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1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 13,November,2003 | I started working a part time job this week. I really like it. It's nice to learn something new and to leave happy, not stressed and dreading the next day. There is a position at my current job that I might look into. MAYBE. This week has been a bad mommy week. My Kayla is struggling in school and try as she might she is still not getting it. I have been working very closely with her and the school... THEN she goes and gets herself 3 days in school suspension.. for a note she wrote that was VERY inaproperate( spl?) Anyway.... after taking 1/2 a day off to take all 3 to the dentist ( 2 out of 3 with NO cavities ) Mikal gets to make a trip the Orthodontist..yippy. Then it's off to the school for a meeting about Kayla's learning problems.... oh after that I was done.. just beat ! Now ...back to work for an hour till a meeting that took most of the afternoon..... how can you motivate yourself after a day like this? Not to mention I got My Friend and now feel like truck that ran over me is now backing up .....****sigh**** Callie my oldest is now involved in after school clubs and I can't see her during the week due to practice, ***sniff and lip quivers *** I am SO attached to my kids. Like I said it was a bad mommy week. Tonight was good..we had fun. I have wonderful childern. |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 13,November,2003 | A new Poem Short & Sweet SURRENDER Snuggled next to you the warmth of your body against mine feeling your hand as it travels down my back soft kisses on my neck a sigh slips through my lips I rollover to face you my breasts pressed against your chest I look into your eyes and smile I am yours , take me. |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 24,November,2003 | Succubus! LETS GET READY TO GIVE OUT THE TEMEPATION! You spend yout time tempting others and remember its not just ur hobby its ur job too! urlLink <><><><><> <><><><><> brought to you by urlLink Quizilla |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 21,December,2003 | Merry Christmas.. i can't wait till it's over! |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 21,December,2003 | You're ELEGANT sexy! You have a tasteful style, that not only draws attention to you, but gives you respect. Your style is more graceful than that of others. urlLink What kind of sexy are you? [For girls only! With Pics! Finally Finished!] brought to you by urlLink Quizilla |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 30,December,2003 | Cyber Wild: *Gasp* There are mothers protecting their children as you walk past them and old men stare at you and shake their heads. You are the wild on of the scene. Hell, are you even in the scene? You could be Goth but you tend to pave your own way, you could be a Metal head or a Punk... no one knows for sure because you do your own thing and answer to no one and thats what makes people follow your lead. Everyone seems to remember you from somewhere so you're never alone for long. You have so many talents you can fix almost any problem, from a piercing gone bad to comforting a friend from a bad 'trip'. You have that tough sexiness that singles you out from the rest. Whether or not you feel mean on the inside may be a different thing. People look at you and think 'yeah shes got her shit together'. You look best when you show off your tattoos and piercings and nobody makes chunky boots and fishnet look quite as good as you do. Your motto is 'I'll try anything as long as its for free' urlLink What is your style of Gothic Beauty? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 11,March,2004 | Femme Fatale/Playboy: If sex is a weapon, you are the most deadly assassin of all! Using a perfect combination of seduction, guile and wits, you spin webs of desire in the hearts of your targets with the greatest of ease. Few people can resist your charms, and it is only a matter of time before the unsuspecting reveal their secrets to you. Often underrated and overlooked by a great many of your villainous brethren, you can, beneath the glitter and glamour, be a somewhat bitter thingbut you are also a master of using perceived weaknesses to your advantage, so it would do well for all around you to keep that in mind. You also have a talent for kicking butt in heels and short skirts / smoking jackets. Famous Comic Book Femme Fatales/Playboys include The White Queen, Catwoman, Purgatori, and Shinobi Shaw. urlLink What Type of Evil Super Villain Would you be? (images) brought to you by urlLink Quizilla |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 11,March,2004 | Angela: The avenging angel featured in Spawn, Angela is sworn to slay the evil and demonic whereever she might find them. Blessed with a host of unusual powers and extreme skill with one big dang sword, Angela is a match for any wicked creature that comes her way. She is not the most compassionate of angels however...this red-headed heroine is a warrior to the core. urlLink What Bad-Ass Comic Chick do you resemble most? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 19,March,2004 | Ever feel like you needed to explode? Like everything is irritating and nothing seems to make you smile? Why is that?Somedays ( like today ) are like that. Feeling down and out. I think it's cause I feel like I may have lost a part of me that I really liked. How do you get that back? Hmmm..... Music is a key thing with me and lately I found a new band that just feels right. Los Lonely Boys... the music , the harmonies and the lyrics are so clean and fresh. Makes me feel good inside. I adore the singers voice...he's not bad to look at either. wink wink..... So ... anyhooters.just needed to ask those questions.. get out in the open so to speak. I'm sure this too shall pass. **may the dark wings embrace you and give you his eternal kiss.** |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 19,March,2004 | Well.. it's a Friday and I don't have to work.. good and bad. Good not to be in there, but bad cause I'll have to go in on Sunday to catch up. Why? Cause I have no back up and had to take the rest of my PTO. Or loose it. BASTARDS! Oh well.So I just updated my web page and hope all who come across it likes it. So here I sit in fron tof the computer bored out of my mind! Oh but the washer and dryer are running thanks to me... guess I should get motivated...or maybe just take a nap.. how lazy!! Not a bad idea....................G'night! |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 22,March,2004 | So today really blew. Monday what do you expect. Work has become a place where anything and everything BAD happens. For example.... my Boss.. a wonderful lady , friend , mentor and just all around good person.... after 24 years resigns today. She is the glue that holds the front end together... what are we going to do without her? I know that's selfish but she is the ONLY manager I ever had that understands and backs her people up... few and far between do they come along. So where does it go from here... got me. I figure down hill. Maybe I'll get an offer I can't refuse. I WISH. Is there really such a thing.I have yet to find it.. so with heavy heart and bleak future.. I head to bed... |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 21,March,2004 | Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com! |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 06,June,2004 | PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking for a relationship. You cannot live without it. Your lover must be passionate and you want that you and your partner melt into each other. He/She should not try to take the domination . You dont want a relationship without passion, and the sexuality plays a big part. The first moment you meet him/her is one of the most important. There has to be something between you , you cannot explain. From the first moment on everything must fix. But when this passion disappears you disappear to. For you it is better to leave than to see your love restrained. PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always message me or tell me how I can improve that quiz. Ill sure write back. urlLink ~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~ brought to you by urlLink Quizilla |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 28,June,2004 | I am The World The World represents the moments when we feel fulfilled and blessed and all that goes into them. It is a very positive sign that you are in a position to realize your heart's desire. What that is for you depends on the situation, but it will always feel great. Remember, though, that Card 21 is a symbol of active contribution and service. To hold the World in our hands, we must give of ourselves to it. That is the source of true happiness. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit urlLink LearnTarot.com What tarot card are you? Enter your birthdate. Month: Day: Year: |
1,330,888 | female | 36 | indUnk | Pisces | 28,June,2004 | Beautiful day today! Just back from vacation and feeling pretty good and tired too. OC Maryland is a nice place.. this is the 3rd year in a row we went. Maybe next year we can go somewhere else...somewhere new. That would be cool. I love the ocean and we saw SO many dolphins.. so cool.I 'll try to write more often.. we'll see. Until the next time! |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 20,July,2004 | ... And everytime I try to fly, I fall Without my wings, I feel so small I guess I need you, baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, you're haunting me I guess I need you, baby... |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 13,July,2004 | oh my Lord, what have i done? |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 10,July,2004 | whoaam.... i'm totally hungry, tired and sleepy. I just got a meeting with editor-in-chief. We were talking bout many things. Quite interesting, actually.But when the meeting's over, I feel very tired, sleepy and hungry. Listening to the rock music can give a new power for me, i guess :) |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 07,July,2004 | 'Live In Tokyo / 5 Years In A LIVEtime' DVD release! Updated on 05-29-2004, dreamtheater.net Finally, after years of waiting, the first two Dream Theater Home Videos will be re-issued together on DVD. 