cares. according to this law cigarette vendors should be situated at least 200 meters away from the university/school. obviously this law is also in reality non-existent. i ask what are laws for if not properly observed or implemented. dura lex sed lex my foot! unlike in singapore where laws are strictly implemented, here in the Philippines there is wanton disregard for the law. when i was in singapore last year i was conscious of not violating any law for the fines were exorbitant. imagine paying $500 dollars for littering. in the philippines we treat the entire street as a vast trashcan. throw your refuse at will. anyway one could never find trashcans. this is the price of uncurbed democracy. anyway smoking for the youth really ought to be properly regulated. also when i was walking home i saw children sniffing rugby. where is the dswd? those children are the future of our land, and look where they are now. indeed the situation is quite pitiful. i feel bad knowing that the lives of these children are wasted. why is it that we, more often than not, simply ignore them, treat these children as mere vagrants and nuisance, just dirty and burdensome dregs of society. maybe they are, i thought to myself, and one reason is probably because we allow the situation to persist. we are oblivious. we treat these people as if they are invincible. but the poor, the dirty and the marginalized are constant fixture in our society and something must be done to help alleviate their problem. hallow words do not amount to anything. 'something must be done', and i say that to myself convinced that at the moment what i say are mere words lacking in action. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 03,August,2004 | curses!!! i mean ok i didnt do as well with my freaking statcon subject. shame is on me for refusing to memorize the dead language--latin terms--costing me, i hope not, and god forbids, 20 darn points for this exam. just some thoughts. why is it that erasures are forbidden and by golly the instructions the teacher gave was-- of all irony--ambiguous. the questionnaire said all answer must be in the booklet but later on he said that we should instead encircle our answers and write it on the questionnaire. well, teachers are human too, i should know, i used to be one. is this karma? hehehe. anyway, suffice to say i enjoyed again answering the essay questions. i am not sure though with the question concerning the franchise and the tax law. i put in my answer that the franchise is controlling. although what was said in the franshise law was 20% while the tax code asked for 20% gross sale, i think effort to harmonize the two would result to double taxation. oh i am torturing myself with this. tomorrow is civil code day. i hope to do better in this subject. tonight i am going to stay late reading. at least i only have two more subjects to go, after that i could enjoy myself once more. drew asked for a picture to be submitted tomorrow for sseayp tour guides. he just texted me yesterday. i am pressed for time and i need some break.i am thinking if i cant submit the picture to forego the opportunity to serve as tour guide for this year. i promised myself to attend the ship reception dinner though. i miss sashimi and miso soup. i miss the unlimited ice creams and sake. i miss saying ohayu. and maybe this time i would really go to grand bath naked and frolick with all those uncircumsized PYs. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 03,August,2004 | legal writing is normally bad writing. reading cases makes my head spin. most legal decisions are just awful, save of course decisions penned by isagani cruz. why is that? i guess the intent is to mystify the law, make it sound esoteric so that normal people would end up with a numbing head ache, and thus leave all the legal deciphering to lawyers. honestly, why not call a spade a spade directly without resorting to inefficient and ineffectual legalese? why not say white when the color is white, and not anymore slip to mumbo jumbo bullshit that really is just specious and stupid. i wish they cut all the crap, make it all simple, in that way more could appreciate the law. i remember one said that in law school if you cannot dazzle them with brilliance baffle them with bullshit. maybe there is a need to speak straight yet with substance. in that way we could do away with statutory construction. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 02,August,2004 | i have an upset stomach. this is cool. for lacking any of other words to say i guess i am reduced to an imbicile.... which is not the first time. tonight, i will start reading the civil code. i am not really that concern too much with statutory construction, not because it is hard, but because, well, i dont have time to worry for it anymore. some of the cases in statcon seem easy to understand( save the radiola case which took me 4 times of reading before i finally got what all the fuss was all about) it is just that it seems that atty. culling further muddles the issues when in discussion. he is good, by all means he is, it is just that does he intentionally make it appear more difficult? remember this is an opinion of a slave( err, a student) so this is not of any importance at all. i invoke my freedom of speech with this one if people are raising their eyebrows. i console myself with a sight that at least i am learning, even if this is the hard way. To toil for the sake of learning is the price i must pay. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 02,August,2004 | i miss my girlfriend. i miss bicol and i miss the four pillars urlLink . of course, i also miss my jealous bed. gad, this education comes at a heavy price. i gave up too many things for this. i gave up a chance to go to italy, least i would be absent for more than two weeks this august. i gave up the comfort and the unhectic lifestyle of bicol. i gave up my car and my motorcyle, my spacious and luxurious room(hehehe). is it worth it? i have no idea. anyway, i just want to vent some angst. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 02,August,2004 | the exam yesterday was quite a surprise. one need not study the provisions or cases, one simply should know a bit of literature and philosophy, plus, of course, a flair for writing. fortunately, i think at least i have a knack for those. i wrote 14 pages in single space for my answer. it was a treatise i know. but then the question in the exams were themselves long and literary(sic). in short, it was an essay, an exposition of one's view, a polemic of sorts, which, honestly i enjoyed because i did not memorize. well, it is now done and over with so i have to study for my other subjects. what grade will i get, que sera sera. i am now again in the library. i decided to come here because the sight of my bed is too inviting to resist. at least here, i hope i am right in this, i could resist closing my eyes. anyway i just have to make the most of out of it and do my best. funny that the question in poli centered around a certain character whose name was quixote. maybe gorospe has a running battle against his 'own percieved' windmills. i wonder who is his appointed amuse? :) interesting. |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 01,August,2004 | stupid. that is what i call myself at the moment. i thought that today, monday, the uniform for the day is blue. so it was to my surprise when i arrived in the library that i noticed that most were wearing white. my god, i wore the wrong color for monday. considering that we were told during orientation that there would be 10 point deduction for improper uniform, there was nothing for me to do but to rush back to my room in roxas and quickly changed. right now, i am back in the library. i guess stupid is what i really i should call myself today. my fingers are crossed that i would have a better luck for my exams later. ciao |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 01,August,2004 | today is our day of reckoning. i did not memorize for the exams. honestly i don't like memorizing. anyway i hope at least i don't flunk, better yet, to be more optimistic about it, that i would do well. so it is political law for today. what more? hmmm.... i think it is time to get off from the internet and do some honest to goodness reading. procrastination is my middle name. : ) |
3,050,485 | male | 27 | Education | Aries | 01,August,2004 | Adriene, I love your essays and I could easily relate to most of your experiences,especially those that have hints of angst. Keep it up. I love reading your works so much I make it a point to access your website whenever I have the chance. Another thing, I would like to dispel your idea that no one misses you. Yeng and I do miss you, big time. As I have said, I haven’t seen anyone yet who could compete with your infectious smile, those wide grin that makes your eyes almost invisible. Even until now, in my memory, I could still picture how you smile. Call me biased, well, admittedly I am, but next to the Petronas Towers, your smiles should be declared as another national treasure. Truth is, I remember Malaysia fondly not so much with its nice sceneries, yes those too were quite impressive, but more than anything, it is the warmth and the friendship that you, Raymond, and the rest of the MPYs extended to us which made Malaysia quite dear to our hearts.So, much are we separated with distance, for what it is worth, we miss you. Youalways have friends here in the Philippines, and we would love to have you back anytime--but hopefully in the soonest time possible.Take good care of yourself. And I heard that you are celebrating your birthday. Hmm. That makes both of us Aries. :)Cheers,Chris |
3,696,098 | female | 17 | Student | Aries | 20,June,2004 | So i knew from the start i should get my own blog, just for me, just as Dave said. My head is a puddle of thoughts right now waiting to explode. Guys. Arn't guys the cause for everything? I'd say so. And one thing about guys is...they never EVER know the right things to say. Today has been well crap. I have spent most of my day pondering, moaping, crying over Tom. Well not really crying, just a few tears. The fact is he will never know how much i love him, and how i would do anything for him. The truth is he just doesnt care. Well why should he? I have a boyfriend now. The fact is i will never be able to get over him. I could never love anyone like him. Of course i cant exactly tell him that. I try but i think he gets a little freaked out. Which is understandable. I'm like pouring my heart out to him. I wonder if he ever loved me. That's something that is always gonna play on my mind. I don't really talk to him anymore. I always want to, but i dont cos i know how it will upset me, what with him being in England, and me now in f'in canada. Aww it's like one of those tradgic love novels you read. Heh. Well kinda... Anyway back to my point. He starts a conversation with me every now and again. It starts off fine then memories come back. Gahh i hate them. I think the worst thing for me though is seeing how much he has changed. I told him i will never love anyone as much as him. Yeh great move kelly he's already not good at commitment. But well i can't have commitment with him anyway. *sulks* he called our love 'Puppy love'. What the hell is puppy love? I don't want puppy love. The other problem is AJ. I am realising how much i love him also more and more. I don't want to be in love with two guys!? AJ is so good to me, and im happy, but its the simple fact i will never be able to get over Tom. End of story. Wow glad i could get that out. I wrote a popem whilst waiting for my damn sister to get off the comp so i could start this. I desperatley needed to pour it out! Love is a strong word i wish i never had to say, giving my heart away day after day. Love is a strong word but i said it to you, knowing how i felt, so deep and so true. Love is a strong word, you once said to me, little did i know it wasn't meant to be. Love is a strong word, and now i take it back, burn it with my memories and tears i held back. DramaQu33n. |
3,696,098 | female | 17 | Student | Aries | 19,July,2004 | I love you david Lee. |
