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2,685,566 | female | 25 | Consulting | Pisces | 01,August,2004 | urlLink I say...You think.. Crippling:: wheelchair Tough:: alligator Slinky:: snake Slogan:: I'm lovin' it Stuffed:: potatoes Instructions:: restrictions Expletive:: OH NO! Cartoon:: Gargamel Toddler:: Mess Insinuation:: Lies courtesy of.. urlLink Unconsious Mutterings |
2,685,566 | female | 25 | Consulting | Pisces | 01,August,2004 | Have I mentioned how much I hate the real world? If I haven't, let me say it right now....I hate the real world. In this so called 'real world', I no longer have extended health coverage..I have ongoing debt..I wake up Monday to Friday wishing it was Saturday or Sunday..i'm forever irritable..i'm jealous of friends who haven't been 'lucky' enough to make it to the real world as yet..and i always feel like i've never had enough sleep... Moms thought I was joking when I said it...but i was dead serious. I don't think I'm ready for the 'real world' and I don't know if i ever will be. I think one of the thing that weighs the most on me right now is my lack of extended health coverage and the knowledge that in my field working basically as a self employed/independent consultant, I won't have health coverage until I purchase it myself. And because I'm just starting out and trying to work my way up...I can't afford to buy it for my self now. This realization hit me with a left hook a couple months back when I had to have a root canal...which hurt like hell...and then got the bill in the mail a couple weeks later...which hurt even more... Then I got hit with the right hook a couple weeks ago when I sprained my foot (the how, when and where is a whole 'nother story) and again got slapped with the bill for the meds my doctor prescribed. *sigh If only I could fast forward a couple years and a few more zeros to my bank account. If only... *phew...there, I'm done venting... There's a few other things that I need to get off my chest (namely my co-worker's comments the other day about the area that I live in)...but i'll save that for another day when it's raining. But right now, my foot is still swollen and hurting, it's grey outside and as always, I need new music... rotating... urlLink Amy Winehouse: Frank & urlLink Bebel Gilberto props... Pick up the latest issue of urlLink Peace , I'm loving the article by Marsha Greene titled 'Pet Peeves of a Girl Head' |
2,685,566 | female | 25 | Consulting | Pisces | 01,August,2004 | courtesy of urlLink The Boondocks & urlLink UComics |
2,685,566 | female | 25 | Consulting | Pisces | 01,August,2004 | Never, ever, ever take 4 children under the age of 5 to a theme park when they've had a full night sleep and you've only had 4 hours sleep . BAD IDEA!! Believe me, I found out the hard way. I was sleeping on myself on the majority of the rides and they (and the thousands of other miserable children) were screaming in my ear, intensifying my headache (nahh, it ain't a hangover...i just needed a couple more hours sleep and i would've been good). |
2,685,566 | female | 25 | Consulting | Pisces | 01,August,2004 | I swear raccoons are evil. Especially the ones in my neighbourhood. I've had a strong suspicion for a while now. But tonite I found the evidence that I needed. It's Caribana weekend, so I've been partying since Thursday (and still going to work for 9 am each morning). So today consisted of work, stopping by my aunt's bbq, hitting my homegirl's house smokin' and having a drink, repeating the same thing when other guest's arrived and then finally heading home to enjoy a quite evening sitting outside smokin' and enjoying the weather. Note, I am in my backyard. No one else is home, all of my neighbours are asleep. As I am sitting there, I begin to sense that I am not alone. I peer out into the darkness of my back yard and discover 2 pairs of eyes staring directly at me. Raccoons!! I sit back semi relieved that it's not a skunk and they will go about their business and leave me alone. I am human right? Dominant? Bigger than them? I sit back and continue puffing. All of a sudden, I notice that 1 pair of eyes is moving. Diagonal to where I am sitting yet towards my house. I continue to look at the other still pair of eyes. This pair remains unmoving for a moment, staring right back at me, seemingly unblinking. All of a sudden I realize that this pair has also begun to move, again in a diagonal yet towards my house. My backyard has sensor lights which turn on with the detection of movement. All of a sudden, the sensor closest to where I am sitting flashes on. Let me tell you, I have never moved so fast in my life. I was up. Inside. Screen & Glass doors closed. Bar Down. Locked. Before I had even seen the shadow below the light. No way was I going to let 2 disgusting raccoons take me down. I'm telling you, Racoons are evil. They saw me come out, sat there in the middle watching me, planning their attack, and then swiftly attacking. Believe me, raccoons are evil. |
