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1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 23,April,2004 | the sky is larger than my soul. if i were to stretch myself across the bowl edge to edge paper thin would i still be, or would you just see through the spaces in between the atoms? poor old young man, died a sad old thing fighting between beauty and pain.. and the pathetic college and literary world would just not leave him in peace. why why why. he writes nice stuf, but why dissect it to death? urlLink unconscious mutterings Virginia : in the US.. u see im not a US person.. Soft : pink fluffy candy Carol : ha ha! that oh carol song by stereo nation. Vanity : fair Feminist : movement. literature. studies!! Alias : methinks! Coward : poltroon Beer : mug Chance : fate Honest : sincere |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 22,April,2004 | or the new black or the new yahoo. for all those who blog, i am sure all now have a new email id: [email protected] and we are all busy trying stuff out. so why don't we all mail each other (e.g [email protected]) and then we shall see what we shall see.. what say?! |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 17,April,2004 | two to go. i didn't know i liked poetry.. till now. more later. cheerio. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 17,April,2004 | unconscious mutterings... Boxing : ali Lewis : carl Bodyguard : sharma's ha ha ha! Burnout : at workout Cruising : i wish i were - or that song.. cruising together Easter : eggs? AA : short form, gah. there are so many we have to keep track of Research : scientific Redemption : morality and mystery plays, faustus. Snickers : yumm yumm sin! |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 13,April,2004 | Mad Anne Read - Every pirate is a little bit crazy. You, though, are more than just a little bit. Even through many pirates have a reputation for not being the brightest souls on earth, you defy the sterotypes. You've got taste and education. Arr! now that's a new one. and i haven't really been around, and i won't be around till may 5th = last day of exams. i didn't know grown ups had to give exams too.. sigh sigh sigh. why did i ever take it up. lear and cordelia doing a death dance inside my head. pinter's b'day party orchestrating my tissue into tighter and tighter intrigues of aching muscle. and then i go on confusing Lerner's my fair lady with Shaw's pygmalion. why oh why can't we just read them, enjoy them and forget them.. why this repetitive redundant study?? if you catch me posting could you please remind me i shouldn't be here?? |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 13,April,2004 | plasma fatigue in the neck and sholders area. you know that tight feeling, you can't breathe coz ur lungs are not expanding. and there's this incredible desire to drink up a river of cold water.. glands are swollen (i don't know what they are called. they're the ones right under ur jaw, behind ur chin) - phlegm. reactions of an overworked body i feel. i hate myself. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 11,April,2004 | SO, so, breake off this last lamenting kisse, Which sucks two soules, and vapors Both away, Turne thou ghost that way, and let mee turne this, And let our selves benight our happiest day, We ask'd none leave to love; nor will we owe Any, so cheape a death, as saying, Goe; Goe; and if that word have not quite kil'd thee, Ease mee with death, by bidding mee goe too. Oh, if it have, let my word worke on mee, And a just office on a murderer doe. Except it be too late, to kill me so, Being double dead, going, and bidding, goe. (read it aloud, no seriously, read it out aloud. listen to yourself read it aloud.) it's strange, but there is an unbearable longing.. pain. inexplicable pain. i don't know how to handle, and not even whence it came. tomorrow's the exam. the first of the four. if i live, i shall post again. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 10,April,2004 | i have a crush on a 17 year old. the 17 year old is coming home again today. my crush will end today. update: it ended. he never came. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 09,April,2004 | 'and i can't see where i am headed. the initial baby excitement of 'getting married' has run its course, not without its upleasantjolts. reluctant but good natured work at the blpr goes on - to no real purpose. there is no involvement in the areas thatmatter. exams are approaching, but the attitude is one of duty, shorn of passion. i see happiness around me. settled bliss at home. the blush of a romance else where. small things push me over the edge and i want/lack the beauty that love brings to life. the tragedy is that i don't see it appearing any time soon in my scheme of things/life. i am destined to find a purpose in my daily life, discover or even create a passion/dedication to some purpose before a chance for this sense of completion can come my way. and the options are: unlimited, but unwanted. the intertia of a letharge - or maybe the change will come like it has - over the last one year. creeping in without a squeak. unnoticed in small crannies until, slowly, it overtakes me completely and i become an entirely different person.' |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 09,April,2004 | taking an illegal break. i studied, and slogged. did what ppl do in a year. then i walked some on the treadmill - revised some of what i did. moved the proverbial ass.. now i'll shower. pll wish me luck. paper on monday. roll number's arrived! |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 06,April,2004 | oh well, here are the updated results. after dipping this side n that, mr.similar minds conferred the vague status of the following movie - and world leader, respectively on my personality. thank him, not me. ah and i have something to say about a blog family, but it shall have to wait. first this: urlLink What Classic Movie Are You? urlLink personality tests by similarminds.com |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 06,April,2004 | why is my sitename a 'niggling doubts' minus the last G?? because when i was registering for it, i resgistered the niggling one - and - it didn't work. and then when i tried again, it said the thing was already in use. so i settled for a variant.. only.. only to discover today that the nigglinG one is mine too! it HAD got registered.. and i now have two separate usernames on blogspot.. heh heh the dilemma is this, what do i do with the other one? i love it so, i can't ignore it. and i can't shift from here, coz, well, coz this has become me.. as an aside, it's a sad day when u feel that a blog has become you.. is that all you are? is there nothing else? i'll tell you what else i am right now. i am a mixed up melting pot of irrelevant info about english literature. all abt medieval literature, chaucer, spenser, shakes n marlowe, john donne n milton, dryden, pope n johnson.. then the romantics and later on the victorians.. blah blah blah blah blah |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 06,April,2004 | i like crisp freshly washed and lightly starched bed linen |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 05,April,2004 | urlLink A GREEN Dragon Lies Beneath! My inner dragon is the embodiment of Nature and the Earth. I'm also the Earth Elemental dragon; the defender of all living things. You've heard of forest spirits? Well, I'm as big and tough as they get. Click the image to try the Inner Dragon Online Quiz for yourself. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 05,April,2004 | i surprised myself with the following comment to a friend (who wouldn't have misunderstood me, however weird i sounded): 'yesterday i finally got to speak with a guy.' taking stock of current situation, i am amazed i am still alive. the only interaction i have with people (apart from my wonderful virtually real ppl online) is with my parents, some workers at the workshop - which is as good as no interaction, coz it doesn't really count - and my instructor-friend at the gym. that's about it. and do you know what the most surprising part of the deal is? there is no guy interaction. i am amazed i live still. sigh! some folks from up north drove down - and stopped here on the way to pakistan. as an aside, it's the indian crossover madness, initiated by the indo-pak matches. anyone who had any link with pakistan, anyone whose family had left pakistan for india during the Partition (1947) - got visas - apparently for the cricket matches. and now the whole country's out to visit The Neighbours, who, it seems, are suddenly exceedingly hospitable and warm and loving. i know i sound cynical, even though i don't mean to.. but mebbe it's the sour-grapes syndrome coz we aren't going (my dad's mom's family's from lahore. so i have my roots there too). so this bunch of far off relations-family stopped by for a quick tea before the last lap to the wagah border. the point that im driving at is that they had a son. the point that i am trying to make is that the son is six years younger than me. the slight swagger, the newly coaxed stubble, the sideways glances in passing mirrors - new found confidence. the almost shy, but not really shy, way of talking; courteously opening and shutting the door for me - aww!.. it would all have been endearing - like watching him grow - and i would have been an auntie. whereas, i found it sexy. i was attracted by a kid. maybe i should do something about this lack of men in my life. seriously. *quietly begins to hit her head on the wall* |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 05,April,2004 | ENTP - 'Inventor'. Enthusiastic interest in everything and always sensitive to possibilities. Non-conformist and innovative. 3.2% of the total population. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 04,April,2004 | happy monday oxymoron |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 04,April,2004 | how do you write about feelings you weren't supposed to feel? this is a friends changing life. how do you feel her pain, her apprehension at the coming change? how can you see through her bravado? how can you peep into her soul? how can you put yourself in her shoes, like you've known her all your life - when you've only known her a couple of months. she's getting married. a close family friend. i feel like an invisible person around her, she showers me with love, affection.. the whole thing revolves around one undeniable fact: that she lost her mother. it's been a year now. and, she, finds solace in my mother's presence. which automatically puts me where she loves me too. and.. she does. and. she is so open and frank. transparent is the word. you can see the gap their mother's passing away has left in her house.. and that hurts. more than anything else, i am scared it'll happen to me. there, i said it. and i can't face it. you can't pin point the moment where a friendship tranforms into a bond.. a relationship. like a rishtedaari - family thing. i know, i've been away. there've been lots of things. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 31,May,2004 | i reached pondicherry at 4 pm. i was entering the city by car, from the other not-so-familiar end. and so i almost missed out on the unbearable excitement of the familiar East-Coast Road that runs along the sea, and gives occasional peeks of the bay of bengal. there were some familiar landmarks, and then the hospital where i almost died (ooh melodrama) and then the intense ex boyfriend of two of my friends - both of whom are now married to someone else.. and then famliar roads, streets, the shopping street - Jawahar Lal Nehru Road.. and, there it was. my pondicherry! the all too familiar red roofed pretty but empty house. our student's mess - the corner house. and there, 1 rue compagnie! all i had to do was walk up, and call @. oh and the sea. and then my favourite street down to my home.. oh and then home. the watchman was delighted to see me. he almost fell off his stool. and in his funny hindi he started 'arre papa! aa gaye! amma papa kaise hain? anna kaise hain? unko kehna poocha hai..' (arre girl! - BAD TRANSLATION) you've come! mama papa, how are they? how's your brother? do tell them i asked about them..) and then i put the key in the door of my flat, and opened the house of which i had dreamt so much! heaven! it was full of dust, messy, the fridge had fungus coz it hadn't been cleaned before the last person had left. there was stuff lying all around the flat. the cupboards were smelling. one window was broken. the grill on the door needed to be changed. but i was home. home like a private little heaven that only i could access. sometimes i feel that even if someone else does have the key, does use the flat to sleep, live, bathe, eat, only i can liiiive there. and the 'flat' the home that i know, no one else knows.. easy subjective ways to make myself happy. but there it is. i was home. i had physically reached that specially guarded memory of late afternoon sunlight, white walls, and space space space. fresh floating flowers, incense, cool floors, happy solitude. i was home! then of course, there were dead cockroaches lying all around the place :( sharp thud brings us back to reality. it seemed like some entire colony of roaches had chosen Faith II as their sacred dying spot. or maybe my brother will be happy to hear about the results of the pesticide spray we used the last time we shut the place. i had to clean everything up, so i called the maid, cleaned the loos - while she did the rest, i had a quick shower and rushed out. out to the city of the open sky. city of the favourite street (i must ask someone to click a snap and send it to me!) and there it was. the ashram. peace. flowers at the samadhi. the cool feeling of marble under the palms as i did pranam. the feeling of pebbly ground under my bare feet. lifting the edges of my salwar coz i had tied it too low for walking barefoot, i walked back to my slippers. and walked into a crowd of zillion teachers, group captains, classmates parents and, well, ashramites! warm loving and almost snoopy.. i'll dedicate a separate post to that species.. walked over to @'s. had a nice long chat about god alone knows what. it was lovely seeing him again. easy banter. nice music. comfortable spaces. great! the day ended with loads of shopping at grinde's - the old favourite place for all general merchandise. i bought us some sorely needed footmats. detergent, soap, shampoo and the likes. and also the lovely palmolive green powder that i was missing! walked home on the lovely street. read some. slept! the next day was yet another lovely day! (more so coz i did lots more shopping, but more about that some other day!) |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 30,May,2004 | still checking to see if this works. when i load my main page, none of these posts show :( unhappy again :( |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 29,May,2004 | i was planning to write loads and loads about pondicherry and subsequent surprising events, but i decided, instead, to fool around with the new blogger templates n stuff.. and lo and behold. i am no more a master of my blog. no matter what changes i make, it's stuck with that one 'dotty' template. my new posts don't show.. i am UNHAPPY :( |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 29,May,2004 | post 2 |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 25,May,2004 | test one |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 25,May,2004 | all good things come to an end. it's a good thing that all bad things too follow suit. im back, home. almost. right now i'm at the new delhi station, preparing to while away precious 3 hours of my life waiting for brother dear to appear in another train that will come, as i said, in another three hours. mine was almost an hour late, which, for once was a good thing coz that brought the four hours of waiting down to the aforementioned three hours .. round and round eh? so i'm here, in delhi. like a no man's land. almost before i get home - that is 8 hours (+ the three aforementioned = 11 hours frm now) that sounds like a long time. so im here. it's taking me a long while to believe it or to get used to it, as you can see. i can't believe that the trip is already over. it is harder still to come to terms with the fact that it began, and has ended.. shortlived delights! but i suppose that adds to the pleasure of waiting for it. there is so little of it that i can barely begin to ever tire of it! (ah optimist!) the streets in pondi were exactly the way i had left them. nothing had changed. n o t h i n g. which was a relief. for 12 short days, i extracted the memory of pondi from my brain (or wherever it is stored) and lived it all over again. there were no changes. it was full of its lovely yellow walls and blue skies... not to forget the shiny greenery all around. blessed was i coz in the middle of May pondi experienced some freak rain showers. everyone in asr had been saying that i'd get roasted in pondi - but having spent half my life there, i thought the conditions would be bearable. they were more than that, they were wonderful! alternatingly rainy and sun bright. lovely breeze at all times of the day. i frequented all my favourite places. had loads of coffee. and walked up an down my favourite street like i had nowhere to go! i also made 1, rue compagnie, my second home - or haunt - as discussed with relevant ppl. more about that later, in relevant posts. and then i packed up my memories in off white crinkly butter paper. right now im carrying them with me. when i get home, they will go back to where they came from, under the paper under the piles of unworn clothes in the cupboard i don't really use. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 17,May,2004 | but the pleasure of being in pondi is almost killing me! it is all about the sun and sea and the sky. and the 'unbearable lightness of being' (will write about it when i get thru with it) and running in thin rain, rides on bikes, leisurely cycling down familiar roads.. people i have known since forever... whoever sees me, meets me with love and affection. it's touching to see everyone stop and talk for ten minutes on the road. of course it could also mean that i'm extremely sociable. i tried keeping a journal as urlLink jamie suggested. haven't really gotten anywhere with it. the only thing it drives home is the looming date of departure :(( |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 24,June,2004 | has anyone ever felt a sudden rush of mad enthusiasm? mad enthusiasm for totally unrelated projects? i am sure we all have, at times, been completely taken up by what seem at the moment, mind blowing projects. voila. me, a mad girl. even as i type, idea after burning idea sears my brains, and i want to get everything done immediately. what amazes me beyond belief is that in the normal world, a normal person has to face uneneding opposition in the scheme of things. but ideas i had discussed with my mother more than a year ago, are coming back and, surprisingly, coming alive. all of a sudden, i can see myself taking the challeges up. i wanted to start a yoga class session. because i felt capable of helping people out with their trouble.. i am not professionally qualified in the field, but i have definitely had lots of hands on experience. and, some say, an exceptionally good had at massage.. for the muscles.. and spots. anyway. the point being: our physical education has given us a deep understanding of the body and how it works, especially where the muscles are concerned. i don't claim to know much, but instincts do help out. and i do hope to learn. mom and dad are not even in town. but the moment i said i could start yoga classes, and that i already had ppl who were eager to know more.. dad said: take that room, get this fellow to install a new AC and start. then, the thought of some paintings i wanted to do, tiny sketches, cartoons, illustrations.. simple stuff to decorate the walls.. came back. and - co-incidentally, i was surfing the net and came upon this treasure of lovely caricatures and girlie cartoons, which.. goodnes, i don't even know what i am saying. but this i do know: i have already dug out my paper, and my paints, and my ruler and my blade.. and the room is set for an all night session. if it is not successful, at least it will blunt this numbing enthusiasm. i always wanted to start a cafe - a kind of a corner, with books, coffee, paintings - somewhere. a niche. a nook that people would be comfortable in.. music. discussion. have reading evenings. reading for children.. i am getting flooded with these ideas, and i am soon going to lose my head. but of course, tonight is just a night. we shall see how long the enthusiasm lasts.. what comes of it. even if an iota of this sees light, i will consider myself a little better than the current loser image i have of myself. and... the work i'm handling for ma, that's going normal. moving along. and there are loads of offers. i am going to die! |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 22,June,2004 | so i finally remembered that i had a guestmap a long time ago... i've put it up again. everyone, please sign!!! |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 22,June,2004 | blink.. blink.. blink the cursor does that. not me. blinkblink.. i don't know what to say or do. a sudden sense of inadequacy has overcome me. there was this piece i began.. embroidery- the colours never matched. and now halfway through, and with a lot of time = money already wasted on it, it looks AWFUL. honest to god awful. and so anyway. it looks like im going to have to shelve that piece till mom returns. i've begun something else instead.. green green green.. :-? im feeling low, inadequate .. and the funniest part is that it's a pendulum. all day i was high on a wave of enthu - (one forgets that the wave has to crash when it reaches the shore) - planned some new outfits. mostly for myself - or other young girls. i am so totally not cut out for this work :( anyway. another thing to make me feel lovely, and awful at the same time.. i watched a hindi flick. mushy sweet lovely endearing, and some called it pathetic.. quite contradictory.. but whatever. starring saif, sigh..f. i could go on and on about the movie being 'inspired' or the movie line having been completely lifted from When Harry Met Sally.. but that's the hindi touch! but let me return to my cup of joy - saif. he has a pathetic voice, lovely comic timing, and a something that tugs at the heart strings. this is not mushy fan drool, this is.. sigh! urlLink listen to his voice ok, so at least i have a crush. and i have a more real crush on U.singh.. what's going to become of me.. im losing my marbles. my balance. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 20,June,2004 | dear bloggie. i am writing to tell you how i have been. i know you aren't really interested. you might be more interested in a bag of popcorn and a movie starring al pacino and brad pitt. but for now, you'll have to put up with me. coz ur mine. and i made you (of course the credit goes to blogger n the various amazing ppl behind the scenes too, or rather, mainly). not only 'put up' love me. no choice. dear bloggie. like i already said, i'm writing to you to tell you how i've been. how i've suddenly felt vulnerable. suddenly in love. with a someone i don't even know. search your memory and you might come up with USingh. tch. bloody custard. how can you fall in love with an image you never met? how can you believe you want to Spend Your Entire Life with this person who seems too perfect to be true. too perfect to ever be yours. too perfect to even notice you're there. ah, but he called up to talk - to your father. not you :( dear bloggie. i got my hair cut again today. therapy for a lonely heart. then as i had the bigger car, with the newly installed music thingie, i took it for a round. a nice long round on one of the loveliest roads in my village. it runs along a stinky sewage canal. you can learn to forget it's there coz ur windows are shut. but it's this winding round smooth empty road, that leads to nowhere. nowhere is the next country. on the way to nowhere there is nothing. and the weather was lovely. a nowhere-kind. neither rain, nor sun. wind and dust that settled with a few pseudo raindrops. it was like floating in a bubble. familiar music numbing my senses. a blur outside the window.. a feeling of being nowhere. the place wasn't familiar enough to intrude on my privacy, it wasn't new enough to make me curious. deadening of the senses. or was it a tingling of the sensations.. reaching some kind of a daze, a intoxicating levelling of the consciousness - dear bloggie. on a small-girl tone, i feel bad. my friends know i am alone. but no one calls, no one mails. i do all the calling and mailing, and reaching out like a loner. like a needy fool. :( |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 19,June,2004 | urlLink an awful photograph of an extremely sexy suit. (we call it a suit, you can call it what you like.) |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 10,June,2004 | and i had thought that when i would be home alone, i will be able to write oodles and oodles and oodles of stuff in the blog. that i will be able to give my much neglected writing challenges in DII some attention. that i will have lots of leisure time and that i would do some creative and sensible work in the 'leisure time'. turns out, i don't have leisure time. and when i am free, all i want to do is crash, or get some cheap entertainment. now who's tried the 'french pop-tarts' IMVironment in Yahoo messenger? it's an AWESOME timepass. awesome is not the word. it's an understatement. it's mind bogglingly dumb and time consuming. and it makes u a complete addict, all u want to do all day is serve truck drivers some toast.. funny eh? the other day i ran through something on gurg's blog.. it was a discussion about the god's will and general will. in my life, in my sphere of consciousness, the terms are All Will and Free Will. allwill is god's will. the Will that decides what directino your life will take. what your possible weakness can be.. and whether it'll rain today. and free will is: i was walking by my garden. i watched a feather float along with the wind.. down down down. i looked at it falling. i didn't bend to pick it up. it reached the ground. this is free will. the will not to move the feather. the all will also leaves lots of choice for us humans. it might give us the hypotheses of the problem, but it leaves us full room to develop our own solution. and while the solution can only be one - The One Solution - which, depending on our upbringing or religion differs vastly - the route is our choice. and so. the all will decides the destination/destiny. but it loves to watch us work towards it. it revels in watching us make the right moves. and nudges us when we slacken. this is the Divine Grace. and we are Her/His/Its toys. Maya. according to some hindu lore, God (Purusha) was getting bored with his creation. his beautiful worlds, and creatures. and then he called Maya (Illusion) to entertain Him. Maya spun a web around the world which causes us to lose our way, on the way to our destination. watching us blunder along - and attaining our destiny gives Him delight. hes Leela, we are his Game. Le Jeu Divin. ------------------ Mirror magic mom and dad left for the US a couple of days back. today was technically day Three of being on my own. i got some payment (minor) and a nice couple of customers - mother and daughter - who bought the SAME suit. heh heh! It was the one i'd just got printed. the black white grey and red one. awfully smart i must say. and they do have an awfully good taste! will be putting up a pic of that suit soon :D work's not really going on that fine. the handling everything is not all that easy. especially when there's really not much work. creating work for the tailors is not really fun. more than the tailors, it's the hand embroiderers who need work. and i don't really see a conjurerer in the mirror. there are some fun outfits i can't wait to have made. and some that are really not turning out good. im apprehensive about the one I's started now. on purple. but the one with the tibetan roses is coming out pretty cool. i've also made the new pattern and shall be implementing it in the next piece we make in the same style. so, conjurer. more till we meet next. did you know u'r quite a loser. you haven't even thought about the DII challenges. quite horrible. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 10,June,2004 | there's nothing better than writing a mail, and having blogger publish it without going through all the bother of loggin in at the blogger site, opening the account and all that. i know everyone already knows this, but i just realised the huge comforts of the arrangement :) |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 07,June,2004 | urlLink practising lathi in my garden. hair all over my face. lovely green grass |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 05,June,2004 | am too lazy to post. frantic preparation is going on at home. bro's home. he has to shift to the Western metro of india, after having covered the other three zones. work. parents are preparing a trip to the US.. where most of my readers are. most? the few that i have ;) all of u folks! they'll be going to new mexico, and umm.. new york. and umm.. houston.. and im bad at geography. so, i was saying, frantic prep's. packing, for the exhib there. and so, im busy getting involved with the workshop. have to handle mom's work while she's going to be gone. (for a whole month n a half :( ) going to live alone. never stepping out of home. among so many other ppl, but still alone without family :( im tired. i'll write more some time before the end of the week. these few words are simply to remind me that i must write. that i have a lot of that log to re-experience. that i have those dreaminginink challenges to meet. that i must must write. that i must have something in my head that makes me want to write. tho, to tell the truth, i have been creatively involved of late. with drawing. patterns. but not writing. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 01,June,2004 | found this over at keri's place - blog. it's strange how we often get the same results. eerie. tho of course, if we don't, my memory redeems the error quite conveniently! WORSHIP! You're inner Bombshell is the beautiful Audrey Hepburn. Like her you've been blessed with a 'certain something' that no one could describe accurately. You are more reserved than other bombshells, and that shows in your gentle, graceful nature. You like doing things for other people and love volunteering for your favorite charity. Yours is a rare gift in this day and age. You don't need to show a lot of skin to be sexy, all you need is your eyes. To see Audrey at the top of her game watch the movie 'Breakfast at Tiffanys'. urlLink Who is your inner bombshell? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 27,July,2004 | i'd begun a post more than a couple of months back. it was all about how i now think of my blog as another world, and my blog friends as another family! i don't claim to be a budding author (though i did try my hand at the nano, and failed miserably). this blog is not even one of those linkoramas with links to all the links to all the wonderful and intriguing news around the world, categorised according to interests. nor do we have regularly updated columns on the world politics. bloggie's a mix between a writing therapy - a message board - and a platform for introspection and meandering thoughts. it consists of some of my scariest, most reluctantly admitted thoughts, some of the most treasured fantasies. it's one of those normal people whom you don't notice in a crowd. and it's a year old! i change when i write here. it's funny what a pseudonym can do! over time, the pseudonym becomes someone, and develops an organic world, be it virtual, but organic! happy birthday again, methinks and bloggie. it's just a year, and i wish me many more years to go. god give me the perseverance to continue updating it with details of minor importance, and my friends the patience to keep returning! |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 24,July,2004 | happy birthday! (b'day post in a couple of hours!) |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 24,July,2004 | i am scared that i don't have the vision of a stronger imagination. or rather, scared because i don't have it. i can't see the end product when i begin working on it, and the final result is always a surprise. i am scared that i have been doing things wrong. i am scared that my laziness has had an adverse effect on the work. the craftsmen can see i don't have any more work to give them. the lack of enthusiasm - or of a professional facade is probably contagious. and i am scared of that. i am afraid i have done so many things wrong. it's only a short period and so i agree to take care of the unit. but otherwise, it's not my thing. i'd be happier working on my own. no one to be responsible for, and no one to answer to. no one to give orders to. just myself in the equation. and that is almost more than i can handle. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 20,July,2004 | a major contribution to the slowly rising sitemeter is the traffic searching for a photo of ' mehandi '. some also came looking for railyway - spelt wrong. and a sexy suit (recently posted) - and, funily, there've been quite a few people looking for letharges and ignoramii that apart, everyone meet dee (#2- dionysus). and please give this fellow a job. please. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 18,July,2004 | we're celebrating a birthday on 27th july. anyone with any lovely ideas for a special occasion? and it goes without saying that everybody's invited for bloggie's b'day! yay! |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 16,July,2004 | if this was a letter pad or 'scrippling pad' (as my sketch pad of cheap paper was called by the local stationer) this would be the last sheet. and hopefully, i'll be able to post it. no matter what. i've been trying to write for the past one hour. all i've come up with is mundane musings about the weather and how it changes in this village of mine, how we like the music we like, how we (read i) are fickle enough to change our minds at every given opportunity. so today, i am finally going to a friend's place, where we will both indulge in the most primitive and the most refined form of timepass. painting. the way we paint, it is timepass. and TP in our college lingo is really the lowest level of interest and productivity that any activity can attain. i promise to put up the results of the day. maybe we'll even put up pictures of us painting, hm that's a thought. and i bet that'll be more interesting that the stuff we ome up with! my parents will be back in, guess guess... 10 days! the countdown begins. and like a little girl, im going to cross off each day as it ends. of course, everyone dreams of the day he-she will get to live alone at home, with the run of the things and everything in his.her own hands. but trust me, i detest any sort of responsibility. and truth to tell, now that the 'little girl' has finally stepped up and sort of taken care of the work.. with the return of the mama, the little girl will have to work harder. figure that out, but it's like that only . (a la indian accent). which brings me to a funny topic. my indian accent. of course i'm indian. and i talk basically english n hindi (apart from the others i claim to). and my english is so full of indianised words and hinglish , and so punjabi in its accent. ha ha! who's ever heard someone say buhd-MIN-ton, uh-SEPT (that's accept) and other stuff. i have. who's ever seen the wind? i have. heh heh. that was stupid. well i'll end the miscellanous dumbass things here. happy sunday to everyone. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 16,July,2004 | CHB = could have been. i don't want to land up at the end of my life with nothing better in hand than a bunch of chb's :( but that's probably just how it's going to be. and you know the worst part? the chb's are all in my head. could have been a good fling. could have been a good marriage. could have been a lovely painting. could have been a wonderful business. could have been a happy life. (ok the last isn't so true. my life is already wonderful. i was just - umm - getting into the moment!) |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 15,July,2004 | i will be posting some notes in passing at http://agonyhaunt.blogspot.com if anyone's interested, that is. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 12,July,2004 | and tonight i shall dream of a younger al pacino ;) heh heh. i spent the whole day with my ass moulded in the bean bag. most of the time my eyes were glued to the tv screen. watched the godfather (yes yes, i confess, for the first time) - and began watching part II too. and that's why i'll probably dream of al pacino tonight. it's not about being good looking. it's not about being a star. it's about the measured confidence. the restraint. it's about smooth and solid teakwood. polished granite. slicked back hair, impeccable silk suits (he wears raw silk at times, and man, can he carry that stuff! ) the man i marry, i dream, should be one who can carry stuff like that. suits - jackets - stripes, bright colours, everything. everytime i step into a store, there's so much interesting stuff now in the men's stores. and my bro n dad hardly ever like to look at it. my man... sigh sigh sigh!! -- the next day -- sometimes, our electricity department feels we need to be reminded that we live in india. backward and bloody unreliable. every five words i wrote, the electricity flickered. and then it finally went out for the xillionth time. the good thing about it was the reason behind the electricity problems: rain. and... hail!it was lovely summer rain. what i live for. it fell like a sheet. there was no dodging the raindrops yesterday. believe me, i tried. and in the gap between two raindrops there were 10 more. raindrops. raindroppone's more like it. (english is a poor language. i said it afore, n i say it agin). so .. and hail. i inch in diameter. cold ice hail that fell on my head and face and hands. (ha ha and hell to the neighbours who peeped into our garden to find a 'grown 23 yrs old woman' jumping in glee and shrieking with pleasure!!) |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 11,July,2004 | urlLink latest suit! my first ever order for formal wear - on my own. hmm. |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 09,July,2004 | yes, that's how far the enthusiasm kicked me. if i were to post an update on the myriad projects i intended to work on, i'd have to doob maro in chullou bhar paani (that is, drown n die in a gulpful of water - literal translation) because i haven't gotten anywhere. all i did manage was to convince g'dad to buy himself a new AC and donate his old one to my proposed yoga room. the thing with the yoga classes is that i realised how little i know. what i do know about my own body and muscles, and how to relax, i don't know how to convey that in an authoritarian enough manner to sound authentic. i am going round and round. i do see how other people around me are not conscious about their bodies, posture, breathing etc. it's not like i'm perfect, but at least i am aware of it. and i want to be able to share it with them. i don't know if it's wrong, or a vice - i don't know if the others feel offended by it, but if someone spells it wrong, i have to correct it. if someone pronounces it wrong, i have to point it out. if someone breathes wrong, i have to tell them how.. it's a compulsive nature. someone has to tell me if it's normal. it's the same thing with some other people, they go over and straighten a painting on the wall, or adjust the flower arrangement, turn the angle of something to the sunlight.. so that's the secret of my insecurities about whether i'll ever be able to handle a yoga class. at the root lies an experience: my friend - who runs a gym - saif (saif!! how that word cheers me up! ::mad mad mad::) said i could take her saturday yoga/stretching class. and it didn't really go very well. as in, i was just about doing the normal stretches, none of the 'asana' things. none of the yoga thing. i think it's all in the presentation.. ::ponders:: at the root of the non-painting stint which has been lasting forever.. laziness. i finally have found a pencil sketch i want to do. copying a temple picture from a postcard. sigh yes, originality of idea: rock bottom. but, talking about it reminds me that i CAN do it. it's not all that tough. at least i won't have to deal with colours. -- which brings me to a primal fear: i think i am colour blind. so there. today is a day for confessions! i spoke to the TeaBagLady today. she mentioned my cousin who's shifted into their apartment / PG.. and did we bitch. again, did we bitch! i spent at least 10 minutes talking about how dumb, how slow, how unlikeable, how lazy, how closed and how limited someone could be. and how.on.earth.someone:namely cousins' mom:compare.her.to.me - WORLDS APART is how TBL said it. 'you're the north pole, and she's the south pole, no beyond.' is how she put it. and there, gentlemen and even gentler ladies (as said the boringly enthusiastic loud man at the rotary club), there the case rests. so goodnight blog dear. and good night whatever loyal readers i still have! i still hope i have.. (i've been pretty dead on the blogging scene of late. someday, i promise myself, someday, i'll write a daily thing like urlLink he does. some day!) |
1,722,161 | female | 23 | Fashion | Libra | 07,August,2004 | my maternity leave (as sunil put it) has lasted longer than i meant it to. it's a little over a week since i put in a post.. and i'm feeling lousy about it. meanwhile so much has been happening. im afraid i haven't got the time to catch up on it all.. first things first: THEY'RE BACK! yeah yeah! my parents are back. and have been with me now for over a week. how awesome is that!! it was lovely. their train got here dot on time. (2 mins before schedule, rather) and i was there dot on time to recieve them. them with their lots of suitcases. no changes in them all. the same mama papa that i'd said tata to long long back. i was so happy, delighted, relieved, glad, and every other nice thing in the world. now mom's back to her work. she spoils me. i don't have to spend that much time in the office. i spend all my mornings walking to the golden temple, gymming and wasting time. i also spend some time with her.. in the workshop. that apart, she lovvvvvvved the work i'd done :D awesme feeling. and my manager gave a nice report of me to her. that i worked hard. spent a lottof time in the workshop everyday. took care. and that -- sigh. awesome awesome! other - maybe - interesting news is that mr.consultant has become regular at calling up. for therecord: mr.C has entered the picture as the friend of a friend. started talking to him coz he was planning a trip to pondi. and then .. chatting continued. the other day i was talking to my friend, and realised it'd been over a year since i'd been talking to mr.C . and the story goes thus (facts first) that he chats with me only when he is bored. during his exchange prog, he was lonely. so he chatted. now in ahd, he gets lonely in the evening so he calls up. sadly enough i don't seem to be able to talk to him .i feel dumb and inarticulate. don't know what to say. somehow the conversation seems pretty one sided. and this is quite a mutual feeling. he, infact, brought up this point in a recent record length conversation. and i had to explanation. the accuation went thus: and u have now gathered enough trivia about me to fill an entire volume. and i know nothing about you. so tell me dear friends, what can i talk about to him. he's travelled half the world (in the last year alone). he is interested in 'fun'. god knows how i can relate to that. he thinks im limited in my expression - or whatever.. and i know i'm limited in my exposure and experiences. if i start