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3,093,523 | female | 25 | Marketing | Sagittarius | 02,August,2004 | Maker: Torano Size: Churchill (7'x48), Torpedo (6'x52), Toro (6'x50), Perfecto (5'x51), Robusto (5'x52) Strength: Medium Rating: 10 out of 10! Comments: Very earthy, with rich flavours of coffee and chocolate, this cigar is perfect from the first puff! As with the rest of the Torano line, no disappointments here! |
3,524,043 | male | 17 | Student | Pisces | 02,June,2004 | So far the season has had a red carpet treatment. Yes it is correct that no person wearing the colours of Farrari ould have anything negetive to say about the season. It has all been red, infact not just red but Shumi red. Ofcourse barachello has been there in four of the six Farrari victories but the glory has always been for Shumacher. With 60 points out of the seaven races, he is sitting on a confortable first with on immediate peril from anyone. Farrari have had not less success in the constructors championship. Being the only team to have reached three figures, it seems thay are on their way to another constructors championship victory. It is true that in Formula one fortunes can change very quickly and tables can turn in a few races. Yet i would like to see some team over throwing the red-team-rule. Indeed with a lead of about 40 points any constructor will require a number a reaces to pose a challenge and even that if Farrari stop competeing or does not finish any races for a while, or are below the eighth position, anyway. This, howeven, at the moment, seems as impossible as Micheal Shumacher making a move to Minardi or even lesser soo. At the moment, underperformance in one race results in a strong comeback in the next race. The failiur of Micheal in Monaco and the subsequent win in European GP are proof enough. Although no review of 2004 season can start without the metion of the red-dominance, one must move on. Indeed, there is more to formula one then red cars leading all others from the start to the chequred flag. Infact if one excludes Farrari, the season has been an interesting one. The drivers, people had grown accustomed to see in the podium have, it seems, steooed down to make way for the new rookies. One obvious exception of ofcourse Micheal Shumacher. Mclearen Mercedez have taken a leaf or two out of the lower teams, such as Minardi and the Jordan, and have cultivated a great friendship with them as many of their starts are form among them. Mclearn can be fast but then they don't last for more then a few laps. Out of seven races they have not even been able to reach double figures as yet. The hammer headed Williams have a better story to tell although but no means encouraging. The new car was supposed to be fast, with the best engine, and great aerodynamics. Yet they have fallen short of expectations. With both drivers leaving the team at the end of the season and the rivalry among them at its peak the team finds it difficult to concentrate on the work at hand. Yet behind the red veil, not everything is bleak. The underperformance of Mercedez and BMW have been well counterbalanced by a great imporvement by some other teams. The team that deserves to be mentioned is BAR Honda. Engaging Jenson Button and Takuma Sato have been the best choice for the team as they have changed the team into one of the top, and are sitting at the third in constructors championship, with Button having fine podeums under his belt and both he and Sato close to a maiden win. Toyata, only in their third season have also been able to improve greatly and move forward. the 3 year vetrans have produced a nicely balanced and stable car with a good engine, although a little short on horse power. With drivers like Panis and Da matta the future of the young team looks good. One team whose performance has not changed from the last year is Renault. Being fourth last year they have moved forward to being second this season. With the same drivers lineup as 2003 i.e. the rookie Fernando Alonso and the time hardened Jarno Trulli, who won his forst GP this year in Monaco, a good, stable, and soft handling car and a powerful engine in the back they are also on their way to Glory. The rest of the lineup offers no excitement as Minardi, Jordan and Jaguar continue lining at the back of the grid and Saubar little further ahead. But with 11 races still to go no pridiction can be made. Mercedez and BMW have yet to make a comeback that is inevitable, yet Farrari do not seem to be in any trouble in the near future. |
3,524,043 | male | 17 | Student | Pisces | 17,June,2004 | The space and the sky are, to me, very interesting. Many people see sky as a roof or something they don’t need to pay attention to. However to me it is a vast ground of inexhaustible knowledge and imagination. Unlike anything on earth, the space has no boundaries or obstacles. When I say that it has no obstacles I mean to say that there is not limit to the flight of imagination and fascination. One might say that imagination and fascination have no boundaries but I believe otherwise. On earth the imagination is limited, and fascination restricted. No sane person can believe aliens as living on the earth, or at least he will never be able to convince even his own mind to except the eccentric idea. However, in space there cannot be any limit, for all we know there might actually be aliens living on some planet. The space also offers an inexhaustible knowledge for anyone who cares. Indeed the knowledge and information is too vast to be learnt in a single life times, or for that mater in a few life times. Someone once told me that the space was very unforgiving and the delay between action and result was too large. Indeed, a person starting a project in space today cannot hope for results within his lifetime, but even this fact holds a fascination for me. I can be sure that for once whatever I do I am not selfish as the only beneficiaries would be the future generations. Don’t get me wrong. I am not planning a career in space nor in any related fields yet I believe in what I have said just now. To me the only fascination in space is related to the imagination and the visualization. I love to look into the night sky and keep looking for a long time. I can practically look into the sky for the whole night, without feeling any boredom. Even the smallest star holds a whole world, thousands of time larger then ours and with infinite possibilities. I can almost feel myself walking on that planet, feeling the soft sand on my bare feet, and smell the air (although there might not be any air fit for human consumption on the planet in reality). When I look onto the sky I do not see individual stars but a system - an impeccable system. To me the fact that the system works without a problem and has been doing so for millions or years is not a miracle but actually a sign of a greater force. However, I do not intend this to be an article about religion so I will say no more if the signs I see. Indeed I am greatly intrigued by the separate stars, each with a different history and characteristics, but the perfectly working system is much more interesting. The system, when one comes to think of it, has a cycle of millions of years. Some of the phenomenons are repeated after thousands of years but with impeccable accuracy. The system actually consists of many smaller systems, some like our solar system, but also some very different systems. Even the meteors and planetary movement in a system and they all work simultaneously and with a perfect timing to form the larger system. This as a whole is indeed worth a mention. The starts are placed according to a plan and each star plays an important role in the bigger picture. Whatever other people might think, to me, as I said before, the sky and the space hold great fascination and intrigue. I might not have explained my feeling properly and the reader might find it difficult to understand what I say and see from my point of view. Yet the only defense I have is that the feeling is not easy to explain as no words can portray it completely. |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 31,March,2004 | The season of urlLink 24 picked back up last night, with I believe its fifteenth episode, after a 1 month vacation to make room for urlLink reality tv programming . Man was it a good episode, nothing like urlLink hemorrhaging noses and mouths to provide great programming. Early episodes left me thinking that this season was a little less exciting that the previous two, but this episode really got things moving. It seemed like every other scene was another 'Oh my crap, I can't believe that just happened' moment, with the one exception where Amador got blown up by that car bomb. Though having the driver be an assassin may have been easier and cleaner, and would've prevented the loss of a perfectly decent lackey. Big thumbs up on this weeks episode, I look forward to next week. -richard out and remember to take out the trash |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 30,March,2004 | Low carb diets... more like ' urlLink trying to starve myself diets .' There's something to be said about these things, but mostly because most of us Americans consume too many sugary foods and drinks. Heck, I have friends who go through a twelve pack of urlLink Mountain Dew in a day and a half. I used to go through half a twelver of Pepsi a day myself. Here's the deal though, a calorie is a calorie, if you can find a way to burn this stuff off, it shouldn't matter if you're loading yourself up with starches or protein-rich beans as long as you can actually get off your flabby butt and do some urlLink exercises . I think the funniest thing about these diets are these ridiculous commercials I see on late night cable television, whether it be a 30 second spot or a 30 minute infomercial. Usually they have nothing to do with a low-carb diet or even an Atkins diet, often they're some silly supplement or goofy herb from Asia that promises to improve your metabolism promising to help you lose 15-50 pounds. Obviously these silly urlLink products exist because the low carb diet fad actually does work, but it takes a lot of effort and doesn't work with everyone, so there is this 'quick out' that people were hoping for in something as easy as a pill. Anyone remember urlLink Fen-phen ? Easy outs don't exist people, just eat correctly and get off your butt and do something physically constructive. - richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 29,March,2004 | Okay, so urlLink NCAA Basketball . I haven't even mentioned this yet, but the urlLink tourney is great fun and if you don't agree, I hate you. Turns out I picked two teams correctly, Oklahoma State and Duke. My long shot #1 seed was urlLink Stanford , though I should have stuck to the smart money and picked UConn. My other miss was Kentucky, the overall #1 seed going into the tournament. Can't win em all eh? I'd like to give my team a nice hook 'em for another good season, great job Texas, let's get back to the final four next year. -richard out and remember, Donald Rumsfeld is an evil, evil man |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 28,March,2004 | So I was driving home from work yesterday morning in the middle of a huge urlLink thunderstorm . Rain and wind was all over the place causing me to get urlLink really super pissed at the silly weather. Anyhow, my driver side wiper literally bent in half on its way up. The lower part kept moving, while the upper half decided it would be lazy and sit still causing the entire thing to bend into a strange L shape. I exit the highway and pull over at a urlLink gas station and unbend it, well, that worked okay for about 3 wipes until it bent again. 'Well f*ck it,' I say. I continued home with no wiping at all and stop at urlLink O'Reilly and picked up new blades. Luckily for me, when I get outside and install the first one, the rain really starts to come down and I get soaked, fun! I decided to wait until later to mess with the passenger side blade since its stupidly wet outside. About 100 ft down the road, the passenger side wiper stops working entirely. &*#! It seems the motor on it gave out, great timing. Running off on a tangent, before I came into work last night, I sat and watched urlLink Vanilla Sky . It's a movie that came out in 2001 with Tom Cruise and Penelope Cruz in it. I'll quote the plot summary from imdb.org for reference, 'A successful publisher finds his life taking a turn for the surreal after a car accident with a jaded lover.' Overall I enjoyed it, though it confused me in a few places considering that much of the movie occurred while he was in a dream state. Things don't always make much sense when one is dreaming. -richard out and remember, Donald Rumsfeld is an evil, evil man |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 24,March,2004 | So I wake up around 7pm from a nice afternoon of sleep, see I work nights right now, and I had the urlLink worst cramp ever. It was in my left calf and was causing some of the worst pain I've ever felt. The damn thing tightened up so bad, I couldn't relax my leg at all and had to force my foot up to make the muscles stretch. It was the first time I've dealt with a cramp like that and it felt horrible. Blah. In other news, the urlLink Israelis hate Palestinians and the urlLink rticle&cid=1080083708744&call_pageid=968332188492&col=968793972154'>Palestinians hate Israelis . In yet other news, I've been pondering the purchase of a different video card for my urlLink HTPC . At the moment I have it hooked up to my urlLink 51' Toshiba HDTV via an svideo cable. The quality on that is rather poor and I haven't figured out how to get the DVI connection to work with the urlLink Radeon 9100 I have in it right now. I'm currently thinking of getting a urlLink Geforce FX 5200 since I know I can get it to work properly with linux (my future plans are to run urlLink Mythtv ), but it could still have problems with the DVI hookup. For now, I will continue pondering... - richard out and remember, Donald Rumsfeld is an evil, evil man. |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 23,March,2004 | Much like Norm McDonald's urlLink theory that all Germans love David Hasselhoff , I believe that all people view news and events the way they want to see them. Let's take George W. Bush (from now on mentioned as urlLink Dubya ) for example, I see a urlLink good ole boy used getting his way by urlLink manipulation and intimidation whereas others are seeing that he is a urlLink strong leader and a genuine good guy. Now lets take urlLink Super Liberal John Kerry, I think he's a good guy, and many charge that he is a' urlLink waffler ' when it comes to his voting record, I see that perhaps in those situations he is changing his view due to a change in the situation. Perhaps the makers of a bill coattails some sludge on it that goes against what he previously liked about the bill. Or perhaps he heard some argument that changed his mind. People on the waterside instead see a guy who cannot make his mind about important issues. My whole point here is that we see what we want and ignore the rest and get aggravated whenever someone argues against what we perceive as the real truth. On a completely unrelated topic, I purchased a couple of urlLink 160GB hard drives that will hopefully make it easier to not make mistakes with my video editing ventures. I attribute most of those mistakes due to getting a bit rushed sometimes and because I have limited space currently, I will delete the original source before I have validated the completed product. Of course this sucks when I realize that my completed product is flawed and I have to start all over. - richard out and remember, Donald Rumsfeld is an evil, evil man. |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 28,April,2004 | urlLink Stupid people . Man I hate stupid people. Everywhere you go, there's always more stupid people. You see them on the news, you see them in the coffee shop, you even work with some of them, and possibly even live with one or two of them. Example of a stupid person saying something stupid, 'Can I get my phone cut on?' You can't cut a phone on you moron, you turn it on or you hook it up! Another example, 'Do I need to be on the internet to get my email?' Yes you f'n idiot, you need to be connected to something to get something from it! I can go forever on that topic, so I'll let it rest. No I won't. You know that ShopNBC channel I hate? Yeah, that one, I f'n hate it. I'm staring at the screen today and what do I see right above some overpriced fake diamond ring? a red banner saying that if you order in the next hour, you get free shipping on all jewelry. Let me preface the next statement by saying that I am forced to stare at that screen for more hours than I'd like to. ShopNBC has had free shipping on jewelry all f'n year! You know what, they wouldn't put it up there if they didn't think it would get some moron to pick up the phone and make a rushed decision to buy it. There, I'm done, go about your business. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 27,April,2004 | The NFL draft, some pretty interesting things happened over the weekend at the draft. In case you were dead or just generally don't care about football, Eli Manning stated bluntly to the San Diego that he would not play for them, holding out for an entire season if necessary. This information never got to the press from his mouth, instead it was told by the San Diego themselves. I'm not sure who's the real goat there. As it turned out, the San Diego did in fact draft Manning, but after the New York Giants drafted Philip Rivers, they traded him and a fair amount of other draft picks to the Chargers for Manning. Everyone pretty much got what they wanted. Another glaringly odd thing that I saw was that Cleveland traded away their first and second round choices to Detroit for their first round choice. Detroit had the 6th overall selection and Cleveland the 7th. So Detroit gets a free second round draft pick and they still get the guy they wanted at the 7 spot. No wonder the Browns are such a hopeless team, they regularly make silly mistakes like this. Looking at my team, Seattle, they did okay by bolstering their defense. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 26,April,2004 | I finished the Legacy of the Drow series yesterday and it ended less than how I would've liked. The fourth book (Passage to Dawn) was easily the weaker of the four, even though the third (Siege of Darkness) was the most intriguing. All in all, I thought the series to be a great read and as such, I ordered the next series urlLink Paths of Darkness on Friday. Hopefully I will get that soon so I can fill in my idle time. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 22,April,2004 | I got a little bored yesterday, so I pulled some computer parts out of the closet and assembled another computer. I used an old baby AT case I had, minus its 3.5' drive bays (not sure where they went), a really crappy baby AT Gainward 5VPA Socket 7 motherboard, a K6-3 400, 64MB of PC100, a 60GB Maxtor hard drive and finally an ATI All in Wonder 128. I had to use a Promise Ultra100TX2 to get all 60GB recognized, Gainward never released a BIOS to fix the 32GB problem. That's not really a surprise since you can't find any evidence on their website that such a thing ever existed. So far I have Slackware-current running on it and it seems okay, for only 64MB of RAM, Gnome2 and KDE3 run acceptably well, no doubt because the K6-3 was a really decent CPU. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 21,April,2004 | I've been reading the series urlLink Legacy of the Drow over the past week, and it has been a great way to pass my 'idle time.' I'd forgotten how much I enjoyed the Drizzt Do'Urden books, if you're interested, go pick up the urlLink Dark Elf Trilogy from your local bookstore or urlLink amazon.com . The version of Legacy of the Drow that I got came in the form of all four books of the series in one book, 1100 pages of text, woohoo. I just finished the third of the four, Siege of Darkness, where our valiant heroes whoop up on a Drow Elf army. Maybe I'll pick up the Lord of the Rings series since I've never actually read that. --richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 17,April,2004 | I got everything transitioned over to the new host at urlLink linode.com and everything seems to be running great. The speeds are awesome, latency is wonderful and so far I like being able to have absolute control over everything. In that regard, I did run into a few snags, due to my urlLink inexperience in certain things. I was able to get apache working fine, even getting virtual hosts working for both this domain and my friend (who is going in half and half with me for the cost of this thing) for his domain urlLink truck-web.us . Setting up apache didn't take me very long at all, maybe an hour or so, but it was moving on to the email where I ran into problems. See, I've never set up a mail server before, I had tinkered only once before on my urlLink freebsd computer at home, but quickly decided it was not a great idea due to it being hosted on the cable line. I started by getting urlLink postfix running, postfix is a wonderful server as it provides mail delivery and is fairly simple to setup and is also a replacement for the aging urlLink sendmail . Within a couple hours I was able to get it working fine, testing delivery via a local email program I was using, urlLink Pine . The next couple of days consisted of me trying to get and IMAP and POP3 server installed so that I could use remote email applications, I started off by trying to get urlLink cyrus and various different authentication methods to work with it. Let me tell you, cyrus was a bear, and since I'd never have more than a handful of users, having a urlLink MySQL database for authentication seemed silly, so I dumped that idea. I decided to try urlLink courier , and followed this helpful outline, not really a FAQ in my opinion (as it is titled as being), urlLink http://arswiki.com/bin/view/Linux/MailServerFAQ . After a few hours of recompiling various packages and installing and reinstall stuff, I was finally able to get courier to authenticate via POP3 and IMAP. YAY! After that, I topped it off with a quick squirrelmail install. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 11,April,2004 | I just wanted to share a quote I got from the Toronto Star today regarding Bush staying at his ranch in Crawford, Texas, ' Bush has spent 234 days at Crawford since becoming president, according to a CBS News tally.' Holy crap, that's more vacation in three years than I've had in eight and half years since I had my final summer vacation before twelfth grade. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 09,April,2004 | Later that day on Friday, I was able to get my car in to get work on. Four hours and $360 later, they were done, and thankfully, it would seem the boatlike feeling is gone. Next up, fixing the rear fender and bumper that got wrecked a couple months ago when I was parked on the street. I've looked into some hosting options that would free me of the bonds that hosting on my cable provider lock me into. I'd love nothing more than to lose the requirement of having to add :8080 to the end of my domain name. Anyhow, I've been looking into urlLink linode for awhile now, mainly for this one reason: I have complete control over the webserver that runs your site. I can install extensions, I can run bunches of virtual domains, etc. The cost I'm looking at is $29.99/mo and I'm going in half and half with a friend of mine, so it should work out fine. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 09,April,2004 | So I took my car in to get looked at yesterday morning. For a few months now, it has been making a weird tapping noise whenever I would drive over any road that was not smooth. Potholes, dips, bumps, the grade increase on your driveway, whatever, it would make lots of weird tapping noises. Two hours later, they call me up and describe what the dealio is, the stabilizer bar was bent and was causing those odd tapping noises when it would move just the right amount of distance. I don't really know if it was causing any other problems, hopefully when I get it fixed early next week (for a mere $360+), I'll notice an improvement in handling. I say this, because it feels more 'boatlike' when I drive, and by boatlike, I mean like driving a big-momma chevy from '76. I'm exaggerating a bit, but you get the idea. Oh, I drive a Ford Focus, I bet this whole time you were wondering, 'wtf, he's talking about his car and won't even mention what it is.' Blah, I'm done for today. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 07,April,2004 | For the past few days, every time I refresh urlLink news.google.com , more U.S. soldiers are urlLink getting killed (and also urlLink killing those that are attacking them, terrorists, extremists, pick a definition of them). That sucks. Most of these guys are my age or very close (I'm 25), some with families back home. Argue all you want about the war ever needing to have happened, my personal stance is that the Bush administration lied to us and used Iraq's urlLink non-compliance with U.N. regulations to finally get at the guy in Iraq, but we're there now and it is our duty to get that country's economy and government running again. We did this in Japan and now they're one of our closer allies and are all around good guys. It really upsets me that our government and the U.N. haven't urlLink kissed and made up yet so that we can get more international help in there. As it stands, all these hate-fueled militants in Iraq will continue to get more and more difficult to control unless we can either squelch their leaders or get that international support. Hey dubya, I know you're busy trying to get reelected, but I guarantee, if you can get Iraq under control and make nice with the U.N. that you'd win (much to my chagrin). Enough bantering, back to doing nothing. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 06,April,2004 | I caved in yesterday and bought a new video card for my HTPC. I did in fact settle on the urlLink FX 5200 since I know that I can rely on nvidia's linux drivers to work properly. I never considered an urlLink MX card because those just suck ballz. I am also fully aware that the 5200 sucks ballz too, but at least not as much as an MX card. I went with a urlLink 128bit version that eVGA sells, mostly because of its 128bit memory over the super sucktacular 64bit version and also because of the fanless heatsink. This computer is already a bit too noisy and a teeny little 45mm fan doesn't sound like it'd be much fun in there. The fan issue is another reason why I didn't step up to a 5200 ultra, 5300 or whatever. HTPC + video card fan = bad. In the end, it only cost me $74 and I get a card that at its worst performs as a good dual monitor video card, my radeon 9100 was not good for this. I hope everyone at least watched a few of the NCAA Basketball Tournament games in the past few weeks, congratulations goes out to UConn for a great run to the championship. Okafor was especially impressive last night, that dude can play. |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 05,April,2004 | Holy crap urlLink Sopranos was great last night. Last week, in the scenes for next week, they showed a scene where it looked like someone was gonna get urlLink whacked out in a field. Well, when we got to that scene, I was like, 'oh my crap, don't kill him!' Some tempers really flared this week, definitely a great watch. Speaking of great watch, urlLink ShopNBC is not a great watch. I'm subjected to this brand of torture for 8 1/2 hours every night when I'm at work. We have this huge board of 'information' and also a 3 screens with the Weather Channel, Fox News and ShopNBC. These guys sell the absolute worst jewelry I've ever seen, the stuff just makes me wretch. There has only ever been one thing that I found interesting, and that was a belgian waffle maker (that thing looked awesome). -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 03,April,2004 | Ah.. so my weekend is over. I am in the glorious position right now where I currently have Thursdays and Fridays off, remember I work the urlLink graveyard shift so I actually have Wednesday and Thursday night off. As you can imagine, it was yet another weekend full of urlLink not so much . Nic came over and we had some drinks and watched way too many movies, which was a good change from my recent urlLink Magic: The Gathering binge. Being in a room with urlLink bad smelling, no social skill having, young males is not always a great way to spend your Thursday or Friday evening. This is not to say that all magic players are pimply faced, four-eyed freaks that have never seen a grown woman naked, but is quite often the norm that I face. Okay, back to movies since it is most certainly more entertaining than MTG. urlLink Lost in Translation , I saw it Thursday night and I must say that I was impressed. It's not something that jumps out at you and smacks you in the face with its amazing screenplay. It's much more subtle and uses interesting characters and for us Americans, an interesting and new setting, Japan. I thought the various settings used and all the neato buildings provided stunning visuals that really aided the movie. Oh, I can't forget to mention urlLink Scarlett Johansson , I definitely dug her role in this movie, she certainly 'seemed' older than 18 (now 19 post production of the movie). - richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 29,May,2004 | At the request of a friend of mine, I picked up Final Fantasy XI Thursday morning and so far I'm enjoying it quite a bit. I know a few people that are playing so it should provide plenty of enjoyment. I made a Hume Warrior cause I like to be a hack n' slash type of fellow, though one of those Cat Warrior females seemed strangely enticing... One thing though, on occasion there are these 'super enemies' that are way more powerful than the usual, so every once in awhile you'll run into this super powerful bumblebee or something and if you're really low on levels, you'll get schooled... by a friggin bee! I dug up an old Penny Arcade comic that I was reminded of, urlLink http://www.penny-arcade.com/view.php3?date=2003-11-12&res=l . -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 26,May,2004 | So who saw the Tampa vs. Calgary game yesterday? Great game, Calgary continues to surprise me, especially since I never thought they'd be more than a chump team in the playoffs. I got to see the game on my 52' HDTV and I tell you what, the statement that was made during the game, HDTV was made for hockey, doesn't seem so wrong. Hockey is so pretty in that format. Side note regarding this site, tweaking has proven successful so far, I will continue to do so! -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 24,May,2004 | I'm trying out a different template now, I've always liked designs that incorporated a dedicated sidebar like this one. I do have one complaint though, it seems too constrained and could stretch more to the sides. I'll have to play with it some a bit later. urlLink Let me know if you think it sucks though. |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 23,May,2004 | So one of my friends on IRC wants to get a slackware-current cd, no sweat I say. You can find plenty of unofficial isos out there if you look hard enough, but there is no fun in that. Besides, who knows how old those isos will be? If you follow slackware at all, you'll know that 9.1 was released a long time ago, nearly 8 months. In terms of software, that is really old, as there have been quite a few changes since, such as Gnome getting updated to 2.6 from 2.4. So I set out to do a quick howto. I'll put this into a separate html file once I finish this post. Step numero uno: Download slackware-current. To save time, don't bother downloading bootdisks/, extra/, pasture/, source/, testing/, zipslack/ and then within slackware, leave out gnome/, kde/ and kdei/. This will keep our image below 700MB. Step numero dos: Run the following command mkisofs -o /somedir/slackware-current.iso -R -V 'Slackware Install' -v -d -D -N -no-emul-boot -boot-load-size 4 -boot-info-table -b isolinux.bin -c isolinux.boot -A 'Slackware Install CD' Let's say that you did in fact download /gnome, here's what you do to not include gnome/ in your iso. Somewhere in that long command, add the following (make sure to use the directory of whatever it is you want left out of the iso) -x gnome/ Step numero tres: Assuming I haven't given bad advice, you now have a slackware-current iso that you can burn to cd now. You should be able to boot and then install off of it. I may check into how to create that second cd that would contain the gnome and kde packages, but for now I wouldn't worry about those too much. For your gnome needs on slackware, I highly recommend using urlLink Dropline . For KDE, use something like urlLink Swaret . |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 19,May,2004 | Yesterday I hung out with my friend who had just come into town, we went about half an hour south just outside of Plattesmouth, NE to a private land share that his family is renting. The two of us were out on a 3 wheeler and a 4 wheeler for nearly three hours and we had a blast. It had rained a bit the previous few days so there were a fair amount of mud puddles and when we were wrapping things up to go home, the rain came on again and we got drenched. For at least ten hours, my hands were tingling, similar to the feeling you get after mowing your yard and as I type this, my legs and arms are still very sore. I can't wait to do that again in a few months. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 16,May,2004 | Crap, eight days since my last post on here. My last week has been again a little boring, mostly just working and sleeping. I got completely through Paths of Darkness about a week ago and quickly finished The Thousand Orcs, the first in the newest Drizzt trilogy, The Hunters Blades. This new trilogy is already shaping up to be very very good, possibly the best, but I'll save that judgement once I've read all three. While I awaited the second book to arrive from Amazon, I picked up Canticle, the first book in Salvatore's Cleric Quinet series and I just finished it. Another very good read, I eagerly await finishing the rest of that series as well. Also of note, one of my oldest and best friends came into town for the weekend. His youngest sister just graduated from Bellevue West on Saturday, so we hung out for a few hours and saw Van Helsing (a decent and watchable movie). I haven't seen him in nearly two years, and before that had been three or more years. I'll certainly try a bit harder to keep in touch this time. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 08,May,2004 | OH EM EFF GEE ShopNBC is no longer on the wall!! I ARE HAPPY NOW!!!!!!!11one The downside is that HSN was put up in its place, from what I can tell after just a couple of hours is that their stuff is less sucky than what I saw on ShopNBC. I just wanted to get that out. *sigh* -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 04,May,2004 | So I was whooping some ass last night on urlLink Wolfenstein: Enemy Territory , check yourself right here: urlLink http://mywebpages.comcast.net/bonjoyer/stats/tux_vs_u.html . I'm play0r down on the tUx (our tag, the team name is urlLink Dead Penguin ) team. Okay, yes, it may look like we got pwned, but we still only lost 2-1, so we saved some face. Uprise is a real quality team, not to mention we got bumped to the upper tier on urlLink Team Warfare this season. Last night was the first time in nearly two months since I've played, mostly because of my new work schedule, and I had a good time. I might just try to wake up earlier so I can play more with my buds. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 03,May,2004 | So I finished up the second book in Paths of Darkness, and I must say that I really enjoyed it. Salvatore took what I thought to be the least interesting major character from his books and turned it into a wonderful story about a man battling his inner demons. Drizzt is a wonderful character, but if I had one qualm about him, it'd be that he's too perfect. Wulfgar in Spine of the World is anything but perfect, through most of the book, he plays the part of a drunk spending his days looking for another fight. I don't wanna go into great detail since I consider myself a poor critic, but the character development is what really made this book work. Now, I shall continue towards finishing the series. On a side note, I haven't noticed ShopNBC display that odd banner that shouted free shipping on orders that hour, instead only a large gray blob on the left hand side of the screen that says 'FREE SHIPPING 2004.' Hmm... -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 24,June,2004 | It seems that not too many people are aware of what the urlLink College World Series is, even a lot of people who live in the Omaha area. The College World Series is an 8 team double elimination series between the final 8 teams in College Baseball. It is the culmination of the NCAA Tournament which starts with 64 teams much like in NCAA Men's and Women's basketball, but instead of a final four, its a final eight of sorts. It's fairly surprising that most people don't even know that the CWS exists, but it has not had nearly the press coverage that other NCAA sports have gotten, but that's starting to change now with ESPN taking over it's coverage from CBS who just let it squander. Anyhow, Texas won yesterday afternoon putting them in the championship series, a best of 3 series with the winner of South Carolina and Cal St. Fullerton, hook 'em horns! -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 18,June,2004 | Wow is this monitor nice! That's all I can say right now, it's got me a bit speechless. --richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 15,June,2004 | I just finished the fifth book in the Cleric Quintet series, The Chaos Curse. I really enjoyed the series as a whole, it had interesting characters that were dynamic, they learned and changed and had flaws, just how characters should be. Salvatore is successful because of his characters, sometimes the story is a bit bland, but the great characters can still make the 300+ pages well worth your while. I recommend this series to anyone who enjoys fantasy novels. Now that I'm done with that series, I picked up The Vampire Lestat, the second book in The Vampire Chronicles. I read Interview With the Vampire a long long time ago, so now is as good a time as any to finish right? Unfortunately I am picking it up after seeing the movie Queen of the Damned (which is a modern conglomeration of both The Vampire Lestat and Queen of the Damned novels) so hopefully that won't spoil it for me. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 14,June,2004 | Sometime on Thursday we found out that the AC in the house had stopped working, I never really noticed since I had slept in a bit and spent some of the early afternoon playing FF XI. Needless to say, by 9pm, it was tremendously obvious that it was broken in some way as there was a decent sized puddle beneath the AC coils. My mom got a repair man out the next morning (thankfully) and the repair wasn't too much, just in excess of $500, so things could've been worse. He also got in there and cleaned up quite a bit of the dirt, dust and cat fur that had collected and now the AC is blowing colder air than I can remember. In the spirit of spending money, I bought a new monitor last night. Actually I ordered one from dell.com, a urlLink 2001FP , its a 20.1' LCD that has become quite popular around the 'net. It has a 16ms response time, so it doesn't suffer from ghosting which has been the one thing keeping me from getting an LCD. I'm pretty excited about getting this thing since I haven't bought a new monitor since the summer of 2000. Both of my computers have dual monitor capable video cards, operated using a KVM, so I play on hooking this thing up to both systems and essentially having two dual monitor computers. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 06,June,2004 | Yeah, Ronald Reagan died yesterday. Of course if you watch any sort of 24 hour news channel I'm sure you already knew. They haven't stopped covering it since. I know it's a big deal and all, but I believe this just goes to show how much non-essential news is carried on these channels. This gives them something to fill an entire day of material now, and people will watch it! I also watched most of the Tampa vs. Calgary game last night, and while I'm not really rooting for either team, I was sorta happy that Tampa won to carry the series to a game 7. This series has been spectacular and full of energy and a game 7 is a fitting way to end it. Make sure to watch it come Monday night. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 04,June,2004 | I just watched Starship Troopers 2. Before I get into the movie at all, I just wanna say that the first one, while not a good movie, was a very enjoyable movie. The thing was done in 1997 and the cgi in it is actually very good imo. It's also a wonderful guy movie, lots of blood, guts, guns, bugs and explosions. It was good times all around. Starship Troopers 2. It had blood, guts, guns, bugs and explosions. It also had that guy from Not Another Teen Movie that played the football coach, that guy is a genius god damn it. What it didn't have was any sense of fun, it reminded me of a bad horror movie, not a guy movie. Horror movies can be guy movies too, true, but this one was just plain not good. Yes, this movie was a pile. Blah, I'm so disappointed now. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 29,July,2004 | My voice is starting to return slowly, only half of my words are garbled now. I went to the doctor yesterday and confirmed that I do indeed have a sinus infection and possibly an ear infection, so I got some wonderful meds. So far so good, I'm less congested and feel like I'll be as good as new by the weekend. Whoopie! -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 27,July,2004 | I don't know what the hell is going on, yesterday I was feeling better, but took one more night off to get some rest, and guess what? When I woke, I was worse than I had been all week. My throat feels like sandpaper was rubbed all over it, my ears are pounding from all the crap that's probably in my ear canals, my sinuses feel like they're gonna burst and I can't talk. I mean I literally can't talk. I mouth the words but only a whisper comes out. Blah I say, blah! -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 26,July,2004 | Two days later and I'm still all messed up. My throat is extremely sore and it hurts to talk. The headaches are nearly gone at least and I'm not having problems sleeping now. I already missed the last two nights of work, and it's not looking good for tonight. If that's the case, I should almost definitely be back for tomorrow night. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 24,July,2004 | Figured I'd take a this chance to make a post since it's been a week or so. I went to bed this morning feeling great, maybe a bit tired, but that's it. I woke up about 2-3 hours later and couldn't hardly breathe and I had a horrible headache. I took some generic Day-Quil which helped drain my sinuses, but I still feel like total and utter crap. Usually when I feel like this, it's the onset of a sinus infection. *Sigh* -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 16,July,2004 | Here's a link to a photo from earlier today after the haircut, enjoy! urlLink http://www.backslider.net/gallery/photos/DSCN1638 |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 15,July,2004 | So I got a haircut today. I literally haven't gotten my hair cut since last September, I think. Maybe I link a picture of the new dew tonight, could be fun times involved. Having your bangs reach your chin kinda sucks, your hair becomes impossible to handle and starts looking like complete crap. I guess I never really cared because I'm not trying to impress anyone at the moment, working on the night shift and all. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 11,July,2004 | My FF XI group finally drug an old RTCW/ET pal of ours into the game, shake! Shake also played some Neverwinter Nights with us back in the day, so he should be a fun addition. While I'm on the topic of FF XI, it's a little eerie at how easy it is to find yourself still sitting in front of the monitor four hours later and you haven't really accomplished much.. this has only happened once or twice, but sometimes that's what happens in games you get caught up in. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 10,July,2004 | I tend to watch Sportscenter whenever I get home from work, during that 40-50 minute period when I'm sitting with my brother waiting for his work van to arrive, and something that has been a main focus lately has been the LA Lakers. With Shaq demanding a trade, Kobe being a jackass and the team looking for a new coach because Kobe didn't like Phil Jackson. I want to center in on Kobe for a second, since he seems to think everything should and does revolve around him. I can't see how anyone would ever want to root for this guy. Lets ignore his off the court actions for a second, on the court, he is a ball hog. He doesn't make his teammates better, if he has an off night his team might very well lose the game. The guy takes more bad shots in one game than an entire high school team combined. Now combine this with how he is controlling the way the Lakers are operating. I'm surprised they were able to hire any coach at all, I wouldn't want to deal with this guy. I hope for Shaq's sake he gets that trade, hopefully to Dallas, I'd love to see Dallas beat up on LA for the next couple of seasons. On a side note, Farscape is getting a second chance to finish up its story line. If any of you didn't follow that show at all, you may not realize how Sci-fi cancelled the show after the filming of season 4 had wrapped up. Truly a horrible thing to do to a show that had a plot that continued from season to season. So all of us fans were left staring at the screen when the season finale was over wondering wtf we just saw considering it was likely the last Farscape episode we'd ever see again. The word cliffhanger isn't good enough of a description. My friend Dave pointed me to urlLink this , and I couldn't say how much happier I could be at the moment. -richard out |
3,044,949 | male | 26 | indUnk | Leo | 07,July,2004 | A few days between updates there, my bad. Lately all I've done at home is a bunch of nothing and playing Final Fantasy XI. The only times I can find time to play are after I get off work and have put my brother on the van to work (which is around 9am) and then again when I wake up in the evening around 5 or 6pm. When I haven't been doing that, I've caught up on a few episodes of Star Trek: Voyager from season 1 and catching the random movie here and there. I even formatted and reinstalled Winblows XP on my gaming system. It seems to be running a bit smoother now, so that's a good thing. On the reading side of things, I finished 'The Vampire Lestat' last week and have moved into 'The Queen of the Damned' and have gotten just passed the half way point. They aren't real page turners like the fantasy books I was reading last month, but they are still very interesting. The fact that it takes me more than three or four days to finish one lends to its interest as well. -richard out |
3,616,679 | female | 47 | indUnk | Cancer | 12,June,2004 | At this time in my life, I desperately need words to live by. A few years ago, I collected, authored, and wrote a small journal for each of my young sons to be given to them on the day they leave the nest. Remembering this, I took one out and read what I had wrote to them and realized that some of the wisdom I wrote on those pages was abundantly appropriate for me to take to heart one more time. Now to practice what I preach: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take... but by the moments that take our breath away. If you see an opportunity, and you don't know what to do... ask yourself: 'Will it make me a better person, a better Child of God?' If the answer is a definite 'YES!' - then GO FOR IT!! It takes a strong man to say 'I'm sorry', and it's easier than digging out of the hole denial creates somewhere down the road. I asked the Lord how much He loved me. He answered, 'This much.' And then he stretched out His arms and died for me. What is Love? by young children: It's what makes you smile when you're tired. It's what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen. It's like when grandma got arthritis and couldln't bend over and paint her toenails anymore - and my grandpa did it for her all the time even when his hands got arthritis too...that's love. A strong man never stands alone....visible or invisible, there are others holding him up and out towards the world. The most destructive force in the world? Gossip. Never be afraid to try something new...remember: a lone amateur built the Ark, a large group of professionals built the Titanic. Always leave loved ones with loving words... it may the last time you see them. Learn that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. There are more for another time. Everyone has a favourite group of words stored in the subconscious for times of darkness and despair...don't they? Whether from the Bible, the Torah, the Koran, from their mother, or best friend. Words that strike a choral note in the heart, sear meaning in the mind, and are tucked away for the rainy days of life. |
3,616,679 | female | 47 | indUnk | Cancer | 12,June,2004 | I would never have guessed that 2004 would be a life-transitional time. After living for nearly half of a century, I feel as though I have been shoved back into a cocoon. I must stay hidden, quiet, and dormant for a period of time. Faith in the essence of just being alive fortifies my consciousness to be certain that I will emerge with a new life, a fresh perspective, and the chance to dream again. I have great hope for the future...I must, or I will not survive the 're-birth'. For this, I lean on my faith in God. And then will come the business of my God guiding me in 'getting started' in a new phase of my life...learning to spread my wings and exploring my new world. But for now, I am curled in my home awaiting my time. Scared, lonely, persecuted, angry...but thanking God for the few good friends who are with me. Patiently I wait for the getting-started-gun to go off to break the chains that bind me. |
3,616,679 | female | 47 | indUnk | Cancer | 01,July,2004 | Some days I feel as though if I have to continue to be STRONG for just one more minute....I will SCREAM!!! I'm sick of being the strong one. I'm sick of being the one with all the answers. I'm sick of standing up straight with a stiff upper lip. When do I get to lean? When do I get to let another take charge of life, even if just for a little while? When can I lighten up? My parents leaned on me, my friends lean on me, my spouse leaned on me, my kids lean on me, my co-workers lean on me, my bosses lean on me. Is it just my sympathetic character, or am I inadvertently doing something to attract this attention? I can't lighten up...even while I strive to help others to do so. Yet, I love helping people. They are unburdened, and I receive great satisfaction in giving aid. Is it selfish to find satisfaction in that? It would be wrong if I felt relief that they move on and away from me, but what I feel is a great personal sigh of satisfaction: because deep down inside I know that this is what 'life is all about'. But I can't lighten up. I worry about others, I think about others, I work for others, I care for others, I love others. In taking on their burdens, I add to my own. Yet I do it time and time again knowingly. And I have so many of my own burdens/problems/crises to deal with right now... I have learned lately who my real friends are. I have watched them step up to the plate as I have weakened. I have felt their hands holding me up. I have listened to their yearnings for my future happiness. ...and they are not the ones whom I have helped, these special angels are different ones. Appearing out of nowhere, some of whom I never knew even noticed me before. Why don't the ones whom I have helped help me now? I sympathize with them again... it must be hard to watch the one who was once your saviour, guardian, protector...fall to pieces before your very eyes. What do they say to me? What can they do for me? What is most imporant is that I practice what I preach. That I do in front of these ones that which I urged them to do. And most importantly, that I show them that it works time and time again...because they are watching me. |
3,616,679 | female | 47 | indUnk | Cancer | 01,July,2004 | women who work women who work at being moms women who need a weekend away women who lie about their age women who are proud of their age women who dye their hair and talk about it aggressive women who only act that way, but really just want to be held women who like cats women who secretly hate dogs women with transitional boyfriends women who worry about what their mothers think women who are confident women who are confidential women who hate men that say: '...there are 2 kinds of women...' women who never bake women who never cook women who love to feed other people women in positions of daunting authority women who are ticklish women with migraines women who would never use their husband's toothbrush women with short fingernails women who lean on the car horn women with a lead foot women who are opinionated women who couldn't care less women who refuse to grow up women who hate roses women who forget if the stove was turned off women who hate pink women against high heels women who dislike their mothers women who think romance novels are trashy women who hate soap operas women who hate gossip women who blush when told they look nice women who never diet women who still have their dolls women with large purses women who love used stores women who hate yard sales women who think plastic surgery is insane women who think lyposuction is self-abuse women who prefer anything besides television women who would never open their man's wallet women who love chocolate women who love massages women who are intuitive women who would rather drive than passenger women who have changed a tire women who hate to be late for anything women who like ponytails on men women who wear ponytails women who think there is no such thing as too many chocolate chips women who hate negotiating women who hate confrontation women who avoid compromising women who wait until their teenagers are home women who prefer butter women who have had their hearts broken, but move on women who are left-handed women who need not work hard at keeping a nice home women who need their routine women who abhor seeing their man in sweatpants women with deep voices women who, on the whole, are happy with life women with some form of secondary education women who prefer taking the scenic route women on the edge of greatness women who always wanted a tree house when they were kids women who were tomboys women who would never, ever hitchhike women who snack women who are happiest with a good book women who are happiest with a good man women who rock women who would never trust their horoscope women who have more than 1 favourite colour women who know how to get what they want women in the construction trade women who will never be accused of selling out women who love the smell of gasoline women who are tall, but co-ordinated women who are looking forward to a vacation women who have had a fight with their husband, but only becuase it was all his fault anyway women who think rock climbers are crazy fools women who think a man's looks are not the most important thing women who sparkle when they laugh women who make others comfortable women who secretly hope their daughter grows up to be a doctor women who shoplifted as a kid, and regretted it ever since women with a pulse |