3,696,098 | female | 17 | Student | Aries | 18,July,2004 | This is me posting for the happiness of mr david Lee. A penis. All guys are given the gift of a penis, but really is it a gift? Well obviously for sexual purposes its a gift, otherwise its like a very bad friend. One of those friends who stears you in the wrong direction, Gives you bad ideas and leads you astray. Once the penis is in control it takes over. Im sure you wonder what the hell i am talking about? I have just got back from a cottage with my boyfriend and his family. I had a great time, i really did...apart from a few things. No sex for two weeks due to the fact we had no condoms. It wasnt really a big deal, we could still have fun. It was very hot at the cottage and being in the sun makes you very tired, and maybe even give you a headache as it did me. That night in particular when i wasnt feeling so good i was ready to go to bed. I was not up for the fooling around we did on the sofa as i did not feel very well. I tell AJ im off to bed and he flips out. He was so angry at the fact i didnt feel well and that he wasnt going to get any. Fuck you. :Growls: I told him im not well, and he sulked like the big baby he is. I got angry and was like fine, ill stay and then i'll go to bed. He was like 'im sorry'. Your sorry? Your sorry for keeping your sick girfriend up just so you can have some fun. What an idiotic, arsehole kinda thing to do. The penis was in control. Thats what he says. It definatley has a mind of its own, and over powers his actually mind. Can you see why i'm angry? This wasn't just on one occasion but on a few. If he didnt get any every night he sulked. It made me so angry. My conclusion: The penis controls which is why guys are such jerks...most of the time. DramaQu33n |
3,696,098 | female | 17 | Student | Aries | 02,August,2004 | Right now i feel...well i wish i knew. I'm having doubts, worries, somethig just doesnt feel right and i don't know what or why. I'm guessing maybe something to do with AJ. I think its about time i ask myself WHY exactly am i going out with him, because i really dont know. If you asked me to draw up a list i wouldn't be able to. Sure its great to be with him, but i just dont think my heart is in it, i dont think its ever been in it. He'll sign on msn, i couldnt care less if he talked to me or not, surely thats not teh way it should be. Lets talk about his possesiveness, if that even is a word. The other day AJ says to me 'what would you rather do, live without me forever or marry me?' Now this question cam as quite a shock. Knowing what he wanted to hear i said 'i'd marry you', which is infact a lie. I always fiond myself telling him what he wants to hear to save an argument, or even face reality about how i really feel. The conversation progressed and he said to me 'So, if you dont get landed immigrancy you can marry me!' I was stunned and replied with a lot of 'dont be rediculous', 'that will never happen''s. I told him i wouldnt marry him. I would not leave my parents and my family and the life i once had back home to marry him, especially at 17. So he says 'ok i'll move to England then.' OMG, what the hell have i done? He goes on about what if he had a job in england, a place to stay... It would NEVER happen. Never will i or can i see myself marrying him. He is so possesive over me that it scares me sometimes. I'm not sure i really want to be in a relationship. I am forced to say 'i love you' whether i mean it or not, again to save from an argument. I don't know i just really don't, and again i find myself coming back to Tom. I know i should let go, i think he has even told me that but i cant see it happening. Everyday i'd look forward to seeing him, try and catch him around school and give him a little smile. He made me feel inceridble, and teh happiest i have ever been in a relationship. AJ will never be able to do that. So what...am i looking for too much? Looking for what i had before? I wish i knew i really do, and i wish i knew why i was still with AJ. I find myself flirting with people, mainly online and i shouldnt be doing that, but maybe i just want to be free and have some fun? Dave if you could shed some light on this it would greatly be appreciated you filthy pee-er! I'm sorry if that made no sense :/ DramaQu33n |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | the third singapore kendo championships was held on sunday. i was tasked as an announcer for the competitors. the highlight of the event was the men's senior. never have i seen such spirit in people. their determination to win was amazing. in a year's time i hope that will be me. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | i managed to survive wednesday's training despite me feeling the effects of the flu. i couldn't feel my arms as me muscles were already beyong fatigue. peter sensei gave us fifty jogeburi, shomenuchi, sayumen followed immediately with 200 hayasaburi without any break. i survived and was able to continue with the next portion of the training. miracalously the symptoms disappeared and i felt energized. kendo does wonderful things to the mind and also the body. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | i'm down with flu today. actually it started on monday. the pain was like being on a rack. i took some aspirin and the pain subsided for a day. today the pain is back. i'm still going to training because there'll be a briefing on our duties for the competition on sunday but i still intend to train tonight. am i trying for sepupuku? will just have to see later how much my mental toughness can push my physical self. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | we learnt san dan waza today. combination of 1)kote,men,men 2)men,men,men 3)kote,men,kote training as always is very tiring but the feeling at the end is satisfying. however today i felt as if we were not pushed as hard as wednesday and that is kind of unsatisfying. contradicting my statements aren't i. i have decided on a physical training system which will supplement my learning of kendo. hopefully at the end of a month, i will be fitter and will want more torturing session from peter sansei. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | training was a killer today. we moved our training sessions to the court upstairs. knowing the humidity and heat, i was sweating buckets. one point during training i had to stop, ask peter sansei for permission to leave the dojo to vomit. he once said that training would be hard and if we needed to vomit we should do it outside the dojo. it would be a hassle and also disrespectful to do it in the dojo. i did exactly that, felt guilty of leaving the class momentarily.i vomited and then asked permission to join the class again. i felt better after relievinng myself so i joined in again and suffered more horrendous torture after that. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | a group of us have been given the go ahead to purchase our bogu. we had to earn it. 100 jogeburi, 100 shomenuchi, 100 sayumen and 150 hayasuburi. our forms were scrutinised and those who met the criteria were allowed to order the bogu. the sweat and sore arms was definitely worth it. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | sunday is training day. will have to learn several commands as i'm up for duty for the singapore national kendo championships. maybe i'll try to get a video camera so that i can have a personal copy of the event. will be very exciting. still waiting for the say sansei starts the nihonkendokata. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | i felt very foreign with my shinai. must be the fact that i've not picked it up since sunday. read about a blog by a guy whose main goal is to do 1000 suburi every two days for a week. maybe i should try that. training was ok tiring but manageble. we practised men cuts with partners 'motodachi' no 'shidachi' as we are all beginners. will need to practise my kihon to perfect my shomenuchi jogeburi. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | i've started pair work. hitting shinai's is much different than hitting air. almost missed my fellow kendoka's shinai. need more practise on this. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | haya suburi can make you see stars. exactly what i experienced three training sessions ago. almost fainted, almost gave up, but i endured, ego not letting me do so. i will endure and make kendo an essential part or my life. good news, i've been given the ok to buy my bokken. nihonkendokata will be starting in another two or three weeks. only 6 so far out of 27 have been given the ok. i'm very proud of myself. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | a month filled with kihon. footwork is essential. suburi is essential. all building blocks of life long kendo. as peter sansei would say 'when you step into the dojo, leave everything outside, instead after training take what you have learned out with you and make it part of your life.' |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | i had to go through a selection process. kiai was very critical to passing the selection. in the beginning i thought that race gender and physical conditioning would tip the balance of the selection and i would not get in. but peter sansei proved me wrong. the skc proved me wrong. it was one of those days that you were happy that you were wrong for once. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | it has been exactly one month since i began my journey. the art of the living sword first took me in believe or not from a hollywood movie. the character played by ken watanabe was so powerful. a great man, an excellent actor. the potrayal of the culture of the people practising the art of the living sword was very well done. that movie made me look for it. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | i have practice today. deep down in me i know that twice a week of training is inadequate. i need to train at home, but the low ceiling is a hindrance. i cannot even do men at home. i've asked the seniors for help, they advised me to cut a shinai so that it is adequate to clear my ceiling. i only have one shinai...i guess i need to get another. my target is my next pay day but i have a lot to save for and i hope i can squeeze my budget for an additional 40 dollars for a new shinai. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | i wore the gi and hakama for the first time today. heavy and tight at the chest area. but very free at the legs. surprisingly it gave me very good posture and i felt more control in my suburi. well that is until before fatigue sets in. needs to strengthen my body and mind. well no more procrastinating my goal is to lose excess weight so that i can tie a bow knot at the back instead of a reef knot. tomorrow is day one of exercise and diet regime. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | peter sensei returned after a two session hiatus. we have also two students who are singaporeans studying in australia. they have been doing kendo since january so they are slightly ahead of us. with peter sensei back, training sessions are now back to normal. disciplined, and very challenging. this is something which i prefer. traditional kendo is what i'm trying to find. ultimately before the end of this life i'll be able to find a sensei who is able to teach kenjutsu. anyway we have been given the go ahead to wear the gi and hakama the next session. unfortunately for me i'll be on an educational trip next session so i'll have to miss that training session though. will read up on how to wear it in ozawa's book, 'kendo the definitive guide'. i also did some maintenance on my shinai. it was becoming lose so i dismantled it, looked up shinai maintenance on the net and then followed the instructions. 1) urlLink Shinai Maintenance homepage |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | peter sensei was absent today. michael sensei took over. he has a totally different teaching style and he was more forgiving than peter sensei. we hit actual men cuts on the advanced class today. finally getting the feeling of actually cutting an opponent wearing bogu. training was not that tiring. somehow or rather when peter sensei is around, we are pushed to our limits more. hopefully we will see him on sunday, no matter how dreadful our training session might end up. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | urlLink the feeling of sen is tremendous to be able to avoid men and then take kote. outstanding copyright @katsumoto moritsugui |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | urlLink an unlikely shiai copyright @katsumoto moritsugui |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | urlLink hajime!! copyright @katsumoto moritsugui |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | urlLink 10th singapore east west kendo chanpionship copyright @katsumoto moritsugui |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | my return to training has not been an easy one. i've lost the stamina that i had before the accident, my suburi is a total mess and i'm feeling the after effects of the accident every day. i'm physically slower, easily confused and light -headed frequently. i tried to keep up during last wednesday's training. despite the fact that it was easier, i was panting away. i need to get back into shape fast. maybe absolution is the key. during this sunday's east west tournament i totally disappointed myself and my team with my lacklustre suburi which was a random mess of poor coordination and bad tenouichi. i have to try harder. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | watching kendo is not fun. for the past two weeks i've been at the dojo for every training session. with my injuries i could not join the class eventhough i wanted so much to be with them. i still cannot sit in seiza position and sonkyo is very painful. i've made my mind to start on wednesday and peter sensei was kind enough to allow me to seat cross legged during seiza. i will be with them wednesday and my kiai will echo in the dojo once again. |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | i met with a motorcycle accident on monday last. i was with my fiancee at that time.thank god, we escaped with abrasions from road burns. my bike was totalled...gone... and will need at least 10000 dollars in repair.i went down to kendo training with my injuries on wednesday and was given the green light from peter sensei to sit down and rest. my fiance was with me throughout the training session. she looks interested and she said she is confident in being able to do what the other female kendokas are doing. she thinks she might give it a try. well who knows i might be training with her soon? (the accident reminds me of director 'beat takeshi', who had a motorcycle accident too. director/actor zatoichi.) |
