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3,821,963
female
15
Student
Leo
06,July,2004
HaiYo..todae nTh mucH except tt i so bRoke..reTurn meL tHe mOney den livIng iN pOvertY..haHa..bUt afT scH verY faRni..coZ todaE afTerNooN raIn ma..den jIe hui deY all suGGesTed walkIng to whitesaNds..actually feeL lyk taKing bus..buT siNce it's lyk onli drizzliNg i agrEed loRx..but daMn suaY..walk half waY raIn get biGGer..i sharinG umbrella wiF xin yi den her umbrella sO lite until the wiNd hOrx..blow the umbrella uP..eH..noT exactly explosiVe tt type laRx..haha..hOw to descriBe leHx..deN xIn Yi sO amuseD by it tt shE doubled ovEr loRx..dUn understaNd alSo wat's sO farNi..kena drencheD lyk duNo wat..in the end..we stoP oveR at tHe pavilion in The park but still drencheD lyk siaO..afteR reaching whitesands we weNt to the library tO return sOme boOks beFore going oLd chanG kEE to buy currY puffs..i gOt addicteD tO deM sia..bUt it's fattEning..heeZ..
3,821,963
female
15
Student
Leo
05,July,2004
Cant stand my parEnts smtimEs..willinG to take Out mOney gamBle but wheN it cOmes tO gettiNg alloWanceS frOm thEM..alwis saE nO moNey..oR so stinGy..will it diE to GiB me extrA moNey..deY arE sO calculaTinG..gibIng mE onLi 4 bucks a daY..whEn i gO out alsO nV asK deM foR moneY anD yet saE i speND moNey lyK wateR..plEasE!!if i ever waN to Go ouT wiF my freNs foR a moVie i wouLd haVe to savE foR at leasT 2 wks..provideD i go on 'DIET' foR thE twO weeKs..buT whEn i dUn eat..deY will sCold mE..saE lata caNNoT groW tallEr or watevA..nOw i bought a nEw dreSs anD i borroWed tHe moNey frOm my frEn..i thInk i juZ havE tO starVe fOr 3 weeKs..beFore i Can retuRn heR all tHe moNey..haiZ..y liFe is lyk tt For me..all mY frEns almoSt get twiCe my allowAnce pEr daY & caN eveN get xtrA moNey whEn deY gO out wiF theiR frEns..whEn i gEt juZ 10 bucKs frOm my mOm to Go out..she giB me the moneY reluctantlY onLi aft i beG heR anD eveN call me aN unGrateful braT..saE wO mei liaNg xIn..wth..if my parEnts arE williNg to foRk ouT 500 or 1000 bucKs to gO gamBle and PreparE to losE thE moNey..i juZ sEE no reaSon whY shE is so stingY wiF the moNey wheN it cOmeS to buyinG smTh of valuE and be ablE to use it..my parEnts' retoRt iS..gambliNg haS wInninG aNd losIng..shucks larX..whaT caN i dO..i m stiLL a studEnt..stiLL havE to DepenD oN deM to pay my scH fees etc ma..franKly speakIng..Our family wuN be iN dirE straiTs if deY did nOt becUm addictEd to gambling..we usEd tO be quitE wealthy oKie!!nOw my fatHer havE to resoRt to sEllinG his MercedeS beNz juZ to pay ofF his gambling debts..eveRy nOw aND theN..my parEnts also quarrel ovEr thE issUe of moneY..it's reali Full oF shiT!!!!!dUno waT theSe adUlts arE thInkinG..theiR frEns arE alsO nOne the BetteR Hu encouragEd deM to go gamblIng wiF deM..idiOtic FellOws..iF i cAn i reaLi feeL lyK basHing dem uP..i dUn understaNd..parEnts teLL yOu not to mix wiF baD company anD yeT do it demselveS..hoW to expect their ChildreN to respect deM..tell me not to learn gambliNg but Go gambling demselvEs..fatHer tell mE not to smOke but smOkes himSelf..wat's the woRld cuMing tO maN..smTimeS i reaLi wiSh to retort deM..my fatHer saE i m stubborN..but i m at least in a gD way..unlIke deM..teLL deM not to gamBle oredi and stop smokiNg buT deY alSo nV lisTen whaT..if i'm stuBborn i guess it's probably inherited From dEm..smTimeS see deM alsO keP sIm..haiZ..