4,086,796 | male | 25 | Technology | Taurus | 30,July,2004 | PATRICIA'S SHORT SPEECH WORTH READING....----------------------------------------------------------------------------------When I was little, I wanted what many Filipino children all over the country wanted. I wanted to be blond, blue-eyed, and white.I thought -- if I just wished hard enough and was good enough, I'd wake up on Christmas morning with snow outside my window and freckles across my nose!More than four centuries under western domination does that to you. I have sixteen cousins. In a couple of years, there will just be five of us left in the Philippines, the rest will have gone abroad in search of 'greener pastures.' It's not just an anomaly; it's a trend; the Filipino diaspora. Today, about eight million Filipinos are scattered around the world.There are those who disapprove of Filipinos who choose to leave. I used to. Maybe this is a natural reaction of someone who was left behind, smiling for family pictures that get emptier with each succeeding year. Desertion, I called it. My country is a land that has perpetually fought for the freedom to be itself. Our heroes offered their lives in the struggle against the Spanish, the Japanese, the Americans. To pack up and deny that identity is tantamount to spitting on that sacrifice.Or is it? I don't think so, not anymore. True, there is no denying this phenomenon, aided by the fact that what was once the other side of the world is now a twelve-hour plane ride away. But this is a borderless world, where no individual can claim to be purely from where he is now. My mother is of Chinese descent, my father is a quarter Spanish, and I call myself a pure Filipino-a hybrid of sorts resulting from a combination of cultures.Each square mile anywhere in the world is made up of people of different ethnicities, with national identities and individual personalities. Because of this, each square mile is already a microcosm of the world. In as much as this blessed spot that is England is the world, so is my neighbourhood back home.Seen this way, the Filipino Diaspora, or any sort of dispersal of populations, is not as ominous as so many claim. It must be understood. I come from a Third World country, one that is still trying mightily to get back on its feet after many years of dictatorship. But we shall make it, given more time. Especially now, when we have thousands of eager young minds who graduate from college every year. They have skills. They need jobs. We cannot absorb them all.A borderless world presents a bigger opportunity, yet one that is not so much abandonment but an extension of identity. Even as we take, we give back. We are the 40,000 skilled nurses who support the UK's National Health Service. We are the quarter-of-a-million seafarers manning most of the world's commercial ships. We are your software engineers in Ireland, your construction workers in the Middle East, your doctors and caregivers in North America, and, your musical artists in London's West End.Nationalism isn't bound by time or place. People from other nations migrate to create new nations, yet still remain essentially who they are. British society is itself an example of a multi-cultural nation, a melting pot of races, religions, arts and cultures. We are, indeed, in a borderless world!Leaving sometimes isn't a matter of choice. It's coming back that is. The Hobbits of the shire travelled all over Middle-Earth, but they chose to come home, richer in every sense of the word. We call people like these balikbayans or the 'returnees' -- those who followed their dream, yet choose to return and share their mature talents and good fortune.In a few years, I may take advantage of whatever opportunities come my way. But I will come home. A borderless world doesn't preclude the idea of a home. I'm a Filipino, and I'll always be one. It isn't about just geography; it isn't about boundaries. It's about giving back to the country that shaped me.And that's going to be more important to me than seeing snow outside my windows on a bright Christmas morning.Mabuhay and Thank you. |
3,650,889 | female | 15 | Student | Scorpio | 27,June,2004 | Hey dere!!okae,i noe..i didnt blog for two daes.kindda tired lately.i guess i haf to list down loads of stuff dat i've been gone through last few daes.Loads of things i wanna share..okae,on the 25th of June,went out at bout 12pm.both me & Lila met Amni at Admiralty PLace.Fydah didnt manage to turn up.so did Mar & Az.we were late for the 12:30pm show.so we watched the 2:30pm show.okae..wondering wad movie we watched??wad else,Harry Potter and the prisoner of azkaban.the show kindda great but not much action.the three of us really did haf fun.well,we watch it at Yishun Golden Village.Felt so tired.damn tired.plus sleepy.i really did haf a good rest & early bed-tyme.Still thinkin' bout' the answer 4 me to give to Hisyam..scared i broke his heart.okae..so,dat was on Fridae.Now let's talk bout yesterdae.hmm..basically i haf ma O.O(official opening) training again.or should i col it as practice?hehehe..Lila also involved for the practice.she's in the fancy drills.i'm very happy for her.went to skool wif Mar & Safiah.saw Teck Hong sir taking his breakfast in the canteen.he's taking a heavy breakfast.can't believe it,man..he alwaes took a heavy breakfast.Mar & Safiah said dat he kindda heavy eater despite his skinny body.hehehe..funny.he is actually damn skinny.at least yesterdae wasnt ma bad dae.okae..now i do remember wad's the gerl name.the one i mentioned b4.okae..her name is Jiamin(i think i spell wrongly).Chee Wei sir do turned up.at last!!i think he kindda gain weight.Okae..i get to touch T.H.'s cap.talk to him.not dat much.sum ppl said dat T.H. is CUTE.okae..guess wad??i'm damn JEALOUS.suprise,huh.went to causewae & library.me & Lila kindda stalk T.H. Saw Kok Siang.He's cute.kindda pity T.H. coz i realized dat he dun really haf much palz.Thursdae haf the O.O training again.okae..now let's talk bout todae.well,nothing much happen todae.i finish up ma holidae assignments already.but i still haf not prepare ma skool stuff.i mean tyme table.talked to Amni on the phone bout' skool stuff & Hisyamuddin.well..i'm stuck now.dunno wad's the rite answer 4 me to give him.scared dat he'll be heart-broken.he's kindda emotional type of guy.2morrow is the dae 4 me to give him the answer face to face.i guess i'll juz haf to posponed the date to dunno wen..oh..help me!!but i dun haf any feelings for him..he's juz one of ma best fren..okae..i gotta knock out. |
3,650,889 | female | 15 | Student | Scorpio | 24,June,2004 | Early in the morning,woke up at bout' 6am.luckily i had ma breakfast todae.juz a light breakfast..glad dat dad can ride me to skool again todae.one of the reason is,i won't be late if he ride me to skool.i brought ma full-uniform along but wen i reached skool,i can't see any G.O.H contigent brought it along.kindda paiseh at dat moment but luckily nobody saw me brought dat thing along.so i juz place dat thing in ma bag.usually first thing in the morning,wad i would see is T.H. but todae i can't see him anywhere first dae in the morning.wen doing drills,dere's dis one chinese gerl in the G.O.H contigent.i can't remember wad's her name.she told me to do ma drills properly.okae..i take dat as a comment and try to learn from the mistake.But sooner,each tyme all of us wanna fall in,she's the only one who alwaes reminds me to left up ma legs 45% properly.Totally frustrated i tell ya.i'm sure non of us lykes ppl to remind us our mistake.okae..since i'm the front row gerl doesn't mean ppl haf to correct ma mistake wen dey themselves make mistake..huh!!Arghh!!frust,man...okae,let's not talk bout dat anymore.i found out dat T.H. is sick todae.poor him..i really pity him coz he haf to shout wen he's sick.but not dat tired as usal training todae..here me blogging while talking to Sir marcus and watching 'all that' show.chat wif sir marcus is damn fun!!he's very gentleman..sort of.talk to Amni bout tomorrow plan.guess Fydah can't turn up since she still in the mood of her grandfather's death..pity Fydah..her beloved grandfather is now not by her side..maybe only me,Lila,Mar & Az turn up 4 tomorrow.Amni not sure if she is coming.Not enough money.juz now talk to Amni on the phone bout Hisyamuddin.Huh..as u noe,he's into me.i mean he sound stead me last saturdae but i haf not yet give him the answer.i'm sure the answer will be no..he's juz ma best buddy but not ma crush,admirer or sumthing.i only regard him as ma best pal..u noe,sort of bestfren but now he's into me and i feel awkward wen toking to him..now is a kindda problem to me..guess i haf to stop now..ma lil' bro need to use the comp..play games,wad else.. |
3,650,889 | female | 15 | Student | Scorpio | 23,June,2004 | Totally tiring dae for me..Woke up at bout 8:45pm den start away take shower.mum prepared a special meal for both Lila & me.We had Mum's American breakfast.it's damn delicious.Lila & me in hurry coz we wanna meet up wif Amni and Fydah.but unfortunately,Fydah didnt manage to turn up coz her beloved grandfather juz passed away.i think her grandfather juz passed away dis morning.i felt so sorry for her..i noe how she felt coz i once gone through dat kindda situation.me & ma beloved aunt..still remember her..okae,let's talk bout the field trip which i juz went dis afternoon.it's damn FUN!!but kindda bored at first coz Fydah didnt turn up.but afta a while,we did enjoy.took a ferry but was a bit giddy at first.everyone felt the same wae...eat a lot of snacks while on the wae to St John island.once reached dere..weather not dat good.but the scenery dere was awesome.lyke it veri much.we get to see dis cute little colourful fish.wish i could touch it.den we get to go to the place.i forgot wad was it col.we get to do some discussing but of coz nobody do really care bout dat.but we did haf fun at dat moment.den we went to so col an area where dey held those experience.we get to see the most biggest fish dey breed dere.but those fishes so rough.we also get to see the giant clam.so huge.one of the tour guide told us dat some ppl do eat those stuff.i felt so disguisted.YUCKZ..finally,we get to the lab where we get to touch some sea creature.so COOL!!i get a chance to touch a shark.of coz it's a baby shark.Not only dat.also i get to touch sea cucumber,starfish and loads more.afta dat,we straight away head to the jetty.took the ferry again.dis tyme non of us as giddy as we were the tyme we came.we watched the story col 'volcano'.bet many enjoy the show to coz all of us didnt really realize wen we reached S'pore.dat was the fun trip.i bet.i didnt went back home straight away since i'm starving at dat moment.so head to the fast food restaurant(KFC).okae den..ma lil' brother wanna use the computer.kids dis dae.. |
3,650,889 | female | 15 | Student | Scorpio | 22,June,2004 | Okae..early in the morning i send my lil' brother to his religion class.Den fetched him bout 10:20 am.kindda late at dat moment.i saw Putera at McDonald.i mean..he's a McDonald Boi.hehehe..he kindda shock to see me.Now his quite tall..guess he grow so fast.Den i saw Hanafi near the supermarket.reached home,first thing i do is col Amni.She didn't manage to turn up.Not dat she's not free..but she not comfortable coming alone.so we juz chat on the phone for hours.on wat to bring for tomorrow,things lyke bout Hisyamuddin..and life.I'm kindda bored at dat moment..so Amni kindda cheer up ma dae.we lykes to jokes around,and dat's COOL.i've got nothing much to do,so i clean up ma room..the entire ROOM!!!i make-over the whole into kindda funky one.it's pretty nice to juz hang out in the room and admiring it..den i realized,dere's still plenty of tyme..so i decorate ma new diary.Luv it veri much.while decorating it,i set up ma hair.it ended up ma hair turns all curly.but it's pretty nice.can't wait to show Lila our room being make-over & ma new hair style.i bought quite a lot of snacks for tomorrow field trip.gonna enjoy dat trip.todae not a good dae for me..mum kindda naggy all dae..while dad at sticking at home the entire dae..BORING,rite?wateva i do todae,mum will haf sumthing to say..sumthing dat hurts ma feeling..an irritating comments...juz can't wait for skool reopen ..i juz dun wanna stick ma butt all the tyme at home..it's irritating!!okae..juz keep up the latest up date.many to tell..pretty sure.coz tomorrow out of S'pore.hehehe..going to St. John island for field trip.can't wait to meet up wif the sea creatures..okae..gotta knock out b4 the naggy thing appears again..cHiaO!! |
3,650,889 | female | 15 | Student | Scorpio | 21,June,2004 | Okae..i feel so bored!!i'm alone at home.not exactly alone.Mum & dad going out for some bussiness stuff.Nowdaes mum is so buzy wif her work.almoz everydae she go out.Lila went to camp at woodgrove sec for red cross.gonna miss her for two daes.both of us juz cant leave without each other.we're as close as...hmm..dunno wad to say.but we're juz lyke twins.isnt it great??she's having fun..while me..at home,gonna finish up ma holidaes assignment.juz a little more den dat's it.todae i'm gonna sleep alone.and conquering the whole bed.it's sounds pretty good but not for me..dis week gonna be a buzy week 4 me..hmm..todae course cancelled again.guess juz stuck at home again.tomorrow nothing on.but definitely i'm gonna get ma butt out of the house.maybe i'm gonna hang out at the mall or sumthing wif palz.but amni said dat she wanna come over to ma place.sounds COOL!!we gonna hang out and working on our gang's website.i'm not a homey gurl or an indoor gurl.so whenever i haf nothing at home..i would prefer doing some sports lyke playing soccer or hang out..okae..gotta knock out..loads of things to finish up..ByEzzzzzzzzzz |
3,650,889 | female | 15 | Student | Scorpio | 20,June,2004 | Hey dere..At last i get to blog again.i'm kindda sick for the past 3 daes!!Can't believe it..i haf no flu,fever or cough.Wondering wad kindda of sickness.Me not sure.Maybe ma stomach is kindda upset wif me.It's all started on the night of 16 june.Ma stomach is making me SICK!!i try to lay around all over ma room but juz can't keep ma eyes shut.ARGHHH...!!(FRUST)Dunno..suddenly i rush to the toilet and VOMMIT!!YUCKS....Everything i ate came out.I vommit more den 5 times..Basically i'm very weak at dat moment.The next dae i'm suppose to attend an NPCC course .But to bad..i'm sick.So far, the past 3 daes basically i'm juz lying at ma bed..didn't eat anything juz drink..Now i'm glad dat i can eat wateva i want!!Todae is the dae 4 me to enjoy ma meal once again!! Okae..on Fridae,18 june,Amni and Fydah came over to ma place.Although i'm sick but i still haf to carry on wif the project stuff.Now Lila,Fydah,Amni & me are so close.Almoz everytime we hang out at either one of our place..it's COOL.Dis coming week will be a buzy week for me.Having NPCc training for the Official Opening,Npcc Course(luckily they change the date to tomorrow),activities,Field Trip,Family outing & FRenZ dae out!!Hmmm..yesterdae Hisyamuddin sound stead me.I dunno wad answer to tell him.Huh..i juz treat him as normal frenz..We are so close dat he end up falling for me..okae..i guess i haf to stop here.So many things to do!!Lila need ma help 4 her camp stuff.Guess i'm gonna miss her for two daes... |
3,650,889 | female | 15 | Student | Scorpio | 16,June,2004 | HaHAHa!!First time Blog.Basically me on the wae back to homeland..Kindda miss hometown,Frenz and Family!!Tomorrow still haf to turn up for a course.Huh..tired,man.Not sure if i can wake up early tomorrow.Juz wish me Gd Luck. Still thinking bout' ma CRUSH!!Miss him...Dunno y.he's face alwaes in ma mind..okae..guess gotta go.. |