3,294,430 | male | 26 | Education | Libra | 01,July,2004 | i had comments from fellow kendokas from around the world. they gave me some ggod advice about how to cope with practicing suburi in low ceiling conditions. if not a shinai would have been sacrificed to a saw. thanks a million. we practised our fundamentals today. i enjoyed myself becauase training was hard. my kiai personally has also improved. i really think the way of the living sword is for me. with all this hardship, we learn humility, friendship, honor and most important respect for others and oneself. i will give it my all and not look back. |
3,724,380 | female | 27 | Law | Pisces | 30,June,2004 | yuhuuu... ntar malem semifinal portugal vs belanda niihhh... daa excited pen nonton... heheheheee.... nontonnya sih di rumah ajaa kali yaa.. tapii sambil pake kaos belanda donkkk... hahahahahhaaaa... abegeeeeee abiis deh gw... bodoooooooooo... |
3,724,380 | female | 27 | Law | Pisces | 29,June,2004 | i just found out that i made a mistake with a friend of mine.. not a mistake but mistakes... mistake is a very common word.. sometimes it does not value that much.. but i did.. i was very miserable finding out i made those especially to a friend that i started out to count as one of a good friend.. perhaps not only good.. a friend who is not only nice.. but also comforting me.. i do cannot stand this condition.. once again.. i ask time to be at my side.. may forgiveness surrounding someone's heart.. and let the friendship grow stronger.. p.s: 'i'm just too excited having a new friend' |
3,724,380 | female | 27 | Law | Pisces | 24,June,2004 | i just did an uncomfortable conversion... it really ruined my day.. hard to concentrate on other things.. awkward.. miserable... and difficult to hide all those things.. i just hope.. it will be better very soon and time will be at my side.. i have never meant to bring the conversion.. i have never meant to ruin the day.. i wish my apology would be accepted.. coz it is truly from my heart.. |
3,724,380 | female | 27 | Law | Pisces | 23,June,2004 | yipppeee... netherlands lolos ke quarter final hahahhahaa... untunk semalem (oops..pagii) kebangun jam stngh 4an.. lumayaan liat babak ke-2 pertandingan ceko vs german.. hasil pertandingan waktu itu masih 1-1 ehh.. kurang lebih 5 menit kemudian.. milan baros memasukkan si kulit bundar ke gawang Kahn.. hahahahhaa..... seneeng bangetttt... tapiii abiss ituu.. deg-degan buangetttt... kurang lebih 15 menit.. mata terfokus ke televisi dan tangan terlipat dengan rapatnya.. hahahhaa... begituu pria berbaju hitam meniup peluit panjaangg... rasanyaa lega bangettttt... tapii tunggu duluuu.. belum ada berita nihh dari pertandingan belanda vs latvia... ga lucu bangettt kan... kalo latvia yang menang... ternyataaaaa... belanda menang 3-0.... 3-0.. 3-0... waduuuhhh... lompat-lompat.. muka senyuum-senyuumm.. dan jari-jari bulat menekan-nekan keypad handphone hehehhee... 'whoaa.. belandaa lolos..dan menang 3-0 vs latvia..' senaaangnyaa... walopun setelah itu masih harus berjuang dengan sakit perutt.. maklum kebangun karena 'panggilan alam'... dan tetapp mules2 diare sampai pagi jam 9an... gapapaahhh... yang pentiiingg belanda lolos quarter final.. hahahhahahaa.... |
3,724,380 | female | 27 | Law | Pisces | 23,June,2004 | it's one of quotations that i got from our daily bread.. (not a name of bakery shop ?!).. when i read that quotations.. i was speechless.. it's not just a sentence.. but the meaning of the sentence really comforts me.. i am not too religious though.. i almost attend every sunday service.. i even join 2 choirs in my church.. (heh??) but still.. so each time i have problem or so many problems i always try so hard to remember that sentence.. somehow.. it works.. that sentence can strengthen me.. i know god works in any way that can't be understandable.. or so unpredictable for us -a human being- but i know he'll always there for me.. not only for reminding me of the good... but to carry me.. in my devastated time... p.s: i think 'my good side' is all around me when i write this heheheeheheheee.... |
3,724,380 | female | 27 | Law | Pisces | 23,June,2004 | fyiuuhh... finally i have my own blog... sebenernya sihh hanya untuk menuliskan secuil critaa.. yang mungkin tidak pentiinng.. tapii bermakna (hihhiiiii..) so.. this is the start.. and hopefully many stories of me and my world (?!) will color my blog... |
3,724,380 | female | 27 | Law | Pisces | 01,July,2004 | ihhh sebeel bgt kmaren nonton ptandingan belandaa.. permainannya jelek !!!!!!!! well, portugal deserved to win.. couldnot provide any comment regarding the game.. in fact, figo played excellent last night !!!! untunkk.. cuma nonton di rumaahh.. jadi ga pake mesti keluarin dana tambahan lagiii.. well, i am not too upset anymore.. the netherlands didnt play at their top i thought that's why i didnt feel so upset.. |
3,724,380 | female | 27 | Law | Pisces | 10,August,2004 | a: kalo 'timeless time' artinyaa apaa?? b: hmm apaa yaaa.. 'waktu yang ga ada habisnya kali yaaa' a: hmm gituu yaaa.. b: kaliii dehhh a: bukan 'waktu yang berharga yaaa?' b: hmmmmm.... a: kalo 'priceless friend' gimanaa?? b: hmmm.. 'temen yang ga ada harganya' kaliii.. a: bukannya 'temen yang berharga bangett'.. soalnya gw pernah baca a poem yang bilang 'you must be very happy if you have not provided with pearl, silver, gold but a friendship(aahh..gw ingett skrgg.. yang ngarang Helen Steiner Rice.. gw buat di frame utk doraemon heheheheee...) b: brarti 'priceless' bukan ke orangnyaaa.. itu kan ke hubungannya... a: hmmm... ok.. trus artinyaaa... b: kalo 'priceless friendship' yaa persahabatan yang berharga bangett a: 'priceless' itu bisa diartiin ga ada harganya juga gaaa? b: bisalahh.. 'priceless watch' misalnyaaa a: tapii kan juga jadi bisa diartiin jam yang berharga bangett yaaa.. b: yoiiii... tapii menurut gw, kata 'priceless' itu bukan untuk orang.. buat barang ato sesuatu gituu dehh... nyampee dehh...di mayapada tower.. masuk lift.. and we're back in our own chamber... ...lunch time on 10 august 04.. |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 31,July,2004 | Theo and i are fighting again of course...hes mad at me again for cancelling...im sorry Theo.. i like you alot and i am sorry for always doing this to do... ok listen i PROMISE we will do something tommarow and if we dont then you can be mad at me for as long as you want. Im sorry for always dissapointing you w/everything and im sorry for being such a loser all the time. You really do mean alot to me, i just wish you would like me the same way i like you...i know i make you mad ALOT but you mean alot to me you are my everything. You make me sooo happy i cant believe it........... anyways lizzy is back and we are having a sleepover at her house. which means crazy maddness like always sooo yes... I Love Theo ^^^^i like that kid alot^^^^ theo i still wanna hug you:) xoxoxox peace, meg |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 29,July,2004 | for the 1st time in a long time im REALLY happy, bcuz of theo...I LOVE U THEO ur my pride and joy u make me smile sooo BIG u make me laugh and wow....yur amazing!!! u want me to write my feelings in here soo i am ive never thought about someone soo much ive never liked someone soo much.....things will work out i know they will bcuz we like eachother soooo much.......u make me sooo happy i dn wat would do w/o you:) no ones ever treated me like u have ur sooo sweet to me and nice and yur always saying how i make you smile and yur like a dream bf!!! yur all i think about ne more...i mean ive never felt this way before...u rock totally:) I LOVE YOU THEO.....yur my everything |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 27,July,2004 | i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo! i love theo!i love theo! i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo! i love theo!i love theo!i love theo!i love theo! i love theo!i love theo! i love theo! i love theo with all my heart.... ill always love u!! |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 17,July,2004 | scratch w/e i said n this thing.... i like Theo i hate JOSH MILLER iim sry for everything ve said thats a lie.......i love u theo:) peace meg |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 17,July,2004 | once again i feel like shit.. i liked this really really nice guy but it turned out he had a girlfriend and that he was just pretending to like me......soo now i feel like shit...if i had to ask god a ? it would be 'what the hell is wrong with me?' his answer would probably be 'everything u horrid girl your a slutt whore bitch who has noo purpose!' or something like that... it seems right now the only people that actually give a damn about me or my feelings or w/e is robbie and amanda..i guess i figurted out who my real friends are too oo goody! so now my friend Josh know's i like his brother and he's the one that told me about his gf and shit and i thank him for telling me....so i could realize i dont have a chance.....that sad part of all this is i still like him alot i would do ne thing just to talk to him i would die for him too like me.....o well.. it'll never happen and i probably should just stop liking him all together its too hard liking an older guy ne ways.. never no what they are doin behind your backs..soo yes today is a very depressing day.. i have to leave for camp tommarow saddened by a stupid boy.....at this point i dont wanna go to camp i wanna stay here and try to fix things maybe try to get him to like me.... which wont happen of coutse but yea....i guess ill have fun at camp and ill try not to think about him...for ne reason....i will miss you all soo much speciallly you! another faggot girl, meg please leave me here to rot.....all i want is to go away from all of this... |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 15,July,2004 | camp is on sunday.... theo..if u see this i gotta tell u i like u alot and that yur really amazing ive never felt like this about a person who ive known for like 3 or 4 days.........when i come back i really wanna hang out..... mitch we have many stories to tell the grandchildren:) |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 15,July,2004 | Theo- you are sooooo freakin cool i mean we are soo much alike its crazy i love u man!!!ur soo cool and stuff i really wanna hang out soo call me soon or ill call you! Josh- ya.. Destiny-hey sry for all those bad thingys i really am really sorry i love u tooo death i dont hate you now!!!!!BFF DOUG-omg u are soo cool i just love u too death u are a cool kid come to illinois soon! Torre-known ya since 2nd grade and i love ya too death u are one of the coolest kids ive ever known yur like sooo cool i just love you!!! |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 13,July,2004 | everythings wrong...why am i soo sad why cant i be like me? . What I say is wrong, bad. What I do is wrong nothing i do is right so whats the point in trying any more whats the point in trying to be in a happy place when i know im not in a happy place? Im in Geneva for christs sake.. 48%of Geneva is snobbs 25%are potheads