3,821,963
female
15
Student
Leo
04,July,2004
strEssed strEssed streSSed!!!i hAte iT!!!toDae my papA asK mE bOut goinG jC agaiN..keeP tellinG mE tO go jC sO i caN get iNto a Uni moRe easilY..bUt deY nv tHot bout waT i reaLi waN to studY..deY waN me to tAke businEss sO i caN take Over his businesS one daY oR woRk in some bIg coMpanieS to Earn mOre mOney..sO overaLL it's still aLL aboUt the SalarY..The 'MONEY' issUe..soBx..aND whEn i toLd dem whaT are my Plans deY sae tt's meaNs iT's all My decisIon anD dUn need tO evEn tell deM..saE whaT i nv sparE a thot for deM..pleasE..iF i didNt spaRe a thOt for deM i woulDnt eveN tell dEm anytHing..i reaLi duNo whaT to dO..to listen tO my heaRt or to Dem..if i listeN tO deM..i wiLL jUz bE anotheR geR whO will regreT heR lifE to turN ouT lyk tiS iN futuRe..howevEr..if i listEn to mY heaRt..i will alsO be responsibLe foR the Path tt i haVe chOsen..is it reali whaT i waN??i will haVE no quaLms abOut goiNg to a jC if i can geT intO the scieNce couRse but thE problem iS..i CANT!!!it's difficuLt fOr a studeNt without studyinG A maths and pure science tO get inTo the Science courSe in jC!!!let's juz agREe liFe's lyk tt aNd it sucKs..thE decisIon i made noW will surely affect thE resT of my liFe anD i seriouslY need tO consideR it carefuLLy..coZ i duN waN to regreT it in The futurE wheN i diE..althOu my MummY saE shE will let mE choosE what i wAn to Study anD tell mE nOt to worrY abt the 'mONEY' issuE..i cAn still seNse tt going jC is betA coz it's Cheaper..sHe sae tt if i gO poLy it's up tO me..but make surE i geT intO the locaL university..buT if i caNt..i juZ haVe tO go Out aNd worK..if deY caNt afford to send Me to ovErseas uNi..well..at Most aft my diploma i go worK fOr feW yeaRs b4 pursuinG my degree overSeas..sHe scoldEd mE anD sAe oversEas is not neceSsarily beta..sO juZ what the heLL dO dey wAn..althOu ppl miGht thiNk i muZ be maD to thinK about university whEn i haven even completed my 'O' levelS..buT tiMe is rUnning ouT..sOon i will graduate aNd it wiLL be tiMe fOr mE to makE a decisiOn..i wanT tO havE a goaL iN liFe..i duN waN to liVe an aimLess liFe..
3,821,963
female
15
Student
Leo
02,July,2004
PeNgz..firSt tiMe writE blOg a bit Weird aNd fUnny..hAhaz..toDae dUno whAt haPPen to me..cAnnOt thInk properLy..miNd blaNk blAnk..faN yiN cHi dUn agAin..hAiz..daMn siAnz todaE..nOthiNg muCh haPPen iN sCH except dArn loTsa weeKenD hw..tML chInese LC sia..scaRy sIa..scarE forgeT brinG IC anD entrY prOof deN i gOner liaO..tML waNna gO tO tOwn walK walK leHx..bUt sO brOke..nVm..aiYa..dUno whAt elSe tO wriTe alsO..betA gO do my ProjeCt..zOOkx..
3,821,963
female
15
Student
Leo
12,August,2004
Hmm..cancel itEm NumbeR 8 in bdae lisT cauSe i oredi got a new pencilcaSe..hEex...pinkie waN.. YeaH!!!todae got back 'O' lvl results..sHOoo happi k!!!sO relieved...tt i dUn need taKe chi fOr the resT of thE yeaR!!i secuRe my firsT A1 out of the 7 subjecTs..& i think it's came as a gd bDae prezzie..!!! but sOmehOw or ratHer..it juz seems lyk few daes agO we werE sec 1s lorx..time pass reali faSt..within a few moNths i will be graduatiNg..can u believe it??sOOn i will be either going poly or jC den followed by university..
3,821,963
female
15
Student
Leo
08,August,2004
BDae wisH LiSt gEt reaLi GoOd results For mY 'O' levels..at leaSt 5 distinctiOns aNd let thOse hU thiNk i aM a bimBo OpeN eyEs biG biG..waHaha... gEt iNto s'pOre pOlytechniC biOmedical oR bioteCh coUrse.. gEt a samSunG E700A pHone.. sLim doWn my biG biG thigHs.. haB a 'NO PIMPLES' fAce..which meaNs flawless...heex... wAnts tt pinkie T-sHirt(quiTe biG sizE oNe) frOm CenturY squaRe tt 'yellow' shOp.. wAnts a deniM skiRt.. Hope tO haB a new pencilcaSe.. HaB a nEw sweatEr thaT i lYk.. waN to buY loTsa wittY eNglisH storybOoks tO reaD... weLL..tt's foR Now...i guEss... To Be conTinued...
3,821,963
female
15
Student
Leo
03,August,2004
hMm..wah..tis few daes goona go broKe..haha..not reali larx actually..tis week muz pay for a lot of things..muz pay for class t-shirt, graduation night fee, maths paper, bbq..pengz..a lot sia..hmm..but tis week got long holidae...but i guess i wun be going out..instead i will be mugging at home i think..it's like 'O' level oral is juz 2 weeks away?oMg..i cant believe i m still slacking around..i mean get alive!!!it's oredi Aug n i haven reali start my revision..wat m i doing!!!tis week muz reali start mugging..by hook or crook..locked myself in my own room with my bks...hmm..sounds lyk self torture horx..haha...i think muz start preparing for the eng oral topics..otherwise when tt dae i not prepared surely stutter or cant speak a word..oh ya..'O' level chi results most probably out aft National Day.. *tensed uP beta dUn be a B and below..i will go KILL myself!!haix..but dunO y hab tis weird feeling didnt do very well..sianz..y m i telling myself to mug but not taking any actions???tis wun do!!!..muz stick to my plaN...haiya..if i m suppose to be sticking to my plan..y m i still here writing my blog??!!??lolx..k larx..i m off to stardee planet..zoOkx..
3,821,963
female
15
Student
Leo
02,August,2004
Lydia 迷离的眼眶 为何流浪 心碎的海洋 受了伤 连微笑都彷徨 Gypsy女郎 为谁而唱 你会看见雾 看见云 看见太阳 纪念和大地重复着悲伤 他走了带不走你的天堂 风干后会留下彩虹泪光 他走了你可以把梦留下 总会有个地方 等待爱飞翔 Lydia 幸福不在远方 开一扇窗 许下愿望 你会感受爱 感受恨 感受原谅 生命总不会只充满悲伤 Feel sO irritaTed by sOmeonE toDae..dUno y..tt perSon diD nTh tO offeNd mE but juZ feeL sO uNeasY anD irritaTed wif tt perSon..jUz iN caSe You aRe wonDerinG..tt persOn nOt frOm my clAss jiU dui leRx..haix..weird mE sia..nowaDays feeL sO unliKe myselF..i m sufferinG frOm temporary depressiOn..