3,650,889 | female | 15 | Student | Scorpio | 04,July,2004 | Todae is YOUTH DAE!!Now i'm downloading pictures.Nothing much happening.it's juz dat mum went out of S'pore doing some business trip.She'll be home by tonight.Dad also went out to work.Guess dat only left me & ma siblings alone at home.Oh yeah..i think i haf to update ma blog for the past few daes.. Mon,28 June 04' It's first dae of skool.early in the morning got caught by principle.i pass the answer via Amni.Hisyam totally over-joy.By the wae,i haf ma own novel.Still working on it.i col it 'Puzzled..Help!!'. Tues,29 June 04' Well,todae is ma 2nd dae wif Hisyam.B4 i forgot,todae is also ma 1 month havin' crush wif T.H. ma class get selected to go to SYF opening ceremony. Wed,30 june 04' 3rd dae wif Him.we didnt communicate wif each other yet.discuss bout 'Creative Dae'.Went to Civic Library.Mar fell down near the carpark.Hurt very badly. Thurs,1st July 04' went to skool felt panic.i forgot to bring ma npcc belt.for the first tyme,i forgot to bring npcc stuff o skool.dad sent the stuff together wif ma skool bag.Ms Yeo cancelled the G.O.H practice since dey onli concerntrate on the fancy drills ppl. Fri,2nd July 04' Wow!!Creative dae & Be Yourself Dae is held todae.two events on one dae.ma class dress as HIPPIES.all of us look so slack.but fun.Mr Harizan didnt managed to turn up coz he's going to Hong Kong to visit his wife dere.Reporters came to skool to take some pictures.For the Be Yourself Dae,i wore a black 3/4 shirt wif ma violet clr pants.Went to Cwp afta skool wif Lila,MAr,Az & Fydah.we took pictures and haf fun. Sat,3rd July 04' Early in the morning went to skool.Both me & Lila over-slept.We woke up at around 6:15am.Haf npcc training & also O.O preview for principle.Kindda nervous coz i'm in the Guard of Honour contigent.the main & important ppl.But everything went very smoothly.Afta dat rush home quickly coz we had to reach skool again by 1:15pm.Loads of ppl turned up for the SYF opening ceremony.The show kindda fun & boring.very proud coz sum of ma skoolmates involved in the parade.i saw dis cute chinese npcc instructor.He's kidda cute.too bad i didn't take a picture of him.Haf fun wif all ma palz.On the wae back,i alk non-stop wif ma classmates.we played sum games.funny thing is dat,Amni fall asleep.she told all of us dat she's tired.dunno tired bout wad.if i'm tired it's kindda acceptable. okae..dat's all,palz..i need to continue wif ma novel stuff.. |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 19,August,2004 | And so a restless, waiting world world cries out 'Mighty Tom? Where are you???' |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 17,August,2004 | Triumphant night last night. Very very happy with the result. And, with the rock kick/snare, as well as with a bunch of syncopated snare fills, gone is any last hope of this album taking on a 'new traditional' country feel. Ready to lay down some good old fashioned rock n roll tracks. Would appreciate a call from Mighty Tom today, as I would like to discuss a couple of questions I have as I get back into the actual mechanics of recording again (with greater quality-control than in the DG album). |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 17,August,2004 | I'm popping in CDs from all kinds of genres, including many that dig deep into my history. Today I was listening to a little Enya: 'The Celts.' Some good music there--perhaps her best in my opinion, but boy it's tough to separate myself from my reminiscent feelings in the songs. From an inspiration standpoint, I always thought the stark guitar that comes in on 'I Want Tomorrow' is just wild. From a reminiscent standpoint, boy-anybody remember the soundtrack to 'Brown Fumes and Yellow Streaks?' |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 16,August,2004 | Dove into the drums for Green Colored Eyes last night. It had been a long time since I'd worked with Dr. Rhythm, but things went pretty well. Arrangements for about half the 'patterns' were arrived at, and the basic rhythm exists for pretty much the whole song. I was pleased to see how the arrangement settled nicely into a (kick & snare) (1) bum (2) space (3) ti (4) bum (5) space (6) ti (7) bum (8) space. Basically, a really solid, standard rock beat. Obviously, there's plenty of variation, but I'm hoping the ease with which it saddled down into a rock rhythm is an indication of how decisive my departure on this album will be from my past couple (or really, all my previous) projects. |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 16,August,2004 | this one - hello |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 13,August,2004 | And so it begins...the proprietor of Camden Coffee Company (the little place I've played twice with Starship Stacy and the Vector Kings) was in a bind--her act for tonight had canceled, and a group of The Red Hat Society were going to be showing up, expecting music. On a whim, I agreed to come in and play solo. I didn't really think about it until I was almost ready to play, but this was going to be the first time I have ever played solo in public! Very wild, for that reason alone. I grabbed a group of sheet music for songs that we recently played at the Daniel Guitarra release party, and another group of songs spanning a number of genres (some of which I hadn't practiced or played for well over a year), and just went with it. Interesting thing about performance I've learned in my maturity-not sure it would have necessarily changed things a whole lot when I was in 44, but maybe it would have made performances a little more comfortable: unless you are a 'famous' band (e.g. one for which people pay a substantial fee to see), it is totally unreasonable to expect people to suspend conversation and watch, non-stop. I simply could not grasp this as a young rocker, and the chattering, engaged with one another-audience was constantly in my head, giving me black, hopeless thoughts and undoubtedly making my performances suffer. In recent years (I guess, mainly just this year), I have had a new lease on my performance life. The Camden Garden release was kind of weird all-around. I think my (and Pat's) 'maturity' level was fine, in that we weren't putting this unrealistic expectation on ourselves, but I think there were other things going on at that show (like a majority of the album songs not being conducive to two acoustic guitars, perhaps some poor song selection) that made it a little awkward. But now I'm having a lot of fun again--very little pressure in between songs, banter feels natural and fun, and playing songs not by me for the most part has been a nice departure. It was fun tonight--the ladies chatted & chatted as my song list ranged from Los Bravos' 'Black is Black' to Paul McCartney's 'So Bad,' and they occasionally acknowledged me with a few moments attention, a smile, or whatever. Also-like it or not other musicians--but people like, nay LOVE to hear what they know. The familiar songs were OK, but hands-down the hit of the night was as soon as they all realized the song I was playing was leading up to the chorus of 'You Picked a Fine Time to Leave Me, Lucille,' whereupon (of course) they all joined in. I got to play two newly written original songs which received some nice comments, and I got some nice comments on my vox (which is good to hear when you're totally on display--only vocals & guitar). All in all, a really good time, and an interesting sort of gateway into this new segment of my recording career in which I will be working on the first album to be released under the name 'Dan Hylton.' p.s. Don't get me wrong, though (especially if Aaron & Krista are reading) I still love playing live with other musicians! |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 11,August,2004 | Due do the dearth of really good kids' music (other than Raffi), I compiled To Kids, With Love Vol. 1 last night; a CD of songs kids will enjoy from my album collection. 1. Lovely Day - Bill Withers 2. Yellow Submarine - The Beatles 3. On the Road Again - Willie Nelson 4. Three Little Birds - Bob Marley and the Wailers 5. Here Comes the Moon - George Harrison 6. Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds - The Beatles 7. For Baby (for Bobbie) - John Denver 8. Spirit Voices - Paul Simon 9. Let 'em In - Paul McCartney 10. I Had You - The Incredible Moses Leroy 11. Today is Great - 44 Copies will be made for close friends that have & love kids. Gibbons and the Johnsons have agreed to contribute a volume each to the series-WON'T YOU CONSIDER??? |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 10,August,2004 | Not sure if you'll find this very interesting at all, but here goes my first attempt at contributing to The Oliopolis. I've had a real challenge, starting to work on my new album. I gone from wanting to tackle any one of three musicals, to feeling that (off the heels of Daniel Guitarra) alt-country/new traditional was sort of my new calling, back to realizing I really need to make a rock album again. But even within that scope, I find myself wondering if I should, on some level, try to be conscious of making sure songs have a good, somewhat-related album 'feel,' or if I should just start writing and see what happens. Pursuing the former could, if one is not careful, lead to a formulaic result and that non-adventurous middle age we have all lamented our various favorite artists succumbing to. But the latter could run into what I would call the '44 trap,' which is a lack of focus that can leave an audience feeling disjointed, with each song forcing the listener to adjust their frame of reference and not get into a flow. Right now, it's looking like trying to find the balance between the two AND a somewhat conscious effort at keeping in mind there is potentially a larger audience for this album than just me and my best friends (possibly a failing of Camden Garden?) In any event, the first song I wrote, 'Green Eyes,' is (after a 7-year hiatus on the subject) a song about Sharon; or more, our relationship. Good feelings about what it is and what is in the future. Will consider posting lyrics and, eventually, some music... |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 10,August,2004 | Cricket.......cricket..... Easy now fellas - don't post too often - the system's not up for it. And thus begins the experiment. |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 18,August,2004 | I'm going to be going out on a limb a bit on this one--a little Devil's Advocacy, but I am hoping this forum can be one of insightful dialogue, not just one-sided rants. And I'm going to shock and amaze my friends in the far, far left by saying that, given feel-good holistics on one side and science on the other, I'll take science every time. Maybe not that much of a shock, actually. But what I'm really driving at is a type of hypocrisy from a certain faction on the left (perhaps, the 'new age' or 'alternative' communities, if I may pigeonhole a bit). We have long loved to mock and ridicule and be indignant at the religious right for their utter disregard for consensus in the the scientific community when it conflicts with their narrow worldview. Well, this same scientific community is working to develop and study the vaccines that keep our kids disease-free, and the lifestyles that keep us fit. I became turned on to this issue in a class this last spring where I discovered that, among academics, the acceptance of positivist scientific research is currently at a low point, and the notion of 'statisitcal significance' is being called into question. I do not have the math skills, nor the dedication to follow in the noble path that is true science and research, but I can only imagine how I would feel if my efforts, which incorporate the best (only!) data available to the human race in the pursuit of objective pursuit of knowledge were dismissed. Dismissed! On the basis of what? Less data? Less objective goals? Because those are the only two other possibilities!!! I now look back on my brief stint in dynamic stretching, where the proponents claimed, 'Everything you're ever learned about stretching is wrong' with some amount of embarassment. (Scientific) fact is: stretch and you prevent injury, surely as run and you get better at running, or eat too much and get fat. Media in our society is definitely capable of prematurely going public with early stages of research, and there are certainly instances in which funding sources for areas of research must be brought into question. But the conclusions and research I am talking about involve 90+% of the scientific community, through generations of testing and retesting. As Mixdorf suggested in his last post, we are standing on the shoulders of past scientific greats, reaping benefits non-stop in our daily lives. Who are we to and on the basis of what may be now pick and choose what of their conclusions suits our fancy? Are we still evolving? Absolutely. Is it black and white which areas of research have arrived at that 'scientific community' stage? Harder to say. There will undoubtedly be some point in my life (perhaps many times) when I will make a decision on science that will someday be disproven. But I don't have all the facts, and sometimes I have to base my decisions by putting my trust in other members of society who have done the dirty work so I can lead my own life. I look at what I now understand about the statistical notion of 'significance' and I like those odds. Will I listen to advice from a minister, a guru, or a scientist? In the end, I choose science. |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 16,August,2004 | One of Bush's favorite statements to those who say school reform is impossible, and that the No Child Left Behind Act is a piece of crap. Well, of all the people to have benefitted from Low Expectations, Bush should pray to his freaky god every night that life works like it does. No one in the history of mankind has worked less hard to get to such a height of power, at least in a system that doesn't pass power automatically by bloodline. And to pile more irony onto the Everest that already exists, just last week Bush came out to say that legacy admissions to universities (where people get in because their parents and grandparents did) are wrong and should be abolished. Convenient, now 40 years since his own C averaged limped into Yale on the shoulders of his forebearers, and now that his own children have graduated from the same place. Holy shit, the man's actions know no bounds. Dan touched nicely on my continual frustration with anti-intellectualism in this country. Nobody likes a smarty pants, but apparently they believe every modern convenience and advancement was created by divine intervention (probably some of them do). It's convenient that the most popular saying of Thomas Edison is that invention is 99% perspiration and 1% inspiration. he wasn't giving himself much credit. Sure, things are achieved through hard work and perserverance, and I espouse those traits as well, but where would our society be without those individuals who saw past the popular understanding into a deeper truth? Who looked at the same thing that everyone took for granted and saw something more sublime and more wonderful? These are the intellectuals. Not the jackasses that look down on the world over their half/caf mocha lattes with soy milk and copies of the New Yorker. Those people are morons, and contribute little to society. They're not big thinkers, they're high-cultural conformists. No better than the asshole that wants nothing better than a McMansion and a gas-guzzling SUV. They may, in fact, be worse, since they're exposed to a larger world, and chose only to exist in a tiny part of it. The world is a complex and wonderful place, full of subtlety and nuance, more amazing by far than can be summed up in any 3 word slogan or catchphrase. It takes science and poetry to tell us how extraordinary and difficult life can be, a constant searching for more and more, simply because 'it's there'. As a society, you don't get to stop, because if early societies had stopped, would we even exist? It takes the wisest among us to guide us through to some greater future, learning from the past but always curious about what lies around the next corner. Looking before we leap just long enough to glimpse a landing spot off in the distance. Embrace an intellectual. Vote Kerry. |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 13,August,2004 | We're in the midst of a cold spell in the Twin Cities. Near-record lows. With any unseasonably cool span of days comes the inevitable comments of local residents, 'Global Warming? What Global Warming?' Some, as did a particularly clever sort in the Star Tribune this morning, go so far as to send those four words in to serve as a letter to the editor. Ah, yes folks: what we have in this instance is a perfect microcosm of our culture's aversion to complexity of any sort, and it's almost certainly related to the anti-intellectualism that Mixdorf has spoken of a time or two. To quickly dismiss the letter writer and others like him, science has proven (to governments that believe in science) beyond reasonable doubt that our global temperatures are rising. Crazy short-term weather, (whether cold, rain, hurricane, or otherwise), which has become more and more commonplace, is simply more evidence in the havoc that climate change is wreaking on our planet. But back to the macrocosm: the American people like their political issues like they like their prime-time TV: simple. It is the whole issue of 'nuance' that Democrats have struggled with for the last 30 years. Republicans can state any issue in black and white: 'they' hate us, 'that' is evil, he will 'raise taxes,' when in reality, of course nothing is that simple and without complexity (or shouldn't be, G.W.!!!). Good politicians (often Democrats), realize that the world is full of 'nuance,' and that real problems require thoughtful, forward-thinking solutions. Of course, the public will have none of this, and prefer black and white accusations; battle cries; and insulting, simplistic myths over long-winded explanations . Now the far right has figured out that any explanation over six words can be potrayed to anti-intellectual masses as 'waffling.' For them, trying to sell a guy that is incapable of speaking more a single coherent sentence, it's too good to be true. |