and the rest are like me:(..... Letters To God:Boxcar racer Caught off guard All worked up The air is as dark and cold as night Let me go I'm not done I swear i'll take just one lifetime (chorus) And I I won't lie I won't sin maybe i don't wanna go can't you wait? maybe i don't wanna go I should have asked I could have helped At least a fucking thousand times before Will this offer Get me in? Or does this prove that they gave more And I I won't lie I won't sin Maybe I don't wanna go Can't you wait? Maybe I don't wanna go And I I won't lie I won't sin Maybe I don't wanna go Can't you wait? Maybe I don't wanna go And I I won't lie I won't sin Maybe I don't wanna go Can't you wait? Maybe i don't wanna go... today i think is all about the sad songs..........so this whole page is gonna be lyrics of asd songs Sing for Absolution-Muse Lips are turning blue A kiss that can't renew I only dream of you My beautiful Tiptoe to your room A starlight in the gloom I only dream of you And you never knew Sing for absolution I will be singing Falling from your grace There's nowhere left to hide In no one to confide The truth burns deep inside And will never die Lips are turning blue A kiss that can't renew I only dream of you My beautiful Sing for absolution I will be singing Falling from your grace Sing for absolution I will be singing Falling from your grace I won't remain unrectified And our souls won't be exhumed no one gets what this song is really about but once ya think about it u understand it all.... Time is Running Out-Muse I think I'm drowning Asphyxiated I want to break the spell That you've created You're something beautiful A contradiction I want to play the game I want the friction You will be the death of me Yeah, you will be the death of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it But our time is running out But our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out I wanted freedom Proud and restricted I tried to give you up But I'm addicted Now that you know I'm trapped Sense of elation You'd never dream of Breaking this fixation You will squeeze the life out of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it But our time is running out But our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out How did it come to this? Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah no no nooo Yeah, you will suck the life out of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it But our time is running out But our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out How did it come to this? Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah no no nooo Apocalypse Please-Muse Declare this an emergency Come on and spread a sense of urgency And pull us through And pull us through And this is the end This is the end Of the world And it's time we saw a miracle Come on it's time for something biblical To pull us through And pull us through And this is the end This is the end Of the world Proclaim eternal victory Come on and change the cause of history And pull us through And pull us through And this is the end This is the end Of the world Gravedigger-Dave Matthews Band Cyrus Jones 1810 to 1913 Made his great grand children believe you could live to a hundred and three A hundred and three is forever when you're just a little kid so Cyrus Jones lived forever Gravedigger When you dig my grave Could you make it shallow So that I can feel the rain Gravedigger Muriel Stonewall 1903 to 1954 She lost both of her babies in the Second Great War Now you should never have to watch your only children lowered in the ground I mean you should never have to bury your own babies Gravedigger When you dig my grave Could you make it shallow So that I can feel the rain Gravedigger Ring around the rosies Pocket full of posies Ashes to ashes We all fall down Gravedigger When you dig my grave Could you make it shallow So that I can feel the rain Gravedigger Little Mickey Carson '67 to '75 He rode his bike like the devil till the day he died When he grows up he wants to be Mr. Vertigo on the flying trapeze Nineteen forty to nineteen ninety.... two Gravedigger When you dig my grave Could you make it shallow So that I can feel the rain Gravedigger When you dig my grave Could you make it shallow So that I can feel the rain I can feel the rain I can feel the rain Gravedigger When you dig my grave Could you make it shallow So that I can feel the rain Gravedigger Gravedigger BASICALLY ANY DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL SONG I Feel SO-Boxcar racer Sometimes I wish I was brave I wish I was stronger I wish I could feel no pain I wish I was young I wish I was shy I wish I was honest I wish I was you not I 'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callous So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over Sometimes I wish I was smart I wish I made cures for How people are I wish I had power I wish I could lead I wish I could change the world For you and me 'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callused So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over 'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callused So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callused So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over There IS-Boxcar racer This vacation's useless These white pills aren’t kind I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive I missed the grinded concrete where we sat past 8 or 9 and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights I've given a lot of thought to the nights we used to have The days have come and gone Our lives went by so fast I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor Where I laid and told you but you swear you loved me more Do you care if I don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight will you think of me? Will I shake this off...pretend its all okay? That there's someone out there who feels just like me There is Those notes you wrote me I've kept them all I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall With every single letter in every single word There will be a hidden message About a boy that loves a girl Do you care if I don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight will you think of me? Will I shake this off...pretend its all okay? That there's someone out there who feels just like me There is Do you care if I don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight will you think of me? Will I shake this off...pretend its all okay? That there's someone out there who feels just like me Do you care if I don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight will you think of me? Will I shake this off...pretend its all okay? That there's someone out there who feels just like me There is **more songs to come later**i gotta take a nap** peace out, meg |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 13,July,2004 | hey guyz once again its me MEG typing another BORING day lol well yeah y'all probably know what i did on Wednesday im teling u again bcuz im bored and i cant sleep*tear* soo yeah yesterday i woke up looking like shit of course and then went to the movies and saw King Arthur big fun right? lol but King Arthur of course kicked major ass...but yea after that we sat their for awhile...and talked until mitchie called then we were trying to decide wat to do bcuz mitch n robbie wanted to hang out but ya ne wayz we went to Liz's house and had a s/o it was MAD fun!!! lol soo many good times and yes they just went top bed like an hour and a half ago and im still awake bcuz im not tired maybe im waiting for a certain someone to get on (theo) lol but ya ne wayz im leaving on Sunday for camp soo ill miss all of you sooo freakin much but il see ya next sunday...hehe and maybe ill be pretty when i come back!SCORE!!lol yea well i guess im gonna go ill talk about my day at liz's ;later but its probably the same as always we just hung out and chilled w/robbie and mitch or had a water fight:)yay those are akways fun right?lol talk to y'all later calll me before i leave for camp 208-7341!!!( please no pyschos caling me!!) peace, Meg |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 13,July,2004 | manda, u wanted yur own page soo hear it is....ure really weird at times but alot can be said about u...ur an awesome friend ur always listenin to crap i say and shit yur really nice and sweet and ya theirs soo many good words to say about u but ya im tired soo ill write more to u later mk?xxx meg |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 10,July,2004 | Lizzy-you are one of the coolest people i have ever known and i love u too death ive always wanted a friend who would drop everything just too listen to me and try to help me you are one of the greatest friends i have ever had and i will always love u even if u are ever mad at me and i know that we will always be friends and im always their for u no matter what i love u liz u always put a smile on my face!We've been through sooo much crap together and we are still best friends i just cant help lovin u!! Amanda Eve-BABE i love u too friggen death u are my support system and ur always their for me u are one of the best friends ive ever had and u can alwyas make me happy no matter what i know we've had some reallly tough times together but we always seem to make it through all those toughies!!We will always be friends no matter what and dont listen to what ppl say EVER!! i love u always and forever manda u no im always their for you my love!!!u always put a smile upon my little pudgy face love ya babe! GLENNA- omg i just love u soo much u are always soo damn funny and ur really sweet and nice too yur caring and we all love u forever soooo many good times together and soo many more to come i love you 4ever and ever!! Alex-i love u man u are sooo cool and we have soo much fun together everytime we hang out we have soo many good times like at yur house and at the movies and everything god i just cant help but loving u ur one of my best friends and u always will be im happy yur over yur drug(lol) finally!!!love you 4ever!! Robbie-i friggen love u and yur randomness you are soo funny and i love it when u are hyper soo many good times at mitchs and mcdonalds and everyplace like that i hope we can always be GREAT friends!! Mitch-u are one cool bean i mean man u are cool lol love u to death and always will we have had MEGA good times together and i think/hope we will always be best friends yur funny sometimes lol love u to death Ryan-o another great guy...u are awesome and soo funny yur one of the sweetest guys ive ever met and i love you to death if their was one word to describe u it would be GREAT FRIEND(2words w/e)i love u rye and i always i wish u best of luck w/everything i hope we are on the same team again bcuz 7th grade was kickass!! Jess-i consider u a best friend for life bcuz i have known u 4ever and ever and ever and ya no what i love u too death we have had alot of good times like our study method and shit i love u!! Jenn-omg u help me through everything u are soo awesome and i hope we are on the same team next year that would be sooo kickass!! if i 4got u please telll me and u can have a whole page about yurself:) |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 10,July,2004 | ejanecat355: no im not and yes u do. you are completely retarded and a baby that thinks your famous. u need to be evacuated from society ALMSTfamous1970: who the hell are you? ejanecat355: you are a fucker your brother will be a freshman ejanecat355: at least i dont hve two names megan serra ejanecat355: well i know how to spell god lol ejanecat355: haha ohhhh is that a threat ALMSTfamous1970: how the hell do u no dan? ejanecat355: you completley denied having a brother ALMSTfamous1970: i know ejanecat355: ohhhh so your a compulsive lyer....you know girls go to mentall phacility's for that act ejanecat355: you CRAYYYYAY ejanecat355: CRAZZZAY* ALMSTfamous1970: what the helll is wrong w/u ALMSTfamous1970: ummm xcuse me please go to hell ALMSTfamous1970: and die ALMSTfamous1970: and dont talk to me ejanecat355: hey don't you remember what a whore you are? ejanecat355: so if anyone should be not talking to the other it should be you not talking to me ALMSTfamous1970: im no whore ma'am u are ejanecat355: but that shouldn't happen cause this is just too much fun seeing you get your lil head frusterated ejanecat355: if you don't even know who i am then how am i a whore ejanecat355: prove it fucker ALMSTfamous1970: shove it up yur ass motherfucker ^^i have no clue who that is^^ chubsleysfat: do u like mac n cheese ^^goood times^^^^ahh the randomness^^ MetalObsessed99: i licked a cat once ^^i abslolutely love this kid^^absolutely random too^^ Disasterpiece103: CHEESE!!!! Disasterpiece103: MOMMY BOUGHT CHEESE!!!!!!! ^^this kid is hilarious and i love him too death!!