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
20,June,2004
urlLink This is the name of our band. if you think you have a better band name please suggest to us   urlLink
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
17,June,2004
OMG MAH SEKRAT HAS BeEN TEH STOLEDEDED! BTW, i suck. Cheese. For money. OOhoHOOHHOoHHOohOHOhOh INnnNINNN ThEHEHEEEe HSadDOOWsSS ALllLLllLL yMMMymyMMYYY LifFFFEeEEEeee
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
16,June,2004
rofl someone keeps callign me on a withheld number. my mobile of course. i pick up the phone 'lo?' and i just hear breathing. XD its really funny cuz every now and again i hear someone talking or something weird shit. best one was at 2am the otehr night i was like 'hey baaabeeee ;)' and they were silently confused and scared i guess. its probably jim because he loves all male contact. his favorite kind of love is the kind that exists between two naked men while he watches
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
15,June,2004
In AD 2004, War was beginning. What happen Somone set us up the Zombie. We get signal. What! Its you! Zombo: How are you Survivor-men? All your brains are belong to us. You are on the way to destruction. What you say? zombo: You have no chance to survive make your time. Ha ha ha ha. Move every crowbar. For great Telefrag!
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
14,June,2004
Monkeys are red, Chickens are blue, I've just had a curry, Now i'm off for a poo. GO GO GO UNDERPONCE. I (L) Becky! Mushroom. CIHAHDEOCXMWTIMMEH
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
13,June,2004
Do not try to bend the spoon, because it is in your ear. Instead you must come to realise the truthe. What truth? DA HOOCH?!
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
12,June,2004
HOLY CRAP, more then your mom? they must suck like 101 aday. because your mom sucks alot of dick jim :o
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
12,June,2004
:D Good Charlotte suck more cock than my mom ¬_¬ Amy is a man whore >
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
11,June,2004
urlLink For all you kevs out there... Stop being Idiots and grow up for once in your lives  urlLink
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
10,June,2004
'this guy lives on the 10th floor. every morning he gets the elevator down to the 1st floor and goes to work. when he comes back he goes to the 6th floor then gets the stairs to the 10th why is this?' 'when it rains. he goes straight to the 10th floor why?' Email your Questions or guesses to me at [email protected] (my history teacher told me this, hes a god ^^
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
10,June,2004
Someone set us up the day off!
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
10,June,2004
Someone set us up the skiver! I requested slipknot on kerrang radio and he played Duality :D
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
10,June,2004
............................................................................................Something............................................................................................ If you read this notice you will notice that this notice is not worth noticing, so you will notice that this notice has the word notice repeated. so if you have noticed this notice you have now realised this notice has wasted 10seconds of your time... unless u read slow then it might be 20mins.. or if your extreamly thick you wouldnt even get to the end before you die. (jim told me to post sumet... not my fault...)
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
09,June,2004
Kerrang radio station is now live at 105.2FM! /me has secks with radio
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
09,June,2004
The only one shouting that was when rich tried to rape amys mate jade. tom kept throwing little sneaky looks at becky when he thought nobody was looking. and i just kept talkign absolute shite nobody understood with amy. i think rich pulled in the end though cuz him and jim were holding hands on the way out. oh well. ok ok bloody hell amy i take it back im a whore jims a whore and toms a slag but your not a whore. FTW.
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
08,June,2004
Yea that isnt the full story, What i did was trap amy under the table.. and then jim made his attack... then jragon went for the attack aswell and all u heard was ' GET THE F*CK OFF MY ASS U GAY' And then... richard raped Amys friend Jade...
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
08,June,2004
I RESENT THAT REMARK, we raped her multiple times not repeatedly. the rest is ok though. amy your a whore. but i love ya ;) ANYWAY we dont want the blog degrading itself to that level of crap its meant to be RANDOM how about the lovely nialls favorite quote : 'VIVA LA BAM RULE NUMBER 38 DESTROY ALL TREES WITH YOUR CHEST' indeed....
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
08,June,2004
Weeeeeelllllllllll.... Me and ZmX stole Jragon's ugly whore of a girlfriend and raped her. Repeatedly. Jragon didn't post because he was holding her down.
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
08,June,2004
Blink 182... touring... must... go... *dies*
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
07,June,2004
Blink 182... touring... must... go... must... go... must... go... *dies*
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
07,June,2004
ZmX: I hate these geek 20 year olds.. coming in taking our Girls f***ing pr*cks. il take em on with all ma home boys n we will stump out cigz on there heads, F***kers. (jragons reply) jragon: nah man jragon: dont waste cigs on em jragon: we gota keep em and always smoke (Some Random girl reply)¬_¬ girl: lol....what about lesbians taking all the girls away? ZmX: I dont mind... ZmX: the thing is... all the lesbians.. they are my friends you see ZmX: 'I think the best love is the love between to naked women while i watch' as the saying goes..
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
07,June,2004
ZmX: I hate these geek 20 year olds.. coming in taking our Girls f***ing pr*cks. il take em on with all ma home boys n we will stump out cigz on there heads, F***kers. (jragons reply) jragon: nah man jragon: dont waste cigs on em jragon: we gota keep em and always smoke (Some Random girl reply)¬_¬ girl: lol....what about lesbians taking all the girls away? ZmX: I dont mind... ZmX: the thing is... all the lesbians.. they are my friends you see ZmX: 'I think the best love is the love between to naked women while i watch' as the saying goes..