4,147,130 | male | 33 | indUnk | Capricorn | 11,August,2004 | What's the Deal with Luis Palou? Is it just me, or does anyone else find it incredible that a crazy evangelical snake-oil salesman can attract 250,000-people to his little rant? How is this possible? These guys are doubling the audience that a Beatle-reunion would garner, and I'd never even heard of this guy: urlLink http://www.startribune.com/stories/614/4917513.html , and suddenly our local newspaper (the Star Tribune) is chock-full of feature stories related to his 'crusade,' complete with photos of him shaking the governor's hand on the front page. Somehow, this dude's promotion was done quickly and without the notice of intellectuals and scientists and progressives in the Churches and (for all I know) the boardrooms and catillions of this nation. I'm not the first person to suggest that the progressive, inclusive message of the real Jesus has been twisted into a regressive, exclusive 'message' of Christ. But how come it is that the hard-line right-wing is considered an insane evil when it's Muslims (or any non-US culture), and 'faith & values' when it involves Christians here in the states? Sorry, but to me radical religious fervor is radical religious fervor, and it's never any good when it gets mixed up with government, law, military, or power. That, politically, an unholy alliance has been formed between Christian fundamentalists (who, apparently, believe it's much more important to vote against what they disapprove of rather than on the side of hope and peace) and our corporate interests (who, in their very mission statements, make a mockery of everything Jesus stood for) freaks me out. What should be a desperate sub-culture has suddenly been given new life and, yes, 'fervor' as it lashes out in one last mighty throe in the face of, ultimately, irrefutable science, reason, and tolerance. We have, as a race, overcome Witch Burnings, The Holocaust (most of us, anyway), and the arms race of the 80s. This, too, shall pass, but I hope beyond hope there is not irreparable damage to the people, cultures, and resources of the world by the time it does. |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 05,July,2004 | hee~ *ahem* WeLcOme to Fz's fIrst Blog... Hmn... *Beaute De Rose*... I shall introduce this song... **The Rose** Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed. Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed. Some say love, it is a hunger. an endless aching need. I say love, it is a flower, and you its only a seed. It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance. It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give, and the soul afraid of dyin' that never learns to live. When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long, and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong, just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose. ______..___8'=,,88,_.__________________ _______8''=''8'__'88a88'_______________ __.._.;88m_a8___,8''_'8________________ ___'8''__'88'__A'_____8;_______________ _____'8,__'8___8_______'8,_____________ ______'8___8,__8,_______'8_____________ _______8,__'8,_'8,_______8,____________ _______'8,__'8,_'8mm''''''8m.__________ ________'8,am888i''___I3,mm'___________ ________,8'___8'__I3.m888'_____________ _______,88P'''''I3I888888______________ _______''_________'I888________________ ____________________'I8________________ _____________________'I8_______________ ______________________'I8_____________- Meaningful lyrics... a lovely song~ Basically... I think I'm quite an approachable person but it takes time to understand me better. Hmn... quite emotional and sentimental too. I love the people around me. I'm a perfectionist, so I guess I have lots of expectations. At times I may feel a little lost and confused, but thanks to those who have been guiding me on the way. A hopeless romantic here too... hmn, enjoy star gazing on a starry starry night, loves the beach, loves roses, loves beautiful music, loves purple, pink, rainbow... , loves every single bit of the natural beauty on this Earth... Thank God and the dear ones around me for what I am today. ' Friends like you don't grow on tress. I know that this is true, but if friends were flowers, there is no doubt how qickly I'd pick you' 'Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly. There is no beginning or end. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift. Dream what you want to dream, Go where you want to go, Be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do...' A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Hmn... just a few reflections here. It may ring a bell because these sayings are rather common. However, I do agree with it totally. Read it again... and you will be able to understand how I feel... That's all then... wow~ long entry! anyway... there will be more coming up! Special thanks to Denise aka Da Jie and meow meow for helping me to set up this blog... tata =) |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 06,July,2004 | Am I REALLY a happy person? This question just struck me not long ago... I have been pondering over it, but my final answer 'I'm not sure...” Sometimes I think not. I have lots and lots of worries, problems... and it's accumulating daily. At times I feel really tired... tired about thinking too much~ Although some may advise me not to think too much... but I just can't help it at times. I guess I may seem optimistic on the surface, but deep down inside me, I'm quite a pessimistic person. There's this sense of insecurity and fear that's always lingering in my heart. Sometimes, I may appear to be a carefree person... someone who's humorous, someone who hasn't tasted any downs in life. I think that at times, people are unable to realise when one is unhappy and all these overwhelming worries that’s pulling one apart. Guess I can hide my feelings quite well?! Hee~ Today, I've never stopped frowning ever since I stepped into school. I think I'm not in a very good mood today. So hey guys, if I appear to be unhappy sometimes, it's not your fault, cos it's just me. Anyway, I had p.e today... while strolling on the tracks, I took it as a very good opportunity for me to sort out my thoughts. I recalled all those sweet memories... those times I spent with my CO 'family' on the Pasir Ris beach, what we did, what each and everyone of us said. Each and every expression on everyone's face was captured and still running vividly through my mind. Guess these are the moments that will be able to brighten up my darkest days. I'm a dreamy person indeed. I love to picture my future... where will I be, and what will I be doing. It's not bad to think ahead... As mentioned in one of my fav. books 'Who moved my cheese'... Pg 58 (Imagining myself enjoying new cheese even before I find it leads me to it) Hmn... I may seem to be talkative most of the times. However, when I start to tone down, it's the time when I observe the actions and the behaviors of the people around me. Regardless if you are someone I know or a stranger from nowhere... I'm just interested or I should say curious to guess what's going through the minds of these people. haha... maybe I should consider taking up psychology? hmn.... or maybe law appeals more to me still. ANyway... I think every other human being feels the same... we face lots of dilemmas, thus we must learn to be more decisive in order to overcome more hurdles ahead in life. Hai~ maybe it's the weather today... that had instilled in me such a gloomy feeling. I think I shall learn to let things take its natural course. Arrgh…really miss my beloved hairpin too. This precious thing will probably be buried under the sand in the playground forever. Guess~ as what ‘meow meow’ said… treat it as something which holds all the unhappiness and it will be buried there. Recalling what ‘Da Jie’ said… maybe it’s not all meant to be. Anyway… thanks for making me feel better. I’m truly touched, especially when you guys helped me to ‘hunt’ for that pin. Yeah! So stay tuned for the next blog then… |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 07,July,2004 | I'm seeing stars *_*... I wanna faint.Inexplicable emotions running through me... my energy seems to be slowly draining away. Guess I should try my very best to look at the brighter side of life... yes! I will continue to perservere... I hope to see the fruit of the labour at the end of the day... Anyway words enough said... not much inspirations today. =( |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 08,July,2004 | Arrgh... not feeling very well lately... guess I should drop by the clinic for a check up. Lots of weird symptoms. I feel cold easily... even when the morning sun is shining brightly. My teeth starts to chatter badly the moment I enter audi. I have unusual aches everywhere. Oopps... hope it's nothing serious... I still wanna live a longer life. haha... Anyway, I love the weather today. Although it's a little freezy and you can feel the coldness penetrating into your skin like a thousand needles... this scenario reminds me of the time when I was in Hong Kong. hai~ gone are the days... when will the holidays be coming again? Hopefully this time I can travel to a Western country? Maybe for sight seeing and even for a shopping spree! That would be an extremely GrEaT idea yah... Anyway... talking about co practice... I think I'm looking forward to it. Because of the Matsuri piece, I'm finally 'falling in luv' with my zhongruan. haha... I miss those percussion beats that I used to play on my kulintang (malay xylophone) when I was in Angklung Band. I miss lots of people... all my juniors, my instructor and surprisingly even the PFA(Performing Arts)Department. Felt really touched when I attended 'Arts Alive' the other time. I just wanna say... you guys really rock to the max. and I'm truly proud to be an ex-senior of AB. Great music! Wonderful showmanship! it's really a tremendous improvement... and I really hope that they will continue to uphold the excellent reputation of AB. Hmn... but I think that there's 1 thing that's lacking in AB... and that's unity. Some of the members lack the positive attitude... hopefully under the guidance of the next batch of leaders... we will be able to see some improvements. Honestly, I do not have much faith in the next batch of leaders... so let time prove their capabilities. Perhaps, when one is appointed a leadership position... that person will learn to mature gradually and eventually is able to handle all the responsibilities in hand. Hmn... I've lots of expectations for the next batch of AB leaders. Perhaps it's due to my perfectionist nature again, that may give others some pressure at times. hahahahaha!~ Okay... that's all...hope that I'll feel much better tomorrow... or else... *_* |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 09,July,2004 | hmn... HoRoscOpes. How many of you believe in it? well, personally I think such stuffs can be quite subjective but after reading all those books about character analysis and all about the horoscope 'Cancer' (Crab! crab!) I think it's quite accurate in my case... the predictions on a daily or weekly basis are quite true too~ This is scary man... I wonder how do these ppl read each other's minds or to even foresee the future. Received an e-mail regarding such horoscopes... and here it is: CANCER WOMAN When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and polite trembling to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have every lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is not the case, you will feel very uncomfortable. She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she will be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has been influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept her true feeling, so if you like her you better tell her first. She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other people may think of her as 'Over-acting', or 'Over-reacting'. When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She loves money, and thinks of having 'Money' as 'happy', not as 'God'. She will not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift. She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman also influenced by the 'moon', so under the moon light she will be fascinating woman. She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smart enough, not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. Assuring her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day. She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old or broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find a way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive. The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one with no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget it. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her tears and start clean up her apartment normally. She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother in law will not let her own daughter being an 'Old mate'. She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women, but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue with her and disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K. This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it. The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are 'Work' and 'Love'. She can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with no Love. Haha~ after reading this results... maybe I would like to take back my words at the start of this blog. erm.. guess this character analysis is only 60-70% true. Anyway that's all then... tata |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 10,July,2004 | WaHahaha... had a wondeful... superb day today! Had a tricky listening comprehension exam this morning... followed by an interview by the ex co. of chess club.=X Hope that everything went well. hee~ Anyway, had a nice lunch today with my friends. It was a dramatic one though... with lots of climax in between. Firstly... clumsy Fz here spilled some barley onto her skirt but luckily the material is waterproof! So not so paisei... haha... then I accidentally bumped into an old Auntie behind me when I turned around to 'peep' if my friends were still behind. Wow~ this 'accident' had a great impact on me... I bounced up immediately... upon this collision. haha~ Besides this, I just returned from a gathering at Pasir Ris Park 'Fisherman Village'! Had a sumptous dinner...although the food were quite expensive, but guess it's all worth while. In fact, this mini congregation was specially organised to welcome my friend who came back recently from Australia! Yu Yan... I miss ya man! haha~ not much changes... she's still as jovial and easy going as ever. This friend of mine... we know each other since pri.school days! wow~ so tonight is a 'childhood' friends get together session! Had lots of fun and laughter... At around 8 plus after dinner, each of us bought a drink and attempted to climb onto the 'breakwaters'... haha~ this was the funny part... as usual we made lots of noise and ended up being the 'BRiGhTeSt' lightbulb there. hehe~ became a nuisance to the couples who were enjoying the scenic view and doing some star gazing... when the sky is quite clear tonight. haha~ after a while, we decided to get down that platform. As usual.... clumsy ppl like us were all in slippers and we had to 'slide' down the breakwater one by one. ahaha... we looked like 'country bumpkins' man... This commotion we caused had resulted in 1 couple leaving the area. This shows that our 'wonderful' presence is greatly felt! -_-' hee~ Then... we decided to settle at another corner of the park... facing the beach. We chatted all night long.... had many lame jokes and shared different experiences in school. Goodness... I laughed whole night long... guess I have lost some voice. Oops... better keep quiet and rest my voice box a while before it deterioriates! hehe At about 10 plus, we left the area. On the way out, I actually noticed a sign board reading 'Beware of falling coconuts'!!! ahahaha... I nearly fainted upon reading the sign! Goodness me... such 'lame' signs do actually exist. The evil thought that someone would be hit by a falling coconut... keep replaying in my mind! gosh... it will be really funny to see such a thing happen! haha... of course that victim will definitely not be ME! Anyway... when we were approaching the bus-stop just a few km before.. we saw the bus! Then we decided to catch the bus... so all of us ran like a mad person being chased by a dog! We finally got onto the crowded bus... and throughout the journey, the bus was driving at top speed... guess the driver wants to get home in time for a rest! haaha... in fact such a scenario reminds us of the times in pri.school when we had school excursions to the Science Centre! hee~ WoooOo... today's outing is definitely an enjoyable and unforgettable one! AS i always say... CKpS6A'99 rocks man!!! Luv you guys lots~ * Everytime I miss you... a star falls. So if you see the sky and it's all dark...It's your fault coz you made me miss you so much...' ;P |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 11,July,2004 | What a lousy day... arrgh... lost 1/2 of my voice the whole morning. 'Crowed' all day long. Thinking too much again... all the feelings bottled up in me. can't find a way to pour all of them out. Even if I had the opportunity... I'm not sure who's the right person either. Anyway... I'll try to keep myself occupied with all the important stuff and I wish I can just chuck all these matters aside. I have got my focus right and I'll bang hard on my piriorities too... Watched the taiwanese idol show 'qian jin bai fen bai' today... Guess I agree with what one of the characters said.' Meeting the right person at the wrong time '... may not work either. Anyway... quite true~ Hmn.. personally I believe alot in fate. So what's meant to be may be there for you to discover. However, if one chooses not to treasure it, then this chance may just slip away... even without one noticing it. yup yup yup... soooo lots of mix feelings today... haha... all these friendships and interpersonal relationship thingy... can be quite bothering to one's life at times. How do you differentiate between these two issues? hmn~ I think there's no definite answer to this. However, I'll not let it affect me... I must be strong yah. i'll try! hope that I'll have my voice fully recovered tomorrow... and to sort out my thoughts properly soon... lala... that's all for today... *_* |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 13,July,2004 | hehe... finally managed to squeeze out some time to blog. Have been waiting for the mood to come by... Anyway yes.. Lately alot of things have been occurring simultaneously. So I'm trying to balance things up a little and to try and keep up or to even increase the momentum. Did some serious self reflection too... to see how I can improve myself. However, that's besides the point. Recently I made some new friends. That's interesting~ hee... these ppl didn't look friendly in the first place, but surprisingly they made the first move in approaching me. So, as usual... I'm definitely ready to reciprocate to this friendship! haha... =P This shows us that we should never judge the book by it's cover yah? hmn... feeling slightly better too... guess I've learned that we should try to let things go at times. By accumulating them bit by bit... I'll never be able to handle them. It's just too much to worry about. Sometimes, by worrying too much about every little single thing... we tend to forget the most important stuff that we have yet to handle. So... we should try not to allow our overwhelming emotions affect us too much. All these should be set aside for the time being. I believe there will be plenty of time to solve all these problems later. Feeling more lerthagic than usual lately... I'm not sure why either. Maybe I should try to synchronise my body clock again... I've lots of questions in my head too... but I guess the answers will come by as time passes... |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 15,July,2004 | What a hectic day... tons of work awaiting me. Hai~ not easy being a student now adays. Who says that we just need to do our hw... get over and done with it? We still have our CCAs and pw... arrgh, this is getting on my nerves. I think lately I have been running into some bad luck or something. Lost 3 of my precious things... I lost $15 today. gosh... I spent the whole break frantically searching for it. However, what's gone is gone... I can't do anything now... =( Yup... on the way home today. Something unexpected happen. Haha... I was nearly squashed in the packed bus that I boarded. GoodNEss... these passengers or rather lazy bums just refuse to be considerate enough to make way for me to alight the bus. Despite my many... and I mean MANY attempts to say 'Excuse Me!!!'