'Dream Theater - Images And Words: Live In Tokyo / 5 Years In A LIVEtime' will be released on July 13th, 2004 (the original release date of June 29th has been changed due to manufacturing delays). urlLink |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 05,July,2004 | Mike Portnoy inducted into the Modern Drummer Hall of Fame! Added on 05-16-2004, dreamtheater.net In addition to receiving his 20th Reader's Poll award (in the Progressive Rock catagory for the 10th year in a row!), the latest issue of Modern Drummer announced the induction of Mike Portnoy to the Modern Drummer Hall Of Fame! Mike joins an elite group of drumming legends (Gene Krupa, Buddy Rich, John Bonham, Keith Moon, Neil Peart, Steve Gadd, Louie Bellson, Tony Williams, Billy Cobham, Joe Morello, Carl Palmer, Bill Bruford, Art Blakey, Max Roach, Jeff Porcaro, Larrie Londin, Elvin Jones, Vinnie Colaiuta, Terry Bozzio, Ringo Starr, Roy Haynes, Dave Weckl, Dennis Chambers, Steve Smith and Simon Phillips) and is the youngest drummer since Neil Peart was inducted in 1983 to receive this prestigious honor! -- If I die tomorrow, I'd be alright becuz I believe.. that after we're gone, the spirit carries on... (DT) |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 05,July,2004 | Pirate Johnny Depp buys an island in the Caribbean! Jul. 6, 2004 Hollywood hunk Johnny Depp has turned into a real life Pirate of the Caribbean after buying a mile-long island in the Bahamas for 1.9 million pounds. According to The Sun, the island called ''Little Halls Pond Cay'' has six secluded white sandy beaches and a central lagoon surrounded by exotic palm trees. The tropical island, which is 60 miles south of Nassau, also has a private harbour and staff quarters. -- hmm.. I think Vanessa Paradis is happy so much. Has a handsome and famous husband, lovely kids, and now... an island!! i wish i could be Vanessa. lol |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 05,July,2004 | Hasil Suara Pemilu Presiden Putaran I No. Nama Suara Persentase 1. Yudhoyono - Kalla (4) : 19.861.346 33.65 % 2. Megawati - Hasyim (2) : 15.651.961 26.52 % 3. Wiranto - Wahid (1) : 13.068.480 22.14 % 4. Amien - Siswono (3) : 8.558.736 14.50 % 5. Hamzah - Agum (5) : 1.874.426 3.18 % Total : 59.014.949 100.00 % Sumber: KPU, Update: 07-07-2004 14:39:58 WIB |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 05,July,2004 | lol. he loves his new hat. he wears it all the time... watchout!!! the hat man is coming! lol |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 05,July,2004 | coming soon.. he's here... lol |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 05,July,2004 | a lil bit bored right now. I have to do my reportage :( I actually don't like it, cuz it's election day, which means we should be free from work :( and now, i'm waiting for my boyfriend. he still does some of his jobs :( fortunately, i have this blog. it such a great friend, 'someone' to share. Blog... I love you more than my boyfriend (at least for now. lol) |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 05,July,2004 | Well, if there's something I love in this world, that will be my... BOYFRIEND!!! Wow, I love him so much. Eventhough we sometimes get fighting or argue, I will never leave him. I'm truly, madly, deeply in love with him. I think I'm going to marry him soon. |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 05,July,2004 | Well, I voted Amien Rais-Siswono in this morning election. Praise be to God, this couple won at 3 TPS in my neighborhood. Hope it will be the good beginning for my country. I've been a huge fan of Amien Rais for long time. So, I wouldn't choose any candidates but him --and his couple of course. Will he win and become president? I don't know. Let's see the result, soon. |
3,842,905 | female | 24 | indUnk | Aries | 05,July,2004 | yeah... i've just built my own blog! hmpffh.. can't wait to fill it. |
3,384,037 | female | 17 | Student | Scorpio | 19,May,2004 | David's in England [april told me] and i really miss him. |
3,384,037 | female | 17 | Student | Scorpio | 19,May,2004 | damn it...April's been meditating for like...forever! and its driving me whacko!!! she never listens or talks to me anymore...i hate it! ugh!! and well, David's made friends with jen. he never leaves his crypt now...well..except for patrols. i never get to come on patrol with them...that so totally sucks... i mean...i could help. April doesnt know this but when i was asigned to polish the weapons and thingys, i kinda...used them..i sneaked out and went on my own patrol. i dusted my first vamp!!!was cool...you know... it turning to dust and all...it was awesome...and the energy i felt was fantastic...power.... i felt ultimate power... |
3,384,037 | female | 17 | Student | Scorpio | 19,May,2004 | okay...so...somethings really bugging April. she hasnt been telling me anything lately and it sucks. April treats me like a little kid. hello??? im 17! im old enough to go on patrols. plus im a potential slayer...and she could fill me in now and then but she doesnt...freak...the wiccans are always busy meditating and all. i could help with the research. or maybe the slayage. anything to keep me busy...just as long as they dont give me the polishing weapons deal again... |
3,384,037 | female | 17 | Student | Scorpio | 19,May,2004 | welcome to my new blog. |
3,384,037 | female | 17 | Student | Scorpio | 19,May,2004 | what is wrong with you, David? now youre telling April you love HER?? |
3,384,037 | female | 17 | Student | Scorpio | 19,May,2004 | David! how could you do that to my sister?? how could you even try!? that is it! that is it David! if you hurt my sister? touch her? i swear, you are going to wake up in flames! |
3,384,037 | female | 17 | Student | Scorpio | 19,May,2004 | alright...I dont get April. first, she tells David to lay off and then she teleports on over to England and begs him to come back...what is wrong with her? i mean, if you're going to tell someone to lay off, you wait for them to come back. and if they dont, suffer! thats the first rule of dumping. that's it...it's safe to say that my sister has completely lost it! i mean...what is she? numb? David's been there the whole time...and David's all love love love love April! and what does my idiotic sister do? go away David! i need time alone, David! it's just...damn it...what is wrong with her? cant she see what David's done for her? there are so many things that David's done for her. and she just...ugh! alright...nevermind... later... |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 17,August,2004 | I am stressed out!! Worried about a math test that I have to take on Monday, August 23rd. I know I passed the one last semester, but honestly I believe it was all fluke! I know one gets three chances to pass it with an 85%, but I am still nervous. I want to go in and kick butt and be done with it. Then I just plain out scared to death about this upcoming two semesters. Two classes, two clinical days..blah!! I am already tired and classes don't start till the 30th. oh well..STRESSED is just DESSERTS spelled backwards. So, a big ole' hot fudge sundae sounds good. Peace all Dina |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 13,August,2004 | Okay, so I said I was going to write down my thoughts, but I have decided to just let it go. *uhmmmmmmmm* OOH!, what Zen feeling. I am on my way, shortly, to pay the first installment of this years tuition for my children. It's crazy. I will be paying damn near as much for tutition a month as I do for rent. And I don't really care for this school. So, that, in itself, makes the experience extremely painful. But, for right now it's convenient. Just a couple of blocks north. I shall have to endure the pain for at least one more year, then we can check into St. Daniel's. Which is the grammar school Nick attended. And I really like that, but they did not have a full-time preschool. St. Rene does. Answers the question of what I am suppose to do with the kids while in school and at clinicals. Luckily, I have the world's greatest mother in law, if it wasn't for I wouldn't have made it this far. She watches my kids, makes sure they get to school and never complains about it. I think she really, really wants me to suceed and I appreciate all that she has done to allow me the opportunity. Okie, off to the school. WISH ME LUCK. They always seem to have something that you need to buy and forgot to mention at the end of the school year. YEAH!, like I need another friggin' bill this month. August is our UGLY month. But, we will survive, with minimal scaring to show for it all...:P May the blue bird of happiness visit you today! Dina |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 12,August,2004 | Does anyone know anything about this subject?? Can you iron Velveteen?? For the love of god, someone please let me know! *snicker* I will post later today. Need to get my thoughts in order and I have been harping on a particular subject for a half an hour. It needs a break. But, I am positive that it will rear it's ugly head again and then you all will get an ear full. So, all I have to say is..BEWARE, the butterfly wrath is coming...to local theatres near you. HA!, now that would be cool. I could be a one woman show. BRING IT BABEE! |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 11,August,2004 | urlLink The whole Family! urlLink |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,August,2004 | urlLink This is my son Anthony! urlLink |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,August,2004 | urlLink This is my son Mathew! urlLink |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,August,2004 | urlLink As promised the *BOOM* brothers. On Gramma and Grumpa's Ranch in Montana! urlLink |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 09,August,2004 | urlLink Just cus, one wasn't enough! urlLink |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 09,August,2004 | urlLink Yummy! Good thing Red is one of my favorite Colors! :) urlLink |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 09,August,2004 | YeeHAW!, on saturday morning at the bright and earlier time of 8am, my big toe toenail was removed for .....FOREVER! I am still dealing with my freakiness...:P Actually, it went better then I thought. Well, that could be the Darvocet talking...*la la la* Will see if still holds true next week. Now, I am trying to figure out what I can wear to a wedding reception we have to attend on Sunday. Barefeet are in season....right?? My hubby says tennis shoes, but the thought of anything putting any pressure on my toe makes me cringe...*CRINGE* See ya told ya. So, I guess I will have to weed through my shoe closet and see what I can wear and then pick my outfit from there. *go me* I am thinking about posting the pic of my toe. It looks really, really....uhm, RAW! *snicker* I will decided tomorrow if I will be doing that or not. Peace my brothers and chickadees! |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 07,August,2004 | The hubby and I went to his sister's graduation party. I had a nice time. But, it appears my boobs have become quite a topic of discussion..*boggle* It's like they have taken on their own identity! I truly believe the girls in the Fam are jealous. So, me and 'the girls' would like to say this to them...'nah-nah-nah' Yes, I do indeed have a sensitive bone in my body....:P Really, I do care about their handicaps...NOT!!! |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 06,August,2004 | Frankie, showed me the way to this new little toy. *hugs Frank* I hope to be entertaining, that's about all I can promise. Right now, I am sitting and debating the very complex world of wardrobe. It's either striped capris or the army green ones. Decisions, decisions!!! Why must life be so hard?!?! Oh and..I WANT SLIDERS!!! *enough said on that subject* |