^^ Disasterpiece103: megan fo smegen fe fi fo legan..MEGAN Disasterpiece103: sorry...add ^^mitchie yur a weird one!!^^ **chrissy frankenthal got ppl to yell at me 2day i just wanna letcha no Chrissy that your a loser and I hope you die ok? anbd 8th grade will be hell for u if u even think about coming near me or liz or ne of my friends dont u even think about making this year suck as bad as it did last year...this year WILL NOT be another year in the principles office* |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 10,July,2004 | Hello once again yesterday i saw Anchorman and it was pretty good considering i saw it with my best friends Lizzy Amanda Glenna and Alex...my other 3 Best friends couldnt make it unfortunately but it was a damn good movie.....yet it was kinda pointless in many ways i think Manda got bored since she was eating the whole time lol after the movie we went to Liz's house and chillaxed for a while and hung out then my EVIL father had tooo be an ass and make me come home to yet another fight between the two of us..then i woke up at 6:30 this morning thinking i was gonna go to mandas at 9am to wake her up hehe but NOO my evil father had to start another fight which lead to me yelling and screaming 'I hate u and i always will hate u im never talking to u again and i hope u burn in hell' and of course inn the end im grounded for a day o joy right? soo ne ways i spent most of ths morning cursing and crying talking on the phone to manda the one who i usually talk to ne ways bcuz shes my support system i love her too death.......ne who ill write more later.. XXOOXX Meg |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 10,July,2004 | Today for some reason is different then all the other days ive had this summer i have no clue why but it feels different like maybe its gonna be funner or shittier or i dn but it feels weird im with Liz and Amanda right now and manda is on the phone w/alex who is sad but will not tell ne one why....he seems to be keeping his emotions in from us even though he says we are Best friends or were best friends i dont understand why ppl do this to ppl they say they are sad and they dont tell ne one why whats the logic in this?If u dont want ppl to know then keep your mouth shut alright? i guess ill type more later with much love, Meg |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 09,July,2004 | Robbie Turner u are weird for going out w/Destiny and not Liz but OK w/e ne wayz we got in a pretty big fight over that whole issue soo im not even gonna mention it ne more...but seriously man...how could u do that too liz?? well ne way my subject right now is robbie....lol robbie yur a cool kid but at times u arent LOL JK hehe soo many good times together yur an extremely cool kid and everyone loves u:) I think I'm drowning Asphyxiated I want to break the spell That you've created You're something beautiful A contradiction I want to play the game I want the friction You will be the death of me Yeah, you will be the death of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it But our time is running out But our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out I wanted freedom Proud and restricted I tried to give you up But I'm addicted Now that you know I'm trapped Sense of elation You'd never dream of Breaking this fixation You will squeeze the life out of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it But our time is running out But our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out How did it come to this? Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah no no nooo Yeah, you will suck the life out of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it But our time is running out But our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out How did it come to this? Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah no no nooo Muse-Time is running out this song has a meaning but i dont no what its true meanning is yet.... Peace, M.S. |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 09,July,2004 | Dashboard Confessional ultimetly kicks ASS...they have soo mant kick ass songs.....MAN ok lets name some kick songs... Hands Down The Brilliant Dance Screaming Infedeleties Vindicated This Bitter Pill So Impossible This ruined puzzle The Good Fight Saints and Sailor Standard Lines Rapid Hope Loss As Lovers Go Am I missing yeah their are a ton more but yea umm i dont wanna type and/or think of all the kickass songs......,yeah ne way all Dashboard Confesional kicks ass and all their songs own so BOO good Charlotte once again love, Meg s |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 09,July,2004 | well i have nooo freaken clue what the hell this thingy is but yes...im in Lake Geneva and im really bored see my friends are watching Big Fish the movie and i have already seen this movie and i have to say it wasnt that great ne wayz umm i guess ill talk about my too friends that are with me right now.. Lizzy-shes a blonde beauty(lol) shes been my best friend since last summer and shes one of the best people i know! shes always their for u and shes really nice and funny lol she laughs alot and we call her laugh alot the 2nd but i love her to death man! we have had soo many good times its unbelievable...well yeah i can totally say more things about her but i gotta move on to amanda.. Amanda-well theirs a ton to say about this girl shes the greatest man i love her she helps me through everything shes like my support system she no's exactly how to make me happy and shes one of the funniest people i know shes great i love her w/all my heart shes one of my best friends and i have nooo freaken clue what i would do w/o her with love to all, Meg S COOL BEANS Y'ALL!!! |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 12,August,2004 | soo yes my day hasnt been very enjoyable yet soo enjoyable...well glenna came over around 1:30ish and we just hung out then mitch nick ryan and their friend brennon came over and we hung out outside and they were playing football and shit soo then lizzy and manda showed up and i was like AHH more ppl o joy and ya so then we all just hung out like old times and then uhh glenna manda and liz went to mcdonalds and i stayed home and packed my shit for Lake Geneva with my ultimate bffl's manda glenna and liz soo yeah now im writing in my blog thing..i uhhh...tralala soo yes tonight i depart tooo Wisconsin that should be fun but yes its with my best friends soo it'll be funsoob im gonna write more later goodbye goodday:) Peace |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 11,August,2004 | today...was for the most part bitterly boring.. i felt no need to get outta bed today since i could feel the cold air...soo finally around 1:30ish my dad decided to wake me up by pulling my feet and tickling me....oo how i hate him...soo yea i woke up and did nothin as usual i talked to ppl on the phone......and ya thats basically what i did then i went online and did nothing i made a new screen name its stonedamerica7 and ya then i did nothing....i sat around..... onto a new subject School ive been friggen waiting for that dumb school shit for weeks now and it better damn come tommarow b4 i leave for Lake Geneva:) i cant wait to go to Lake Geneva its always a blasted good time. this time we are all goin though.....i mean me liz manda and glenna (latoya, Lafred,chubslesha,and moesha) haha lol well ne wayz im gonna take off ill type more later....maybe *peace* |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 09,August,2004 | soo yesterday i got kicked outta liz's house at 11 soo me n glenna n manda decided to go to my house but we had to walk... and then these 4 kids started chasing us outta Mill Creek bcuz we we 'squaking' at them(bird noises) so we basically ran outta Mill Creek being chased by 7 year olds saying 'get em get em''get the one in the pink shes the slowest' lol that would be glenna(pink one) sooo then we went to my house and my grandparents were their o JOY! soo we ate food with them and then my mom was tellin theses gay stories about me n glenna at camp like the 1st day we got their we fell down a wall and how glennas mom used to think glenna would think her name was GLENNA GOD DAMNIT bcuz her mom always yelled that to her when she was a youngin....then she called me shithead//joy o joy soo then we went outside and to our surprise petey was their AHH soo we talked to him then ran away back in the house//lol and soo then we hung out in ma room like always then we gotta ride to glennas and watched Gothika and omg we dressed up like complete idiots like amanda had her socks on over her jeans(soccer socks) glenna had on a red robe with a fake cigarette and slippers i had on a GMS sweatshirt a winter coat a beanie a visor one soccer sock on over my jeans and i had on really fancy lookin slip on shoes... and we all had mustaches (we drew them on) soo then we walked to Walgreens and we say like 20ppl we knew and it was hilarious Kendall McCleary's mom was staring at us and then we saw Danielle Caprille and Kristy Kolzow and Max Ritchdorf and Chris Bailes and this really HOTT guy then we saw like all these ppl and an old teacher of ours Mrs Weiber//YIKES//and then we went shopping for marshmallows chocolate and grahm crackers bcuz we were havin a bonfire...so we get their and they dont have ne marshmallows and we were like damn it!! soo we checked the clock and we were suposed to be home an hour and a half ago soo we were like screw it and got chocolate and grahm crackers and we went to the check out line and this ladies like 'amanda are u Josh Loomis's brother?' and manda was like 'yah?' and she was like'are u 3 high??' we started laughing histaricaly and we were like'nooo way we arent high' it was GREAT soo we rushed home and started a fire lol and roasted marshomallows and made smores......amanda was playing with fire and she burned her foot...she was flinging the fire lol...so that was my awesome day:) it kicked ass i love u guyz!! theo im glad were friends again:) |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 09,August,2004 | PEOPLE WANNA KILL ME AND I DONT NO WHY....PPL WHO IVE NEVER TALKE TO B4 damn u theo and yur damned tiff why does she wanna kill me whats all my fault im confused...................... HELP ME today i told theo my true feelings..about him and everything nand it felt damn good lalala i.ll post moer later when i no why im being threatned....lol |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 08,August,2004 | dear lizzy amanda and destiny, you guyz have really helped me the past couple of days, u made my life cheery and happy:) when a certain someone named theo dumped me...i wanted to let u guyz no that u uyz are my everything the reason i wake up is to talk to you...you guyz are angels sent from god to help ppl:) that may sound gay but i dont really care...u guyz are super cool and i love you guyz w/all my heart u really make me smile when im down in the dumps literally. I fricken love u 3!! lizzy-u make me smile sooo big and you're always their for me whenever im sad. U light up my life whenever i see yur big smile.Ur my best friend for life.and i dont no what i would do w/o u their to help me and guide me through u always give me the best advice and ur basically like my sister:) we are always together if not always talking together ur my family:) I LOVE YOU! manda-ur like a sister to me all u ever have been is nice to me and your always their..i dont think i could survive w/o you loomy yur like my support system whenever i get mad or sad or w/e yur always their to guide me through. i love u w/all my heart and i always will manda u dont need alex hes just a fuckbag loser ok?? i love u hunny! Destiny-you light up my life!! yur always their and yur the sweetest girl in the world your always helping me and making me feel GOOD about myself and others lol yur soo awesome u gotta get yur ass to geneva SOON i love u always n forever!! I LOVE YOU GUYZ! |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 08,August,2004 | 2day was alright i mean besides theo im gettin over him hes happy w/tiff so im happy w/o his sry ass......my cousin is coming to pick me up right now shes takin me to see a movie:) lovely and ya soo that should be fun always is-smiles- soo ya ill post some more later |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 07,August,2004 | theo....ur a complete asshole..i cant believe u fucking did that...u told me u fucking loved me but then u fuckin FELL in love with Tiff whoever the fuck that is I LOVED you theo I TOlD u what happened and u said 'o megan ill never do