... the only person which was kind enough was an ITE student who actually helped me to press the 'stop' button upon my request. So this comes to my point here... even if one is smart/intelligent... without the right character and positive attitude... that person = redundant. He really needs to do some self reflecton. ITE as some ppl may jokingly say that it stands for 'It's The End'. Not true... I definitely disagree to it. If you are willing to perservere, regardless of which ever institution you are in... with the great inner beauty... you will surely go far. On a higher note... as I was walking home I passed by my neighbours house. Then I realised some giglings and some kind of mini 'concert' going on. I saw 4 cute little girls acutally trying to set up a small stage outside their house. Creative enough... they actually used 2 hanger post as barriers. ANd one of these sweetie pies started to sing aloud...' I'm Falling in Love... di da da da...' . haha~ but my sudden apearance caused that girl to blush immediately. I pretended not to take notice of them and continued my journey. Then I heard some giglings behind me... when her friends actually asked her why she stopped singing... she went like 'wait a while lah... there's someone....' Upon hearing this... I could not help it but to burst out in laughter. wahaha... these girls really remind me of my childhood days. I was no different from them. There I wore my big fluffy 'keng keng' dress with huge agogo round dangling ear rings... slipped into my mum's high heels... borrowed her lipstick to touch up a little. And there I go... my little mini fashion show. hahaha... okay okay... I know it's pretty lame. But still it was really fun... amusing and 'self entertaining' ... hahhaa =P Hmn... there's CO tomorrow! haha~ this CCA makes my day most of the time... unless when I'm not in the mood. Not forgetting my CO 'FamiLy'... they are the ones that really brighen up my day. There's this magnetic thing between us that can never pull us apart. Hopefully... we will always remain as united. Hmn... lately did not really have some time for a mini congregation... but I guess some things can be felt. It's felt in the heart and actions can't say it all. Yup...I guess we can understand each other... Anyway... a super long day tomorrow. Up to 7 plus... goodness me... I think I'm going to fall asleep half way through the rehearsals. Hopefully everything will go on smoothly... Through this cca... I can see my passion for music growing day by day. Really! I'm proud to be from co. Yesh~ so let's pray that it rains heavily tomorrow too... nice weather to escape from P.E. wahhahaa... that's all then. WIll blog again when I'm free. Really wanna make a chatbox and to load some music onto this blog. Guess I'll try to get it done asap... ciao~ |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 19,July,2004 | Ah!!! Super super warm weather today! I think I'm going to suffer from heat stroke or dehydration sooner or later... argh... Anyway that's besides the point... Although school was as stressful as usual, especially when there are lots and LOTS of rehearsals this week. I will have to endure this period of time and hopefully I will pull through. Sometimes I wish I'm invincible and would just suddenly vanish from this world. However, guess I can't... because I'll definitely miss the dearest people around me. hee~ Had an enjoyable GP lesson today! Never knew that GP could be so SO fun man... Our new teacher rox to the max... haha~ although we had current affairs quiz today... we were allowed to discuss in groups. As usual... we came up with lots of lame and crappy answers just to fill up all 35 blanks in time! wahaha~ had LOTS of laughter. I couldn't stop laughing at all... there's this laughing bug in me... haha~ can you imagine... laughing until you feel breathless?! That was what happened... I reached a point of saturation whereby I couldn't laugh anymore already. My laughter seemed to be 'deadly' contagious too~ seems like most of the people around me were affected by it. Ahahahaha... goodness me! -_-'' Anyway, we watched an extremely cute show today during Chinese lesson! The little boy featured was extremely naughty... but on the other hand lovable. haha~ oxymoron yah? The story was about a separated couple who were busy looking for another ideal partner. However... their adorable kids were always there to cause some distruption during their dates and all... hehez~ quite a nice and touching story. Wonder what's the outcome? The story continues tomorrow~ =P Watched the taiwanese idol show 'qian jin bai fen bai' on SCV yesterday again! haha~ falling in love with that show sia~ so romantic... *_* Finally... both the lead actor and actress are together... hopefully they will be able to cross the hurdles ahead of them... hee~ I'm contemplating if I should get this set of vcd! can't wait to watch the final episode.... hopefully it's a lovely one. Anyway... I only buy idol shows with a happy ending yah? ahaha.... A continuation for today... had some fun and laughter with the ppl in A03... they are really nice ppl... very fun-loving and sociable. Haha~ guess this class have quite a good repore with one another. Anyway thanks to meow meow~, if not I wouldn't have made such wonderful new friends. ('',) Hope to get to know them better in future... So so so... tomorrow... rehearsals~ dreadful rehearsals. How I wish they can be more efficient and to stop being so draggy... it's so mentally draining... hai~ I think I will have a super 'black' face tomorrow again. haha~ I'm anticipating the worse... so that I won't feel that awful tomorrow. However... guess with the company of my beloved CO 'family'... eveything should go fine. yeah~ so that's all then... will update asap. By the way... there's something wrong with my chatbox... arrgh... |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 21,July,2004 | I'm slEepy... I'm dreamy... I'm dizzy... I'm floating... wahahaha *_* ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- a weird day ... filled with mixed feelings... beautiful windy weather... Hehe~ had a mini and a little pathetic Racial Harmony carnival today. Was slightly late for the Racial Harmony talk in the audi... Oh my goodness! So paisei... my friends and I thought that we had to be seated by 10 instead of 9.45. Happily we marched in at 10 plus, by that time almost everyone was seated and the principal had just begun her presentation. Wow~ thousands of eyes watched us like hungery vulgers waiting to attack small little preys... However, luckily we managed to pull through this tiny 'ordeal'. hehe... Then my friends and I proceeded to the foyer after the talk... I participated in the Indian decor activity. Each of us took some coloured rice grains and laid them out according to the authentic flowery template that was placed on the floor. Wow~ wonderful experience... although it's a rather tedious job. Following that... hey hey~ we took a stroll around the running tracks in school. So romantic right?! haha... we chit chatted along the way as the wind blowed in our direction. Goodness~ as though we were having a vacation on Cameron Highlands. It's definitely an experience that one should never miss out... I believe that such precious moments will definitely make up part of the sweet memories I have with my friends. In fact, such a scenario reminds me of the tittle of the book ' A walk to remember ' ... I would encourage you guys out there to read it... It's a sweet story about family, FRIENDS and the different characters you meet daily. How one gain acceptance by proving oneself... and to stay strong regardless of whatever setbacks you have faced. It's a simple yet complicated love story... Extremely touching~ Yup yup... I'm getting a little worried now... My dad will have to go for another mini op. tomorrow. I cross my fingers and pray hard that there won't be any complications... Hopefully the surgeon of Changi Hospital will avoid medical negligence unlike the last time. I can't accpect another blow... it's too painful to watch your love one suffer for nothing... . Hopefully after this mini op... another round of check up and bi-opsy will carry through smoothly too. I pray that there won't be any undesirable outcome... although chances are low... but there's still a slight possibility. Anyway, what I can do now is to give him the moral support and to provide him with some advices... which may be of some use. yesh... tata... [=^_^=] |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 24,July,2004 | Our life revolves around love... true? I believe so... Sometimes, I wonder it's better to be loved more than you love the person or it is better to be the other way round? Many people often say that it's better to experience the former... I used to think so too. However, sometimes I think that I may experience the latter in a relationship. I guess when one is in a relationship, alot of time and effort is needed to maintain it. But when do you ever know that you are ready for it? How do you know that he is the right one for you? Are you willing to give the other party a chance? Is it a risk in the first place? Or if you really like someone, are you brave enough to make the first move? I guess these all some common questions that lots of us who are less experienced ponder on. Personally I feel that feelings is such an ambiguous thing. It's subjective thus there's no definite defination to it. It's something difficult to juggle at times... However I think that feelings will live with us throughout our life, so it's something we cannot escape from. It can be something that we live for too. Sounds scary yah? But I think it's quite true. All these emotions and feelings will help to mould one's character... which makes up the most of us. 'Feelings' is so powerful that we are controlled by it unknowingly at times. So should learn to control it well. Anyway, I have been experiencing lots of mood swings. Alot of things puzzles me at times. And words can't express it all... Whatever it is... troubles and unanswered qns will always linger around... so perhaps it's a normal thing. Guess no one is trouble-free right? hee~ ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Had CO performance on Friday night!!! hehe~ what a roaring success it was. Oh yah~ I received a rose from my senior! so sweet~ it's definitely a pleasant surprise! haha... thanks for all the support [=*_*=] I felt quite nervous on stage initially. But what deterioriated it was the freezing cold surrounding. Gosh~ I could feel it penetrating into me like a thousand needles... giving me 'frost bites' everywhere. haha~ okay okay that's a little exaggerated. But still, my teeth was already chattering badly. haha... Yup... what a wonderful day. However the sad thing is that shi jie will be leaving co then. I'll definitly miss her presence! But I believe that will still be lots of time for us to congregate again. We have our whole life! so no worries... all the best in whatever you do! Must take care... Yesh! Friends are very important to me... especially those close ones.(u know who you are... =P) yeah... although I don't say it often, but still... You guys are very VERY important to me k!!! *shouts* haha... will treasure you all! |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 26,July,2004 | When the daylights gone and your on your own And you need someone, just to be around I will comfort you, I will take your hand, I will pull you through, I will understand, And you know that I'll be at your side, There's no need to worry, Together we'll survive, Through the haste and hurry, I'll be at your side, if you feel like you're alone, And you have nowhere to turn, I'll be at your side, If life's standing still, and your souls confused, And you cannot find what road to choose, If you make mistakes you can't let me down, I will still believe, I won't turn around, I'll be at your side, There's no need to worry, Together we'll survive, Through the haste and hurry AiiShiTarU! |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 27,July,2004 | A Whole New World...(Aladdin's theme) I can show you the world, shining, shimmering, splendid. Tell me princess, now when did you last let your heart decide? I can open your eyes, take you wonder by wonder, Over sideways and under, on a magic carpet ride A whole new world, a new fantastic point of view No one to tell us no, or where to go, or say we're only dreaming. A whole new world,A dazzling place I never knew But when I'm way up here, it's crystal clear That now I'm in a whole new world with you. Unbelievable sights, indescribable feeling Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling through an endless diamond sky A whole new world, / Don't you dare close your eyes, A hundred thousand things to see. / Hold your breath it gets better. I'm like a shooting star, I've come so far, I can't go back to where I used to be /A whole new world, With new horizons to pursueI'll chase them anywhere, there's time to spare Let me share this whole new world with you A whole new world, a new fantastic point of view No one to tell us no, or where to go, or say we're only dreaming. A whole new world,Every turn a surprise, With new horizons to pursue / every moment red-letter. I'll chase them anywhere, there's time to spareanywhere, there's time to spare Let me share this whole new world with you A whole new world / A whole new world That's where we'll be / That's where we'll beA thrilling chase A wondrous placeFor you and me. hehe~ really love this song to bits... lovely lyrics... melodious tune... it puts you into the dream world of your own. A song that has ironically been replaying in my mind lately. haha... maybe it's time for me to think back about the precious moment I hold... and to see how I can take a step forward into a whole new chapter of my life. |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 28,July,2004 | Hmn... read this if you wanna understand me better. I think this analysis is accurate to a certain extent... haha~ why on Earth will there be such a close resemblance? Anyway... yup... A tyipical cancerian here. Yeah~ canCer Rox! Ruby (Cancer) You like: Spending time at home, family get togethers, making pizza with mates and listening to soothing music. You dislike: Violent movies, people who shout at u and being let down by those u love. You're best at: Making people feel good about themselves, listening to their problems and being a trustworthy, loyal mate. Deep down: U want peace more than! anything. Home life is important to u and if there's domestic squabbling, u become deeply depressed. Your career: Become a musician, journalist, interior decorator or chef. Fashion: Cancerians tend to have simple tastes: loose-fitting clothes in natural fabrics and dark colours. You prefer unfussy outfits, but that doesn't mean you don't like to glam it up when you're in the right mood. As a mate: U are a gentle person who may be quite possessive of ur friends. If someone lets u down, u may brood in ur room for days. But when u feel safe 'n' secure, ur generous personality takes over and mates get spoilt rotten. As a girlfriend: U are sensitive and moody, so u like lots of cuddles and kisses to keep balanced & chirpy. Quite secretive, u are shy to reveal ur feelings at first but warm up once ur boyf gets to know u better. If your boyf's a Cancer: Tread carefully, girl. He's got an ultra-so! ft heart that breaks easily. Not one for wild flings, he enjoys spe nding time alone with u & may even be a bit clingy when u wanna go off on ur own for a bit. |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 29,July,2004 | Drowning sadness...sinking heart. Experiencing some domestic conflicts lately. Feeling quite upset but all I can do is to tolerate and to swallow down this unhappiness. I wonder why can't they understand me better? Anyway... I'm having lots of complicated feelings recently. I'm a little confused... Sometimes... I think that there's no point waiting for the answer to my qns... it's really testing my patience and I'm tired of it. Maybe I should try to accept the love and care another is willing to shower on me... or maybe I should persevere and wait for time to tell... these things are happening too quickly... too fast for me to comprehend. My heart is a little lost too... However, I think that this could be part and parcel of our life... and inexplicable feelings just pop by... I believe that I'll be able to walk out of it soon.... yes. |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 01,August,2004 | ..:.. endless road ..:.. (By JJ) the truth is tearing up my heart i can't recognize this place the endless road without a stop sign can't even find a stranger this time... why am i still holding back my tears in this loneliness there's nothing to fear every chord still seems a wonder how we could be together every time i ask if this would be the last... why am i still talking to myself hoping that you will have the keys to my cell every song might calm the weather but it draws me deeper how do i get out of this i think i never will... a crystal forming in the eye maybe this