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766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 23,October,2003 | Whoooosh My horoscope warned that things would speed up in the end of October, and changes would come. But I wasn't really prepared for all of this. My neck hurts, literally, from all the changes going on around me. I'm so tense, and that's just not like me. I laid in bed last night trying to find a comfortable spot in my pillow - my neck and shoulders were so tense it hurt to lie still. I mean, its good that things are moving along again, after the long slow Mercury retrograde last month, but... Life is just a blur right now. To wit: My boss, who used to travel between two hotels, just informed everyone that he will no longer traverse between the two. He stays here, a new GM goes there. Which means the pressure will be on me all 40 hours of every work week. People are getting hired and fired so fast that I feel like I'm working in a new place myself. Too many new faces and names I can't remember make me a little nervous. CFF Wine Opener event is next Tuesday; I still have 94 tickets to sell. Now I'm getting lots of requests, but no closed deals today. Hands on Miami Day is approaching very fast; at least I've managed to get 8 team members out of my 350+ coworkers. My boyfriend in NY finally received a reply from one of the resumes he sent out. He's got an interview - in Dallas. We'll see what happens there. On a good note, I finally received the court date to recieve the bail payment DBD had to pay the first weekend of August - when he got picked up on a warrant for not paying child support. *Note - he's still not sending any money. Also, I just received the loan check from my 401(k) - I've been trying to locate my funds since we shifted from one company to another since August. I finally got the right phone number and found my money. Now I can pay October's rent. See what I mean - whooosh! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 20,October,2003 | Revitalized My service-mindedness has returned, and Im feeling energized again. Much of this is due to the weekend I had and several messages I received during the past two days. I got up early and volunteered at The Botanical Garden again. I always enjoy the time spent puttering around in the dirt, beautifying the garden and doing good for Mother Nature. I shared my concerns about getting a team together at work for a big volunteer project on November 1st and the lack of interest and teamwork I experience in the office. Someone reminded me that you cant make people want to help, just offer the opportunity and hope that they get involved. Then, at church on Sunday, the message was all about partnership in service. What service means and how it means different things to different people and why some people just dont get involved. Someone else spoke on how to energize yourself after doing service for others. Last night I attended an Appreciation Dinner hosted by the Dragon Boat Race Committee and I received a certificate for my efforts at the event last weekend. I was touched by the consideration, and the food was really good. Toward the end of the evening, the volunteer coordinator commented on how his faith had been restored after witnessing the willingness of people to get involved and help out. He took the words right out of my mouth. Im working on getting a team together for Hands On Miami Day and will plan an appreciation luncheon right afterwards. Maybe certificates of appreciation for the participants are in order Diva out |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 16,October,2003 | urlLink Dragon Boat Race Gallery - because my few photos just don't do it justice! |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 16,October,2003 | Big Day in the Lobby I've seen some pretty interesting things in our hotel's main lobby. After all, we're here on South Beach, and things are always pretty interesting. But, today was definitely a red letter day. Earlier today I went out to the lobby for something or other, and ran into the Power Puff Girls. No, really. The Power Puff Girls , and that monkey Mojo Jojo. Big as life, standing in the lobby for some group that focuses on children's programs in Latin America. As if that weren't enough, I just witnessed a wedding at the Concierge lobby. Not the meaningless ceremony with dress and cake, etc. But the signing of the Marriage License for a wedding ceremony that happened here on Sunday. Because, let's face it, you can do all the ceremonies you want. Without that signed piece of paper its all meaningless. So, as I was witnessing the signing, I signed as a witness on the license. What a job I have. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 15,October,2003 | God & Eve 'God, I have a problem.' 'What's the problem, Eve?' 'I know that you created me and provided this beautiful garden and all of these wonderful animals, as well as that hilarious snake, but I'm just not happy.' 'And why is that, Eve?' 'God, I am lonely, and I'm sick to death of apples.' 'Well, in that case, Eve, I have a solution. I shall create a man for you.' 'Man? What is that, God?' 'A flawed creature, with many bad traits. He'll lie, cheat and be vain; all in all, he'll give you a hard time. But he'll be bigger, faster and will like to hunt and kill things. He will look silly when aroused, but since you've been complaining, I'll create him in such a way that he will satisfy your physical needs. He will be witless and will revel in childish things like fighting and kicking a ball about. He won't be too smart, so he will also need your advice to think properly.' 'Sounds great,' says Eve, with ironically raised eyebrows, 'but what's the catch, God?' Well - you can have him on one condition.' 'And what's that, God?' 'As I said, he'll be proud, arrogant and self-admiring - so you'll have to let him believe that I made him first. And it will have to be our little secret. You know, woman to woman.' Diva out |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 15,October,2003 | Update! I mentioned to my boss (wonderful man that he is) that I'm off the event planning committee, and explained my personal reason. Turns out, the owner loves the idea of having the party at the Garden and has already approved it. So, he said to let the other woman do her due-diligence in looking at other venues, then we veto her and hold it at the garden anyway. It's not really very nice, but it makes me happy. Is that bad? Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 14,October,2003 | Lost I have somehow lost my sense of service recently, and don't know where to find it. I am always happy to assist with any event, charity or fund-raiser and was always the team leader to organize groups here at work to get involved. But, after trying to encourage involvement here at work in so many events to no avail, I'm starting to feel discouraged. After my choice for location was not accepted, I have backed away from planning the employee holiday party. My idea of the party was that it could be held in a lovely botanical garden at night, here on Miami Beach. Outside in December in Miami is wonderful weather, generally temperatures range anywhere from 60 to 75 degrees. We wouldn't have to pay a rental fee, saving $1500 on our limited budget. Minimal decoration would be needed, leaving more money for food and prizes for staff. But, someone on the committee is concerned about rain, and wants to find an indoor venue. One that will cost more money and probably not provide the quality of food that we would get at the Garden. This person had nothing good to say about our last employee function, but couldn't provide any good input or alternatives. I just don't want to work with her now. I'm not going to form a team for Hands On Miami Day on November 1st. The last time I got involved, it was just me and one of the owner's daughters. It was embarrassing to see that a company of 500 could only muster the energy of 2. No one is interested, so I'm not wasting my time with them. I'll be at Hands On Miami Day, but I'm not working to get a team together. And I'm not even sure I want to get the two hotels involved in the Toys for Tots program this year, since there was very little participation when we did it two years ago. But, I'm volunteering for any pick up sites that may need help. So, maybe I haven't lost my sense of service, just my interest in getting the people that I work with involved in things they don't want to do. I have so many other things that I can spend my energy on. What's that bibilical saying about not throwing pearls to the pigs? Something like that. I feel like I'm doing something wrong, and maybe I need to get my heart back in the right place. But for now, I just want to stick to this non-involvement. Maybe I'm just pouting, or maybe I'm growing up a little. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 14,October,2003 | A girl after my own heart urlLink Not Cynical, realistic! In matters of the heart, Coco and I both think alike. And along those same lines, 'Men who treat women as helpless and charming playthings deserve women who treat them as delightful and generous bank accounts.' -GQ Diva out |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 13,October,2003 | Sights & Sounds, part Deux After listening to my own audio blog, I figured maybe I should explain some of the sounds you hear in that entry. As the boats approach, you begin to hear a single drum beat, repeated over and over. Then, there's the steerer, calling the strokes, 1 - 2 - 3... As the boats get nearer to the finish line, the announcer is cheering on the teams, and encouraging the onlookers to cheer them on as well. Then, near the end of the entry, there's the finish line caller, watching the line and calling out the boats as they cross the finish, 1! 2! 3!. It's really very exciting, from the anxious waiting for the race to begin to the final moment when the last boat crosses the finish. If you ever get the opportunity to attend one of these races, I would highly recommend it. urlLink Pictures are up now to help fill in the sounds to give your imagination a more complete image. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 13,October,2003 | Sights and Sounds You can hear the sound of a Dragon Boat Race when you click the audio post below (everyone but Fred, that is). And soon I will post photos at my urlLink pbase gallery . Link is to the right -->. Had a great weekend, filled with sights, sounds and smells all Asian. Chinese food, music and traditional dance surrounded me. And I never realized so many Asians speak Spanish! I met a very nice young Asian lady who was born in Panama. So many Asians live in South America or marry South Americans... who knew! There's another Dragon Boat race in Downtown Miami this weekend. I'm going to attend, and take my girls. But this time I won't be working the event, I'll be partaking. mmmm, egg rolls and dumplings. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 12,October,2003 | urlLink urlLink audio post powered by urlLink audblog |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 10,October,2003 | Deep Thoughts 'They say it is to know union with love That the soul takes union with the body. Love makes a man affectionate toward all, And affection affords the priceless treasure of friendship. They say love's greatness is this: it yields to good families Worldly happiness here and heavenly bliss there.' -Tirukkural 8:72-74 I like this. And as I watched my girls walking off together to class this morning, I must say that I felt that worldly happiness. It felt good to know I have these two beautiful girls to love every day that I'm here. Yep, Diva's feeling deep, philosophical and lovey this morning. Can you feel the love? Peace, love and laughs to all. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 09,October,2003 | The Dragons are coming! For some reason, there is an increase in Asian culture in Miami. And I couldn't be happier. I'm volunteering this weekend with the urlLink First Annual Hong Kong Dragon Boat Festival this weekend. I'll be behind the performance stage, doing whatever they need me to do. Hope I can actually see the boats from where I'm stationed. I'm looking forward to the exciting races, with the deep beating of drums urging paddlers to row faster. I'm also looking to the food and merchandise. I'm hoping to find a relatively inexpensive Kwan Yin statue for my altar at home. And its really hard to find good Chinese food, so maybe this will be a very tasty event. And, I must confess, I am looking forward to all of the Asian men. My Asian boyfriend in NY sounded just a little jealous when he pointed out this very obvious benefit to this particular event. I do like Asian men *blushing slightly*. So, this is pretty much a win-win for me. I get to do good by helping others, bring cultural awareness to the city, eat good food, shop, see great cultural performances, and enjoy the eye candy as well. Now if only my ankle would stop hurting long enough for me to enjoy all of it. If you're in the Miami Beach area, you may want to check this out too! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 08,October,2003 | Is this progress? Sometimes its hard to tell whether I'm moving forward or backward. So, let us review, shall we? Littlest diva has recovered from her week-long fever. Only last night did I find the source of the fever - she's cutting a new tooth near the back of her jaw. Molar I guess. So, now I know what caused the fever, and I know I can look forward to another week long fever episode soon - when the tooth on the other side starts. My office space is almost done. Its sort of miraculous how these men have managed to tear down walls and what-not and put up new walls and such. Its like the bathroom never existed at all. I should have my *new* desk and chair by next week and will move in then. My ankle still hurts and is still slightly swollen. Not 8-months-pregnant-swollen, but swollen nonetheless. And I discovered a lovely bruise of deep deep purple just below my right ankle, which explains why this sprain hurt more than any other I can recall. I thought I broke it, but no. Just a sprain. I'm getting caught up at work, and I've managed to sell 4 tickets to the urlLink Cystic Fibrosis Miami Wine Opener - only 96 more to go! Let me know if you're interested in tickets - I've got plenty. So, perhaps there is some progress, now that I step back and look at it all. Not bad, Diva, not bad. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 07,October,2003 | So I'm NOT the only one... while i've been out of the dating scene for a while now, its nice to know that I wasn't alone in my urlLink dating ethics . As for my volleyballish ankle, we're hobbling along just fine today. I've discovered that the only thing worse than a badly sprained ankle is the crutches they give you. I decided that the crutches hurt more than the ankle, so i'm going without today. I'm thinking a tall black umbrella may serve well as a cane. It's really hard to look cool and graceful while limping with a swollen ankle. Once again I've proven that my saving grace is my utter clumsiness. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 06,October,2003 | urlLink urlLink audio post powered by urlLink audblog |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 02,October,2003 | Better Something about Autumn air makes me feel so good. The air is sweeter, cooler, crisper. And every breath I take in somehow loosens the binds around my heart. I feel like I haven't taken a breath in months. Maybe its the reduction in humidity. Maybe there's some sort of sentimental value attached. I don't know. I just know that change is in the air, literally and it just makes me feel better. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 01,October,2003 | Oh, and one more thing... October is here, so check out your monthly forecast urlLink here And, if you get your hands on an Architectural Digest, October issue, check out pages 252-259. Someone very near and dear to my heart just got published (again!). Ah, and now there's a drill in the background. hooray! gotta order that new desk now. Don't worry. When I have my OWN OFFICE, I'll still be just little ole Diva ;) Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 01,October,2003 | So Much to say and not much time to say it. So, here's the highlights. A crew of 4 or 5 men is now building an office space for me. Knocked down walls yesterday, now their doing i-don't-know-what making all kinds of noise. I may do an audio blog later just to share the clatter. As for audio blog... paypal sent them another payment. Apparently I had subscribed without knowing, so now I have another 3 months of audblogs to make. will probably start with the construction noise. My oldest diva is now involved in the morning announcements at school. I guess you could call her the production director? she keeps everyone in order and makes sure who ever is next is ready to go. I told her to think big - today the morning announcements tomorrow Hollywood! The littest diva is sick - at home with grandma today. Had a fever of 104 on Monday morning, but of course the doctor doesn't find any infections to cause the fever. This too will pass. Aside from that, there's not much else going on. Actually there's so much more going on than I have time to tell you about here. Gotta go, busy busy. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 29,November,2003 | New Favorite Bumpersticker Seen on the bumper of a shiny Volvo with a well-groomed woman at the wheel... 'Well-behaved women rarely make history.' Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 25,November,2003 | Congratulations to my Muslim friends who made it through another Ramadan! |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 24,November,2003 | Birthday Pampering Is there anything better? I decided on another thing that you should just pay for; pedicures. I went on Saturday for a birthday pedi, and realized that I just don't do it like the pro's do. There is really nothing like it, and I've made a birthday resolution to have a pedicure once a month. Sunday I saw La Traviatta at Florida Grand Opera - another birthday pampering. It was absolutely gorgeous - the costumes, the set, the music and the voices all combined to make my day very special. I love opera, but how come the lady ALWAYS has to die at the end. What is with that? Struggle, suffer, try to live a proper life, make sacrifices for others... and die of some horrible disease or, even worse, by your own hand. Makes a girl just want to go out and be bad! My baby brother is in town this week for the holiday - baby brother is like 6'2' and football player big. But he's still my baby brother. Its nice to have someone around to play with my girls instead of just me for a change. And, I'm just dying to tell you what else I did over the weekend, but propiety demands that I keep it clean. Suffice it to say that I have an interesting new friend that sort of ensures that I will never die the death of an opera heroine *wink wink*. Nuff said. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 19,November,2003 | FTAA in my 'hood Last night, while attempting to get home, I had to sit in about 20 minutes of stop and go traffic. It took that long for me to travel one block. All I needed to do was make a right and then go to the light 1/2 a block away and make a left, to go around the closed road leading into Downtown Miami. 20 minutes. And in that 20 minutes I saw maybe 30 cops in riot gear, guns and all. A little unsettling, but all was quiet on the homefront, so I figured the unsettling presence was getting the job done. 4 helicopters overhead and a whole fleet of cop cars wasn't hurting matters any either. Today, I find this article on FTAA, and realize THIS is what was going on. The article mentions an organization that marched into Downtown Miami last night - I drove past their empty bus parked a block from my building. History is being made and it is pulpable - you can sort of feel it in the humid 80 degree air. And I am sitting right in the thick of it, boys and girls. At least for 20 minutes or so at a time... Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 18,November,2003 | It begins... The official countdown has begun. Today is officially 11 days till my BIRTHDAY :) As part of the official celebratory month, I will be going to see 'La Traviata' on Sunday. Perhaps stopping by the Clinique counter can be added to my agenda. Let the celebrating commence! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 17,November,2003 | I'm just a girl Sometimes I forget that. I had visions of grandeur this weekend as I walked through the aisles of the discount auto parts store. I thought, 'I can do this!' I wanted to save money so I figured I could put oil and coolant into my car, change the air and oil filters, and pick up a steering wheel cover while I'm at it. When I could barely get the damn cover to stretch over my steering wheel, having to pry my finger from between the cover and the wheel, I should have known I was already beaten. What the HELL was I thinking? I ended up forgoing the oil filter when I learned that I would need a special tool. I tried to figure out where the rectangular air filter went in my engine, but I just couldn't do it. On my old 70-something Toyota hatchback there was a big round space indicating where to put the filter. My 98 Nissan isn't quite so revealing. And for my final act, I put 2 quarts of oil and an oil additive into my engine. Harmless enough, right? Well, add that to the oil already in my engine (running very low but still in there) and the 2 quarts I added last weekend, and - ladies and gentlemen - we have a recipe for DISASTER! I cranked up my car, gripped the squeaky new steering wheel cover between my fingers, and proceeded out of the garage for a Saturday night on the town. Then, I noticed a black plume of heavy smoke being belched out of my exhaust. It was so bad that the maintenance guys in my building came running, they thought the building was on fire. Fortunately, I was able to *have someone else* drain the excess oil out and after a few miles on the highway this morning, the leftover oil througout the entrails of my car burned away and by the time I got to work there was no more billowing smoke from my tailpipe. So, what have I learned from this adventure (as I always learn something from everything). 