4,158,617 | female | 35 | indUnk | Gemini | 06,August,2004 | urlLink I and my son Matthew at his First Communion - May 2004 urlLink |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 29,July,2004 | The energy of this place makes me crazy, both angry and insane. All eight of us relocated in the house we grew up in. Eliyahu, Naftali, Tsiona, Ayelet and Aliza, not to mention the babies, Ema and Papa. I don't connect with the person who grew up here, mostly because that person was so disenfranchised. These days I feel quite the franchise, and, hoping somehow to make up for lost time, fail miserably. Getting dressed every morning is an ordeal. Morning coffee and cigarette must be taken locked in old bedroom. Nevertheless, She has calmed down and I'm not Her biggest problem. I have the sense that even She has come around to the humor of her situation. She is endlessly trying to sick her possy of manicurists and masseuses and waxers and make-up artists upon me, and sometimes I comply because then She inspects my eyebrows to make sure they are perfect, and stande very close to me and smiles very brightly if all is well. Miriam, Anthony, Nadya, you are all on my mind from far away. Noam, Noam. Having lunch with Ari and Cippi, Cippi who married Ari because Naftali wouldn't marry her. They want to sit around and reminisce about old times in which each and every one of us was miserable. Why, oh why, I can't figure it out. Schreibman has called twice...How to avoid seeing these fascists. Miss you all greatly. |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 26,July,2004 | My boss where I waitress told me the most moving story yesterday. Picture this guy, Jay. He's Nigerian, but his mom is American. So his English is very mildly accented, but it's mildly Ebonicsy, and the two seem to overlap most of the time. He wears tasteful jewlery, and shoots the shit with everyone in a comfort-level that suggests ghetto familiarity; but he also keeps a distance more respectful than the more ghetto types. So he talks the talk, but there's something not quite right about his picture. So I'm in between tables, and I ask him what his last name means, and he says it means 'Let the world rest.' He says his great-great-great etc. grandfather, about 10 generations back, was a warrior, and always the first to volunteer for war, so they would always bless him by saying, 'Let the world rest,' so he wouldn't be in danger. It became like a nickname for him, and then it became his last name. Anyway, this ancestor said that if any of his decendants ever needed anything, they could come and ask him, and he would help, even after he was dead. He was buried with a thick chain wraped around his body, and then he was lowered 69 feet into the ground, and the chain goes all that length, and sticks out of the ground where Mr. Let the world rest lies. Legend has it that if you are his ancestor, and you tug on that chain, he tugs back. 'Does he?' I asked Jay. 'Yes,' he admitted, his voice small. 'When I was a kid, it used to scare me...' Throughout the story, Jay's voice had the tone of one incredulous that he is actually uttering these words. I knew that I was the first person on this side of the rainbow to be hearing this story. It was all pretty unreal. |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 22,July,2004 | Friday Night Alexander and Noam met. I, however, was too drunk to pull off anything graceful, and contented myself if not with a job well done, at least with a job not botched. Before the party, Noam and I went out for dinner with A. and N. Noam and I argued politics, me claiming that Israel and Palestine no longer need political intervention, and he arguing that giving back Gaza is a way of not giving back West Bank. Anthony, insecure at the castration of his ever present authority due to his ignorance of political issues, began to chide us for bickering. I looked at him and harshly told him he wasn't helpful, just as Noam, ever in search of a father figure, implored A. to help us. Dinner ended somewhat strained, Noam annoyed at my political views, me annoyed at his caving to A.'s pressure, and A. worried that I was pissed at him. 'Are you angry at me?' he asked when he and N. took us to our car. 'No. I feel to guilty about my harshness to be angry.' He said it rang true, and we agreed to meet sometime soon. On the way back Noam and I decided to argue about politics rarely, and to do so respectfully. For example, it hurts him that I argue that Bush and Kerry are so similar because it entails that I don't think Bush is a jackass. I decided to preface any equalizing remarks with remarks about Bush's incompetence as a human being. Etc. We went to visit Papa at Lake Bruce and sat on a dock and in a kayak. I had this image of my child sitting next to us spalshing its feet off the edge of the dock into the water, and saying to me, 'Look, Ima, my feets are in the water!' Tomorrow I'm going to Israel, and must remember to call and see everyone. It will take masterful negotiation not to see Aliza Schreibman who I don't mind hurting like that because she broke my heart a year ago in July, and again this year in June. I'm still smarting. I'll send Naftali over to see her. |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 22,July,2004 | I have eaten the plums that were in the icebox and which you were probably saving for breakfast Forgive me they were delicious so sweet and so cold A poem by William Carlos Williams. And now, a poem by Batya: 'This is just to say' : I have stolen the heart that was beating in your chest and which you were probably saving for a better man Forgive me it is contagious so sweet and so pure |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 20,July,2004 | It's an age of forgotten passions. It's hard to recover that which gives me pleasure when I am in such new space, for example, waiting tables at Leona's and working for Mysterious Mystery Shopping. When you work a 12 hour day, the thought of watching a movie curled up on the couch with a beer and a cigarette trumps the idea of reading ANYTHING. I'm scared. Please, someone, convince me that there is an actual difference between John Kerry and George Bush... |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 15,July,2004 | In corsets, like we do, year after year, day after day. Oh to be alive. Feeling well, feeling in power. I know that indicates I'm thinking wrong about things, but until I can get my mind around the right way to go about picturing myself, at least I'm happy. I saw this movie yesterday called 'the grass is always greener'. Fantastic. Also: I love it how the Economist and the Wall Street Journal can say the same thing about the economy, I mean recite the same facts, but convince you of opposite states of affairs at the same time. It really goes along with Donald Davidson's thesis about paradigms and evidence. Melech Rachaman, Rachem Aleinu. Tov Umeitiv Hidaresh Lanu. Shuva Eleinu Bahamon Rachamecha. |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 17,August,2004 | Looking forward to Germany like chemotherapy--you solve one problem at the expense of loosing your hair, intense vomiting, skin boils, etc. Anyway, I'm still healthy, in case you were worried. Tsiona and Dani, thanks for calling last night. (PS. in America, we sleep at night, you know, from around 1-9 AM, ok?) I've finally come around to accept that this, well, IS my life. I'm not waiting for something exciting to happen, and I'm not expecting things to radically change. I'm just living it. I think that may mean I've given something up. What the hell. My parents and grandmother insist on driving me crazy. Very strange. I've decided that I need to give them as much as I can without expecting them to realize and without expecting any thanks (since nothing is enough). And so it blows, tiddlibum. |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 16,August,2004 | Lieszche and I went to see Princess Diaries 2 yesterday and ate $40 worth of coke and candies and shit, and got hyper-glycemic, and thoroughly enjoyed ourselves. It's early in the morning and it feels like winter is closing in all around, though it's far off. Something about the chill of these mornings is uncanny... |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 12,August,2004 | I used to think I'd whore my poetic tapestry to the first taker. Now I know it's not true. Rather: I now know I'd tax he nude in my bed. No, no, what's the word? Ah, welcome . I would welcome the nude in my bed, if only it weren't...Thursday. A poem from 'Hymns for the Drowning' by Nammalvar: Before I could say, 'He became cowherd fish wild boat,' he became a million million. or, perhaps, a favorite favorite? So which of us is drowning baby? I had a rare encounter today with a dark and evil thought that rang truly true like a newly acquired familiarity, and now, I am on the rampage. Furthermore: Alan Keys told the world today that Obama's position on abortion is akin to that of the slave traders--let the people decide, never mind what our moral commitments are. It's an oddly affable argument. I can't seem to stop smiling. If only there were no morality to the other side of things, the argument would actually shtim. As it stands, Keys looks a bit silly. Like the authors of the Talmud--'certainly it is our perogative to decide whose life is worth more, the mother or the baby. After all, we are MEN!' But, as my Rebbe Miriam says, sarcasm is not an argument. So here's the argument: fuck off. Don't tell me you want to marry me and then leave me a $50 tip when I can't throw it back in your face because of my credit card debt. Can't you see that the sight of you makes my knees shake, and bile rise in my throat?!? I hate you all. |
3,936,869 | female | 23 | indUnk | Aries | 05,August,2004 | All the world like a woolen lover once did seem on Henry's side. Then came a departure. Thereafter nothing fell out as it might or ought. I don't see how Henry, pried open for all the world to see, survived. Vehamavin Yavin. Almost back, almost home, or is it. Gay Israelis are the UberMenschen. You get all the burning suffering exciting and engaging conversation of an israeli without the trying to get laid mention the army as much as possible how can I force her into a place she casn't refuse bullshit. It's the perfect combination. They are, well, fabulous. (who would have thought this was the perfect combo waiting to happen.) I told the cook who catered the Sheva Brachot at our house that I am a waitress and he laughed in my face. He absolutely refused to believe me. He lives in Har Homa and called me 'Ati' the way Arab speakers do when they never realize the difference. Funny that. Murad was the same way. I could never bring myself to point it out. I think I'll always be that way. These days bring it up as a joke, but it's more painful that way. When I say I bring it up I mean things that would have shamed me as a fifteen year old and I thus asume are still shameful to my interlocutors. It's like retarded people--get over yourself!!! But Israel is good. Zev, I'll be at Shushan 4 tonight again with Eliyahu and maybe Jose--come join us. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 01,August,2003 | Hey crazy ninos! I've decided to start one of these bloggy things. God has been teaching me suh much lately...tis a shame not to write it down somewhere. So alas, I turn to the wonderful world of internet. So hopefully I can keep up and remember to write the things in here. I guess we will see how it goes, eh? (that was for all of you Canadians out there....) Peace. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 04,August,2003 | Weekend Stuffeseses My modem died so o I haven't been able to type anything on here over the weekend. Darn storms. Well, this weekend was pretty cool. I went to the Riverbats game with a group from Southeast Christian Church. It was the second game I've ever even been to ever. The other one was the Anaheim Angels...well unless you count little league, then I've been to three games total. Anywho, the game got kinda interesting in the last inning and then we lost. I walked around the stadium alot. It was kinda cool seeing all of the different people. I prayed for alot of them as I walked past. God's really placed that on my heart lately....praying for random people....cuz with God it's never random. All of the people that I have any kind of interaction with whatsoever whether it's as a really good friend or the cashier who always checks me out at the store or the waitress at the restaurant or a person I pass on the street and never say a word to, God has placed them all in my life and in my path for a reason. That's so crazy cool to think about!!! It makes you realize how interactive God is in our lives, whether we realize it or not. It definitely makes me think more about my responsibility as a Christian to pray for these people and, if so led, to start a conversation and possibly some kind of relationship with them. I pray that God would place these people in my path and give me wisdom and courage to take advantage of the opportunities He's given me. Sunday, I went to church. Woohoo. Kyle Idleman talked about servanthood and how we are called to serve not to be served. And our servanthood is not limited to people who are 'servable' (aka: nice, appreciative, respectable, yadda da yadda). We are also called to serve those who annoy us, are rude and unappreciative. And even if we know that they are going to hurt us in the future, it doesn't matter. This is such a big thing for me. I've been praying that God would truly help me to understand forgiveness as He sees it. I kinda hold to a kind of 'forgiveness' that says 'ok, i will try hard to get along with you despite the fact you've hurt me or ticked me off.' It's such bullcrap on my part. I've got to come to the point of realization that I will be hurt and I will be stepped on and even in those times I've got to step out and serve those people knowing that it will happen again but not allowing that to hinder my service or my thoughts about that person....anywho, it was just a whole lot about what I've been studying in Jeremiah....actually, I think I might just go ahead and describe in another post my current spiritual developments cuz they are suh exciting. The Vine was really cool. Worship was awesome despite the fact that I thought the floor was going to cave in....but it didn't :O) |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 14,October,2003 | Distractions The need to love. It is a strong and powerful force. Not just to be loved but to love - to experience the fulfillment. Relationships falter all around. It's hard to have hope. Yet the need remains. Our very nature yearns for these things. Yet when I search for the object of my love, I am left wanting. I wonder how people find each other, where it begins. Still, the need consumes me. I pray. I hear others speak of their need - how it consumes their life. I pray. It consumes mine too. I pray. The balance between the heavely and earthly is oftern twisted for the earthly I can see. But the heavenly surrounds me, lives within me. It penetrates my soul, my being. Yet somehow I'm blinded to it's presence. I trudge on down the sidewalk - the trees, the car, the people. My thoughts shift. How can I devote my heart - fully devote - to this God. A parking meter, a mailbox, a crosswalk. The God of the universe, the mighty creator. The gas station, a pothole, the noise. He calls my name, but I hardly hear. The traffic, the planes, the songs in my head. Dear God, scream louder. **This was written on 10-2-03 as I deal with the vice of allowing the distractions in my life to cloud my view of Jesus.** |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 14,October,2003 | Surreal I find no comfort in my surroundings. The trees, The sky, Even the very air I breathe - It all seems so surreal, As if they were masks created to convince my mind That knowledge is found through sight, That love is found through giving. I yearn to see beyond what is here, Not with my eyes Rather with my very being. There is something more. Something so unexplainable and uncomprehendable. Something that most people shall never see. Nor will they miss not seeing it, For they view the world only with their eyes. To open oneself up to the true source of vision is far too terrifying. Not because of what is seen, but rather for us to truly see, We must become transparent, Totally exposing ourselves to this harsh world. Yet even more terrifying, we must view ourselves as we truly are. So, we convince ourselves that happiness is found solely In our state of blindness. A lie that swallows our desire to see. **This was written on 8-5-99 when I was struggling through depression and God's role in it all. It is so awesome to see what God has brought me out of!! Still I find these words an insightful reminder of how deceptive our world can truly be and even moreso, how deceptive we are with ourselves.** |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 14,October,2003 | The Point Between Confusion steeps my soul with words much too difficult to say. And I sit here. Here in complacency, Here in denial, Here is self absorption. I don't want to talk about it. Not because I don't want to deal with it but because I don't know how. How to express the thoughts I'm thinking. How to make sense of the things I'm feeling. It all seems so circular. I don't even want to think about it Because I keep ending up at the same points over and over again. The bottom line is that it doesn't make sense. Is it me or is it them? Now I don't even know. And if it is me, then how can I truly know anything? At all? I can't. I don't. So I sit here. Here in confusion. Here in hopelessness. Only is doesn't really feel like hopelessness anymore. It is beyond that. My brain is foggy. I want to give up. But for what? A life of ignorance? Can I ever truly be happy with these thoughts in the back of my mind, knowing that I would be living a lie? So now, the problem is ever before me. While the solution evades the entire plateau of reason. I'm tired of talking about what I want. It doesn't make a difference anymore. I just don't even want to think about it My body is exhausted from the constant searching. It must end. There must be an answer. But where? Not in the frail logic of man. Not in the ever-changing emotions of man. Not in the hypocritical actions of man. Not in man at all. It must be elsewhere. In a place we continually try to overlook. Our stupidity drives us in the opposite direction And our pride keeps us there. Now it is no longer just about me. No, now it is about the whole. Humankind. We continue to look the other way as salvation stares us in the face. But we can't give up what little we cling to. Somewhere along the way, We were misled into believeing that this world is what our existence is all about. Pointless. Ignorant. We have tried to remove the true source of all that is. Thinking that we are the inventors, The discovers, The creators. Can we invent something that is already made? Can we discover what is already known? Can we create what has always been? We must relinquish this false power we believe we possess. For this is not the purpose. But still I sit here. Here as the whole. Here convicted of all that has come between. Here, I sit. **This was written 2-26-00 during a time when I was struggling through some very tough doctrine and looking at it all in light of how we as Christians, as people, live these things out.** |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 21,October,2003 | The Cost of Love The world crumbles around me, As the darkness rushes in. All the words I spoke in vain Tear and rip apart my skin. Exposing me to what is real Exposing me to truth. I lay here stripped and naked Looking everywhere but You. This truth it hurts my wearied heart, It makes me cry aloud. I try to quiet my aching pains As I whisper through the crowd. I smile and laugh and pass You by As if the world is full of glee But every breath I take Brings me closer here - to me. The darkness - it cannot prevail. Trembling I turn to face my fears. I feel some strength within me. I fight back the showers of tears. You have a plan and this I know A plan to bring me life, A plan to watch my darkest hours To call forth your wife. I turn to You with tear-stained checks How bright Your light does shine. I realize now, that the darkness I saw Was only because I was blind. By choice I went and shut my eyes Darkness filled my vision alone But when I turned and faced your glory, Radiance flowed from Your throne. I thank You God that You are King And that You are filled with love. For in my own power I can never attain Your blessings from above. But you have bought redemption You have sacrificed To live a life in love with me Paid at the highest price. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 20,October,2003 | Freed to Dance The space between dreams and reality is an ever-moving line. It dances. It spins. It twists and glides. Sometimes my heart is filled with thrill and awe. Sometimes - with aching and anguish. It all depends on how this space aligns itself. The moment of truth. This dance makes it difficult to know with certainty Which way to choose, Which path to walk, Which heart to trust, Which soul to touch. For one side can not make decisions based on the other. They each demand my all, Yet I yearn for the balance. I am pulled and torn and led away- Sometimes for good, Sometimes for bad. I ponder on God's design- His decision to place man in a real world But to give him a mind that can dream up another. Sometimes those dreams rip us apart. Other times they pull us together. So I will join the dance- Performed to the song of God's providence, Led by the hand of God's grace. Sometimes I might fall. Sometimes I might soar. But this space between the dreams and the real, Truly make life worth living for. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 15,December,2003 | Untitled Nothing is ever quite what it seems, As uncertainty spins its web, Clouding the hopes I treasured. I try to resist the trap, But I am taken in Through my desire to live, to love. This isn't how it's supposed to be. This isn't what you're supposed to say. I have rehearsed it over and over again On the stage of my mind. So follow the script And we will be alright. But you don't, so we aren't. What am I left with? Disappointment and depression. Can't we try it my way, Just this once? |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 28,May,2004 | Ode to a Night of Little Sleep My head is foggy as exhaustion overcomes. Faint memories of hostilities expressed fill my mind. What I have feared my whole life is coming to fruition. The uncontrollable release of emotions leave me volatile and unpredictable. I yearn for balance. I desire control. These things evade my grasp. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 27,May,2004 | Avoidance Life is well. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 25,May,2004 | My Coping Skills The mind-numbing bliss of Coronas and Saving Silverman shake me from a day of despair. A day full of avoidance as sleep provided an escape from reality. Damn reality. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 25,May,2004 | Words Float Away I try to conjure the words to express what I feel. But I can not fabricate them within the confusion of my thoughts. I only get brief glimpses of sanity as my thoughts fly by too fast for me to grasp. The world goes on as if all is well. The sun still rises. The sun still sets. The darkness still consumes the night. And I am left alone to wonder when peace will make it's presence known. The mundane tasks of everyday life bring no passion to my heart. I lack direction. I lack desire. I'm tired of scooting through life doing just enough to get by. I am not able to muster enough strength to take hold of my dreams. I have been beat down by the world. My arms, once strong, are no longer able to lift me from my burdens. My legs, once muscular, are no longer able to carry me away from the pain. So, I sit powerless as the world overtakes me. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 24,May,2004 | Another Day Confusion weaves a web around my thoughts. I grasp blindly for something to cling to...some sort of stability. I am met with nothing but empty spaces. As fear consumes me, I transform into an anxious creature, knowing nothing but the fight for survival. Hostilities scream within my head, warring with harmony for my attention. They win. They always win. I fight for control. But I lose. I always lose. As I torment myself, a victim of my own thoughts, I wonder if I will ever know peace. My only choice is distraction. It's a struggle but at least it provides momentary hiatus from the war within. But all too quickly it's over as I'm left to face the harsh reality. Religion, independence, career, confidence, school, spirituality, relationships, family, drama, friends, hobbies, passions, words, prayers, self discipline, understanding, edification, partying, hurts, depression, wounds, dissapointment...my world crumbles around me. Balance is non-existent. My strength wears thin. I can not do it anymore. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 03,June,2004 | Group Therapy Hostilities continue to war with my sanity. It sucks. It's never been safe for me to express my emotions. So I've held on to them, internalized them. Now I'm screwed. I'm tired of all the Christian shit about denying yourself, sacrificing yourself, anger is bad, what would Jesus do....God gave us our emotions so I'm sure he intended for us to use them. Not to suppress them in the name of piety. I'm so tired of my life of deceit. Now I'm ticked and I don't care who knows it. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 01,June,2004 | Fun Mind-numbing skills increase as I seek to fill my head with anything but reality. I'm getting better at this task. A weekend of wild fun in Nashville made it easier to cope. My reaction of absolute bliss versus my friend's hangover pains makes me wonder. But I don't want to think too hard right now. It was fun and that's all that matters. Now I trudge through the task of milling through my entire life of torment as I sort out what went wrong and where. All this to the tune of a cursing elderly woman who is darn friggin good at dragging things out of people. All this in front of an audience struggling through the same shit. I pray that peace will come. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 09,June,2004 | Sleepy I feel exhausted...emotionally, mentally, physcially. It's amazing how life can affect you. I don't know if this is natural or medicine induced or a combination of both. But I am worn out. Unfortunately, I can't sleep. There is no time. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 08,June,2004 | Overwhelmed. I don't know what other word to describe how I feel. There seems to be so much that needs work. So much for me to do. I'm stuck. I want it all to just go away. I'm tired of having to think about these things. Having to ponder these things. I understand my problem but I still don't know what the hell to do about it. I continue to distract myself. Sometimes I'm successful. Sometimes I'm not. In the mean time, I'm not about to commit to anything with anybody. My brain is shot. I can't even think straight. There doesn't seem to be a hope through this. Everyone says there is but I just can't even fathom the concept. I'm tired of it all. My obessive thoughts will ever plague me. I guess I should accept the fact that my illness will ever be before me. I can't fix it. Others can't fix it. I don't think it can be fixed. I'm tired of the hurt and the pain and all the shit I've been put through. I don't even care anymore. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 17,June,2004 | Ten Broeck Yesterday was my last day for group therapy. I so came to love that place. Hours a day in the midst of honest communication. It was something that I was missing my whole life. It developed into an environment that was safe, calm, and loving with Mary as our surrogate mother cheering us on and ripping us new ones - whatever was appropriate. I miss it. I miss being able to share my thoughts and feelings with people actually listening and me receiving honest feedback. I miss listening to other people and understanding the different fixes we use to compensate for our lost self worth. I miss being able to say shit and hell without being judged. I miss being about to talk about sex in a realistic way without being condemned. I miss being able to talk about my somewhat psychotic thoughts with people who are honest enough with their own shit to admit they've been in similar situations. It's amazing. We all had the same problem, just different symptoms. I need to take what I've learned in this setting and transfer it to my reality. But I'm not quite sure how that will play out. There are many things I have learned about myself. I know more about my problem and where it stemmed from. I'm learning to not be so critical of myself. It is so amazing how our childhood affects every aspect of our adulthood. Those messages that get stuck in our mind play throughout our lives. Sometimes they are good messages and that's awesome. But sometimes they are lies and that's when we have to step back and separate ourselves from them. I'm tired of the deceit. I'm tired of trying to live up to other people's expectations. I'm tired of wanting people to view me as some super Christian. I'm confused about how my spirituality plays into all of this mess. But I know I've been dished out some fucked up religious views that kept me in a life of shame and guilt. Well, I guess I will take it one day at a time. Today, I'm realizing that my crazy obsessions that seem to control me are actually my attempt to create chaos in my life because it's my comfort zone. It's what I'm used to. Throughout my life, there has been much legitimate chaos. I became so used to it that when it wasn't present, I was uncomfortable. So I start to obsess over past things to fill that void. I need to continue to realize when I'm doing this and kick it in the ass. Self worth is another HUGE issue. I basically have none. I need to restructure my thinking away from false religious precepts that have held me in bondage and toward the truth. Fuck lies. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 25,June,2004 | Baptists...Those Dirty Dogs Ok, so maybe it's the baptists that I hate. After years of growing up under the legalistic dogma that did nothing for me but enhance a sense of shame, I'm realizing that maybe belief systems aren't absolutes, like I had been led to believe. Years of hiding my faults and elevating myself above others as a disguise is coming to an end. And I'm damn glad it is. This screwed up behavior wasn't a conscious effort on my part. It was all that I had known. When things get messed up, you hide it. When you make a mistake, you hide it. When your family embarasses you, you hide it. You don't talk about it. Don't even acknowledge it. This is NOT healthy. Then you throw in the concept of religion and the stresses accompanying a world view that life demands perfection and so does Jesus. You have people who give you pre-fab answers to life's crappy events and stare at you like you're nuts for not tapping into 'God's peace.' I spent almost my entire life struggling with depression. Whenever I would try to talk to people about it, I would get fucked up answers like 'Whatever is worthy, noble, blah blah blah...think on those things', 'You may be unhappy with the circumstances but if you ask God, He will give you joy even in the midst of it all' and 'What would our passive Jesus do...turn the other cheek and move on considering it an honor to suffer for Christ.' Ok, so then I pray my whole life and where is this peace....no where. I am angry and hostile on the inside but Jesus doesn't like angry people....so Jesus must not like me then. But what if I just hide the anger and suppress it...maybe He won't notice. Again, these aren't things that I consciously thought about but perspectives I had developed based on the attitudes of those around me. I don't even want to start on the attitudes of the Baptists as a whole. My time at Seminary was by far some of the worst years of my life dealing with people. As a whole, the Seminary community cared more about proving a theological point to elevate themselves above others than they did about other people. It's so ironic because it should be the one place with the most caring people but it isn't. They sit around and gossip in the name of 'prayer requests', they spread rumors and lies with no regard to the people they are hurting, they are dishonest with the things they struggle with leading them to a lifestyle of hidden sin stuck in a perpetual cycle, they get more upset over petty things like language and immodest clothing than they do about the reason they are even at Seminary....because people are GOING TO HELL. My years spent there were one big lie. It was enveloped in deception. They twist God's word to make themselves look better. This is not what I see as the church when I read the Bible. Then there's my church that I grew up in...a power hungry pastor elevated above questioning and bent on intimidating those he comes in contact with. A church that says shit to you when you wear jeans to church because everyone knows that Jesus hates those disrespectful jeans. So we must all dress up and act like everything is wonderful so other people at church will think we are super Christians, all the while we are falling apart on the inside. Our families are eroding...dads are fucking younger women, kids are doing drugs, moms are popping pills...then we dress up in our Sunday best and act like everything is wonderful. It's bullshit. I hate the deception and I hate the lies. I've done it for so long but I'm finished. No more. I'm not going to live my life to make other people view me a certain way. I'm going to be myself. If people like me, then they like me. If they don't, oh fuckin' well because I'm not going to bend over and kiss my ass for every person who won't accept responsibility for their own shit. I don't know how all of this will play out but I know that things are definitely changing and I kinda like it. I have the right to live a life of freedom and not hold myself under the burdens of this shitty world. So, that's what I'm going to do. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 06,July,2004 | ... All or Nothing Black or White Rigid or Open Passive or Aggressive This is what codependents flip between. It's one extreme or the other. Either side is unhealthy. You are to desire a balance between the two. But now, in my codependency, I have journeyed from the far left to the far right. I don't want to be screwed over again. I don't. And now I'm going to make sure that it doesn't. The problem is...I'm turning into a real bitch. To be honest, it feels good. But unhealthy none the less. I guess it's a process. I wish I knew how to find a balance...until then...I feel kinda bad for those who tick me off. I'm sure sooner than later I will feel remorseful for those I offend. Until then, I'm going to have fun with my new found freedom of speaking my mind. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 20,July,2004 | beachchick After a week in Myrtle Beach, I am quite dissappointed to wake up and not have a beach to run and play at in the mornings. The responsibilities of 'real life' smack me in the face. Vacation was so much fun. I am so glad I got to spend time with my fam (Mom, Lou, my sister Cindy, her bebe daddy Chris, my nephew Caleb, my step-nephew Tyler, my step-niece Taylor, my step-sister Amy, her husband Mike and my step nephew Alan) and also with Rachel. I was so excited to have a friend on my family vacation. It made the night time fun. It's amazing some of the shit we got ourselves into....all in good fun of course. It's so cool to go and meet new people and get to know them as well. The first day we were there, we went parasailing. It was way fun. They make you sign your life over and keep saying it's for 'thrill seekers' but honestly it wasn't freaky at all. It was very relaxing. The banana boat ride out there was way more thrilling. Also the hot guys who operated the boat thing were more exciting. But I'm definitely glad I did it. It was very very relaxing. The waves in Myrtle Beach are awesome!! Not as big as Cali but Cali waves are scary. Also, east coast water is warmer and easier to swim in. One night after it stormed. We went and fought the crazy waves for hours. It was sooooo friggin fun. We kept getting yelled at by the lifeguards because we were too far out!!! So much fun....for reals!! We went out to eat at a seafood buffet place one night....actually it was a friggin Chinese restaurant that had a bunch of seafood. I felt ripped off but that's ok because we got all you can eat crab legs for $15. Rachel ate over 5 lbs of friggin crab legs....yeah, she likes food. We also went outlet shopping.....which seems to be my favorite past time lately. I got lots of fun stuff. There were a bunch of little shops along Ocean Blvd too. I got a cute little shirt for Caleb that said 'If you think I'm cute then you should see my aunt'. I had to buy it!!! I also got the cutest Corona outfit. I don't know why I'm so obsessed with Corona wear....probably because I'm pretty obsessed with Coronas....but you know....anywho, I got a cute little pink tank top with the Corona logo and a cute little white mini skirt thing with Corona written on the butt in pink. Also, at one of the first stores we went to, I met this little asian guy, probably in his 30's. He worked there. We started talking and he mentioned competing in Aikido tournaments in Japan and I was like sweet. Cuz you really don't meet a lot of people who even know what Aikido is. So we talked for a bit. I don't know if he was hitting on me or what. It was weird. He was like maybe I can come to KY and teach you Aikido. He gave me his number and everything. I'm thinking um....ok. I don't quite trust him though because when I mentioned the name of the guy who started Aikido, Morhehei Ueshiba, he didn't know what I was talking about. And that's just weird. Oh well.It was weird. But cool to talk to a new person none the less. The clubs in Myrtle Beach are pretty fun. The first night we went out, we went to the House of Blues. They have a cute little deck bar area with a live band. We had a couple of drinks and were about to leave when the bartender came over and said this hot guy, Josh, wanted to buy us some drinks so...of course we didn't want to hurt his feelings. We ended up hanging out with him and his family and neighbors, who were all there on vacation, all night long. They were kinda wealthy. They bought us lots of drinks and we all danced (with all of them) and had fun. Seriously, they were all crazy!!! The whole family!!! They were staying in our same hotel so we all went back to their room and chilled. They were very cool people. Plus Josh was hot....did I mention that??? The next night we decided to stay in and chill. We went all bummed out to the hotel bar and ended up having the most lame time of my life!! The woman who worked there was so annoying and harassed this guy for over 20 minutes about bringing alcohol into the bar. Finally I was like...WE MUST LEAVE NOW BEFORE MY BRAIN EXPLODES. She just wouldn't shut up about it. So we got dressed up and went out to the Spanish Galleon which was kinda a lame club. We were bored out of our minds there too until we met Sean (Shawn?)....the coolest accountant in North Carolina. He was bored too so we started playing bar/club games to amuse ourselves. These consisted of dancing like retards in the cage (and amazing enough we fit in because most people there could NOT dance) and then picking out really ugly people or bad dancing people for each of us to go dance with. I made Rachel dance with this redneck with a mullett. Sean picked this bald funny looking guy in a 007 jersey for me to dance with. Unfortunately there weren't many busted girls for Sean to dance with so he got off easy. After that I spent the rest of the night dancing with Sean. He cracked me up to no end!! I wish he lived in Louisville because he is so the kind of guy that I go for....laid back and amazing sense of humor. I so regret not getting his contact info. Maybe I can find him with my stalker skills....who knows. Overall, it was a fun night with very little drinking. Probably the most fun I had. The next night we drove down to the Freaky Tiki. This club is crazy. I later found out it's been on Wild on E and MTV. Fun times for us. We actually had gone to Mother Fletcher's first but it was lame. This older guy there bought us some drinks and then went with us to Freaky Tiki and hooked us up there as well. He was really nice and not creepy. Just said he wanted us to have a good time our last night there. Plus I think he liked walking around with 'hot chicks' (ha). Anywho....this place is nutso...it has beds with tables and stuff, flames all over the walls, tv's all over the walls. They even have a 'foam room' where you can dance in bubbles....really weird. Rachel went to take a picture and slipped on the steps and busted her ass. She has the biggest bruise now. It so sucks for her. We had to leave soon after that and on the way out this cute foreign guy started hitting me so I talked to him for a bit. Oh....I almost forgot....the boxer short contest!!! Fun times for the ladies. That was the end of our fun. So sad. I am seriously sad. I wanna go back. Ok, I'm done. |
1,357,293 | female | 25 | BusinessServices | Aries | 28,July,2004 | Reconciliation Confusion still clouds my mind. Changes have been made. All or nothing has been epitomized. Things that used to mean everything to me now mean very little. I'm just tired. I feel as though I've spent my whole life trying to live righteously, putting others first and truly seeking a higher power. And now I'm just bitter. I've been run over, taken advantage of and treated like shit. I figured if this is how it's going to be, if my efforts are so in vain, then I'm going to live my life and have fun. Either way I'm screwed so I might as well enjoy it more. It's just the inconsistancies in life that boogle my mind. For example, why is it that the 'good little christian' boys treat me like shit. They are disrespectful and twisted. And these are the people that are supposed to be good and encouraging. BUT...the drunk random guys from the clubs, they are quite respectful. When I say no, they say ok. Now what is up with this shit?!?!?!? It doesn't make any sense. I feel like things are out of control. I know I'm being used but I'm using other people as well. So does it matter?? I don't feel bad. I don't feel guilty. I do feel somewhat uneasy if I think really hard about it. But I'm not sure if that is guilt from my actions or from my legalistic past that would tell me to never even speak with people who lived their lives in such a way. It's fucked up. So I'm just going with the flow, trying to survive. I am having more fun which is cool. I feel more free. I'm having a hard time reconciling these things in my head. Beliefs, actions, values, virtues.....how do they all interact??? |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | The weekend was great. Sat we celebrated Nicole's Graduation at Sam Woo's (check carlene's blog for pictures) then headed back to the house for more socializing and drinking. Sunday juss had a chill day, went to hooka with Carlene, ate In-and-Out and rented Mooseport (that movie with Ray Ramano)pretty good movie. So today we're headed to watch the game and have B.B.Q. with some new friends we made Sat (Paolo and Janelle). They both do archery and thats something Carlene and I have always wanted to try so I'mma take a shot at it when we head there in about 15 mins...Look out Orlando =P Oh and today is Game 5 of the Lakers and Wolves... 3-2 Lakers, hmmmm I wonder how this is gonna go down. I can't lie a little part of me is routing for the under dogs but I can't be too open bout that or I'll be shot here in LA...enven though they ain't in the runnings I have to say it...'go raptors'...k YAY LAKERS WOOOOOOOO!! |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | The time now is 3:11 pm and I'm still at work but I just had to blog about the good news! Kay, heres the run down: Carlene has been looking for an internship in the field of Graphic Design so that she can gain some early on experience before entering fully into her career. So she had contacted a few places and this one place, I believe they're called 'Creative Imagination'; had called her in for an interview. They we're looking to hire someone for a 'paid' internship ...That's right paid baby! So this was the perfect opportunity for Carlene to get the experience under her belt AND get paid for it. She was a little nervous and wasn't sure if she'd get it but.... SHE GOT IT!!! UN HUH! *does a funky victory dance* Yep she just called me and I almost went into tears, thats how happy I am for her... that and she can help pay rent now hehehehe jk! No really I am so proud of her, she truly is an awesome designer.. she thinks I tell her that just cuzz I'm her bf but it's true. I don't know anyone else who takes time to really think outside the box. I mean her design and concepts go far beyond her instructors expectations and being that I am in the same industry I can honestly say that we need more designers like her. CONGRATULATIONS BABY! I'm sooo proud of you! Let's celebrate tonight, dinner and a movie on me k? Love ya! |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | T-minus 4 hours 3 mins 12 sec till gym time. I woke up 5am this morning too groggy to