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
07,June,2004
I stayed in bed for the most of the day, For a mega Hang over that I 'aprently' had the night b4... HA BEAT THAT I OWN WOOOO YEAAAA I OWN YOU ALL!!
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
06,June,2004
OMFG. that was so cool. i just went to the dentist for some lovely tooth removal yiiiis. so right there i am getting drugs pumped into my guns to numb it right? but only the dentist, she uses too much. way too much. im sitting there and shes heaving away so hard shes lifting my head off the god damn chair thing. im sitting there 'arent you gona start yet....' anyway after about 10 mins of pulling shes heaves the biggest bastard tooth i ever saw. blood allover the place. The dentist herself starts heaving i was like ^____^ then im walking through town with a totally numb tongue, gums, nose, throat, and half of my face. As you can imagine talking was very funny. 'Mphhhwwblll' so im at home all drugged up wondering when ill finally get all the feeling back in my face atm :D.
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
06,June,2004
Your normal Buttplug not pleasuring you? Looking for something a little more religious? Well don't be bored any more, try the NEW baby Jesus buttplug! Avalible from all good stores (or here : http://www.divine-interventions.com/baby.html)
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
06,June,2004
well this is what he said he will be like.. 'I'd like to be old... sit outside my house in a rocking chair yelling at all the 'teenagsters' with their 'sunny d' And chase them down the street with a stick and a shotgun boomstick^' I cant wait :D
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
05,June,2004
Lil Wish says: stop humpin my cat jim ZmX: rofl ZmX: that dosnt sound right Jimmeh: NIPPLES Jimmeh: Pussy licking action! Jimmeh: Thats right... cats cleaning themselves ZmX: have you heard about the new renewable Transport... ZmX: its code name is donkey rape :| Jimmeh: Jess, Didn't anyone tell you that you wanted to sleep with me?!?! I thought you knew... Jimmeh: Jess, Do you know the difference between my penis and a chicken leg? No??? Well, let's go on a picnic and find out!
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
05,June,2004
really? my mom calls me sexy. that and john. havnt worked that out yet though. 'like dude i was sitting in my room staring at my brothers ass, and suddenly my mom came in like 'DUDE WTF stop looking at your brothers ass' and i said 'no' she said 'why' i said 'cuz' and then she went.' a story tom once told me.
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
05,June,2004
LIES :( My mom doesn't call me Jim she calls me 'That annoying little freak' :|
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
05,June,2004
'One time dude, I was in the shower and I got soap in my eye... I tried to like wash it out, with like more soap but it started stinging even more man :(, so I said 'MOM I GOT SOAP IN MY EYE' and she said 'JIM DUDE, GET SOME CLOTHES ON MAN' True story... Jim told me it the once..
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
05,June,2004
Stupid Americans! DIE AMERICAN SCUM! Err... ignore that ^^. Getting moaned at on NS forums for posting birthday threads! WTH? People get annoyed when i DONT make them a thread and now they're moaning for making one?
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
05,June,2004
jimmeh: Sex is so overrated ZmX: rofl jimmeh>: and I thought it'd be better with someone from the opposite sex ZmX: U should put that quote on the blog.. ZmX: No wait i will jimmeh: I'm really a boy jimmeh: but i am married to Paul
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
I'm bored... where the hell are ZmX and Jragon? ... *Me chases after them and beats them to death with a baby jesus butt plug*
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
Good morning ladies. Yesterday, I spearheaded the movement against the Natural Selection Forum Reform Movement along with ZMX. We had two pages of spam and porn. Hopefully it will teach scooter-blue that he is an idiot and that no-one likes him.
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
I r ZmX (ZhadoXero), friend of Jragon and Jimmeh, I come to bring you Quotes =/... Jragon 'GET TO ZEE CHOPPER' Jimmeh 'I have nipples' ZhadoXero 'I mean WTF!!! >
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
ZhadoXero has joined our little group of freaks :D  urlLink
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
urlLink Paul in his TSA uniform.  urlLink
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
Just watched Kill bill Part one and two... They're alright, nothing bad about them but they're not brilliant either. However they're good movies and worth a watch.
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
ahh nono my friend me FTW (for the win) for i have the longest shower :D and dude tht was only like 20 mins if that :S still gd :D
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
Jragon's been having a shower for like... 40 mins. WTF? My mom has quicker BATHS then that. EDIT - ... 50 mins EDIT 2 - 60 mins... anyone wanna bet how much longer till he comes back? I bet 10 more mins. EDIT 3 - Exactly 10 more minutes! I win.
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
greetings. 'id appreciate it if you didnt listen to me for the next few minutes :)' Uhhhmnotmuch going atm except working on my site urlLink (advertisement ;)) uhh more tomorrow or later :D
3,543,234
male
14
indUnk
Scorpio
04,June,2004
New blog created where me and Jragon will post about... stuff! Maybe Zhadoxero will come on as well... *waddles off*
3,670,806
male
14
Student
Pisces
19,June,2004
Staunch, religious-conservative Republicans are just as much the problem as annoying, pussy liberals. Republicans are no longer the party devoted to freedom. They're mainly a religious party, who governs us based on their religious philosiphies. Even besides religion, they no longer believe in gun rights, and they made the 'Patriot' Act. They claim they're for 'small government' but it's quite the opposite. But back to religion, it's annoying to have some radical Christian government tell the country that 'sex is bad' and so forth- John Ashcroft is like, the epitome of the religious, authoritarian Conservative. Ashcroft has spearheaded a huge anti-porn campaign, and has supported way tighter FCC regulations. Both things that majorly piss me off. This whole Christian Crusade against abortion, sex, porn, drugs, YOU NAME IT... DOES NOT belong in our national policy. I've had enough of these annoying fundamentalists imposing their will on me. Hey, you church organizations and lobby groups- preach to your own people whatever whe hell you want- But keep it outta my government.