1. I'm just a girl. No matter how much I believe I can do just about everything, I can't. 2. I know just enough about cars to get myself into some really big trouble. 3. The dipstick is there for a reason. 4. I'm NEVER doing that again. From now on, I will pay for any and all work on my poor little car. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 13,November,2003 | And for something different I was making my way down the stairs this afternoon, and voila! I fell. Again. My slightly healed right ankle, which was really badly injured in my last fall, resulting in crutches, is now damaged all over again. So, here I am, sitting at my desk starving since I haven't had lunch, with my ankle propped up on the garbage can waiting for someone to bring me ice. My ankle is throbbing and swelling ever so slowly into a nice softball. Again. If nothing else, at least I'm consistent. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 12,November,2003 | Danger Will Robinson! FTAA is coming. And if anything can be gleened from urlLink this website then I think I'm for it. I really don't understand any of the reasons given on this page for why it should be stopped. But, then, I'm not really a global thinker, I'm more concerned with paying the rent and changing the oil in my car. And I'm concerned about protecting my family from angry protestors as they converge on downtown Miami next week. The elementary school has called a mandatory meeting tonight for parents, to discuss possible safety issues. Anyone with a badge - state troopers to Fish & Game - will be on hand to control any possible out of control crowds during the protesting. Even the Port of Miami is taking no chances - the port is closed next week and all ships have to use a port further north. The protestors' headquarters is less than 15 blocks from my house. I don't really know what this is all about, but I do know I'm not excited about it coming to Miami. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 05,November,2003 | Words I live by Finally, someone has very clearly described exactly what I've been trying to explain to others for so very long. Mostly I think the Dalai Lama is just a nice old man with scattered rambling thoughts - good, happy thoughts, but rambling. This time, I must admit he's so very right. 'As long as there is a lack of the inner discipline that brings calmness of mind, no matter what external facilities or conditions you have, they will never give you the feeling of joy and happiness that you are seeking. On the other hand, if you possess this inner quality of calmness of mind, a degree of stability within, then even if you lack various external facilities that you would normally consider necessary for happiness, it is still possible to live a happy and joyful life.' -His Holiness the Dalai Lama Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 03,November,2003 | Monday, Monday Today started with the unparalleled joy of changing a flat tire. I did it in less than 15 minutes, and managed to keep my clothes free of dirt and yuck. And, luckily the tire was flat when I got into the car this morning. It didn't go last night when I was driving home in the rain, or this morning when I would have been cruising along on the highway at 65 or 70. So, while it was a bit of an inconvenience, it wasn't too bad. Otherwise, I had a great weekend. I participated in Hands on Miami Day and painted the boardwalk a new coat of brown. Me and 299 other volunteers. In all, the event attracted 3000 volunteers, with several projects throughout Miami and Miami Beach. I even saw a few familiar faces, along with my team of 6 other coworkers. Got a haircut, did a little shopping, and relaxed a little with a Sunday afternoon nap. Pics are going up in the diva gallery of our trick or treat outing. In all, a pretty good weekend. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 29,December,2003 | Expanding on the last entry, Food for thought Eliz commented, 'According to my psychologist... it's a mental health problem that I have. *giggle... It's correctible -- assuming that I truly wish to change. According to my psychiatrist... the truth lies within myself. She can have her opinion, BUT the truth of the matter depends on how I view it.' Makes me wonder about psychologists and therapists. I mean, are we all supposed to be perfectly adjusted and balanced? Are we all supposed to be free of any preferences or predisposed natures? If the Drs. all had their way, we'd all be free of addictions, fears, anxieties, attitudes, truths and denials. But, aren't those the things we bring with us into the world at large, that define us and motivate us? Aren't those the very things we came into this world to learn from and to teach others about? Eliz, your psychologist is right about one thing; the truth does lie within you. Within all of us, as I believe. And I am still wondering about my own personal koan right now, but not fretting too much over it. And if I went back to MY therapist, I already know what HER opinion would be! Because we've been through this one before ;) Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 23,December,2003 | Food for thought On another note, let me ask you, dear reader, for your opinion. If something continues to present itself, a recurring habit or theme keeps returning, does that make it karma, destiny, or perhaps just a bad habit? Example: You're no good at saving money. You try and try: you open savings accounts, CDs, 401(k), etc etc. But no matter what, you just don't save. Or, you diet and exercise, but you just can't keep off the weight. Or, no matter how hard you try to plan ahead, procrastination conquers all. See what I mean? Nothing terribly bad, just some little habit that you've tried to break, a pattern in your life that you've tried to change, and it just keeps coming back. Deja vu, over and over again. So, I repeat the question: Is is karma, fate, destiny? Or just a bad habit? Is it the pattern and design of your life, something that should be aknowledged and accepted, or a flaw of character to be shunned and overcome? What is your opinion, dear reader? Of course I have my own curious scenario presenting itself right now, and I would appreciate your input. So, use that little comment link for all its worth! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 19,December,2003 | And what bothers me most of all is that my boss never ever gives me ANYTHING for Christmas. He's a great guy, but he's really very insensitive when it comes to the holiday gift-giving thing. A hug and a happy holidays, and he's out the door. That really gets me most of all. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 19,December,2003 | HoLiDaY uPs AnD dOwNs Yeah, I'm still in a bit of a funk over the whole holiday thing. It's very unlike me, which only means that it won't last. I was reminded in reading last night to 'live in the moment.' To breathe in, and then out, and to live in the space between each breath. If you can let go of the exhale, and not anticipate the inhale, then you are living in the moment. It was a good reminder, and it's helping me today. That, and the good news of an old friend who is visiting for the holidays. We're going to do a little holiday shopping in Downtown Miami tomorrow - you know, guerilla-warfare shopping for Christmas Eve. Everything you need is Downtown. So, I have the day off tomorrow to take care of the myriad tasks ahead of me, and I will spend a few hours with a very dear friend. I have something to look forward to, and that makes me happy. Even without the breathing. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 19,December,2003 | Let the festivities begin I went to my Employee Holiday Party last night, and danced my ass off. Everyone commented, both last night and this morning, on how much I danced. I love to dance. In fact, I danced so much that now my kneecaps hurt. What the hell is that about? Any way, in case you're interested, you can check out pics urlLink here . It was the first party we'd had in two years, and we sure did make up for lost time. I left at midnight, but as I was leaving the conference services manager had just convinced the DJ to play longer. I have no idea when that party ended, but when I left it was no where near winding down. What a great night! And, that stupid effing bond payment has finally been sent to the disbursement unit to be released to me as payment for outstanding child support. DBD was picked up the first weekend in August; I may actually get his bail bond just before Christmas. I think I see shopping in my near future. Fa-la-la-la-la, La-la-la-laaaaaaaaaa Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 17,December,2003 | Something new I've never had this reaction before, and it has really left me feeling very disturbed and upset. I was sitting at lunch just now, minding my own business. Suddenly a santa hat was thrust upon me, and an order to say something holiday-ish into the video cam for the staff party. I was caught very unawares, and very unprepared. And, I'm really not feeling it. I joked, telling them I'll just 'say 'Bah humbug', because I'm just not feeling it.' My co-worked improvised a very merry holiday greeting into the camera lens, and then all eyes were on me to perform likewise. I couldn't. I told them to get me later, because I wasn't ready. Then I had to get up and leave the cafeteria. I was too upset to stay. I knew I wasn't in the mood, but I didn't realize how NOT in the mood I am. It's a week away, and then it will be all over. Soon, this will all be over. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 16,December,2003 | An interesting note: when I click on the referrer's google search down there, looking for Downtown Diva, the very first link listed is Downtown Diva, Pimps. Hmmm. I do my holiday shopping one way, others have their own methods. *grin* |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 09,December,2003 | and PS - welcome to my newest reader Justin. Thanks for the comments ~ I love comments! |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 09,December,2003 | Diva is back I've actually managed to get caught up on my workload here in the office. *sssshh, don't tell my boss!