that to you, i wouldnt hurt you like that' ya....nice lies their theo i cant even fucking say how much i liked u...DUDE u basically fucking cheated on me I LOVE RPING WITH TIFF *august 5* ahahahah Megan i love you hahahahaha t go to hell theo.....CURSE you dont even care e were friends? ya ok fuckbag 'i dont care if u wanna die, its your choice.' haha i hope u die...not really....i dont ..at all the fact is i love you theo...and it'll take me a long time to get over you and i dont no how u could get over someone u supposedly loved soo fast....theo...u dont no how much i cared about u you were my everything the thought of u put me to sleep at night and now i just wanna die because u meaned so much to me i dont wanna eat or sleep or hang out w/ friends i just wanna be w/ u i miss u so much i really wish we could be togther i love u so much is ther ne thing i could do to get u back? because i would do ne thing for u because u mean the world to me u obviously dont kno how much i cared for u or u oviously just dont give a fuck....u meand everything to me...dont u even miss me a lil i thouhgt u cared about me but i guess i was wrong....please cant we just work this out....i miss u so damn much please theo....if u care about me just a lil will u talk to me about it and can we just work it out....i miss u...................................................................................:'( theo......I LOVE YOU |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 05,August,2004 | theo....ur a complete asshole..i cant believe u fucking did that...u told me u fucking loved me but then u fuckin FELL in love with Tiff whoever the fuck that is I LOVED you theo I TOlD u what happened and u said 'o megan ill never do that to you, i wouldnt hurt you like that' ya....nice lies their theo i cant even fucking say how much i liked u...DUDE u basically fucking cheated on me I LOVE RPING WITH TIFF *august 5* ahahahah Megan i love you hahahahaha t go to hell theo.....CURSE you dont even care e were friends? ya ok fuckbag 'i dont care if u wanna die, its your choice.' haha i hope u die...not really....i dont ..at all the fact is i love you theo...and it'll take me a long time to get over you and i dont no how u could get over someone u supposedly loved soo fast....theo...u dont no how much i cared about u you were my everything the thought of u put me to sleep at night and now i just wanna die because u meaned so much to me i dont wanna eat or sleep or hang out w/ friends i just wanna be w/ u i miss u so much i really wish we could be togther i love u so much is ther ne thing i could do to get u back? because i would do ne thing for u because u mean the world to me u obviously dont kno how much i cared for u or u oviously just dont give a fuck....u meand everything to me...dont u even miss me a lil i thouhgt u cared about me but i guess i was wrong....please cant we just work this out....i miss u so damn much please theo....if u care about me just a lil will u talk to me about it and can we just work it out....i miss u...................................................................................:'( theo......I LOVE YOU |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 05,August,2004 | Last night i was up thinking of all my the hard times this summer soo far.. i remember a whole shit load.... >my cousin is leaving....shes like my BIG sister(shannon). >my brother and his problems. >my family falling apart.. >2 of my Best friends fighting and in the end not being friends for awhile. >my boyfriend and i breaking up but getting back together. >fighting with a GREAT friend of mine over who he was going out w/. >losing 2 friends over an other friend. >fighting w/theo everyday. >almost losing someone forever. >thinking i could be friends with ppl 4ever... >my friends wanna go away for highschool. thats all i can think of right now.... im such a loser... Guster-Either way-*Lost and Gone Forever* You were almost kind, you were almost true Don't let me see that other side of you You have learned in time that you must be cruel I'll have to wait to get the best of you Poison in everything you said Don't you, don't you? Wonder what difference does it make......Either way You were almost kind, you were almost true Why give away that other side of you Happens every time, so it must be true Step on a kid, he'll grow up hating you Poison in everything you said Don't you, don't you Wonder what difference does it make....Either way Were you ever kind, were you always cruel? Who's ever seen that other side of you? Happened every time, so it must be true? Where did you learn it's either him or you? You were almost kind, you were almost true Don't let me see that other side of you You have learned in time that you must be cruel I'll have to wait to get the best of you Poison in everything you said Don't you, don't you? Wonder what difference does it make......Either way(2x) |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 05,August,2004 | |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 05,August,2004 | today sucked completely....1st Theo broke up with me ya that sucked quite bad..but then he tok me back...we sat around but then my day stared brightning up manda and lizzy and i went to Sams Club w/our hair a mess and with pjs on like 20ppl stared at us and of course me n manda were like acting like birds in their it was great then we went to blockbuster later that night and i had writing all over my legs and i looked like a retarded kid and ya liz n amanda were like ready for bed soo then we walked to my house from their....we picked up clothes and mr crandall picked us up and we went back to lizs and had another s/o wat a surprise right? so tommarow im supposed to go downtown.blah..w/mitch n glenna n amanda n lizzy....sounds like fun! its gonna be boring:( o well then Friday im goin to a movie with theo hopefully. So yes tonight i HAVE to go home or my mom wil shoot me...and ya well i have nothing more to say but....;..im boreed lol peace. |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 03,August,2004 | If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you. When mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me. -Thank you\Led Zeppelin The day will come when you'll be mine But I'll just wait till that time If I have to wait forever, thats what I'll do Cause I cant live my life, without you Although you may not love me, although you may not care, if you should ever need me, you know I'll always be there. Your heart may not be broken, Your heart my not be free, but if you ever need someone, you can always count on me ~~Thinking of u brings a smile to my face dreaming of u makes my heart race talking to u makes me want u even more but being with you is wut i live for!~~ Never give up if u still wanna try Never wipe your tears if u still wanna cry Never settle for the answer if u still want to know Never say u don't like him if u cant let him go It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. I'd give my happiness to never see u blue I'd give up eternity to always be with u I'd give up my lyfe so that yours would be new I would give up on everything--everything but u My friends always told me That you would make me cry My friends always told me That you would always lie My friends always told me That I will find some one new But my friends never told me My heart will always want you. U have no idea who i am, what i've been threw, or whats goin on in this head of mine...so don't talk about me as u may do..u have no idea about the person i wanna be, the people i admire, or what i'm thinkin next..u think i'm happy, but i'm cryin inside..u think i'm strong, but my heart is weak..u have no idea about who i am n some times i'm not even sure..but, for once, stop analyzing the faults i have n give me a chance for me to just be me A smile can turn the greyness blue A smile can say i love you too A smile can melt a young girls heart Then how come your smile still tears me apart? I wish u could see the way I love you The way your in my dreams at night The way I smile when your around The way I sparkle when I hear your sound I wish u could see the way I love u The way your in my every thought The way I long to be yours all the time… I wish I just wish that u could be mine.. :- |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 02,August,2004 | when ever i feel like complete shit these 2 guys are always their for me....lately ive been listening to them ALOT lately...i absolutely love them..they make me feel happy their songs are brilliant...i think the reason i feel like shit is bcuz things arent going soo great at home.....with friends....etc. Well yeah right now im listenin to Bridge over Troubled Water soo i guess ill leave w/a few songs by Paul Simon and Art Garfunkel Bridge Over Troubled Water by Simon And Garfunkel When you're weary Feeling small When tears are near your eyes I will dry them off I'm on your side When times get rough And friends just can't be found Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay thee down Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay thee down When you're down and out When you're on the street When evening falls so hard I will comfort you I'll take your part When darkness comes And pain is all around Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay thee down Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay thee down Sail on Silver Girl, Sail on by Your time has come to shine All your dreams are on their way See how they shine If you need a friend I'm sailing right behind Like a bridge over troubled water I will ease your mind Like a bridge over troubled water I will ease your mind America by Simon And Garfunkel 'Let us be lovers, we'll marry our fortunes together' 'I've got some real estate here in my bag' So we bought a pack of cigarettes and Mrs. Wagner pies And we walked off to look for America 'Kathy' I said as we boarded a Greyhound in Pittsburgh 'Michigan seems like a dream to me now' It took me four days to hitchhike from Saginaw I've come to look for America Laughing on the bus Playing games with the faces She said the man in the gabardine suit was a spy I said 'Be careful, his bowtie is really a camera' 'Toss me a cigarette, I think there's one in my raincoat' 'We smoked the last one an hour ago' So I looked at the scenery, she read her magazine And the moon rose over an open field 'Kathy, I'm lost' I said, though I knew she was sleeping I'm empty and aching and I don't know why Counting the cars on the New Jersey turnpike They've all come to look for America All come to look for America All come to look for America Cecelia by Simon And Garfunkel Cecilia, You're breaking my heart You're shaking my confidence daily Oh Cecilia, I'm down on my knees I'm begging you please to come home Awww... Cecilia, you're breaking my heart You're shaking my confidence daily Oh Cecilia, I'm down on my knees I'm begging you please to come home Come on home Making love in the afternoon with Cecilia Up in my bedroom (makin' love) I got up to wash my face, When I come back to bed Someone's taken my place Cecilia, you're breaking my heart You're shaking my confidence daily Oh Cecilia, I'm down on my knees I'm begging you please to come home Come on home Jubilation She loves me again I fall on the floor and I'm laughing Jubilation She loves me again I fall on the floor and I'm laughing wo-oh-ooooh-oh, wo-oh-oh-oh-oh wo-oh-oh-oh-oh,oh-oh-oh-oh-oh... Bookends by Simon And Garfunkel Time it was and what a time it was it was A time of innocence a time of confidences. Long ago it must be I have a photograph preserve your memories they're all that's left you. El Condor Pasa by Simon And Garfunkel I’d rather be a sparrow than a snail Yes, I would If I could I surely would I’d rather be a hammer than a nail Yes, I would If i only could I surely would Away, I’d rather sail away Like a swan that’s here and gone A man gets tied up to the ground He gives the world Its saddest sound Its saddest sound I’d rather be a forest than a street Yes, I would If I could I surely would I’d rather feel the earth beneath my feet Yes, I would If I only could I surely would For Emily,Whenever I May Find Her by Simon And Garfunkel What a dream I had Dressed in Organdy Clothed in crinoline Of smoky burgundy Softer than the rain I wandered empty streets down Past the shop displays I heard cathedral bells Tripping down the alleyways As I walked on And when you ran to me Your cheeks flushed with the night We walked on frosted fields Of juniper and lamplight I held your hand And when I awoke And felt you warm and near I kissed your honey hair With my grateful tears Oh, I love you girl Oh, I love you Homeward Bound by Simon And Garfunkel I'm sitting