3,670,806
male
14
Student
Pisces
17,June,2004
It really sucks to be both an outdoors enthusiast and an out-of shape fatass at the same time. But, Lyle Canyon is an very easy trail (or at least the first part before the pass) and it should go relatively smoothly. We're (my parents and I) just going to hike a few miles in, stay at a nice campsite a couple nights, and hike back. To accompany me in this new trip is a new backpack, the Osprey Aether 75- a sweet pack that totally redefines the word 'ergonomic'. Also, I finally get my own single-person tent (not the $250 tactical one I wanted from TADgear), which means I can finally sleep alone and uncramped, and have a little privacy to myself.
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17,June,2004
Hello? Hel...Hello? Is this thing on? Hi, I'm Henry. I live in a smallish town of 25,000 on the central coast of Kalifornistan, that combines the problems of a city and the problems of a rural farm-town all into one horrible, crappy package . I like guns, knives, and other deadly weapons in general. Enjoy my future posts in this (we)blog.
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Pisces
13,August,2004
I am not very much religious at all- I am definitely not a member of an organized religion-I'm not really sure what I am. I don't know what I believe, or anything. Basically, in my opinion, religion is basically the quest for knowledge about what follows after death, and how to make life after death pleasant. There is more to it, but basically, that's all it boils down to. My problem with Christianity, Judiasm, and Islam is it's hard to believe that we only have one life to prove ourselves, and when we die, we are immediately sentenced to a wonderful bed of clouds where everything is perfect or a firey dungeon of pain for eternity. I just can't help but think there's much more to it than that. I do not consider myself an aethist, however, as I can't look at this vast universe and feel that there is nothing behind it. There must be a force or being behind this, life must have a meaning. I, and no person on this planet, for that matter, can know what ensues death. Perhaps we are reincarnated, perhaps we become another human being, perhaps something else happens. But I can not bring myself to believe that whether or not I swear too much, if I have sex before marriage or not, and whether I commit some other 'sin' as defined by the church will decide my life for eternity. What do I think is 'wrong'? I try to live my life on the basic principle that it is wrong harm someone or their property without good cause, and it is wrong to steal. I try to be kind to others, I try to be as peaceful and friendly as I can. I believe that if there is a God watching over us all, that is all he could want, is a loving soceity. I have trouble with the organized religions, as they promote the idea of God as being 'love', but also preach about the 'firey wrath and vengence' that he will strike down on us if we lead 'sinful' lives. If there is a God as we know him, I truly believe that he does represent, or is love. If he is a vengeful tyrant, then well, it's a pretty dreary existence we have here. It's hard to think of what awaits us after our passing, but I believe, with all my heart, that it is not dull and dismal as some people would like me to believe. If there is a God, why would he focus on suppressing our natural instincts as human beings, especially if he created us this way, instead of simply promoting the idea of love, and unity between us all? -Henry 'Sin lies only in hurting others unnecessarily. All other 'sins' are invented nonsense.' -Robert A. Heinlein
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01,August,2004
I realize in my postings I've been a bit, err... high-strung. See, In reality, I'm not much like that, but I like trying to be different and offensive, to make a statement. I do not believe in political correctness, and I try to go in the exact opposite direction of it, as a way of fighting back. So, if you see me making some heated rant about something absolutely ridiculous, or you see one too many 'fuck's on this blog, just keep that in mind. Sorry if I offend anyone, but noone's forcing you to read this. And frankly, if you have a serious objection to 'dirty words', I just can't really understand. I'm sorry, but in my view, they're just words, that I use to express my opinion. I am not offended by these words, I have no objection to using them. Again, I'm sorry if I'm offensive, but that's just the way things are, please keep the above in mind. Thanks, Henry
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01,August,2004
I'm back after all of this vacation and parents-taking-the-computer crap. I'm dog-ass tired now, but I'll get back to here.
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25,March,2003
Somedays they amaze me. How grown up they are My keepers and I theirs Once so little and helpless Now blooming into their own What would I do if I didn't have them... Where would I be ... Life would not be the same. My heart burns for them, with love and worry Wanting them to be safe and happy Never wanting to let go. They are mine forever.. One thing I will always have.. Is their love.Forever.
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Pisces
24,March,2003
In my mind , thoughts wonder in and out of reality Aimlessly floating , causing grief, confusion and pain In my mind memories haunt me. Torturing scenes from my childhood into adulthood Every choice and decision made, taunting me relentlessly In my mind, I talk to myself, asking rebounding questions Never satisfied with the answer In my mind is a constant battle with myself Do this, you should of done that... why didn't you.... A never winning scenario.... In my mind is a mind of many and mind lost to itself.
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Pisces
23,March,2003
Another day gone by... started out shitty and didn't get much better. I should just go to bed and stay there... my safe haven... sleep , pillow and blanket. Ah... to sleep is to escape. In the night, my soul wonders free To search out the new and forget about the past In the night, my heart is free to feel To open up and engulf all the wonders of the world In the night, my mind escapes and journeys to far off places Experiencing all and everything, without guilt or shame In the night, my body is at rest Self healing, young and beautiful..full of grace. Ah ... to sleep and never wake. One day , One day.