do anything so I X'd the gym routine this morning and instead I'm gonna meet Carlene at L.A. Fitness @ 6pm to try and catch a Spin class and then do some weight training. K back to work... |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | urlLink 'WHATCHU MEAN SHE'S SCARED!?!?' This picture was taken when Carlene and I decided to have ourselves a lil' picnic. Yep we had the picnic basket, blanket and everything. We went to this park her mom used to take her and her sister when they were young. It was nice to kick back, relax and watch our Penelope (our dog) frolic around in her american flag dress Carlene's mom got her from the Philippines. I know she's spoiled but can you really say no to that face? I mean really... |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | I know I know...you're probably thinking, isn't Sonny doing the whole living healthy thing? I am it's just that this weekend I slipped. Well maybe not the entire weekend, lets break it down: Friday: - went over to Carlene's in Chino Hills - watched Shrek 2 (kick ass movie) - snacked on some candies and junk food (it begins) Saturday: - help clean up the house - wash the cars - made BBQ steak for dinner (not bad but it was late) Sunday: - Connected and networked Carlene's mom and sister's computers to the web - Watched the Laker game - Bought and ate Bravo Burger (all hell broke loose) Yep it was a pretty sad site. If you could only see the carnage this food caused. I mean we juss lay on the floor and couldn't move. Looked like somone dropped a bomb and we were the after-math. So tonight it's time to hit the gym and burn off those weekend calories. Other than that I feel good and work right now isn't crazy hectic so I'm glad. Pictures coming up soon... |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | If you were to look at my life right now, thats what some might say. In some aspects, my life is just that...boring. I hate to say it but I have become soooo routine. Everyday I... • wake up • exercise • go to work • come home • Q.T. with Carlene • sleep And it just repeats. I know once something becomes routine sooner or later it becomes boring and I fear that is what I am becoming. Partially because, and I think this could be one of the many reasons... I don't have a lot of my own set of friends here, sad but true and it's partially my own fault. It'll be a year next month since I moved from Canada to sunny California and I must admit it's hard to make friends outside of Carlene's group of friends. I figure it was easier back in the day because I was still in school and it was just easier to meet people on a daily basis who were in your age group and had similar interests. Now that I'm done school and working the making friends thing is a little harder. I can't use the whole...' I just moved here from Canada' bit because 1 yr is more than enough time to adjust. I need to get out more, join groups or something and I'm gonna start doing just that this weekend. Well tonight I'm heading back to Carlene's place in Chino and we might hit up a grad party, then tommorow nite is her friend's b-day so we'll do that but on Sunday I'm free to go back to Costa Mesa and figure out what there is to do. What groups are there to join around my apartment. I wanna stay away from the Club and Bar scene, I am so over that part of my life....but what else is there to do? Thats my new task, to try to make my life NOT routine and to find new and interesting things to do and if I happen to make some friends along the way bonus... On a good note....NO MORE MOHAWK!!!! Thats right, mohawk just for one day. I couldn't take it no more so yesterday after work I went to go get it fixed. It's really short right now but it's better than what I had before...WAAAAAAY better =) I'll start adding pix and updatiing you guys bout my new adventures real soon... |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | It's been a while since I had a decent hair-cut and as of late it looks like I've been in desparate need of one. Now if your anything like me I'm picky with who cuts my hair and i takes a long time to actually find a barber/salon who can cut my hair without me having to worry about wearing a hat or calling in sick the next day. I had that comfort zone with a particular salon back in Canada and they've been cutting my hair for over 7 yrs. But now I moved to Cali, things have changes and I have to start from scratch. Son in my search I've had to deal with 'Super Cuts' and 'Fantastic Sams' and even a place called 'Hair Cutters'. They all were decent cuts but not really to my liking. My search lead me to what was near my apartment which I have just moved into recently so I'm still getting familiar with the area. And what do you know, there's a Paul Mitchell Salon just round' the corner from my apartment. Carlene had taken the liberty of making an appointment for me @ 8pm last nite. I was happy that it would only cost me $10, sweetness...but did I mention it was a Paul Mitchell SCHOOL!? Yep I had agreed to get my hair cut done by a student with full knowledge my hair is no easy task, with 3 collics in my head, weird shape and on top of that my hair cut before was masacred by a little asian lady who cut my hair wearing over-sized latex gloves....At first I thought wow she must be very hygenic but not too smart wearing gloves that are too big while cutting peoples hair with sharp tools! Then I saw posters on the wall with her in a doctors uniform and the big gloves toting a pair of sheerss with the headline saying : 'Who's gonna operate on your head today?' Fear and disbelief filled my mind and sure enuff she messed up my head...But all thats ok now since I'm going to The Paul Mitchell School to get it fixed right? Well I get in at 8 and I wait for say 15 mins. The place is packed, I guess a lot of people were wiling to get their heads done so I wasn't so worried at that moment. Then I hear my name called out and this guy Justin comes out, a punk-ish into the import car scene kinda guy. Nice guy but.....in the two hours it took for him to cut my hair he managed to butcher my head all the while I'm thinking 'it's gonna get better, it's gonna get better, I don't have my glasses on so it must look ok, it's gonna get better'..... 2 hrs later and I walk out with a wack ass MOHAWK!!!!!!! k it's not too bad but a mohawk??....I don't think I'll be heading back to that slaughter house anytime soon. Maybe it's because I go my hair cut done by a phase one student, I should have got it done by a phase two for $5 more...Dammit. Oh well hair is hair and it'll grow back rite? *forced smile* I think I'll head to a salon after work to get it fixed.....*ponders the thought* To be continued.... |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | '...and now I hit publish...dammit...' yep that kick ass blog entry I thought I had published durring my lunch break today somehow didn't go through...poop on a stick. Maybe if I feel like it I'll re-cap what happened today later tonight, but the question of the moment is...Where is Carlene??.... she's at school =( I got home from work and she's not here, I can't call her cell cuzz she left it at her moms....Now I know what Carlene means when she's says it sucks to be at the apartment alone....well I'll juss sit here and read some books till she gets back. Tonight is movie night so when she gets back we'll walk to Hollywood Video ....=) |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | Juss saw my bank statement...it's diferent from yesterday, ALOT different. So right now I feel a little crappy. I also finished reading my gf's blog entry about how there's a site for imaginary gf's and you have to pay for it, how sad... yeah imagine doing a spin off to that site... 'perfect boyfriends' cuzz you know perfect boyfriends are imaginary....funny stuff Well at least tomorrow is pay day...yay |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | Ok...Since I lost my Clie (PDA), I know sucks ass!!!! I need to find an alternate way to give myself reminders of things to do or specific dates. So, being that I'm on the computer all day at work I might as well use my blogger for this purpose, well until I buy a new PDA oh and get Carlene one too. (I know she really wants one even though she swears by her traditional pocket organizer) Having my own apartment is pretty cool, there's just a few things I need to get like cable...Well I can live without cable since I don't watch alot of TV plus it gets me to do other things like read books! I'm currently reading 2 books: 'Marketing Plan' by Don Debelak and 'The 21 Irrefutable Laws of Leadership' by John C. Maxwell. I'm really diggin' both books from what little I read so far, both will help me in my future plans in terms of where I'd like my career path to go. Well thats all for tonight, gonna watch a movie Carlene and I rented 'Girl With The Pearl Earing'. K here's da list for 05/13/04: - email Carlene with the response email I got from one of the graphic designers - 11am meeting with kustomerkinetics - finish outlining and color correct AJ's bags to upload to the web - make the changes for the Berkley site and upload b4 the end of the day - work on NYX header cards and display boards |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | Early 90's music blasting in the office??? OH HELL YEAH!! The other day Rudy and I started talking about music and 90's music entered our convo. Names like C&C Music Factory and PM Dawn popped up. We even found out each others obsession with Milli Vanilli. Rudy went as far as to getting his hair braided, I on the other hand had made a home music video lip syncing to 'Girl you know it's true' with a Mop head fastened to my noggin. Yea I know....dork, but you find me one person at that time when no one knew they were fakes who didn't like them....you liked them, yeah....you did. So anywayz, that convo sparked me to download a bunch of song's from the early 90's. I even got this one mix that's 1 hr long....awwwwwwwwww g'yeah!!!!!!!!!! Let's get this party started right....let's get this party started quickly! |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | Well it's been a really long time since I have attempted to blog, and the truth is I was just gettin lazy and was just finding it hard to make time for it. But then tonight Carlene had told me how blogspot had a new setup for their blog sites...Comments now? Shut Up! So we both got on the site and signed me up. This is good...getting back to blogging since my family is in Canada and I talk to them like once every 2 weeks, it gives them an outlet to see how I'm doing on a daily basis. So with that here's the run down to get you guys up to speed with whats happening in my life: - I'm still with my wonderful gf Carlene - I moved into an apartment in Costa Mesa - got a kick ass bed set and mattress for choice price with help from Carlene - still with that Marketing Advertising Agency KMG and things are going well - going back to Canada June 23rd for a week to visit family and friends - Oh and did I mention I turned a quarter century last month yay Thats all I can think of right now, I'll post some pictures up and blog in more detail soon...I miss my puppy =( |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | urlLink Yep, it's official! Our little Penelope has made her way to urlLink DOGSTER.COM! Carlene's