would be the last the winding path down my face till i begin to taste the bitterness inside... why am i still holding back my tears in this loneliness there's nothing to fear every chord still seems a wonder how we could be together every time i ask if this would be the last... why am i still talking to myself hoping you will have the keys to my cell every song might calm the weather but it draws me deeper how do i get out of this i think i never will... Hmn... just bought this cd by JJ. Wonderful music...by chance I found this song. The last track of the cd. It was 'love at first sight' kind of thing when I heard this song. haha... it can really describe my present feelings... my thoughts... my troubles and everything. The lyrics say it all... Have been feeling really down lately... guess I'm quite a weak person.. although I keep reminding myself to stay strong regardless of any setbacks I face or any problems that comes into my way. However still... I can't help it. A person who drops tears easily... that's all I can say. But I'll recover... I'll stand up again. I will show them that I can make it. I will exceed their expectations of me. I'll tolerate everything... I'll definitely pull through. Another pondering qns... is it wrong to accept the love and care from another person knowing that you may not be able to return the same amount. I know that such things cannot be measured... but in this case isn't love unfair? Or we should always shower our love unconditionally? there's a weird feeling running through me lately... Although I'm a perfectionist... but I realised that the world is not so perfect after all. I can try to make it one... but it takes 2 hands to clap and not everything will go according to your wishes. No one is perfect... yes... true. However... have I found the one that seems so perfect? Well, time MAY tell... I believe that alot of things are felt and words can never express it any better... |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 03,August,2004 | I'm sick... hai~ guess my flu is getting from bad to worse... I can only depend on my antibiotic... my flu medicine may cause drowsiness, therefore I can only take it before going to bed. ahaha~ or else... I may just doze off anytime during lessons. arrgh... it's irritating to be sick. You sneeze all day long as though your nose is gonna fall off anytime. teRrible man~ spoil my mood sia. Anyway.... everybody out there must take good care wor... now adays it's a crazy trend to fall sick easily. Life is very unpredictable... so do treasure your own self and the people around you. By treasuring yourself will already be doing a good favour to your love ones! so ... that's all. My head's spinning... haha.. wait till I get better... there will be more bloggy updates to come. |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 05,August,2004 | DisaPpointed... forget it... I'm sick of everything. |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 08,August,2004 | Had an enjoyable time yesterday at Marina Bay. The steamboat was quite nice... enjoyed the atmosphere and breeze over there. Beautiful scenery... as though all of us were on holiday. haha... we took several wonderful candid shots. haha... it turned out pretty okay... yeah. =P ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- hEhe~ just changed my bloggy's background. Yeah~ I'm quite satisfied with the template.... for a change yah? At least this one looks brighter and more organised. hmn... enjoy reading the blog entries then... OoOpss... by the way how do I add back the links to the different blog pages? I think I have lost them all... =X ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A poem here to share... Emily Brontë Love and Friendship Love is like the wild rose-briar, Friendship like the holly-tree— The holly is dark when the rose-briar blooms But which will bloom most constantly? The wild-rose briar is sweet in the spring, Its summer blossoms scent the air; Yet wait till winter comes again And who will call the wild-briar fair? Then scorn the silly rose-wreath now And deck thee with the holly's sheen, That, when December blights thy brow, He may still leave thy garland green. urlLink urlLink |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 10,August,2004 | ...FaTe... Fate... this is what I believe in. It works all the time. We can make all the effort to keep our relationships going, but without this intangible 'fate' , everything may not turn out well as expected. Of course there are many others who do not believe in fate. They believe that it's they who control their lives and not fate. true... I agree to what they say. However, there are times whereby certain things are not within man's control, isn't it? Thus I think we should always treasure every moment we spent with one another. It's something amazing that had brought all of us... the different ppl with different personalities and upbringings together. It's not something done deliberately... it's just so ironic and at times we can't explain why this had happen either. I was flipping through my autograph book... the one I had before leaving pri.sch, when I was preparing to head for a whole new chapter of sec.life back then. Here... was what one of my teachers(CKPS) wrote ' Life is not a bed of roses but it is sprinkled with many learning experiences. Every step we take make us ever wiser! ' . Till now 5 years down the road... I can still vivdly remember the msg he left me. I believe that it had left an impact in my life... and it's an advice that will continue to guide me through thick and thin. I think sometimes we should never take things too lightly... I can't guarantee that all good things will last forever. However... we should always enjoy what we have... a step at a time. It's not a matter of being optimistic or not. It's a matter that one day... you would leave this place with little regrets. Knowing that you have once hold these memories and had shared it with the dear ones around you. By having faith in yourself and the friends you have... only then things will work out. Without basic trust in the first place... I don't see a point to start a relationship. Efforts will just go down the drain... knowing that you may have lost time meeting another wonderful person out there. We lost a PE teacher (SACSS) lately... and I believe that he will definitely continue to live in the hearts of each and every student he had once taught. He's someone who believes alot in tough love and we were probably still less mature back then in sec.sch, to realise his real intention of disciplining us. He always believes that a school needs a 'Father' to keep everything going and he has bravely taken up this role of a 'bad guy...' Often... I wonder why must we wait till the person leave us one day... then we realise how important they are to us. I guess that's human's nature, to take things for granted. Although all of us avoid doing so... but sometimes it's hard, because we are influenced by the things around us... I think reflections will help to guide us along the right track...and I believe that although time flies quickly... if we truly treasure it... then we won't miss out the ppl around us. |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 11,August,2004 | 60 plus is what he is at the point of this time in his life. Today, then I realised how much he had aged over the years. Going through thick and thin with us and being the head of the family. I'm glad to say I have such a wonderful him around. Although domestic conflicts do occur all the time... and I would say that it is like a daily affair... but through these misunderstandings and disagreements, we have got to know each other better. Do not think that within your own kins... you do not need to make the special effort to understand them better... actually the truth is that they are probably the ones whom we have always been taking for granted and we may tend to neglect them subconsciously. Sometimes he makes me cry... but I know the reason why. That's not a need for him to say much when he is annoyed or unhappy with me. A few words... a little change in his facial expression will send the message clearly right to the bottom of my heart. I realise how important my dad is to me... He was there to guide me along and I can proudly say that I'm glad to be from the Leong Family. I really do not know how long all this time and precious moments will last (not as though I'm trying to be pessismistic)... the fact is, life is definitely unpredictable. We do not know what will happen next. Only someone of a higher power up there have things planned for us... what we can do, is to try to comprehend them and to deal it with the best of our ability. My dad just told me something today... which I felt truly touched... he said' Let me fetch you when it's late... I do not know how much longer I can do so.' Of course upon hearing this... I said all those stuff like 'touch wood!' and all. He tried to rectify his statement by saying that he may be going overseas soon... but anyway the point here is, whether I misinterpretated his remark or not... what he said had really struck something in my mind. Guess it's time I really learn to spend more quality time with them... and to manage time better so that I will have enough to spent with my studies and my love ones (family and friends...and all). Although we don't say it often but as long as you sincerely use your heart to listen... you can definitely feel the love those dear ones around you are showering you with. There are times we feel very insecure... very uncomfortable... very lonely... but as these fears accumulate in us... it will gradually subside because we know that there's someone always there for u to give u the moral support! yup... had the sudden inspiration to write all these after hearing what my dad told me. yeah! He is my role model... and I try to remember the precious advices he gives me each time... hopefully things will continue to sail smoothly... =P Hee~ |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 12,August,2004 | A quote: The measure of love is when you love without measure. In life there are very rare chances that you will meet the person you love that will love you in return... So once you have it, don't let it go because it may never come back to you again... -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- hee~ regarding this quote, I think it really makes sense to a large extent. Yes~ love cannot be measured right? How can you ever weigh it... in fact only your heart knows how important that particular 'someone' is to you. Sometimes, it's a little mysterious... the more you know that 'someone' has taken up a large space in your heart, the more we are so afraid of facing the truth. Therefore we end up trying to run away from it... Hence, we may lose the one we greatly love and by that time it's probably too late to let that person know how much he means to you... the fact is, we can never turn back time. It's an irreversible hypothesis... thus we should hold on to what we have... and to shower it with love and care whole-heartedly... |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 15,August,2004 | My Heart Will Go On Every night in my dreams I see you, I feel you, That is how I know you go on Far across the distance And spaces between us You have come to show you go on Near, far, wherever you are I believe that the heart does go on Once more you open the door And you're here in my heart And my heart will go on and on Love can touch us one time And last for a lifetime And never let go till we're gone Love was when I loved you One true time I hold to In my life we'll always go on Near, far, wherever you are I believe that the heart does go on Once more you open the door And you're here in my heart And my heart will go on and on You're here, there's nothing I fear, And I know that my heart will go on We'll stay forever this way You are safe in my heart And my heart will go on and on |
3,845,636 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 15,August,2004 | Hee~ had CIP day yesterday. To say the truth, I didn't expect myself to enjoy it so much. We had a carnival made up of indoor and outdoor activities with different game stations and attractive rpizes to win/ This was all specially planned for our invited guests from the various children and old-aged homes. It was definitely an enjoyable one! We had our very own tpjc Radio Station with 2 lively DJs keeping the atmosphere to the MaX! We could make our dedications which consist of a mixture of Chinese, Indian and English pop songs ... which were played continuously throughout the whole event. On my part... I definitely had os much fun netertaining them... Chasing after all those little kids, teaching them how to play the games and having to endure all the bursting of balloons that was surrounding.. (it was like a time bomb man~ ahaha) Anyway, it was really my pleasure to be given the opportunity to mix around with these kids. Although it wasn't enough to get to know them better, but I believe that my small effort had definitely managed to make someone's day better! Maybe they are a little different from us, but their courage and determination to attempt the different games had really touched me a great deal... (no words can express it all k...) I really look forward to such actvities in the near future, I believe we will be able to make it better each time. 3 ChEeRs for all Of us! =) |
3,466,074 | female | 25 | Government | Taurus | 28,May,2004 | What is LOVE exactly to you? Many people would usually say LoVe equals to RomAncE... Well, in certain angle is rather true but then who on earth has tasted FOREVER tasty and everlasting Loveship? LoVe has on its own its bright and dark side. Couples are seen quarelling over the most senseless thing on earth and also splitting up for the 'stupidiest' thing. People may be together as a couple or husband and wife for years...but have they really ponder on this question: DO I REALLY LOVE HIM/HER? That is the question to asked yourself when you decide to get married with your so-called LOVED ones. Query yourself and think over it seriously as whether you and your partner can walk the rest of your life together. A couple has got to give in and take. There is seriously no such thing as one partner does it ALL and the other party just sit down and relax. Well, I do have friends who are facing with these problems and empathize with them. They are pathetic and trapped in this web called LoVe which can literally torture them. The other party are not realizing the problem but needs to reinforce those ideas to them to let them know what is the issue here. As mentioned in the first edition, LoVe is like a jigsaw puzzle and it is scattered all over before we enter into a relationship. When we begin that love life of ours, that is when we start to pick all those little puzzle to pin them together in hope to complete the whole entire thing. To me, LoVe consists of these factors: Trust, Tolerance, Forgiveness, Love, Care and Concern, Open-Mind...which can be more but these are the main factors that are the ones to hold the relationship together. That is all my oneself's perception, hope I did not offend anyone and everyone of you who has read it. Thank you and see you next time in my next edition... |
3,466,074 | female | 25 | Government | Taurus | 27,May,2004 | Have you ever thought what kind of life you are having? Be it Good or Bad? Well, realize that our life can be either so simple or complicated which can be of two extremes. Personally hate to see people whom I know departing from this world and friends betraying me etc...It is quite contradicting though but that is life, full of UPs and DOWNs. Can we control it? In a way I guess but it is all fated and destined. 2 people from different location can just meet and fall in LOVE, just like a jigsaw puzzle. Until you get married and die, you will know that the partner you have is the last MISSING piece to that unfinished puzzle that you have been desperately searching for. Humans take LIFE for granted...How many times do we take notice that our two feets are on the ground and transporting us from place to place. Do we ever appreciate them? OR the little flowers on the roadside or parks that we zoom pass so fast that we miszed the beauty that they possess. We often take our parents for granted and thinking that they can be there each and everyday to guide us... Well...this are all based on my own perception to LIFE...What about yours? Post in your views and we can share your side of stories too...Till then, we will meet! |
3,592,754 | male | 15 | HumanResources | Scorpio | 29,June,2004 | Yeah, not a lot of updates recently. My brother has been playing his stupid game for 6 hour sessions at a time so I don't get the computer at night, when I usually post. Too bad for you. Not a lot has gone on recently, but last night was the funniest night at the blue. There was this guy that's a little.... off that comes into the party store every now and then. Before he broke shit that I had to clean up, another time he couldn't figure out a 2 for 1 deal. This time, he bought like, 2 40's (that's a lot of fuckin beer) and he got to the store on his bike. So, I see his bike outside like, an hour later and figure he left it or something. Then, another hour and another hour (its 9 now, when I leave). I walk over to the porta shitter, and I knock, no answer. I pull on the door, and its locked. So, this fucker has been passed out in the shitter for 3 hours. I couldn't stand 3 seconds in that thing. So, we call Steve and ask him what to do, he suggests kicking the thing over, as did I, but nobody was there to prevent him from having a drunken rage. So, he comes in, pulls up on the lawn right in front of the thing and blares his horn 20 times. That must have woke him up. He tells him to 'get the fuck out of the shitter', he's 'been there for 3 hours', and 'it must have been one hell of a shit'. After like, 5 minutes, he gets out and stumbles around, and walks his bike home or something. If anyone ever needs an example for why not to drink, there's a damn good one. You can see a lot of this type of thing at the party store, and if it wasn't for that job I probably would drink more often. That's probably the best aspect of that job. |
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