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Pisces
23,March,2003
Well here we go.. My mind is full and ready to burst. Let's just say I'm having one of those days where I wonder if I've made the right choices in my life, my once marriage, divorce (the choices that went along with it) AND EVERYTHING SINCE THEN. My life has been a whirlwind... for everything that has happened it's all be a choice , a reaction or done in defense. At 35, a mother of 3 kids, ( 13, 11 & 10 ) in a serious relationship ( I think ) and still feeling the weight of past relationships. I guess I carry things to close to heart and ALWAYS over analize. Why do we do the things that we do?? Creatures of nature they say... or just scared and grasping, I say. Afraid of being alone and afriad of making the tough choices. Do we always opt for the easy way out? I really wonder sometimes. Nothing is ever easy in life.... it hasn't been for me. If I wanted a scape goat I could blame my upbringing... but I don't and won't. I survived and think ..THINK I came out of it ok. I guess reflection is a self cleansing thing... I guess. I wonder if I'm steering my childern in the right direction...I see my self and the choices I made in them all the time. I sit here , with a banging headache, sore from working out and feeling very empty at the moment. So needy I can be , wanting to be loved and wanting attention,but then to be left alone to do my thing... what ever that is. Screwed in the head maybe... or is this normal you tell me.........Please.
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Pisces
05,April,2003
Sitting in the dark with only my computer keeping me company. Music to soothe my soul , making the time fly by I take a deep breath trying to clear my mind... What lies a head of me is endless..Every day is the same What a routine we live in Cooking , cleaning trying to keep everyone happy Oh what we moms do for love Waiting for the thank yous and the hugs Smiles and kisses keep us going It's the little things that count... We rant and rave sometimes.. trying to be heard. Mostly out of frustration. Tired are we that run the house. Feeling unappreciated and part of the furniture What a grand life we lead.
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Pisces
01,April,2003
Lost in a sea of ever changing emotion the dark sky looming in my fear of loneliness all but drowned by mistrust and no devotion swept away by the bleeding heart , crushed and broken What's to save me... An Island of warmth and security? a lovers arm wrapped around me? Those would be ideal, but lost I am Until the sun breaks through once again And the passion of it's Love frees me.
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Pisces
01,April,2003
Tornado events take my energy away A rollercoaster of never ending Thrills & Chills. To maintian is the goal and not to lose control Even when face to face with a hater who's so fake Being the better person and not to give in Or atleast know when to shut my mouth , making it all end Not take it personally when being ignored I'm standing my ground I will not go through that door Rationalizing their problem , only to make myself feel better Can you see me, can you hear me... I am right beside you I am not a ghost , I do exsist ...can you not see my clinched fist? Should I yell or scream..or should I cry Your power struggle will leave you behind. Open your eyes.. are you so blind?
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Pisces
08,April,2003
Lost in the sound of haunting music Dream like visions past me by The rythmn is hynotic My eyes close and I lose myself Swaying to the music My body eludes me Swimming in the lyrics I become one with the song Beating is my heart Keeping time , pounding out of my chest. I can't breathe.. I'm victim to the tempo Swirling and twirling endlessly Darkness takes me.. the song is over.
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Pisces
30,April,2003
I want to write .. but I am so tired. I have many thoughts to jot down. Feelings , emotions.... but again never enough hours in the day... tomorrow , tomorrow and tomorrow.... Until then, May dark wings embrace you and give you the kiss of life.
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24,May,2003
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Second Level of Hell! Here is how you matched up against all the levels: Level Score urlLink Purgatory (Repenting Believers) Very Low urlLink Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) Low urlLink Level 2 (Lustful) Extreme urlLink Level 3 (Gluttonous) Moderate urlLink Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Low urlLink Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) Very High urlLink Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) Very High urlLink Level 7 (Violent) Extreme urlLink Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) High urlLink Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) High Take the urlLink Dante's Inferno Hell Test
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22,May,2003
Word's of true wisdom ( see previous entry ) Feeling like shit lately.. the only time I feel good is when we're playing racquet ball and I can sweat every bad thing out of my body. Work is stressful and tense.. Another big change and people scared for their jobs. Me? Yes and no.. I don't wna to lose my job , but if I have no choice and I get laid off... well then I guess I make the best of it. I am excited to go back to Heritage. It's likre going home.. closer to my kids and my old stompin' grounds. The weather sucks too.. finally a weekend with no plans. maybe some nice quiet time at home with my love. Maybe take in a movie. That would be nice.. Financial stress had been getting the best of us.. with the bi-weekly pay now in full swing, making sure our bills our paid, food in the freezer and gas and his support paid.... there is nothing left. I think we are finally getting the hang of it. Vacation is soon .. 4 weeks... I can't wait. Sun , sand and Shane & I. Who knows what we'll be coming home too... work wise that is.. The BIG move is July , the first or second week. Who knows who will be moving and who won't...... Too many changes. To find something else.. may be a task all in itself. Pay cut comes to mind.. starting over.... Not a good idea. Maybe I'll just hang out and see what happens. I've had 2 nights with out all kinds of extra running... the kids schedules are wearing me down. I love watching them play ball... Proud momma for sure. A true balance is the goal of my happiness.... how to get there is the question at hand. Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity To seize everything you ever wantedOne moment Would you capture it or just let it slip? Good question..........................till we meet again. May the dark wings embrace you and give you the security of it's love.
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Pisces
22,May,2003
Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity To seize everything you ever wantedOne moment Would you capture it or just let it slip?