in the railway station. Got a ticket for my destination. On a tour of one-night stands my suitcase and guitar in hand. And ev'ry stop is neatly planned for a poet and one-man band. Homeward bound, I wish I was, Homeward bound, Home where my thought's escaping Home where my music's playing, Home where my love lies waiting Silently for me. Ev'ry day's an endless stream Of cigarettes and magazines. And each town looks the same to me, the movies and the factories And ev'ry stranger's face I see reminds me that I long to be, Homeward bound, I wish I was, Homeward bound, Home where my thought's escaping, Home where my music's playing, Home where my love lies waiting Silently for me. Tonight I'll sing my songs again, I'll play the game and pretend. But all my words come back to me in shades of mediocrity Like emptiness in harmony I need someone to comfort me. Homeward bound, I wish I was, Homeward bound, Home where my thought's escaping, Home where my music's playing, Home where my love lies waiting Silently for me. Silently for me. I Am A Rock by Simon And Garfunkel A winter's day In a deep and dark December; I am alone, Gazing from my window to the streets below On (a) freshly fallen silent shroud of snow. I am a rock, I am an island. I've built walls, A fortress deep and mighty, That none may penetrate. I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain. It's laughter and it's loving I disdain. I am a rock, I am an island. Don't talk of love, But I've heard the words before; It's sleeping in my memory. I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died. If I never loved I never would have cried. I am a rock, I am an island. I have my books And my poetry to protect me; I am shielded in my armor, Hiding in my room, safe within my womb. I touch no one and no one touches me. I am a rock, I am an island. And a rock feels no pain; And an island never cries. Mrs Robinson by Simon And Garfunkel And here's to you, Mrs. Robinson, Jesus loves you more than you will know. (Wo wo wo). God bless you please, Mrs. Robinson, Heaven holds a place for those who pray (Hey hey hey, hey hey hey). We'd like to know A little bit about you For our files. We'd like to help you learn To help yourself. Look around you. All you see Are sympathetic eyes. Stroll around the grounds Until you feel at home. And here's to you, Mrs. Robinson, Jesus loves you more than you will know. Wo wo wo. God bless you please, Mrs. Robinson, Heaven holds a place for those who pray Hey hey hey, hey hey hey. Hide it in a hiding place Where no one ever goes. Put it in your pantry with your cupcakes. It's a little secret, Just the Robinsons' affair. Most of all, you've got to hide it from the kids. Coo coo ca-choo, Mrs. Robinson, Jesus loves you more than you will know Wo wo wo. God bless you, please, Mrs. Robinson, Heaven holds a place for those who pray Hey hey hey, hey hey hey. Sitting on a sofa On a Sunday afternoon, Going to the candidates' debate, Laugh about it, Shout about it, When you've got to choose, Every way you look at it you lose. Where have you gone, Joe DiMaggio? A nation turns its lonely eyes to you Woo woo woo. What's that you say, Mrs. Robinson? 'Joltin' Joe has left and gone away' Hey hey hey, hey hey hey. The Boxer by Simon And Garfunkel I am just a poor boy. Though my story's seldom told, I have squandered my resistance For a pocket full of mumbles, Such are promises All lies and jest Still, a man hears what he wants to hear And disregards the rest When I left my home And my family, I was no more than a boy In the company of strangers In the quiet of the railway station, Running scared, Laying low, Seeking out the poorer quarters Where the ragged people go, Looking for the places Only they would know Lie-la-lie... Asking only workman's wages I come looking for a job, But I get no offers. Just a come-on from the war zone On Seventh Avenue I do declare, There were times when I was so lonesome I took some comfort there. Lie-la-lie... Then I'm laying out my winter clothes And wishing I was gone, Going home Where the New York City winters Aren't bleeding me, Leading me, Going home In the clearing stands a boxer, And a fighter by his trade And he carries the reminders Of ev'ry glove that laid him down Or cut him till he cried out In his anger and shame, 'I am leaving, I am leaving.' But the fighter still remains Lie-la-lie... Scarborough Fair-Canticle by Simon And Garfunkel Are you going to Scarborough Fair... Parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme Remember me to one who lives there; She once was a true love of mine. Tell her to make me a cambric shirt (On the side of a hill in the deep forest green) Parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme (Tracing a sparrow on snow-crested ground) Without no seams nor needlework (Blankets and bedclothes the child of the mountain) Then she'll be a true love of mine (Sleeps unaware of the clarion call) Tell her to find me an acre of land (On the side of a hill, a sprinkling of leaves) Parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme (Washes the ground with silvery tears) Between the salt water and the sea strand (A soldier cleans and polishes a gun) Then she'll be a true love of mine Tell her to reap it in a sickle of leather (War bellows, blazing in scarlet battalions) Parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme (Generals order their soldiers to kill) And to gather it all in a bunch of heather (And to fight for a cause they've long ago forgotten) Then she'll be a true love of mine Are you going to Scarborough Fair? Parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme Remember me to one who lives there; She once was a true love of mine. omg soo many more GREAT songs im just tired.....ill write more later...if i wanna talk about my feelings or w/e |
3,885,979 | female | 13 | Student | Aquarius | 02,August,2004 | seems today is different then all the other days i feel alone and i dont why....i have a magnificant boyfriend who says he loves me with all his heart but i question that...and i dont know why i do either...hes soo sweet to me all the time he makes me feel important he makes me feel as if im loved by the world he lights my fire lol...hes sooo awesome but i have a feeling things arent gonna last as long as i want them to i have a feeling he'll dump me b4 school starts bcuz of our differences...i hope it lasts forever but i know deep down it wont..Im alone theirs no one here an y more |
3,345,412 | male | 16 | Student | Leo | 06,August,2004 | [Ignore Timestamp] I do believe the weekends over and what a stonned one it was too. I knew this was going to be a weekend to remember a while back. It was the weekend of my cousins marraige in norway, the one which my elders were invited to, and due to unfortumate circumstances I had to stay at home with my siblings. 'What a disapointment' I exclaimed to my mothers as she reveled the bad news to me. This was some months before and I proceded to get the arrangments in place for everything to flow on the night. I meet with friends and explained the situation, and told them it was only open to those with vocal invite. So now my usual crowd where coming and there was still room for more. I enthusasticly phoned around and invited more 'less seen' friends. By now there it was already looking towards being a party to remember. And we hadn't even discussed the gear that was going to be passed around. Of the 15 that I invited, 8 [including me] where to chip in together, 4 wanted there own through me, and the other 3 where bringing along the own shiznic. To Be Continued |
3,345,412 | male | 16 | Student | Leo | 06,August,2004 | I'm all alone in my house tonight... I'm planning to get round to doing one of the many projects I have stuck in my head. I might start work on the weed community forum Highgrounds that I've been planning to do for ages. Or I could finally sort out my music collection and tag all the songs properly, so I can put them on CD's. But more then likely I'll go watch ' urlLink Fight Club ' and once again spend a night sat doing sweet fuck all. N2S [Note 2 Self]: Compulsory revision tomorrow... Don't lie to yourself. |
3,345,412 | male | 16 | Student | Leo | 06,August,2004 | This is my first post of what will hopefully be many. I was contemplating writing a blog for about 2 weeks but I fiqured I ain't got anything to lose. I plan on writing about anything thats of interest to me and somethings that don't. This blogs really just for me to keep a record of anything interesting but its free to read by others so if your here now you might as well read on. Generally i'll be going on about websites if checked out, music i've heard, games i've played and some non-specific bullshit. There isn't much else to say on the subject... |
3,511,107 | female | 23 | Education | Aries | 31,May,2004 | I should be asleep, but I am not...instead, I am up just thinking about the past, present, and wondering what the future will hold. |
3,511,107 | female | 23 | Education | Aries | 03,June,2004 | Concerned for the Future By Sandy Escobedo January 10, 2004, 1:19am New York, NY As I sit here and read through endless articles on Latino experiences coming particularly from those who are from LA, I can’t help but wonder, how “Latino” are my kids going to be? I ask myself this because I am presently coping with the confusion one encounters when your passport reads “U.S. Citizen”, your parents are immigrants from Mexico and El Salvador, and you were born and raised in SOUTH EAST-LA, a part of LA that isn’t acknowledged enough. Becoming cognizant of our multiple identities is both a blessing and a curse. It is the complexity of our identity that makes us more interesting individuals, but it is that same complexity that makes it difficult for others to decipher who we are. And when I say others, I mean everyone, especially we as “Latinos.” Like many “enlightened” Latinos, I had the privilege of receiving a college education. I recently graduated from UCSB with a degree in Art History and two minors in French and History. Because of my major, I had the opportunity to study abroad in Bordeaux France for a year and intern at the Smithsonian Institution in Washington, D.C. It is through these experiences as well as the course work I took that I formulated ideas on who I was. I took a Chicano Studies class and found myself wondering whether I was a Chicana or not. I sometimes I felt obligated to consider myself Chicana because I knew the flaws associated with the terms “Hispanic” and “Latino.” Honestly though, I felt more comfortable, and in some way prefer the term Latino over Chicano. My reasons are entirely personal and in no way would I want to impose my preferences and biases on others. I don’t consider myself Chicana because I don’t relate to what I SEE associated with Chicanismo. I see Chicanismo, in context to LA, as associated with second or third generation Mexicans that were once from EAST LA who don’t speak Spanish and are too distant from being “Mexican.” First and foremost, the immigration experience of my parents is recent and it is different from the families of self-proclaimed Chicanos. My parents came to the U.S. in 1979; my dad from Mexico fleeing poverty, my mother from El Salvador fleeing the beginnings of the civil war. My parents never worked in a field. In fact, I had never seen farm labor until I encountered it on the 101 ventura freeway on my way to UCSB. My parents instead began their life here in the service sector and now work in unionized jobs in which my dad earns a middle-class salary by working 12 hour shifts, at times, 7 days a week. In other words, my parents are an example of meritocracy. However, I understand that my parents have lucked out; they don’t. They view that our success is attributed to all our hard work or as they would say “Bendiciones de Dios.” What they fail to see is that not every one with their background will achieve the so-called American Dream. And because of this, my father nags at me all the time because I should be proud and not ashamed of being born in this country. Thinking that I know it all, I just comfort myself by seeing him as a concerned parent. Then I think about the future, and my own kids. For me, it is a must that my children speak Spanish. It is a must that my children are advocates for social justice. And most importantly, it is a must that they recognize that their socio-economic privilege is the result of their grand-parents “illegally” crossing the border to hustle in this country in give me a chance to reach my full potential. And I fear that not happening and I fear viewing myself as a bad parent as a result of it. But at the same time, is it fair for me to burden my children with such expectations knowing that they will be inevitably distant from my paisa experience no matter how much I try to imbed them in it? |