talking about the pet dog i might soon get, he starts tlaking about all the dogs he sawin germany, and all the dogs he wished had since the age of 5. well, that's something not everyone would know about him. but he's pretty yappy. so im sure that getting him to share stuff about himself is not all that great an accomplishment. problem = don't know what to talk about to him. when i last started discussing relationship issues about expectations and misunderstandings, he couldn't relate. i can't talk about my work. the only things i do talk about are very personal issues, regarding me, my family or my friends. how can i even begin to share the whole perspective with someone else? not only would it be unfair on my behalf, it would be practically impossible to give him the context of my sob stories. in a very very very weird and pathetic way, for just one tiny TINY fraction of a fraction, i wished i could find someone like pk. at least there was no trouble relating to him at all. a HUG OF CONGRATULATIONS and many happy feelings: miss.TeaBagLady has now got through her college of choice. the College of Arts. a biiiiig hug goes out to her. even though i know she doesn't read this. the feeling's out there in the cosmos with her name on it. may she get it when she needs it most! i'm going on a 'pilgrimage' this weekend. walking up a hill to a temple and all that. for all i know it might be raining. and there have been reports about mudslides. so people, pray for me. and when i return, please keep some advice handy. and do do remember that i've never even met mr.C. |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 28,June,2004 | Hey guys, sorry I havent posted in a while, it's not like I've been busy or anything :( (hint hint) everyone's gone or leaving or doing something, and its sad:'(, yes, im crying. Yeah, so I saw Fahrenheit 9/11, it was hardcore yo, no but seriously I really liked it, I think Bush should see it and it's fucked up how its only playing in like 2 theaters in MD. K, well nothing else to say, im out. |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 21,June,2004 | urlLink haha, im just trying this whole picture thing out, but hes a hottie ey? urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 19,June,2004 | So last night me, Natalie, Elissa, and Helen went to go see The Terminal. It was so cute! I felt so sorry for Tom Hanks but it was all ok in the end:). And our softball team lost the ternament, but thats ok because that means that I dont have to go on Sunday. Well also I went to the mall(in DC) with Maria and Eve on Thursday and it was cool(if you're interested in hearing more about it see Eves blog). And before that I really havent been doing much at all. Ok, if anything else happens i'll update you, not that you care, I mean, you're probably just bored if you're reading this anyway. |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 16,June,2004 | SCHOOLS FUCKING OUT!!! Haha, score. It's especially funny because I haven't done shit the first two days of break. Yeah. So if you wanna do something, I'm avalible, again, that number is 301 434 6359, haha, i sound like a commercial. In other news, the cruise sucked. It was a nice yacht and all, but they only let us fucking dance for like, 20 minutes! I guess after they saw people 'dancing nasty' they decieded to change it to fucking oldies, or at least that's my theory. Yeah. Well it's going to be sad not seeing the people that are leaving anymore, at least at school, (natalie, maria, sarah o., buckley?...) uh... and everyone else. I hope all you guys have a great summer, and have a wonderful time and your new schools. I also hope I'll see all you Blairians some more at Blair, because that's our new mother fuckin' school! Yeah BITCH! Wow, well I'll post some more over the summer, and I hope I'll see you guys later!:):):):):) HAVE A GREAT FUCKIN SUMMER!! |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 16,June,2004 | Hey! It's my blog, because xangas just plain suck. The only reason I had one was so people could post comments, but now that blogger has comments, I'm switchin' to blogger. |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 17,July,2004 | I just found out tonight that my cat isnt going to live but only a few days more. This may seem stupid to some of you, especially you without pets, but I love her so much and since my mom told me we are going to have to put her to sleep I've been crying for the last few hours. Shes been my cat since the day I was born. Shes a year older then me and shes had a long full life, but its been hard to bear these past few weeks. She's skinny and can barley keep her balance, she wont eat, and her eyes are all out of focus. I love her so much but I can't even find her, I dont want her to die before I can even say goodbye to her, I dont know if writing this is making it better or worse, but it all seems so quick and I dont want her to go. I'm sorry if you think I'm ranting and raving, in that case you dont need to be reading this... but I really love her and really am going to miss her a lot. I'll be back later on, bye. |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 10,July,2004 | urlLink My baby doggy urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink PUPPY DOG!!!! urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink my fake fishies urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink TV... urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink My snakey! urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink aww he's lying down urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink some spikey thing urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink hey, thats my water on that table! urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink the pictures in my basement urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink my arm! urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink this is what you would see if you were me and you looked down... urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink my tummy! urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink my sprite! urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink closeup of my foot urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink my socked foot! urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink I know, again with the monitor urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink My buddy list! See if you were online while i was bored out of my skull urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink Hah, im so odd urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink My errie eye... urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink the cable modem box thingy urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink My hand! urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink keyboard urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink Im touching the computer screen... urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink My puppy lying down in the kitchen urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | urlLink My puppy in the kitchen! urlLink |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 02,July,2004 | I know, another quiz, sorry guys. Screen Name:HaveMonsterFun Meaning: a saying that i made up at the beach last year Siblings: 2 Pets: dog(ozzy) cat(millie) Height: 5'1' Hair Color: brown with redish purplish underneath Eye Color: blue Writing Hand: right BODY ILLS AND SKILLS Do you bite your nails? never Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? heehee, yea Can you blow smoke rings? never tried Can you blow spit bubbles? ew, yea Can you flare your nostrils? haha yeah Can you cross your eyes? yup Tattoos? none... yet Piercing? ears that have closed up Do you make your bed daily? fuck no CLOTHES Which shoe goes on first? i dont know! What jewelry do you wear 24/7? none Favorite Piece of Clothing: i have some cool shirts Pyjamas: um, boxers? FOOD Have you ever eaten Spam? ewww, no Favorite Ice Cream? cookie dough, mmmmm GROOMING How often do you brush your teeth? twice a day How often do you shower/bathe? try to everyday How long does your shower last? up to an hour Hair drying method? air or hairdryer, i ussually just air dry Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? ooooh so many times If that fountain of youth existed, would you drink it? no, i want to die at some point WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE Animal: horsies Food: taquitos? Month: april Day: saturday! though its all the same in the summer Cartoon: fairly odd parents! or anything late at night on disney Flower: pretty ones Shoe Brand: dont really care Subject in school: tv studio Color: dont have just one TV show: best week ever, or anything else funny on VH1 Movie: really liked fahrenheit 9/11 Holiday: christmas Vacationing Spot: anywhere with a nice beach TV Station: Vh1! IN AND AROUND Ever taken a cab: once Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? haha yeah What color is your bedroom? periwinkle! Do you use an alarm clock? no Name one thing you are obsessed with: dont know, you tell me Have you ever skinny-dipped with the opposite sex? no, but i have before Ever sunbathed nude? no Window seat or aisle? window What's your sleeping position? on my right arm on my side, or on my back Do you snore? i dont think so, no ones every said i did Do you sleepwalk? haha, when im sick i do sometimes Do you talk in your sleep? not that i know of... Do you sleep with a stuffed animals? no WHICH IS BETTER Apples or Oranges? oranges One pillow or two? 1 Deaf or blind? deaf Pools or hot tubs? hot tubs Blondes or brunettes? brunettes all the way! actually i dont care TV or radio? TV Snooze button or jump out of bed? snooze button, no ones that stupid Sunrise or Sunset? sunset Hamburger or Cheeseburger? dont really like either Indoors or outdoors? both Christmas Eve or Christmas Day? Christmas Day Cake or ice cream? cake Spicy or Mild? mild Spearmint or Peppermint? spearmint Call or Write? call Green or Red apples? green Rain or Snow? rain in the summer, snow in the winter, no wait, that didnt make sense, i only like rain when its warm, and snow is ok, but not often |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 01,July,2004 | 1.First grade teacher's name: I really dont remember 2.Last word you said: 'Hi Ozzy' 3.Last song you sang: That Alicia Keys song, it was stuck in my head 4.Last person you hugged: my puppy 5.Last thing you laughed at: something yesterday, im too tired to laugh 6. Last time you said 'I love you': uh... i dont know 7. Last time you cried: before summer 8. What's in your CD player: Offspring 9. What socks are you wearing: I'll stick with Elissa's answer: my feet are naked and they think you're cute.* 10. What's under your bed: nothing right now, I just cleaned my room 12. Current taste: braces? 