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26,May,2003
Mindi's Sun Sign is Pisces ... Romantic Pisces, you are the twelfth and last sign of the zodiac. You are regarded as the sign of sensitivity and receptivity, and are a true chameleon by being mutable and infinitely complex. Your keywords are communion and vision, and you have the capacity to go beyond this world to the one of dreams and the spirit. Your ruler Neptune, the planet of confusion and chaos, gets people out of habits that imprison them so that they question themselves and can discover another path toward growth and spirituality. Neptune is also the planet of imagination and illusion, and governs the dream world with all its many facets. Pisces is the third of the three water signs, Mindi, which means that you are concerned with the realm of emotion and feeling. You deal with sensitivity, intuition, and deeper psychic aspects of life. You are able to conduct unconscious telepathic communication with others. Your sign rules the twelfth house of the chart, the sector associated with the unconscious, need for seclusion, and places of restriction. This house describes the wellspring of your being, including psychological problems that you repress. This house is very healing and can promote personal and spiritual growth, once you make the effort to go deeper and face YOUR reality. Pisces is a mutable sign. You adapt to the exigencies of life and ingeniously melt into circumstances like a chameleon. In your interaction with others, you are personable and compassionate, and successfully connect on a deep emotional level. Your strengths, Mindi, lie in your altruistic and empathetic nature, because you feel the urge to help people less fortunate than you. Your sensitivity and intuition make you a true healer. Your strong imagination and highly evolved creativity predispose you to artistic expression. Your main weaknesses are that you can be weak-willed, passive, and indecisive. Many times, you prefer to escape reality and indulge in your dreamworld. Chaos and confusion can be present in you, which may frustrate your circle of friends. At the same time, you can be oversensitive and fragile, feeling victimized by others. Your Rising Sign is Aries ... As an Aries Rising, Mindi, you face the world with intense energy and primal power. You always look to go beyond your own limits and outdo yourself with every step. With each challenge, you learn more about yourself, and gain additional confidence to go even farther on your next adventure. Your incredible decisiveness enables you to act on your ideas the minute you form them. You don't have time to waste! You are very competitive and have a strong urge to excel in whatever you do, and you continually prove your power through action. The downside is that you can be quite impulsive, Mindi, and often make decisions too hastily for your own good. Once you've made a decision, it's difficult for you to go back and reconsider, because you only know how to move in one direction in life, and that is straight ahead. It's no easy task to make someone like you back down. This irreversible strength you have inside allows you to thrive in some of the most powerful and influential positions in the business world, the ones in which the important decisions are made. If you have stopped climbing, it's probably because you've already reached the top. It's as simple as that! Since you are extremely ambitious and outgoing, Mindi, you don't quail at social climbing in order to make your dreams come true. Once in a while, you may even inadvertently step on some people who get in your way, as the ideal you quest for can blind you to the effect of your actions on others. However, Mindi, you don't hesitate to recognize and reward those people who have helped you on your way up, because you are an honest and fair player.
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Pisces
26,May,2003
What kind of kiss are you? You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time.
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Pisces
03,June,2003
You are the mystery src='http://images.quizilla.com/L/Lorac/1035592583_topmystery.jpg' border='0' awoman urlLink Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
04,July,2003
urlLink What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
30,June,2003
You represent... happiness. Boy, are you full of cheer or what...? You have a sunny disposition and enjoy trying to spread your happiness. You have a tendency to be a little hyper, but you have the ability to make your own fun no matter what. urlLink What feeling do you represent? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
30,June,2003
LOVE is your chinese symbol! urlLink What Chinese Symbol Are You? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
30,June,2003
Troublemaker Emily urlLink Which Emily Strange are you? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
30,June,2003
Back from vaction.. it was well earned and very needed. Now back to reality and everything that goes with it!!! Work totally sucks and I dread the thought of being there. There is no human factor there any more. We are all $ signs and treated like it. Beat it till it bleeds and dies is how the employees there are treated.. used and abused... Oh but hang in there they say.. next year will be rewarding and you might even get a raise!! KISS MY ASS I SAY!! Letting go people who have given everything to the company and to their co-workers. You have no safety line here. Keep the bastards and the whiners.. let all the true bright stars go... makes no sense to me. Not my problem my netter half says.. don't worry about it!! How can I not??? I care about what I do and how it's done....working in chaos kills me!!! I'd give anything to not go back...BUT I have to... I guess I'll put on the fake smile and do my best... Fun Fun!
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Pisces
30,June,2003
-Hurt- I hope you know this is my FAVORITE nine inch nails song. Many people have left your life.. and it seems that every time you are hurt even more. Sometimes you consider killing everyone that's ever hurt you, but deep down you know that you care too much to do that. You are always there waiting for them to come back into your life, and would give them everything you have if they did.. but you know you're just going to disappoint them. urlLink What Nine Inch Nails song are you? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
17,July,2003
True Goth... You make me proud. urlLink Goth quiz... a good one brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
16,August,2003
Thunder & Lighting!! What a day. Exciting & frightening ... jumping at the thunder and gasping at the lighting.. Funny how it contradicts itself. I love it.. downpouring rain , pelting the the tin stoop roof... Puts one in a sleepy dream mode. Cuddle in a blanket and grab a good book.. hot cup of coffee... What a nice day!
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Pisces
16,August,2003
Tarzan! urlLink What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!) brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
18,August,2003
Ode To Fall Seductive is the Cool breeze that takes away the summer's sweat Refreshing is the feel of it's fingertips softly caressing my face Whispering in my ear sweet promises of beautiful days and nights of clear heavens I welcome the kisses of the wind and twirl with in it's arm's Like a lover lost , returning full of passion It's embrace swallows me and like a butterfly from the cocoon .. I am reborn.