* So, I can give you, my dearest reader, a little update on the weekend. A friend from NY left the artic north for a little frolicking in the balmy Miami sunshine. I am so glad when we can spend time together, he's the only other person I know who likes to just walk around and check things out. (Besides my brother, that is). We strolled along Ocean Drive and Washington Ave, Lincoln Road and all across Downtown Miami - in just one afternoon! Went to see The Last Samurai, and despite the vivid battle scenes - I hate blood, guts and violence - I really loved it. It was so visually beautiful and so emotionally stirring. Sometimes, the actors didn't have to say anything, the looks and actions expressed all that was intended. And, as my friend pointed out, they didn't have Japanese villagers speaking English to each other. They spoke Japanese, with English subtitles. After all, why would they speak English to EACH OTHER? It was well done, and I am really glad I got to see it. OK, off my movie review soapbox. As for the Holiday looming in the not-far-enough future, I say 'BAH HUMBUG!' I have to fix my car's CV Joint and replace a rear tire - my third flat tire in less than 3 months - and I haven't even started my shopping. Then there's all those holiday cards that are being received here at the hotel which just makes for more mail for me to open. More work for me, delaying me from updating my blog. And don't even get me started on the whole tree thing. If I buy a real one *uh-oh. I've started myself on this* If I buy a real tree, I'll have to haul the thing down to the dumpster in about 10 days, thereby wastefully disposing of a natural resource. And the money spent on buying a tree could otherwise be spent on presents - assuming I ever get to buy any. If I buy a fake tree, I'll have to hoard the damn thing in a closet for a year, again using money and taking up valuable space in an already crowded closet. urlLink I'm thinking bamboo tree again this year. Although, I am beginning to have the holiday spirit. I'm hosting a Wine Club 'Holiday Sparkle' event tomorrow night - featuring champagnes ~ ooo la la - and on Thursday I have the hotel's holiday party to attend. Trust me, no one parties like hotel people, so it should be a really good party. Then Friday, my little diva will be performing in a holiday show. Besides that, carols keep playing in my head against my will and my own better judgement. So, you know, it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas. *ha ha now that damn song will be playing in YOUR head too!* Your welcome. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 09,December,2003 | It is written... According to urlLink this I'm going to live until January 2050, when I will die at the age of 84. Can someone mark their Outlook calendar for me, and check back later? Thanks to Candy for this fun link. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 08,December,2003 | Voracious Reader, that is. Well, that and other things... *wink, wink* I mentioned to a friend yesterday that I would like to borrow his copy of Hilary Clinton's 'Living History' just as soon as I finish the three books I'm currenlty reading. He looked at me like I was crazy. 'Three books? You're reading three books?' Yeah. I'm reading three books. Actually, I've only started two of them. As I am almost finished with the one I started on Saturday, I'll probably move further along in my second one, and pick up the third one sometime soon. I can't help it. I don't watch TV, I read. And if you're not new to my blog, you probably understand that I cover a wide genre of literature - but mostly I just read dead people. Classic literature and philosophy. So, I'm reading about the paradox of sex and spirituality (which has actually interested me in a few other authors like Henry Miller and Walt Whitman) and I'm reading Jane Eyre, which I bought on my summer road trip but just haven't thought to read yet. Next is the Accident Buddhist - which I'm figuring will be my life story! - and then I'll borrow Hilary's book. Oh, but wait. She's not dead. Can I read that? Yeah, for Hilary I can break a rule or two, heh heh. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 03,December,2003 | urlLink Your Diva turned 34 on Sunday! I always thought 33 would be an amazing year. A year of enlightenment. When I turned 33, I figured, 'Ok. Jesus and Buddha both discovered their true natures, found themselves if you will, at 33, right?' (Right?) And if they can do it, so can I; hopefully without an actual crucifixion or ascension. No blood or anything, just enlightenment. A little pain will be okay, but not too much, thank you very much. And I was right. What a year it has been. Joy and pain. I've discovered much about myself while I was 33, and much of it ended up on this blog. And I think I'm better for it. Thanks to all of my blog readers who keep coming back for more *god only knows why you do*. 34, here we come! :) Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 03,December,2003 | urlLink How many days till Christmas? Thanks for sharing this one Deb! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 30,January,2004 | Screw up bird Apparently, yesterday was my day to be that screw up bird making the left instead of the right. *groan* Although I've been milling it all over in my head, fearing retribution, and convincing myself that I can live quite comfortably on unemployment, a few random acts of kindness today are helping to remind me that it's all my own perception. My screw ups and fears are so big because they're all in my head. Nobody else seems to be carrying around yesterday's drama but me. So, I'm going to shake it off and move on. Friends can be so good to you without even knowing it. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 29,January,2004 | Post Script on Pondering My mind just got scarier. Now, along with all the other things I have the Ron Stoppable 'Naked Mole Rap' buzzing in my head. Nah-nah-nah-nah Listen to the Naked Mole Rap! Thanks, Radio Disney. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 28,January,2004 | Things I ponder First of all, I discovered a 'hidden racism' yesterday. I'm catergorized as Caucasian. My children are considered Hispanic. Simply because I had the audacity to mix my Euro-American blood with *gasp* someone with a Latin American heritage, our children are now considered Hispanic. Why not Caucasian? Why not Hispanic/Causcasion, or, alphabetically, Caucasian/Hispanic? It's the 'man' trying to keep my girls down! Another, completely unrelated, pondering: ever watch a flock of birds fly in circles together? They fly to and fro, from one corner of the sky to another, in total unison, and then back to the first space, and around again. How do they know when to turn, which way to turn? And, is there ever a poor little screw-up bird that keeps going left when he's supposed to be going right? Things that make you go, 'Hmmmmm.' (I know, it's pretty scary being in my head, isn't it?!) Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 28,January,2004 | I've seen these kind words on more than one blog today... a few words of advice from urlLink The Good Doctor . |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 23,January,2004 | Smile urlLink I can't decide if this is really cute or just plain annoying. Maybe somewhere in between. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 23,January,2004 | And a sad farewell to urlLink Captain Kangaroo . |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 22,January,2004 | Done I filed my taxes today. Yes, that's right. I filed my taxes today. My 2003 taxes are filed and I should have my refund in my bank account in a week or two. It's like magic. I love e-file. So, while the rest of you are still fumbling through drawers for receipts and what-not, I'll be spending my refund. Mostly on bills, of course, and that still-needed car repair; but I do have my eye on one of those DVD/VCR combo deals. Our VCR died a few weeks ago, and I think I'm going to splurge a little. I feel pretty darn good. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 22,January,2004 | In the 'tweens Any parent who's ever lived through a child being the ages of 10 to 12 know exactly what I'm getting at here. My oldest little diva is 10. She will be 11 in March. She's what marketers call a 'tween' - not a child, not a teen. And with her coveted marketing demographic come many little quirks. One of these quirks is that, in public spaces, I am now 'Mom'. The first time she called me by that moniker, I didn't realize it was my own child calling for her mother. I'm not 'Mom', I'm 'Mommy'. So, I didn't bother to look up. Then, I realized it was her voice calling, so I responded with a small amount of discord. It just didn't feel right. Now I've grown more accustomed to this grown-up public version of my daughter. To me, it indicates a small amount of embarassment to her to cling to childhood things. Things like good-bye kisses, hello hugs and needing her 'Mommy'. But last night as I walked her, half-asleep, from my bed to hers, she mumbled a sweet, 'Good night, Mommy,' and all was right in the world again. In the safety of her own home, without the danger of 'tween' on-lookers, I am still 'Mommy'. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 21,January,2004 | Right under my nose You know how you can spend days, or even weeks, looking for something? Then, you find it right in front of you? I had one of those experiences. I have been looking all over the place - online searching, magazine listings, related websites - trying to find somewhere to learn meditation ~ Tibetan Buddhist Meditation (this is where anyone who knows me for any length of time starts to freak out). I searched high and low for a place to meditate, to learn how to really do it right. I've been looking now for more than 2 weeks, and everywhere I turned, there was either a disconnected phone number or a dead e-mail address. Apparently, Buddhists don't cling to communication ;) I knew that the pastor at my church offered a meditation session on Monday nights, and I finally had a chance to check that out this Monday. No school, no kids to pick up after work. So, I went. To my methodist church with my female pastor leading the sesshin, I had my very first guided Tibetan Buddhist mindfulness mediation. It was all I had been looking for - and it was right there in front of me every Sunday on the church program. Under my nose, literally. Funny how things work out. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 19,January,2004 | munday although not quite such a monday, since today is a holiday. MLK day may not be everyone's holiday, but it does quiet the phones and ease up on the e-mail. i was able to get a lot done, so in addition to all he's already done, 'thanks, Dr. King!' had a faaaabulous south beach weekend. this was the annual art deco weekend - an art festival featuring lots of art deco period art, furniture, posters, jewelry and other miscellaneous things. and, for the first time in a long time, street performers were legally able to entertain the throngs. i must admit it did add to the flavor of the event. i even saw the 'naked cowboy' - i think it was THE naked cowboy, from NY. Sure looked like the pictures i've seen. i'm thinking the single digit weather up there may have chased him down here. its gotta be tough picking a guitar in your skivvies with a negative degree wind chill! also saw the movie cheaper by the dozen - very cute. no matter how many kids you have, they will love it, and so will you. also checked out the new urlLink Miami Childrens Museum . not a bad way to spend a stormy sunday afternoon. kept the kids entertained for a good 3 hours, and we could have stayed longer if the grown ups in the group didn't have other things to do. in all, it was a very good two days. quality time with the diva-ettes was much needed. hope my reader had a great two days too! diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 16,January,2004 | work Yo Yo Ma was here yesterday. Sandra Bernhardt is here today. This is one cool hotel, damnit! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 15,January,2004 | You know what's weird is that I normally get the 'Fool' card on these readings. I don't know why its changed to Empress. Fool really suits me more, I think. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 13,January,2004 | I am The Empress The Empress can refer to any aspect of Motherhood. She can be an individual mother, but as a major arcana card, she also goes beyond the specifics of mothering to its essence - the creation of life and its sustenance through loving care and attention. The Empress can also represent lavish abundance of all kinds. She offers a cornucopia of delights, especially those of the senses - food, pleasure and beauty. She can suggest material reward, but only with the understanding that riches go with a generous and open spirit. The Empress asks you to embrace the principle of life and enjoy its bountiful goodness. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit urlLink LearnTarot.com What tarot card are you? Enter your birthdate. Month: Day: Year: I 'borrowed' this from urlLink Steph , who 'snitched from Asherah & various other blogs but the links don't seem to be working correctly so try heading to http://www.obeythefist.com/tarot/ and entering your birthdate there.' It worked pretty well for me. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 09,January,2004 | Finally a list I can relate to! YOU MIGHT BE IN THE HOTEL INDUSTRY IF . . . . 1. You sat at the same desk for 4 years and worked for 8 different managers. 2. 'Going for cocktails and dinner' is NOT your idea of a nice evening. 3. When someone asks you your exact job profile, you lie. 4. You get really excited about a 2% pay increase. 5. You sit in a cubicle smaller than your bedroom closet. 6. It's dark on your drive to and from work. 7. Communication is something your 'group' is having problems with. 8. You see a good-looking person and know it's a visitor/guest. 9. Food left over from a banquet / meeting is your main staple. 10. You forget what you look like in anything but a suit. 11. All the work you were hired to do gets done before 9 and after 5.. 12. You're already late on the assignment you just received. 13. You boss's favorite lines are . . . a. 'When you get a few minutes . . . .' b. 'In your spare time ...... ' c. 'I have an opportunity for you . . . .' 14. 50% of the people in your company do not know what you do 15. The other 50% of the people in your company do not care what you do 16. Vacation is something you roll-over to next year or a check you get every January. 17. Change is the norm. 18. Nepotism is encouraged. 19. You read this entire list and understand it. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 08,January,2004 | Resolutions I finally came up with a few resolutions for the new year. Took me while. And no, giving up on procrastinating isn't one of them! I've decided to start painting again. To honor my creative spirit, as it were. Surprisingly, my oldest little diva was very pleased with this decision. I'm sure I had others, but I really can't remember them right now. Another was to get my weight down another 3lbs and keep it there a while. What was that other one? I'm having a Dory moment right now, so I'll have to add it in later. I've heard that if you share a goal with others, you're more likely to keep it. So, consider yourself as 'others'. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 07,January,2004 | and, by the way, I have NO IDEA why everything below is in bold. I've checked the code, and it's right (as far as I can tell). Sorry if you find it as annoying as I do. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 06,January,2004 | Tomorrow's Pay Day BIG BIG sigh of relief. Tomorrow's pay day. Right now, I'm so broke I can't even pay attention - ba-dum-bump-CH! And I called the State Disbursement unit about that effing bond payment that's been sitting in the state's account since 12/18. Apparently, the revenue department needed a little nudge from me. Now things should move along smoothly enough. I may get my hands on that $$ before the end of this month. *maybe* Didn't I have to do that the LAST time I was expecting money from the state? *sigh* Anyway, tomorrow's payday. And, did I mention, tomorrow's pay day? Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 06,January,2004 | urlLink A Day in the Life After having reviewed all 87 entries - yes all 87 - for the Day in the Life New Year's Eve project, I can honestly say that, compared to many other recorded celebrations from around the world, mine didn't suck. Some were so boring, there weren't even 24 pics to be had. At least I had something to take pictures of. And I had to edit them down to one per hour. Lots of people went to dinner parties at friends' houses - I'm thinking that might be a nice change for next year's festivities. Lots of people had lots of fun and lots of alcohol. In all, I think it was a very successful evening, collectively. ;) Happy New Year again, everyone! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 05,January,2004 | Life is good I had this whole other entry thought up on how great our new 'Dora the Explorer' alarm clock is, but something just happened that merits entry. I had resigned myself to the fact that I would need to borrow $10 for gas today. I managed to scrounge up $2 in change last night, but decided that it just wouldn't be enough. Now I am on 'E' just waiting for that little idiot light to come on. So, I was just waiting for a friend to come in so I could ask him to borrow the money. Then I get a call from our Concierge Desk, telling me that a guest needs a document notarized. The charge for this task is exactly $10. :) Now I don't need to borrow money (something I really hate to do) as I have earned it instead. Life is good and the Universe never ceases to amaze me in its gifts. There's another gift I am hoping to receive very soon, but I'm afraid to write about it just now. When it happens, you'll be the first to know. The universe has a crappy sense of humor. The guy stiffed me on the notary fee. He checked out and never came back to pay me. Creep. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 05,January,2004 | Feeling Much Better the holidays have passed, and life is back to normal. Kids are in school and everyone is back in the office. *BIG sigh of relief* and, as i have had to wait 5 months for that bail bond payment from waaaaay back in August, and am still waiting, i have come to realize something. i have allotted that money to everything from rent, to long overdue bills, to paying back debts to friends that lent me money, to buying christmas presents. oh, and repairing my car. in the meantime, some of those bills have somehow been paid without receiving that money. christmas gifts were bought. well, the car still needs repairing. but i'm still waiting. now the circus is coming and i want to take my girls, and the car still needs repairing. there are so many new ways to spend that money, and yet, somehow, even without the money i've managed to keep moving. i can't help but see the lesson in all of this. although i would have preferred to have had a check instead of a lesson, my own nature finds yet another way to be grateful for what i haven't got (yet). Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 01,January,2004 | A day in the life Happy New Year Everyone! I had so much fun yesterday with the little project over at Sh1ft.org, the 'Day in the Life' Project! I took one photo every hour (or so), and had a great time recording the last few hours of 2003 and the first few hours of 2004. I'm pretty pleased with the results, and can't wait to see all of the entries. You can see my results urlLink here . Hope everyone had a very happy holiday - and best wishes for all of us for a better, more peaceful 2004. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 27,February,2004 | Happy Friday! A little Friday fun... You are Woodstock! urlLink Which Peanuts Character are You? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla First I was a cricket, now I'm a little yellow bird. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 26,February,2004 | Thank You Miss Jackson! If nothing else comes from the Super Bowl stunt, at least urlLink THIS did. I never liked him; maybe you did, but I never did. Zero Tolerance can be a good thing. ;) More fallout from the fall-out, Justin Timberlake was pulled as the co-host for a MoTown Records Award Show, too... leaving Smokey Robinson with hope of more than a soda commercial on the horizon. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 25,February,2004 | Rizzn's fault I checked urlLink rizzn's page , and his protest on another blog's comments on the whole gay marriage thing got me thinking (damn him). I heard a comment on NPR last night, where Bush said something about history proving that marriage between a man and woman is best (or something like that). I tried to find the quote online today, to be all professional and correct and stuff, but I figured I'd just forge on ahead without it. Everytime I hear that man speak, I think to myself, 'What the hell is he thinking?' On the surface, he seems to share the same ideas, thoughts and beliefs of the common 'good american'. You know, the right wing, republican, christian upbringing, tons on money in the bank common american. Unfortunately, I don't think he goes any deeper than the surface. I also don't think he goes any further than the imaginary borders of this country. I wonder what impact these 4 years will have on the next 20, the next 50, the next 200. In my great grandchildren's history books, will he be a Truman, or a Nixon? Will there be another 4 years of him? Does he ever wonder this too? His actions and thoughts impact everyone, presently and years into the future. With any luck, the issues brought forward in his presidency - family, health, money, religion, war - will inspire future leaders to move ahead with less personal agendas. It is good to talk about what he has brought into the limelight. It is good to debate over what works and doesn't work. The critical thinking being done now about so many issues will, in the end, have some impact on how we think, act, plan, marry, spend, work, live. Then I wonder, did the Romans, the Greeks, the Aztecs do it any better than we are right now? Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 24,February,2004 | It's that time again! Time again for me to shamelessly solicit all of my wonderful, generous, charming, fabulous readers. I will be doing the walk again - the AIDS Walk Miami. And I've set my goal high this year - hoping to raise at least $100. So, pull out your plastic and support your diva today. Make a donation at my own personal webpage for the Walk urlLink here . If you're not ready to donate just yet, that's ok. I'm going to leave that link up over there to the right for quite a while. Thanks for your support. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 23,February,2004 | Diva in training In true diva spirit, I took my oldest little diva to her very first Opera on Friday night. It was 'Romeo et Juliette', performed in French by the urlLink Florida Grand Opera . This was an early birthday present for her, as she turns 11 next month. I was a little concerned that, being only 10, she may get a little bored. After all, this is a long one, at 3 hours and 15 minutes - with 2 intermissions. She donned a new outfit - black skirt, white blouse with sparkly brooch; she did up her hair, put on a little lip gloss and selected an evening bag. Topped off with my black wrap, she looked as if she'd always gone to the Opera. She sat perched on the edge of her seat for many scenes, my opera glasses at the end of nose, peering alternately at the stage and the English translations. I was so proud of her, and so glad that I was able to expose her to something that I think is just wonderful. She agreed with me; it is something wonderful and she said she really liked it. She's already selected at least two operas from next season that she would like to see. Ah, my little diva is growing up. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 18,February,2004 | My dream guy Ok, maybe he's gay or married or out of my league. Doesn't mean I can't admire him anyway. urlLink Dedication, determination and passion are what make him so appealing to me. Maybe I should start hitting some co-ed yoga classes OFF of South Beach. *sigh* I'm thinking a yoga retreat in Boston may be in order for the summer time. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 17,February,2004 | About my yoga Some weeks back, someone visited my site and requested that I blog about my yoga practice. Not sure why, and when I said I would blog about my practice, I never really was sure that I would. But, lately my practice has increased and, combined with my meditation practice, I am beginning to see some changes in how I do what I do ~ at least in yoga anyway. I've started getting up earlier, like around 6:30 (without an alarm clock - does this mean I'm getting older?); I'm up with the sun for some strange reason. Sometimes I just roll over and snooze for another hour, but more often I am getting up and rolling out my yoga mat. The mornings are harder for me than the evenings. I'm stiff and sore and weak and hungry. But by the third or fourth sun salutation, I'm better. I only get through the standing half of the asthanga practice - normally about 20 or 30 minutes worth. Then I'm primed and ready for the day, with a bit more energy and optimism than expected. Evenings are better for me. I can really get deep into the practice when the girls are asleep. I can hear my breathing and feel the muscles stretching, feel the vibrations that come when I'm in certain positions. And, now with meditation added to the practice, I realize even more that yoga is a moving meditation. Sitting with my eyes closed or staring out into space, my body remembers what movement is like. Moving through an asana, my mind remembers what spaciousness is. It is strange, and maybe I'm the only one who will ever understand this entry. But, I was asked to write about it, and its part of my experience. And, let's face it ~ this is my blog. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 14,February,2004 | Keepin' it real V-Day seems to not be a total disappointment. Since I am in the office today working on resaurant menus, I got invited to the Valentines Dinner by the F&B Director. A friend and I will be dining for free on lobster tail and tenderloin. Not bad, even if my date will be just a female friend of mine. And, they say good friends help to keep you real. At least, somebody said it, because I know I've heard it before. Last night I got together with a few friends from high school; some I hadn't seen in years, some I see (or at least read) pretty regularly. I think I must have changed quite a lot in the past *&^%$ years. We were reminisicing over high school antics, what they did and how I would stand over their shoulder telling them why they shouldn't. I was their 'Jiminy Cricket', their conscience. And, I never wanted to drive on the interstate in my little white hyundai. I'm wondering, was I annoying? Was I so meek and mild mannered that I was afraid to have fun? And, more importantly, WHY DON'T I REMEMBER BEING LIKE THAT? I don't remember playing the conscience to all of my friends. I don't remember doing half of what they say I did. I did get into the same mischief my friends did, 'guilty by association' as someone put it last night. I remember having fun and doing silly things (much of it I really can't discuss here, to protect the innocent). heh-heh. I don't know why I don't remember being who they said I was. They made me sound like, I don't know, a nag, a conscience, a party-pooper... 'you really shouldn't do that, its not very nice.' But, they let me play with them anyway. They let me hang out, even when I didn't drink their liquid lunches with them, and I didn't shoot m&m's at passers-by in the hallways, and I swear i do not recall EVER throwing citrus at pedestrians, or plucking them from a tree. Although, maybe I do have a slight recollection of picking fruit late at night... Anyway, for whatever reasons my friends allowed me to be their friends, I am grateful. Grateful for teaching me freedom to be myself, and freedom to just cut loose once in awhile. Last night was a gift for Fred, but I reaped some of those rewards as well. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 13,February,2004 | Couldn't have said it better myself 'You are more. Even the most intense experience is only an experience you are having. It is not you, and you are not it. You are more than your problems, more than your possessions, more than the pains and pleasures. You are more than the frustrations that sometimes feel so overwhelming. Too often, out of fear, you cling tightly to things that don't really matter. Imagine the freedom that can come from letting go and stepping back. What if your most agonizing worries no longer had the power to worry you? What if your most burdensome difficulties no longer had the power to trouble you? Step back from them, and it is all possible. It's not a matter of running away, but of putting the world in perspective. The real person you are, is not defined or limited by the passing circumstances, no matter how intense they may be. Always remember that you are more.' -- Ralph Marston Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 12,February,2004 | Happy Birthday, Mr. President And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. - Abraham Lincoln Yeah, I have a thing for tall, wiry, overwhelmingly compassionate men. I'd sing to him in a dress - of course, considering his era, it would be much less revealing and I somehow imagine it would be thick and scratchy. But, you know, when you got a thing for men who do great things, you'll go pretty far. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 11,February,2004 | Timing is everything I have my share of good days and bad days. But for 2 days in a row, I've managed to be in the right place at the right time. Right around 11am, they pull the breakfast buffet from the restaurant. Warm chafing dishes half-filled with crispy, savory hour-old bacon and grease-filled crispy-on-the-outside, juicy-on-the-inside fat little sausages. Left overs from what has been picked over since 6:30 this morning by hotel guests with more time and money on their hands than they know what to do with. My cholesterol has probably spiked high from my recent good fortune; but, man! how a little bacon and sausage can make the day go oh-so good. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 06,February,2004 | Once again, I say, urlLink Talk to your child! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 05,February,2004 | Ooo-La-La My friend, and the hotel's new Executive Chef, was recently featured in urlLink The Miami Herald . One of the best reviews we've had in a long time. It's nice to get a good word every now and then. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 05,February,2004 | 2 tragedies in 2 days in Florida After seeing the news this morning, I realize that I need to sit my girls down and have a serious talk tonight. Everyone probably knows by now about the missing 11 year old girl in Sarasota. Luckily, they have the abduction on tape somehow, so they know who did it. Sadly, the abductor isn't being very cooperative, so the girl is still missing. Something you may not have heard about is the murder of a 14 year old boy by classmate in a South Florida school. One 14 year old boy cut the throat of another 14 year old boy in the school bathroom early Tuesday morning. While the boy has admitted to the crime, the motive has not yet been established. These are the things parents dread and fear. Horrific stories of brutality that you wouldn't bare to hear happening to an adult, much less a child. And we all think we are impervious to such assaults. That could never happen to my child. My child is too smart for that to happen to him/her. * Tell your child to never go near or into a stranger's car. * Tell your child to scream, yell, blow a whistle, make as much noise as possible. Even if the stranger threatens to hurt them if they make noise - be as loud as they can. * Even if the stranger has a gun, run away. Either the person won't bother to shoot, or if they do shoot, and by some luck actually hit you, you're still better off bleeding in public where someone can help you. * Grab onto something bigger than you and don't let go for anything. If you're holding onto your bike, a big stick, a telephone pole, whatever, you won't fit into the person's car. *Don't try to help an adult who is a stranger. You can find an adult you know to help the stranger, but don't do it by yourself. * 911 is a free call. As soon as you get away, dial it. The cops will find you no matter where you are as long as you stay by that payphone. And for school, these rules may have to apply to other students unfortunately. Its hard to know if your child is being bullied at school. But, you have to talk about it. It's the only way to really know what's going on there. They spend anywhere from 5 to 8 hours there every weekday, and you really need to know what's happening to your child. These are the things I'm going to tell my very smart daughters tonight. And then I'm going to hug them very very tightly. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 03,February,2004 | Soapbox **Diva unassumingly places her soapbox in the middle of blogdom, then quietly steps up onto her little soapbox. She opens her mouth to speak.** Here's my two cents on the whole Janet Jackson boob thing. At any given time on any given day and on any given channel on TV ('cept maybe Disney *she mumbles with uncertainty *) you can find women being beaten, pushed, pulled, dragged and raped - with all sorts of body parts showing. Why is it that, when a woman chooses to show off a part of her own on her own, the networks go crazy? What, you think your 7 year old isn't watching MTV? Ever caught an hour or two of Sunday afternoon TNT? And, apparently the US is the only country bothered by the whole thing. BBC and other world networks never even bothered to cut away from the incident. It was the Puritan Americans, with all their family values, that shut their viewers eyes to the shame of a woman's body. A woman's body that wasn't being manipulated and controlled by their programming. **Diva lets forth a heavy sigh, then respectfully steps down from her soapbox. Quietly picks up said soapbox wondering what comments this will evoke, and shuffles away, out of view (and hopefully out of range).** Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 02,February,2004 | Tangled Mind First of all, it was intentional. I don't buy for one second that the costume malfunctioned. Janet's a freak, period, end of statement. Now that that's out of the way... Realization Number 1: While walking through the sun-drenched streets of South Beach on my lunch break, just barely breaking a sweat in the balmy 68 degrees (are you jealous yet?), I realized that no matter how tough life can be, I always carry a little bit of joy in me. Realization Number 2: The art to a sexy walk is never looking like you're in a hurry. You may very well be in a hurry, but your walk should not indicate this. As long as, with every step, you feel the stride and enjoy the sound of your heel on the pavement, and move into the next long stride, you will be sexy. Damnit. Realization Number 3: Weird, misguided thought number 1: While making my way back from my lunch break walk, a man on the street sneezed really loud. REALLY LOUD. Echoing through the streets and alleys loud. Everyone stopped in their tracks to look. He moved on, and then sneezed again a moment later. Twisted thought crossed my mind: Is he that loud in bed? Then my mind meandered to last night, when I heard my neighbors from what must have been a kitchen romp. Deep throaty moans with an even amount of time between each of them. At the time, I just wanted to get my little diva into our apartment so I wouldn't have to explain the sounds coming from behind the other door. But, today my mind wandered back to the sounds. Such nice sounds. Maybe they were listening to a Janet Jackson CD after having watched the game. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 29,March,2004 | More Diva for your Dollar Despite my fabulous pseudonym and glamorous locale, it may surprise you, dear reader, to learn that Im not actually all that much of a diva. I mean, I do get to a salon more than some single moms, and I definitely take very good care of myself. But, in all, Im more of a regular girl a simple girl with simple needs. In fact, I havent really done much shopping in a very long time. Of course, with the new influx of child support dollars, Ive been able to get out a little more to get the things all three divas in my household require. Ive gone a little crazy new towels, shoes for my diva-ettes, even a new set of pjs for the little one. I know, I know; out of control. And I have managed to acquire a little slice of heaven in the form of a Victorias Secret credit card. Man-oh-man could a diva get herself into trouble with this one! I made a little visit to my local VS store on Saturday. At first, after not shopping for so long, I was a little ambivalent. The store was buzzing with young hotties and their bashful boyfriends, as well as a few almost middle-aged mothers, dragging their children along behind them. And there was me. Did you know that they have a lady in the dressing room to measure you???? Did you know that all the salespeople walk around with headsets, chatting back and forth to each other: Hi sweetie, can you get me a 34D, black? Are you free to assist? What is with that? How urgent can it be? I almost felt guilty for NOT letting someone help me pick out just the right bra. Sheesh. But it was quite an experience, and a very nice one at that. And, I am now the proud diva owner of 2!, yes 2! New VS bras. I have cleavage who knew. Now more diva than ever. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 26,March,2004 | I (heart) Yoga I was able to go to a yoga class last night for the first time in more than a year. Ive been practicing at home, but, well you know. I get in 30 or 40 minutes of practice, and then call it a night. And, as hard as I may try to correct my posture and get deeper into a pose its just me. Like trying to learn how to drive a car by reading an owners manual. Without the practice and a good teacher, you can only get so far. Last night, I had the teacher and I had the class around me. The teacher checked my posture and helped me to get a little deeper into my down dog. He reminded me to be mindful of my movements, my thoughts and my breathing. Seeing the other class members working so hard inspired me to get through the class, to do that last Sun Salutation B (I usually only do 1 or 2). Seeing the others work past their own abilities, stretching themselves into unfamiliar postures, encouraged me to go even deeper into the ones I know so well. And I did a few arm balances that Ive never done before. Eventually, after headstand, the teacher had to encourage me to rest, as I had been working like a dog his words. My effort was evident, and even I was surprised at having made it to the end of the class without giving up. Of course, I had a hard time holding on to my steering wheel while driving home. My body ached all night (and still does) with the effort of getting through that class. But, in addition to the ache, I feel a strong sense of accomplishment and strength. I feel that Ive opened up some parts of my body that had closed up again after so long without a class. And I am reminded once again why I love yoga so much; I am constantly amazed at how I keep proving myself wrong I can do this. I can make it. I am stronger than I will ever believe I am. Yoga pushes me further and proves to me my limitless abilities even as my doubting mind tries to deny it all. We are all stronger than we know. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 18,March,2004 | Gorgeous Spring Weather It may still be winter up north, with temperatures low enough to make snow, but here the weather is just gorgeous. There's nothing like a blustery Spring morning in Miami to bring a smile to my face. 69 degrees this morning, with a strong, cool breeze blowing through me. I couldn't help but smile. I love the feeling of the wind on my skin. Now, if it would just rain. With all the wind, my car is covered with sand and oceanspray. I don't wash my car, I just wait for a good rain. But, of course we all know, it never rains until you wash your car. See my dilemma? Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 15,March,2004 | Random bits & pieces First off, I think I may have figured out a way to fit yoga AND meditation into my daily schedule. I've been working in one or the other for the past few weeks, and my yoga is really suffering. Last night, I managed to do both before bedtime, and it felt great. So, I'm putting both on my daily agenda; now if only my little diva-ettes will cooperate by going to bed on time... I took my now 11 year old diva-ette, along with 5 other 10-11 year old girls, to see Hidalgo on Saturday night. No, it wasn't penance for my sins, it was a birthday party for my daughter. It was a lot of fun actually, and I really enjoyed the movie on many levels. There were some subliminal messages that I got from it, like comparing the 'Arabians' to the American Indians, and the lack of knowledge about the culture creating hatred for that culture. And, finding yourself, being true to yourself... so many levels to appreciate. The girls liked the horses. :p And, they've installed monitoring software on the internet here at work, so that may mean fewer installations. I know... I know... you're wondering how will you ever live without your diva. But, have no fear, dear reader. I'm working on getting internet at home (which will probably end up being monopolized by the above-mentioned 11 year old). So, when I should be doing my down-dogs, I may end up blogging instead. And, one last note; I saw two things downtown on Saturday morning that I've never seen before. Not counting the new farmer's market, I saw several 'Help Wanted' signs in shop windows, and I saw an overhead construction walkway, encompassing one whole street corner. To me, these are indicators of growth in the area. Downtown hasn't seen growth in many many years. It was just a place to get the occasional bargain, but never considered a serious business/shopping/entertainment area. With new businesses, growth in current businesses, new construction of housing; Downtown is fast becoming a really great place to live. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 11,March,2004 | Keeping things in perspective Next time you open your electric bill and growl about how high it is, here's a little something to make you feel better. The electric bill here at my hotel runs on average $17,000 PER MONTH. Now, don't you feel better? Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 09,March,2004 | American Diva I was watching that Idol show last night (for the 2nd time), and I noticed that at the end that Seacrest guy said, 'Seacrest out!'. For the record, I didn't get my closing from him, HE got it from ME. Even he loves the Diva ;) Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 09,March,2004 | Chaos urlLink This is happening now in our lobby bar and at our pool. Out of control. But, its providing me with some bumping beats to type to. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 04,March,2004 | On a lighter note I heard urlLink this on the radio this morning, while driving past Miami Beach High School. It was the best laugh I've had in weeks. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 03,March,2004 | Gotta' give credit... where credit is due. For two weeks, consecutively, I have received child support payments. DBD is now gainfully employed, and therefore, no longer a DBD. He's paying, he calls to say hello, he's visiting this weekend and planning some quality time with his girls. He's doing the right thing now. I'm going to have to come up with some new moniker, or maybe I'll just stop writing about it altogether. All is well, and the drama is gone. *Big sigh of relief* And thanks to the new support, I managed to have a whole $12 in my account on the day before payday. That hasn't happened in a long, long time. Life is good. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 03,March,2004 | Refreshing point of view While at lunch today with someone slightly older and, perhaps wiser, than me, the issue of gay marriage flashed across the TV screen again. He reminded me: 30 years ago, a black man couldn't use the same toilet as a white man. It was considered 'fundamentally wrong', and segration was 'right'. Less than 100 years ago, women couldn't vote in this country. It was unheard of, and well, 'fundamentally wrong'. Maybe 20 years from now, gay marriage will have moved into the realm of desegregation and suffrage. Something that just had to be allowed, because how could it possibly be otherwise? Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 01,March,2004 | A Humbling Experience urlLink A friend sent me this link . Its just amazing, and makes you realize how very very small we really are. And how connected to everything else we are. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 28,April,2004 | Good News and Bad News The good news is my sunburn doesn't hurt anymore. The bad news is now it itches. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 27,April,2004 | Bark! I can only guess what Fred's going to say about this one... but here goes. I started taking an herbal extract on Sunday. Its supposed to help stimulate my metabolism and assist my body in using the fat I've stored around my lower abdomen, hips and thighs. Its taken from the bark of a tree that grows wild in Cameroon, Africa. The drops are dark dark dark brown, and I have to put 30 to 40 drops into a glass of water, then drink it. Someone asked me how it tastes, I told him it takes like I'm licking a tree. It tastes like bark. But, since I started taking it, I've noticed an increase in my energy level, a decrease in my apetite and I haven't wanted (or had any) coffee for two days now. There's that little note on the bottle saying that the FDA hasn't acknowledged the claims for the product. Funny, though, that there's a warning for some people with certain health conditions to avoid taking the product. If it doesn't work, why should they have to warn some people about it? All I know is I want to drop 10 lbs by the time I go to Boston in July and if I can do it with this bark drink, then bottoms up! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 26,April,2004 | Overdue Update Well, dear reader, needless to say I don't have internet at home - STILL. Apparently my PC doesn't have enough RAM *sigh*... story of my life. Working on it though, so have no fear. Eventually, I will be able to inundate you relentlessly with unimportant details of my overwhelmingly fabulous life. I think I must have swallowed a thesaurus with my morning coffee. Let's see... unimportant details... well, first off I have been reminded of why I don't lay out on the beach, and why I do wear sunblock when I do get out into the brilliant South Florida sunshine. Think of the brightest, reddest overcooked lobster you have ever seen, and that will give you an idea of what my right thigh and right upper arm look like today. I carefully covered SOME parts of me with sunblock, heedlessly leaving way too much of me unprotected. I have little red slivers of sunburn on my butt, since I thought it would be good to sun my buns a little yesterday... not the whole thing, but you know... a little more than is normally covered by my bathing suit. Sitting, sleeping, walking, breathing... yep, they all pretty much hurt today. And, as I am pretty sure he doesn't read this, I can tell you all that my online friend from NY has now moved to Sunny South Florida. That's why I'm sunburnt today; he's busy soaking in the new, more relaxed lifestyle that we enjoy here. Lounging on the beach on a Sunday afternoon was part of the initiation of local status. Yummy Argentinian food on Saturday night - grilled chicken and sausage, sauteed spinach and some kind of a flambe'd dessert with caramel-filled crepes was another part of that initiation. Peruvian and Colombian are also on the list of cuisines to try as he settles in to this multicultural area. In addition to that, I had the pleasure of catching up with a friend that went away to the Army a little less than 2 years ago. He came home injured... from playing soccer in California. I know; it isn't heroic, but hey - it got him out of the service and back home safe & sound. Had lunch in a riverfront cafe that I've been dying to check out, and it was really very nice. So, in all, aside from the sunburn, I had a faaaabulous weekend. Hope you did too. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 16,April,2004 | Big Plans for the Summer I have got my summer plans all wrapped up already. Man, am I on top of things. Yes, I am just that good. ';) My daughter's First Communion is all but done for the 1st weekend in May - thanks mostly to my mother in law who is in complete control of that one. Then there's the littlest diva's birthday / pool party the 2nd weekend in May. For June, I've already booked at the urlLink Celebration Hotel for a visit to the Magic Kingdom and Epcot (Hey Fred, when's Gay Days?!?) with my girls and my mother in law. For July, I've put together my very own Yoga Retreat. I'm staying at urlLink Boston Harbor Hotel and plan on attending yoga classes at urlLink Baron Baptiste's yoga studio in Boston . Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait! I am so ready for the summer. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 15,April,2004 | And for a Hookup... Ladies!!! The event we have all been waiting for! 12 eligible bachelors awaiting for our arrival in N.Y. City on Thursday, May 20th. Those of you who are interested in taking part of this event please reply as soon as possible. The N.Y. hostess and I will make sure we all have an amazing weekend. We will be making all the arrangements necessary. All you need to worry about is eating, drinking and dancing. And who knows?! We might be making some connections. A new friend, a business relationship, romance...??? The only expense you'll be incurring is your air ticket and hotel stay. Everything else will be taken care of!!! Details will fallow. We have the rates for fights and hotel right now. Very, very reasonable. So the sooner you reply the better! Check out urlLink Connections After 5 for contact and info. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 14,April,2004 | Soooo South Beach Check out urlLink Life is a Drag . And since you brought up the subject, there's a new movie coming out about two women who pretend to be men who pretend to be women... you know, drag queens. All I can say is, I can't WAIT to see that movie on South Beach. Honey, there's going to more lipstick, heels and high-hair wigs in that theater than a close-out sale at Frederick's of Hollywood. Life is better than fiction. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 09,April,2004 | Good Friday Its Good Friday today, and they're serving fish in the employee cafeteria. What a surprise. And my hairdryer died this morning. It slowed down, made this deep, whirring growl, then just faded away. I threw it out. But now I'm wondering if I should have kept it for another day or two... I mean, you know, maybe it could have started working again on Sunday. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 08,April,2004 | My gift recieved Sometimes even the simplest moment shared can be such a great gift. I had the immense pleasure of having lunch today with one of our city's most prominent figures. He's compassionate and passionate about where he lives and what he does. Just about everyone loves him, because he's just that kind of a man. I was filling in the time while his lunch appointment rushed to get to the hotel to meet with him. In that 20 minutes or so, we talked about life in Miami Beach, careers, love and lovers, friends and the joy of being who we are. I can't impart to you what it meant for me to sit quietly at a table. While I munching multi-grain bread slathered with sweet butter, the sun was shining in through the windows, people were moving through the lobby and past the pool, diners were chatting and chewing nearby. The few minutes we spent talking were more time than I've ever really had to get to know this amazing person. He loves living his life, he loves his job - Tourism Director for Miami Beach (and so much more), his views on dating, on working a room, on living. And when you talk, he really listens. He wants to know all about you in a very sincere way that you feel. And, now, more than ever, I want to be just like him when I grow up. Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 02,April,2004 | Any excuse for a party I was up late last night, making Egyptian Lentils for Maundy Thursday. I'd never even heard of Maundy Thursday until last Sunday. According to the female pastor at the Methodist Church where I study Buddhist meditation, Maundy Thursday is another name for Holy Thursday, the day Jesus instituted the Eucharist. This is where we all sort of recreate the Last Supper by sharing a meal together. Each year, this church gets together, preparing Middle Eastern meals like what would have been eaten way back then in the Middle East where Jesus lived and died. We'll share our food and share stories of what god has done in our lives, or what he means to us; sing, dance, read poetry - whatever. You know, 'Eat, drink and be merry, for tomorrow I die.' I'm looking forward to it. My Egyptian Lentils came out really good, and I've brewed up some Mint Tea for the occasion. Yummy! And, another cause for celebration - today is urlLink Buddha's birthday. Happy Birthday Buddha! Diva out. |
766,556 | female | 34 | indUnk | Sagittarius | 02,April,2004 | OOOOO, Look at the Counter! At the time of this posting, I am just 2 away from 4000 hits. I'm so excited I could just pop! Hey, I already said my needs were simple. Be sure to say hello, Number 4000. Diva out. |
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