13. Current hair: down 14. Current clothes: black soffees, red softball shirt, underwear, i mean cmon now, i just woke up 15. Current annoyance: mosquito bites 16. Current longing: some breakfast 17. Current desktop picture: a cool color spiral thing I found online 18. Current worry: high school 19. Current hate: i dont really hate anything right now 20. Story behind your Blogger username: I forget my username 21. Current favorite article of clothing: new shirts from H&M 22. Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: body 23. Last CD that you bought: uh... i dont really buy that many CDs, but maybe System of a Down literally 7 months ago 24. Favorite place to be: anywhere with friends 25. Least favorite place: anywhere with ms. jackson or lett, buy HAHAHAH no more having their classes!!! 26. Time you wake up in the morning: anywhere from 11:30-2:30, no earlier unless im woken up, in which case i'll beat yo ass 27. If you could play an instrument, what would it be: hm, probably guitar 29. Do you believe in an afterlife: no, not really 30. OH SHIT WHAT HAPPENED TO NUMBER 30?! 31. Current favorite word/saying: word: have monster fun saying: nasty 32. Favorite book: i like a lot 33. Favorite season: spring/summer 34. One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: I guess my dad's dad, he died when I was 6 months old and he was supposed to be nuerotic, he glued pennies everywhere in my dad's house when he was a kid. 35. Favorite day: during the summer, every day is saturday, even monday 36. Where do you want to go: anywhere with a beach 37. What is your career going to be like: i dont know yet! so shut up 38. How many kids do you want: two 39. What kind of truck will you have: whop says ill have a truck? 40. Type a line you remember from any book: 'Why can't we just apply for a change of rules?' 41. A random lyric: some people want diamond rings, some just want everything, hahah, told you it was stuck in my head 42. Eye Color: blue 43. Hair Color: brown on the outside, but underneath you'll meet a purplish redish color 44. Righty or Lefty: Righty 45. Zodiac Sign: aries 46. Innie or Outtie: innie DESCRIBE... 47. Your heritage: all i know is that im a lot of everything, irish, polish, dutch, even indian, the list goes on 48. The shoes you wore today: havent worn any yet 49. Your hair: almost shoulder legnth, brown on the outside, purplish-red on the inside 50. Your weakness: mom 51. Your fears: the ring 51. Your perfect pizza: cheese? 52. One thing you'd like to achieve: better grades. and many piercings by the end of the summer. WHAT IS.. 53. Your most overused phrase on aim: haha 54. Your thoughts first waking up: I didnt die! 55. The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: im gonna also say hair 56. Your bedtime: none, i just would rather not stay up all night during the school year, but in the summer it doesnt matter 57. Your most missed memory: i dont know YOU PREFER... 58. Pepsi or coke: coke all the way 59. McDonald's or Burger King: ewww, hate fast food like that 60. Single or group dates: both 61. Adidas or nike: hm, i dont know, both are sweat shops 62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: i dont like iced tea 63. Chocolate or vanilla: ice cream and cake vanilla, everything else, chocolate 64. Cappuccino or coffee: one of those iced coffees with flavoring and whipped cream and shit :-D DO YOU... 65. Smoke: god, smoke what? you guys need to be more specific and the answer would be no anyway 66. Cuss: no fucking way 67. Sing: when bored 68. Take a shower everyday: i try 69. Have a crush: sorta 70. Who is he?: and you think i would tell you? 71. Think you've been in love: no, i dont think real love happens at this age 72. Want to go to college: course! 73. Like high school: i'll let you know... when i get there! 74. Want to get married: eventually, i suppose 75. Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: well sure, otherwise you wouldnt be able to read this? |
1,604,213 | female | 14 | indUnk | Aries | 08,August,2004 | Damn, I havent posted in a longass time, is it because im lazy? Yes. Um, well I guess I'll tell you about my day so far, which hasnt been eventful. I woke up at 8:00 to let out Angel (rosies dog) and went straight back to bed where I stayed for about 2 hours until my mom woke me up and told me that I had to go feed the cats up the street so I did. I felt sorta sick after that, dunno why, so I took a bath which got me really tired so I crawled back into bed and slept some more until 3:oo. Then I woke up, came downstairs and had a nutricious breakfast consisting of icecream and a peach. Then I watched some Recess on toon disney and went on the computer some, talked to Murphy, Eve, the ussual and watched some more TV. Right now it's 4:40 and my parents are gone and I'm bored and nothing's on the like 500 channels I have and theres nothing to read and UGHGHG!! I also feel kinda sick or else I might be going for a run, which I'm not, which I should be doing. Damn, school starts soon and I didnt even realize it! Just like 3 more weeks, god damn. HIGH SCHOOL! Jeez. Well, bye bye for now, I have nothing more to say. I'll post later. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 05,June,2004 | Hmm...not a whole lot to say I don't guess. Other than today sucked seriously! Everything was fine actually, I got to the pool this morning, and I didn't vacuum because it was raining, and the rain was just going to cause more stuff to fall into the pool. So I sat there for a while, then a friend of mine showed up, and we hung out for a while, until another guy came, who swims like everyday. We were all hanging out and some chicks came and then these other people came. And they had like, 15 kids with them, which wasn't a problem. Everyone I saw was in their swimwear, except the first little girl who went in. Well I stopped her and told her that she couldn't swim in them, because they were not white shorts. Well her mom or whatever was like, no she has to swim in them or they will be seethrough. And she had a serious additude, and ya know, I let things slide half the time, but her additude just set me off. I said well I guess she can't swim then. And she started in on me at that point, and I was like, don't come up here talking to me like that, I run this pool and I don't have to let you swim in it. It's my decision and I don't have to take anything from you. So she was like, well we're going to go to the board and you'll see how long your job lasts. I just laughed, because I knew she couldn't get me fired or anything. So I called my boss and told her everything, and then they showed back up, just the one I got into it with and she brought another person. And the other person was like, are you the one mouthing my family? I was like, no, I simply told them the little girl couldn't swim with her shorts. They were not regular swimware, nor were they white. Well she had a problem with that and blah blah blah. Well then she was like, who is your grandma? I was like, you don't know my grandma. She was like, where is Sherly(which is the girl who ran the pool last year, who also has granddaughters, I'm just not one of them.) And I told her that Sherly no longer ran the pool this year, and she would have to take it up with the person who does. Well they left and later the board members came and talked to me, and they were totally fine. And they were basically, you know its a judgement call, and I said yea, if they had been nice I would have let the little girl swim. But they started in the second I said anything. And they acted rude when I checked to see if they had paid their dues, which I have to do. How should I know if they are paid or not? Ya know. But I didn't say anything when they did that, I let it slide. Well the board members were totally fine with everything, and my boss was like...no you're not getting fired. Lol, which I wasn't worried about..but ya know. Well!!! Thats about all...too bad Aaron couldn't come today, I had wanted to talk to him about that last night...but it didn't work out too well. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 01,June,2004 | Hmm...today has completely sucked. Thats for sure. I'm not to sure what to do about Aaron, all I can do is sit back and let him decide. Which is fine. Apparently he needs something right now, and I'm not totally sure what that is, but I hope he figures it out. I really did enjoy talking with him, and yes, I did make him feel bad about talking to me more than once. But I know that more than once he would do things to try and get me to feel bad, or to think about things, like make me jealous and things like that. I try not to do that very often, but sometimes, you gotta do what you gotta do. Anywho - - I guess thats all for now. Not a lot to talk about. And I really don't need anymore comments on here, unless of course they are needed. Then yes, but as far as any others, just ignore this. This is for me, and the few people I've told about it. But I suppose it really doesn't matter, I can change anything I want whenever I want. So whatever. I'll write more later! Bye. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 31,May,2004 | Okay, first off..he hasn't been an ass to me lately until last night. Which, what I said last night was true, theres me, Jenny, Lyndsey, and whoever else. Which, I know of a few just by him telling me...also his comments like, 'most of mine were virgins so theres no way I have anything' and I already know half of them were young. So my comment was very true. I did perhaps go to far with the 10 year old thing, but it was meant in a way, of me saying they were young. Which, compared to his age, they might as well be 10. Yes, this is public, but no one can find it, at least, no one knows who I am if they do read it. Does it say my name anywhere? Does it have my picture anywhere? No...it sure doesn't. For that reason exactly. I started this ONLY because he wanted me too. He wanted me to start to Xanga one, he wanted me to continue the one he made for me a while back on his site, so I started this one. I'm not very good with words, so writing things down in a letter or on here is much easier for me than actually telling someone. Either way, the message still gets across. Its funny, since I was falling for him again. I couldn't handle the distance before, and now that I don't have a car, it would be really hard. He is busy, he is always talking about all the things he has to do, I don't want to mess things up for him. I was always doing something to screw things up with him, maybe not him, but with other people. People started to not like him or talk bad or whatever when we got together, things happened with teachers that never happened before. So yea, I didn't want to bring all that back on him. No I haven't told him this, but I really don't care. So you can say whatever you want to say, it doesn't make a difference to me, but it would be very nice if he could grow up for a few minutes and let me tell him a couple of things that he needs to know. Perhaps he could shut up and actually listen to me and then quit talking to me. Not talking to him, would be completely fine. I don't need him, I have no desire to want to be with him anymore, so it really makes not difference to me. Yes, I did want to be with him a couple weeks ago, and I even asked him more than once to come see me. He came on bad terms and that was my fault as much as it was his. It didn't work out the way I had planned on him coming for the first time. But life goes on. All I want is to say a few things and I'll be gone. If I'm a bitch, then hes a bastard. Because you can't judge until you know everything, and I'm sorry hun, you don't. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 31,May,2004 | For anyone who does come here to read this, who wasn't invited by me..I'm very sorry but there is nothing left to read. My privacy was invaded by someone and he decided he could inform everyone of this blog, which that was not the case. This is my blog, and if I choose to share it with him, thats my business. He had no right to share it with anyone else. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 08,June,2004 | It's not considered a damand, when you say it flat out. When you say something, I expect you to follow through. When I tell you something, I do it, and if I can't do it, I at least find a way to tell you I can't. That is something you have never done. The least you could do is let me know, I may only be a friend, but that shouldn't matter. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 07,June,2004 | I was hoping to have heard something by now, but I guess thats not going to happening, considering its already 9:00. I'm not too sure what to do actually, I guess give up. What else is there? I can't just sit here and wait around for nothing, which is exactly what I am doing. He can't 'stop for me,' just for other people, well that isn't going to work for me. Which is exactly what he does and how he talks, I'm not sure what the whole message thing was about, how there was only one nice message, perhaps that was directed at me, but I don't remember any messages that weren't nice. I got upset because he told me one thing and changed it at the last minute. I wouldn't have sat up for as long as I did had I known things were going to change, again. So I guess thats all I can say, whatever happens happens. Its all up to him now. I'm tired of it, and I quit. I have more important things to do and more important people to deal with if thats how hes going to be. I'm sure he had a few minutes today to say something to me. But thats okay too. Whatever he wants. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 07,June,2004 | Perhaps if I stop talking with him, things will be better. Things are actually fine when we do talk, and I totally understand that hes busy. I'm just tired of him saying one thing, and not even knowing if he'll be able to do it, and of course, he can't. Don't say anything! Just say I don't know, because you really don't know. It's not very nice to make someone think one thing and do another. The fact that he hardly enjoys talking to me at all helps my decision greatly. I know that because of the way he talks, which he does talk about it. Which is also fine. I have a pretty busy life myself, I spent way to much time at the pool last night searching for my keys, which I did find, but I shouldn't have had to even begin to look. They should have been left where I left them. It doesn't matter anymore. I believe I have made a good decision, and I might stick with it, I might not. We'll have to see what happens. Thats all for now. Thanks for kinda listening. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 16,June,2004 | Well, I hope my starting over on my blog makes things a little easier. I've had a lot of crap from people on here before, and I hope that has all stopped, and if it hasn't...then I suppose I will have to quit with my blog all together. A lot has been happening, a lot that mainly has to do with Aaron. He has found a girl whom he likes, and I think he can be very happy with her. From what he says, she seems like a very nice person. Hopefully things with me and him and okay now too. We had our up and downs, we both did things to deliberately hurt each other in the last week, and after talking tonight for over two hours, I hope that has come to a stop. I think we have come to an understanding as to where both of us are in our lives...and we both just have to respect the others wishes, which we haven't been doing for quite sometime. As far as everything else, all is pretty good. I got my first paycheck, over 300 dollars!! I get paid to basically sit on my butt all day! Who wouldn't want a job like that? I can't wait, in about 2 months I should have exactly what I want. A car!! I'm so excited! The bad thing that is happening soon, is I have to go to the dentist, and I believe I will be in some serious pain Thursday...but I'll live. Thats about all for right now. I'll write more later!! Bye! |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 13,June,2004 | They make no sense. They say they like you, and then are talking to other chicks? Its very annoying, makes ya wanna turn gay! Not really! But sometimes it would have to be better than the alternative. A month and a half ago I went to town with a guy, thinking possibly it was cool again...and it turned out he wasn't. Of course. I'm never right when I want to be. I guess I should start getting used to it. Work has been okay lately, except the other day. The girl that works on Thursday, told me she couldn't get the vacuum to work, which wasn't a big deal. It didn't need it. Well, I couldn't get it to work Friday either, so I called my neighbor(he does the pool stuff) and asked him if he could come and try and make it work. He said he would be there around 4 or 5. Well it was about 4:30 and I decided I might want to get in the pool, well I got on my bathing suit and everything, and only got my feet in basically and decided that no, he was coming and I better not get in just yet, and it was freezing. Well, he came about that time and I had my pants about half way on when he came up. He was like, no don't do that, I can't see your body if you do that. And I sat down and had my shirt and was about to put it on and he got up to go to the gate to get started with the vacuuming, and told me to not even put on my shirt, which I did anyway. By that time I was really starting to feel weird. And so we went and got the stuff, and started. He got it to work and so I vacuumed then because it needed it. And he kept making comments like, I'd enjoy this more if you were in your bathing suit. And then there was something in the pool, it looked like spit to me, and he was like, it looks like someone came in the pool, you haven't been having sex in here? And oh my gosh!!! And he said something about my ex, how he drives a little green truck...that he saw him at WalMart and said he was a jerk. Well, according to him, the only thing he said was that we broke up because we didn't get along. How is that being a jerk? Thats exactly what happened. Maybe he did something else. And he said something else about how the sex is good but its not everything. And he said more than once about me needing to take off my clothes, like one time he said do you have a boyfriend yet? And I said no not yet, and he was like...oh well thats because you don't take off your clothes, you gotta show these guys everything you have. I had no idea what to do. I still don't know what to do. I told my mom and dad, they came to the pool later and I was like, okay...I don't care if the house is burning down, but if Jim is here, so are you. And they asked why and I told them. Well dad said I should tell my boss, which I think I should too...and I had planned on it today, but she never came back. But mom said I should wait and see if he does it again. Well if he went that far the first time, why wouldn't he do it again? I don't actually think he would try anything, but I can't be sure. The neighbor, his mom(I think) said that there was a girl that had a complaint on him before because he said inappropiate things and wanted to have an affair, but she didn't believe it because it was like 'love at first sight' with him and his wife. I told the lady who I work with, and her husband over heard, and he was like...well thank you for telling me, I thought I might like him but now I know I don't, and hes the kinda guy that...would do something, at least say something to him. Which he said he would the next time he sees him. I don't want to start anything with the neighbors, but that was going a little to far I think. I don't know, I don't know what to do...any ideas would be wonderful!! |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 25,June,2004 | Well... A LOT!!! has happened, which ahs to do with a recent post of mine, on June 13th I believe. My boss actually talked to the guy and everything, and we had a huge blow out at my house...and what not. I'm not going to go into any details, I don't believe its a good thing for me to do that anyway. So...perhaps one day soon I can write them all down. I don't know what is going to happen in the future...but we'll just have to wait and see like everything else. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 23,June,2004 | Well, I didn't think last night wasn't a bad thing. Everything seemed to be going very well...sure there were a couple things that made me uncomfortable, but I'll probably have that for a while. I'm sorry other people didn't think it worked out that way. But now that those people have read what I wrote on here, only somewhere else, maybe they will understand something else. I don't know that I wrote anything really worth reading, but maybe I did. I don't know...time will only tell. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 02,July,2004 | There is a bit to talk about now, its been a few days since my last post. I swear, if I didn't have someone asking about this, I wouldn't even keep up with it. Lol. But thats okay. I have almost 900 dollars set away for my car, and I found a cute one but dad doesn't want me to rush it. Which I can understand, but its really cute and it kinda...hit me the right way I guess. Haha, but it hit him the wrong way:(. But we'll see. The right one will be there, that I'm sure of. I know I need a car by next year...and I'll have one! Okay, I was wrong about writing a lot, figured out a few things I have to have done in less than an hour. I'll have to write more later! Bye! |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 28,June,2004 | Hmm...I don't think there is a whole lot new...but I guess there has been. Nothing has changed with the pool guy, he hasn't came around or anything, except for him and his father calling me a whore in my garage...ya know. I've actually been having a bit of fun lately. Been able to hang out with some people. The other night I went out to a friends house and I brought my friend Twinkee with me, and he got drunk off some nasty stuff called Southern Comfort. And so he had to be home so I took him home and he wouldn't stay there and he jumped in the back of my truck and I was like, alright...you can come with me. So I went back and asked some of the guys to help me keep him there and so basically, we stopped on the road outside his house and dumped him out of the truck and drove off. It was kinda harsh, but he was okay. Then later we went and checked on him and he had thrown up everywhere, it was so nasty. Then tonight we went to Walmart because a guy had a blowout on his truck and needed a tire, then we went to KFC and saw Robin, a chick that this guy Mike is likeing, and came back to Twinkees and just hung out there until 12:30 and Kerry drove me home. I like going and hanging out, its different. I'm so used to just, sitting at the pool, then coming home and siting here, maybe talking on the phone or watching TV. Something different is nice once and a while. But anyway...thats about all for now. I'll keep ya posted! |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 06,July,2004 | Now that I don't have someone nagging me about writing all the time, I probably won't write very often at all. Which is totally fine with me. I haven't had time lately, last night was the first night in a couple days I've been home. I've spent the last two nights with some people I'm pretty close to. I'm very glad that this weekend is over! And I have almost all the money for my car, and I think I'm going to be getting the one I was talking about earlier. But we'll see. I guess thats all for now. To bad things arn't going to well with everyone. I wish things we're different, but they arn't. And I know its for the best, everyone is telling me it is..and has been telling me that for over a year now...I just never listened. Maybe I'll listen now. Who knows. Everything with other people is going great though! Cept Twinkee, hes getting on my nerves lately. Thats okay though, I think hes just upset with me so hes not caring anymore. Oh well. I'll write later maybe. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 15,July,2004 | Well I haven't posted in a while. A lot has happened! I got a car! And it should be all legal and in our name in less than a week and I can finally drive it. Its been like, 8 months now, I can't imagine anothe week will kill me! Haha. Its cute too, cuter than my other one(at least I think so..other people might not). I'm not sure what is happening with Aaron, but I would love to be able to figure it out. I can't tell what he wants, I'm sorry that I like someone, but thats how it is. I would like to know what that post was about though. ''Just a song''. There has to be more than that. I dont know. Anyway, I'm not going to write anything else for now. Maybe in a bit. Bye! |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 21,July,2004 | I hate people who think they are so much better than everyone. Although, it is quite nice when it all comes crashing down at their feet. He always thought he was better than other people, and so proud of himself because he had the car, and the girl and all the friends. Its sad that he doesn't have any of that now. I felt for him, you know, I really did. And I tried to talk to him. But it just made me realize how much of a bastard he really is. And, apparently so have his friends. Since well, he doesn't have any. I'm done with it now though, he can do whatever he wants, whoever he wants and just screw up his life all he wants. I really don't care this time. Life is going great right now, me and Kerry are doing wonderful. Hes going through some tough times with his life and different things I can't really talk about, but between the two of us we're wonderful. Since we've been together, there is probably 4 nights that either of us haven't spent the night with the other, and we aren't getting tired of each other by any means. I realize we just started, and we might before to long, but I'm not thinking about that kind of thing right now. The only time I get upset is when I contact him, like today. I thought I would be nice and contact him, but apparently that was too much for him to handle. I think he thinks to hard about things, and maybe doesn't know what choice he should make, so he makes the one that hurts him the most? At least, thats what it seems like to me. But like I said, it really doesn't matter. I know what its like to not have any friends, and well, its very hard to get through life like that...so I hope everything works out for him in the end. It doesn't look to good now, but it will be better after a while. It always does. I guess thats all I have to say for now, I'll write more later, now that I don't feel bad about writing about the good things I have going on in my life! |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 20,July,2004 | So much is going on. I don't even know where to start. I got a car! And it should be legal within a couple days, so I can actually start to drive it. As of right now...a plan of mine is to be going to Texas next Monday for a few days. Stay with Dawn for a night maybe, see a bunch of people, get some new school clothes. I'm excited. Work is alright for right now. The other day these drunk people came, and we really can't do anything about drunk people, just have to let them in ya know. So they went in and well their little boy that was almost 2, was playing with the gate, and I very nicely went and held the gate shut and told him he needed to go to his mother and she basically looked at me like how dare I do that. Then the dad was like why are you being hateful to him. I don't see how I was being hateful, I simply told him he couldn't play with the stupid gate. When they left they called me an ass hole, and a lady on the board stood up and asked what was wrong. And then there was a meeting the same night, and they came back, still drunk and was crapping about me, but they kinda brushed it off because a lady and her husband on the board were sitting right there, and they said I kicked them out, well trust me, they left very willingly. Hehe, I'm just glad people were sitting there! I'm not sure what else is going on, nothing I can really think of I don't guess. Maybe I'll be hearing from someone one of these days, if not, I guess thats okay too. We'll just have to wait and see. |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 28,July,2004 | Well, Peaches is gone. If he was going to come back, he would have by now. I'm very sad, he was always my favorite kitty, he was my only kitty actually. At least, the only cat I've ever had that I could call my own. Twinkee found his collar on the side of the road about half a mile from my house. The weird thing was, he brought it, thinking it might be mine...and didn't say anything to me about it for like 30 minutes after we met up at the pool. Then he was like, hey I found a cat collar. And I was like, oh yea...thinking we could put it on the little kitty of Kerrys that has now moved in, and I turned around to look, and knew it was mine by all the fray he had caused from scratching it. I like freaked out then, and was like where did you find it and everything. We had been looking for Peaches before then, mom was out looking for him and everything, and I just brushed it off, oh...he'll come back, don't worry. Sad thing is, he isn't coming back. He might, I suppose. But if he got attacked, I think he would have made it home by now, he wasn't far from home, so I don't think he's coming back. I mean, this kind of thing happens. Thats about all I guess. School starts in like 2 weeks, I'm so ready, but I'm really not. Last year, its really scary. This is going to be a very weird year. We have someone moving into our house, which will make it even more weird. But fun I hope. As long as I don't get tired of him being around. But we'll see. Anyway, wish me luck on Peaches...! |
3,484,740 | female | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 05,August,2004 | Well, I think it is official, that Peaches is really gone. Also, for anyone reading this that knows about Peaches, my friend did not bring Peaches to me, he brought me his collar. I think the person I told thought I meant Peaches, but I meant his collar. I have not seen Peaches since the last time he was here with me, which I am very happy about. It would be a lot harder on me if I was to see him any other way. :( Everything else is going pretty good. School starts Wednesday! I'm excited...but then I'm not. Its going to be over before it starts, but it'll be okay. I have some pretty cool classes I think, one is Stagecraft. And we get to be in charge of the Drama Homecoming float, and other stuff for plays and stuff. We don't have a lot of money, so its a pretty good class to take your senior year, because you probably won't do much. Which is also very cool. As far as me and Kerry, we're good. It finally sank in the other day that he has no where else to go but here. Now that his mom has left and everything, this is his home. Hes okay with it I think. But it probably gets to him sometimes, I think it would anyone. We kind of got into it tonight, he has been saving change for like 2 years and has a little over 200 dollars, and lately I've put in some as well, no more than 25 dollars I'd say, but I still put something in. And about a week and a half ago we decided to save 1 dollar bills, and I know I've put in at least half of that, and we have about 70 I believe...and tonight we were at Sonic and he asked for my ones and I said sure and gave them to him, and I don't even remember what was said, but he said that I didn't put any in, maybe 5 dollars but the rest was his. Well I didn't like that because its not true, I know I've put in like half. Because for the last week and a half he really hasn't had any money. Thats why when he says he wants me to put his money in my bank account, I won't. I do not want any confusion as to what is mine. I don't want to be selfish, but I don't want something like tonight to happen, with a greater amount. So I'm going to eliminate that possibility at all. Anyway, so we kind of got into it, and he wouldn't even see where it made me mad. But oh well. It'll pass. Mom and dad are pretty crazy right now, we're running low and its getting very stressful. I went to the dentist not to long ago and they gave me 20 pain pills. Well, I've had 3, dad has had 3, and Kerry had 1, and I have one left. And mom swears that she isn't taking them. I know she has. Thats 12 pills gone...and shes the only one left. She was very defensive when I asked her about it last night, and I talked to dad about it this morning, and he said that it wasn't a subject he wanted to bring up to her because she would deny it. But for almost as long as he has known her, she has liked her pain pills. I don't understand what for though. Nothing major has happened to her for her to be in so much pain or whatever. Dad, yes...but nothing has happened to her. I needed them the day of and the day after my dentist appointment. But thats a good reason...she has none. I don't understand why she lies about it though, it doesn't make sense. Dad told me to leave it alone, so I guess I will. It still pisses me off though. Anyway, thats about all for now. Its been a while since I've written, and I'm sure it will be a while before I write again. So...Until next time! |
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