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Pisces
13,September,2003
Water Goddess. You like peace and serenity and are usually content with life. urlLink What element would you rein over? (For Girls) brought to you by urlLink Quizilla Imagine that?? I'm a Pisces!
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Pisces
12,September,2003
My inner child is sixteen years old! Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while adults might just accept that, I know something's gotta change. And it's gonna change, just as soon as I become an adult and get some power of my own. urlLink How Old is Your Inner Child? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
12,September,2003
Another weekend of rain and brain drain.... All week it was beauitful, today news of Johhny Cash and John Ritter saying g'bye forever. What a way to start a weekend! No plans but to go drink and dance tomorrow night (hopefully ) I'm been such an old fart lately. Just sitting no dancing!! It sucks. I used to dance every weekend, get drunk have a blast.... now 2 years later.... home being tired and thinking about all the fun i used to have... No biggie really... I am content just more responsible. Now another quiz.. yeah! Nemesis urlLink ?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ?? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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12,September,2003
Legardored is your Vampire name. You are one hell of an insane Vampire. Anyone who messes with you is out of their minds. To use your new Vampire name and become a Vampire, go here: www.life-blood.cjb.net urlLink What is your Vampire name? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
15,September,2003
Waterfall urlLink ?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ?? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
15,September,2003
Sea urlLink ?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ?? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
15,September,2003
You're Brigitte Bardot! urlLink What Classic Pin-Up Are You? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
23,September,2003
You're Most Like The Season Autumn ... You're warm, and the most approachable. You have that gentle prescence about you. People can relate to you, and find you easy company. However it's likely you've been hurt in the past and it has left you scarred so things can become rather chilly with you at times. Being the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy and loyal to your friends but prone to depression and negative thinking. Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :) urlLink ?? Which Season Are You ?? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
23,September,2003
urlLink >???What Kind Of Angel R You??? >( NEW!!! Anime Pics ) brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
01,October,2003
urlLink What Egyptian Deity are you? go to: urlLink the quiz!
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Pisces
28,September,2003
You'll be Famous urlLink REINCARNATION: WHAT WILL YOU COME BACK AS? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
28,September,2003
NIGHT MAGICK - Night Magick is a complete curriculum of magical development based on the Yin primal force, as opposed to the major religions of the world, which are predominantly Yang. You emphasize the use and balanced developement of the Physical/Etheric Body, the Astral/Emotional Body, the Mental Body, and the Causal Body. Through regular and consistent practice, you, the Night Magician will develop psychic abilities, increased vitality, stronger focus, and union with your Oversoul. urlLink What is Your Magick Path? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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28,September,2003
'Sweet Dreams' (by Eurythmics) Sweet dreams are made of this Who am I to disagree? Travel the world and the seven seas Everybody's looking for something Some of them want to use you Some of them want to get used by you Some of them want to abuse you Some of them want to be abused urlLink Which 80's Song Fits You? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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12,October,2003
You are Form 2, Angel : The Pure. 'And The Angel rose as holy protector for all that was created. She fought with honor and valor to serve the good of the world. But the coming of the mankind was her downfall; and end to purity.' Some examples of the Angel Form are Michael (Christian) and Hercules (Greek). The Angel is associated with the concept of virtue, the number 2, and the element of wind. Her sign is the zenith sun. As a member of Form 2, you are a person of your word. You generally keep your promises and give everything you do your best. Although some people see you as overbearing sometimes, you know that you have to stay true to yourself and do what's right. Angels are the best friends to have because they are brutally honest. urlLink Which Mythological Form Are You? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
23,October,2003
10/22/03 9:11 pm... I've been lazy as far as writing. Being on the puter all day at work has made me crossed eyed and numb. Not really but that's how I feel after a 10 + hour day. The money is nice but it's Min a mean little B.... believe me!! Everyone around me is sick... keep your germs to yourself... I need to go into hiding! I'm so tired every creative bone in my body has turned to mush. I do want to start painting.. That's my new craving. My daughter Callie is really blossoming in her drawing.. so impressive. Sister Hobie is throwing like a mad women, hopefullt she throws me a cool bowl for my table.So Halloween is next week!! WOOHOO!! My favorite holiday. Looks as if I'm old and broke so no fun for me this year. I shall live through my kids. I dressed Callie like I would.. what a lovely Vamp she is. Kayla a nun , cause she's so bad and Mikal the daywalker. Almighty Blade! It's so cool . I will post pictures on my website. I promise to have some morbid and dark poetry next entry. Until then , may the dark wings of rapture wrap you in their embrace. Moonlight and magic.
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23,October,2003
urlLink What Usage of the Word Fuck are You? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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27,October,2003
You are Peace. You are at peace with your self and the world around you. You have balance in your life and exude tranquility from every pore of your body. People are constantly asking you 'what is your secret?' urlLink What Emotion Are You? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla
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Pisces
03,November,2003
Well ... what a beautiful weekend and start of the week. Indian summer? A little late but welcome anyway. So .. I haven't written in so long and have no desire to write poetry, I crave to paint.. Watercolor.. skies a blaze and nights of mystery. to bleed the paint on paper will gratify the need I have. I want to listen to Shane playing his guitar in the backround and feel a cool breeze run across my shoulders. I'll let my brush caress the paper into a frenzy of color and motion. I feel the need deep inside my soul..
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Pisces
13,November,2003
You know so much about the nightmare before christmas. You must research and study it as much as I do. I have loved this movie since I was a kid and studied it very hard. Congratulations.Please Please Please vote for my quiz if you do i will vote for one of your quizzes. urlLink XxThe Best and Most Challenging Quiz of The Nightmare Before ChristmasxX brought to you by urlLink Quizilla