sister urlLink Nicole signed Penelope on a Friendster like website for dogs, it's cute and Penelope already has friends how funny! I better do a background check on them...hmmmmm |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | yes yes I know I haven't posted in a long while, for that matter my site wasn't even up so I do apologize. But now that it's back up, it's back to business. Here's the breakdown update: - Next week on the 29th I'll be on a plane with Carlene back to Canada to visit my family and friends whom I haven't seen in roughly 1 yr. - My company is moving to another building so new environment new energy, just good things all around Um there's more but I'm on my lunch break and it's almost over so I gotta bounce. I'll be back later tonight to finish this update =) |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | (The Scenario) On my way to work, driving on the 5 fwy and I start to have an un-easy feeling. Can't quite explain it but something inside me felt weird. No it wasn't the food or the hooka I had last night with Carlene, Jill and Sarah (That was fun btw, Jill and Sarah are welcome anytime at the Apt.), it was something else. So I arrive at the office on time and punch in. Lorraine (my co-worker) arrives soon after. I begin the usual 'Good morning' and proceed with small talk. The topic of the last episode of 24 came up and she was telling me about bombs attached to some guys arm and having to chop it off with an axe, more bombs and terrorists ish.... *ring, ring* All eyes on the office phone...I pick it up. Me - 'Good morning, Kurianski Media Group' Caller - *muffled* 'What suite are you?' Me - 'Pardon me? You'll have to speak louder, it's very difficult to hear you...' *now un-muffled I can hear him clearly this time with a middle eastern accent* Caller - 'What suite are you? I am outside RIGHT NOW!' *After talking bout 24 with bombs and terrorists, my mind starts running and I must admit I was a little thrown off* Me - 'um...who do you want to see or what is this concerning?' Caller - 'I am outside! Tell me where you are!' -- Turns out he's this dude who's supposed to pick up a CD with files he's paying for. So in the end he wasn't some guy who wanted to bomb my place of work. He just wanted a CD and gave me $60 for it. I knew it all along... ;) |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | The time now is 11:08 am. As I have said earlier the company I work for urlLink KMG , has just moved to a new building and so today a guy named 'Gus' from ADT is installing the system. Seems like a normal day so far untill I walk past him while he's on the ladder... Not before, not after I pass him but while I am right beside him...he lets one RIP!!!! *FART* Oops he's says with a childish grin. Man right at that moment I was filled with so many mixed emotions, I didn't know weither to say gross out loud, gag and say 'excuse me I'mma go shower now'. Yep this day seems interesting already... |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | I know I know... I promised to update more frequently and I'm not. It's just that ever since I got back from Canada it's been hectic here in sunny Cali. Work especially has been a whirl-wind of over-time to catch up on jobs and to complete new ones, oh and did I mention we moved to a new building!? So on top of all that work we had to deal with the move durring the week. Now that we're here at the new building we still got to paint the walls cuzz you know to be a Marketing/Advertising/Design Firm we can't just have plain white walls, we need some splashes of color to get our creative juices flowing =) We're also removing the grey carpet and putting down hardwood. I have taken some pictures of our move and the new location so I will post that up a little later. Also I got pix from rafting, not the pix you've seen already on Carlene's or Nicole's site but ACTION shots supa coooool hahaha. Ne wayz I will post that all real soon but for now I gotta get back to work, just wanted to post to make sure that the one or two of the people that do read my daily ramblings besides Carlene and her sis know that I am posting and that this site is not static...er stagnet...or whatever you wanna call it... I posted dammit! THERE! -- peas |
3,316,021 | male | 25 | Arts | Aries | 11,May,2004 | Yep after a long hiatus I'm back. Sorry I haven't been updating as much, I've just been real busy with work and all which I will get into later but first..... Picture Time!!! I just got back from Canada the other week for a long overdue visit. I haven't been back home in a year so it was real nice seeing family and friends again. So scroll down and enjoy the pix, more to come. Oh and for all my friends who I didn't get to see, I'm sorry I promise I'll kick it with y'all next time I'm down ;) urlLink Downtown Toronto, my home for 24 yrs urlLink Carlene and I looking over a menu at Jack Astor's urlLink My best friend Chris of over 17 yrs and I urlLink Abbey, Myself, and Jay at Jack Astor's urlLink Chris and Abbey trying to do a candid shot, nice try urlLink Myself and my cousin Ron urlLink Carlene, my bro Mark, myself and Mark's gf Amanda urlLink Chris, Abbey, and Jay urlLink Ron and I cooling down urlLink Anna my sis and Chris at Wonderland urlLink Ron, Myself and Carlene's nose. urlLink Ron and I getting ready to jump XTREME SKY FLYER! urlLink Ron's grabbing my arm because he's a poompsy. urlLink Another successful jump. urlLink Carlene and I taking a tourist pic. urlLink Just another day in ChinaTown with Steph urlLink The Three Amigos urlLink Stephanie and her daughter Angelica urlLink Sarah and Stephanie urlLink Rachel and Me urlLink Hanging out with my old co-workers from LiftTow urlLink We are all complete. urlLink Sarah (cousin), Carlene, Steph (sis) urlLink Siblings 4 ever! :) |
3,536,864 | male | 14 | Student | Leo | 25,June,2004 | Stealthy Assignment It had been 6 hours since the briefing. The previous night, a special ops meeting had taken place in an American outpost just outside of Warbah, Kuwait. Attending, had been Joshua Bradley, a member of the American delta force. Bradley had been called to rescue another member of the Special Forces that had been captured earlier in the week. Not only to rescue him, but to also reacquire his explosives and destroy the bridge that should have already been in rubble. The POW, Jim Foley, along with another of his comrades, was sent to destroy a bridge, on the Iraqi, Kuwait border; 50 miles south of Umm Qasar. However, guards spotted them and Foley was captured. Thus Bradley’s call. Taken to the outpost, he was briefed on the situation and put on the helicopter to the Kuwait Iraqi border. Sitting in the helicopter now, Bradley sweated. Just thinking of the job he had to do overwhelmed him. According to the intelligence compound, he was going to have to pass through the guards and checkpoints unnoticed. If the alarm was raised, then things would become difficult. In the cockpit, the pilot glanced back at him and noticed that he was studying his map. Indeed he was, he wasn’t given a GPS this round. They would take to long to connect to the satellite and, at worst, might be pin pointed giving away his position. A bump jolted him from his studying. He looked up and saw the drop point. His rifle, a colt m-167A with an attached grenade launcher, sat ready in his hands. It was just before dawn, the sun was already beginning to rise, and the dew had already soaked into the ground. “Ok! This is it!” That was his cue. The helicopter was 15 feet above the ground; it was time to go. Bradley slid to the ground on rope. He watched as the helicopter sailed away. In his mind he could still hear his commanding officer, “Ok, just get in, get Foley, get the C4, blow the bridge, get out. BUT! Remember! If the alarm is raised, you’re probably toast. Stealth is everything.” It was quiet now, the helicopter was already on its way back to base, and he was alone. He crunched his way through the underbrush and scoped the area. He was in a canyon. There were two sheer, smooth rock walls on either side. A way down the path, there was a steady decline in the terrain. The path wiggled side to side in the same fashion of switchbacks. A small building was at the landing. Across from the building was a ditch the spread the length between either side of the canyon walls. A bridge, large and strong, strong enough for a tank Bradley noted, was on the far left side of the ditch. Carefully, he inched his way to the first low drop on by the top of the switchback. On the landing were three trucks one crossing the bridge and the other two waiting in line. Suddenly, the roaring sounds of a jet sounded. Frantically he looks around, fearing that it would give away his position. Interestingly enough, it was an allied A-10 Warthog. Squinting, he could make out something falling from the plane’s bomb bay. The ordinance howled as they pounded the tow trucks on the landing. The third made it over the bridge. On impact, a man ran out of the building. He was armed. Seeing this, Bradley scrunched down even lower. As he steadied his rifle the sights were leveled. The rifled sounded off as three shots burst through the crisp air. As another soldier saw his fellow on the ground, he looked up and spotted the sweating Specialist. As the enemy opened fire so did Bradley. Having a better weapon and training far exceeding his opponent’s, the combatant fell quickly. Upon seeing his opponent on the ground, acting rather un-life like, he stood up and made his way down the path. However, another soldier came across the bridge. Seeing Bradley, he took cover behind a sign near the bridge. A sign doesn’t hold up very well against a grenade. Neither does the man behind the sign. Continuing down the path, he trotted towards the building on the landing. Entering, he found a radio, medical supplies, and a refrigerator that had food in it, but was unplugged. Not really finding another use for any item except the medical supplies, which he had already commandeered, he left. After crossing the bridge, the path took two different routes. One of which turned right and led up to a checkpoint. The other route went through another canyon and split into many different paths. Having been warned to avoid detection, he decided upon the left route. Walking cautiously down the path, he observed that the sun was fully raised. Avoiding detection would be more difficult now than ever. Ah, man! One wrong step and I’ll land myself in the pit with the rest of the MIAs. Bradley tensed with every sound, watching cautiously around every corner. He was in a small canyon, with rock on either side, smoothed by the blowing sand, and nothing but sand and dirt in between. TM Pivotal Games |
3,536,864 | male | 14 | Student | Leo | 22,June,2004 | It really is late. You can tell by the way I'm typing that i'm a bit tired. I've been staying up late for the last three days. But no more of that, time for a random quote... Aha! ZuluChim: hey-ness Pharsalus8948: is that like what a horse says while he's eating with a long face at a bar? ZuluChim: very much like that That was a bit random. I need to post a story that I've written, but it is very long and I don't want to post it all at once. After I post this blog, i will post one portion of my story, then so on and so forth. |
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