3,511,107 | female | 23 | Education | Aries | 01,June,2004 | Life in the NYC certainly has taken its toll on me. It is obvious by the title of this 'blog' that I am an outsider to New York. I was born and raised in South East LA and all of sudden, I find myself living here in New York, the Upper East Side to be exact, for almost an entire year. The reason why I came here is to teach. I teach a bilingual Pre-K class in the South Bronx and it hast got to be the toughest job I have ever had in my life. The reasons why this job is so difficult I will sure to reveal in future blogs. In the meantime, I chose to focus on why my time here in New York City thus far has been bitter sweet. It has been bitter sweet for many reasons, some superficial, some most definitely quite the contrary. Amongst the most superficial reason I can think of is the weather. Can't it just be freakin' sunny for one day without there being a random snow or thunderstorm?! A reason which is a bit more profound is that, although I am physically here in NY, I am mentally and spiritually somewhere else, and now, I am not sure it's California that I lack. What I lack is some sense of stability; a sense of security which New York has certainly taken away from me. More so, I have become a much more cynical and vengeful person while I have been out here. I think that it has to do with the fact that every freaking day, I am confronted with the realities of the injustice that is prevalent in the world as a whole. What makes injustice particularly unique in the U.S. and in New York City is the following. How could poverty be so severe in the richest country in the world and one of the richest cities? What is worse, is the racial and gender polarization that is to be found when one juxtaposes the two side by side... I find it especially problematic living in an affluent neighborhood in which I am often mistaken for a service worker. Motherfu**ers livin' in this neighborhood have become so accustomed to seeing people that 'look like me' serving them that they automatically assume that my presence in their space is not one cohabitation, rather, servitude. I saw fu** them! Yesterday I read an article in the New York Times that basically suggested, 'If you believe in that meritocracy bu**sh**, for working 90 hours a week, you still get to be dirt poor, sexually harassed, wash clothes that you could never afford, and basically can't do sh** about it cause we'll call INS on you...WELCOME TO THE AMERICAN DREAM.' If it isn't obvious by now, I am pretty angry at the system in which we are forced to function in. Perhaps for those that are a part of the dominant class, it is not so problematic given that they benefit from the exploitation of others. But for me it is and something needs to be done. That something will be explored in another post. |
3,511,107 | female | 23 | Education | Aries | 01,June,2004 | I am in my graduate class right now and I am having a hard time trying to seem at least half interested. This is straight out bu**sh**! I can't believe that it has taken me this long to realize that instead of doodling, I could be writing! Oh writing, how I miss you so! You are my one escape that won't abandon me, rather, I would be the one to abandon you. You are my one escape that I could have at all times, without having to fear that you'll fu** up my health. You are my one addiction that I don't have to join an 'anonymous' group for! I need to get my ish together and begin hustling again. Every hustler has a game plan except me; thus, I need o start formulating mine. I need to start reading the ECONOMIST and the WALL STREET JOURNAL! I need to learn how to befriend the enemy, only to backstab him or her in the end... It feels like I have been so detached from thinking critically, that I feel as though my ability to analyze, to a certain degree, has become mediocre. I can't believe people actually participate in this class. It is such an insult to my intelligence. I feel like these fuc**ers just talk to show off and listen to themselves speak! I'm scared to go back to real graduate school. I have forgotten what it is like to actually produce though provoking papers and having endless discussions on identity politics...I need to learn how to be in a position of power and execute decisions that will create social justice... |
3,894,385 | male | 16 | indUnk | Taurus | 26,July,2004 | The start of the day wasnt so bad i woke up at 12:05 watched tv for a while then went outside to mow the grass with my mom but as u know in my family when everything is going good somthing bad is about to happen and it did. when i was working on the front yard i heard this big crash and my mom came running saying she busted her head open blood was gushing everywhere and i told her to apply pressure to the wound. i learned this in football when some asshole cleated me horribly but there' s no scar thank god. my mom didnt want me to go with her to the hospital instead she wanted me to stay here and finish the lawn. i agreed and did just that. i know how she feels and its not good. hopefully this WILL NOT happen again. i just found out my mom is going to be okay thank god. well i have to clean up all the fuckin blood in the bathroom so peace! |
3,894,385 | male | 16 | indUnk | Taurus | 25,July,2004 | Today a Sunday will probably be the most busiest day for my parents, because they have a retarded baptisms to go to which I think is absurd because they will not even be the godparent! What the hell. I cant wait till we go on vacation because IM tired of people always bichin to us about their personal problems. To be completely honest I cant take any more of this bullshit and I think my parents cant either. The other thing is when we went to go visit our long and unseen cousins I've considered them close family to me because they are good to talk to they hang out with their parents they are just like us. Thank God they are close family to us. I consider them more closer than our other cousins who are rude and disrespectful towards our parents. All I hear when my cousins with my grandma is all this negative crap which pisses me off to the max. Thank God we don't see them that much anymore because I cant take it anymore. I enjoy being around are real cousins the ones that we just visited recently. My grandma tells me that they aren't our real cousins and I know that but they consider us cousins and as do we so my grandma can just go to hell. This is probably the most emotional I've ever gotten on a computer writing but its how I feel and its a good way to let off some steam so anyways I'll write back later so peace! |
3,894,385 | male | 16 | indUnk | Taurus | 21,July,2004 | Today was quiet despite my mom ruining my tranquillity by waking me up to help her get some groceries which really pissed me off.my brother came by today to come eat Bar b que whick my mom made because my dad cant cook for shit. after that event occured my brother left and it was peaceful yet again. I jus want to get away from this boring city and go on vacation. thank god we are going to corpus next week im tired of just going to the movies day after day with the same ol group. maybe we can go party with my cousin{sara} when we go to corpus. I can barely wait to get out of here. well thats all i have to write today PEACE!!!!!! |
3,894,385 | male | 16 | indUnk | Taurus | 19,July,2004 | Today at practice I felt really good and I think I have improved far more than I expected. Batting practice was usual I only hit 2 or 3 home runs {over the fence} I cant remember. The coaches or managers of my select team said I have improved greatly and asked me if i wanted to play up in my age groups but I denied and said I have to improve and plus I wouldn't feel comfortable because I would not be playing with my original teamates. Some of the people on my team are so obsessed with dipping and doing drugs which to me is totally insane. Their just kids nothing more than ordinary teenagers AND THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT THAT SHIT. The only thing I think about doing is graduating from high school going to Baylor{because of its extrordinary law school} be a lawyer and then become a judge and live a very happy life with my wife and kids. Well thats all today, peace!!! |
3,894,385 | male | 16 | indUnk | Taurus | 18,July,2004 | Everyone of my family members are out working or at school learning new things but me im just chillin here talking to some friends on the internet. The other day my aunt went on the biggest fucking shopping spree in history!! She bought me an assload of american eagle and Abercrombie shit. I was very happy because i got the fuckin shorts Ive been wanting for a month. This summer has been preaty cool because u saw some of my favorite family members and went to sea world with some of my friends in cross country and yet again with my favorite family members so this is probably one of the most relaxing summers ive had in ages. anyways ive got shit to do so peace! |
3,894,385 | male | 16 | indUnk | Taurus | 18,July,2004 | Its been a while since ive wrote a new entry in my blog but im finally back. I have this meeting in cross country on tuesday and my coach will probably be pissed off at me because i didnt go to that fuck up of a camp. oh well screw it ill get back into shape into no time.I went to go see that movie i robot and it was preat cool. anyways im glad im getting away from this city and going on a mini vacation to corpus to go visit our family relatives. well g2g but ill write another entrt soon Peace. |
3,894,385 | male | 16 | indUnk | Taurus | 10,July,2004 | It was one of the best weekends I've ever had. My Cousins from Corpus Christy TX came to visit. I was uncomfortable talking to them at first because I was Afraid they would find me annoying and intolerable. In those situations I just keep my mouth shut and block out everything. I could tell by the look in their eyes that they thought I was Stuck up and conceited. Who would Blame them I was acting like that but I was also sad because one of my friends was Shot and killed on the Thursday before they came. If you three are reading this I'm sorry about the way I was acting and I should make it up to you all. I mostly afraid and did not socialize because I thought that my cousins would think bad of my grotesque appearance{the Vitiligo}or white spots. Iv'e always been afraid of what people think of me, and that has been my weakness in life. If only people would know what it's like having these horrid spots. My Talents not my appearance have made me friends around San Antonio. When People Make fun of my appearance I hold My anger in and walk away from that person and show resentment towards him or her for a long time. I know if my brother were reading this he'd be like what the fuck is this shit!?! He treats everything as a big joke but I'm happy for him because he got a full ride into St. Mary's university but enough about that lets get back to the subject. The last days of school my girfriend dumped me and said we should see different people{easy for her to say}. I thought she was one of a kind.she was a beautiful Blonde nice and trim. Oh SHIT!!! I went off the fucking subject again!!! Okay anyways the people who were upset by my actions of not talking and refusing to do things like go Swiming,tubing,and my favorite the hot tub{NOT BEING SARCASTIC ABOUT IT}were Johnathan and Sara. Sara seemed upset the most I could see it in her eyes once I rejected to go swimming the first time. I felt so bad but I was afraid she would tell me somthing that would hurt me mentaly. She probably thought I was acting like I was better than her but it's not like that at all. Alot of shit was going on in my life. she should be the one thinking that she's better than me. She is because she's beautiful,kind,smart,outgoing,loving, I mean who wouldn't like that. Anyways if you read this Sara I hope you will forgive me for acting like a big jerk and that was not really my personality on a daily basis. I hope in the future we can talk like cousins talk and joke around with each other. Sorry how I acted it'll never happen again I guarantee that. johanathan is one of my favorite cousins because he never lets anybody intimidate him. He has a very strong will that nobody can tap into. He's a good person to talk to when you're down. When we went to sea world I felt unknown to my cousins and to my brother. Well thats all I have to type today, so peace and if you two read this Im sorry and please forgive me . Love Ya Lots CVDABOMB{Carlos} |
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