2,685,566 | female | 25 | Consulting | Pisces | 01,August,2004 | Now, please note the above title must be said in a certain way. It is not 'it's car-ni-val'. NO! If you are familiar with soca, think Destra Garcia. Phonetically, say 'is cah-na-val!' There, you got it. That's lesson one in Trini lingo...lesson two will follow shortly. So yes, Caribana is here. For those that don't know, Caribana is Toronto's Caribbean Carnival. I say Caribbean because it has evolved to encompass all islands, all people, supposedly boasting unity. (I say supposedly, because as always there is the behind the scenes politics...between the city of Toronto and the organizers of Caribana; urlLink within the organization itself [an old link, but BELIEVE ME there hasn't been much change since 2002], between islands and of course, between promoters of the local parties.) While Caribana does not even compare to the festivities of urlLink Trinidad Carnival , it is still an event that I desperately hope is able to survive. Not just because of the economic benefits of this festival to the city of Toronto, but because it promotes a sense of culture that I need to instill into my children (whenever they arrive). If you've never experienced Carnival whether in Toronto, Trinidad, New York, Miami or DC; believe me, you don't know what you're missing. Anyways...despite my love for the festival, I've outgrown some of the events that I used to frequent in my younger days. I just can't tolerate the club hopping from Thursday to Monday night. The chilling out on Yonge Street till 6 in the morning, the feteing on the parade route all day Saturday and then rushing home to get dressed to hit a club right after. Not only can my body not tolerate it, but I look back and seriously wonder how in the hell I was affording that entire weekend when I was not working and still in school. I still experience a sense of excitement and anticipation as Caribana draws closers. You see, it's not just about going to the events. It's also about the people who come here...the aunties and uncles and cousins and nieces and nephews. The fact that everyone is in a good mood despite whatever negativities may be occurring in their life. The reunion of friends and family that you haven't seen in ages and those that you KNOW you only see at this one time every year. They don't come for Christmas, they won't send a card for your Birthday, but come carnival time...they magically appear. Acting like they've been right around the corner the entire time. I love it!! This is my culture, this is my life, my history. The bacchanal, the feteing, the wining, the politics, the false sense of unity, I embrace all of them as part of my history. For anyone interested in learning more about Trinidadian political and social culture, I recommend picking up books by urlLink Earl Lovelace . While his writings are supposedly fictional, there is a historical basis to all the events that occur and I wouldn't be surprised if the majority of the characters were historically based as well. All of the above being said, here's are some links for Caribana related events: urlLink Toronto Caribana urlLink Kingdom of Soca urlLink Island Boyz urlLink Irie Music Festival urlLink Mas Toronto urlLink Fete Net urlLink XClusv urlLink Toronto Lime urlLink Drunkin Masters urlLink Warner & Associates Let the festivities begin!! rotating ... urlLink IRS: Welcome to Planet IRS anticipating ...LONG WEEKEND!!! |
2,685,566 | female | 25 | Consulting | Pisces | 01,August,2004 | Even though the weather this summer has been essentially shitty. Toronto continues to bring the hotness with a continuous thread of dope shows. Here are just a few upcoming events (think of it as must see tv. ). REMG should pay me for all of this free advertising!! REMG presents... John Legend John Legend graces Fez Batik for this intimate Toronto performance on Monday August 9, 2004. Fresh from his set with Kanye, opening for Usher at The ACC, John will be performing a rare unplugged show (just him and his keyboard) Capacity is limited, so please arrive early to avoid missing this musical prodigy in action. JOHN LEGEND Monday August 9, 2004 Fez Batik (129 Peter Street) Tickets are $10.00 at the door No Advanced Tickets will be Sold Capacity is Limited, Please arrive early to avoid disappointment 19+, Doors @ 9:00pm Jill Scott Tuesday August 10, 2004 The Guvernment (132 Queens Quay East) Advance Tickets: $40.75 Tickets in stores on Friday July 9, 2004 Outlets: Ticketmaster, Play de Record, Rotate This, Vice, Shanti Baba, Ed's Record World & The Pit Records Licensed 19+ Doors @ 8:00pm Big Black Lincoln: Ivana Santilli IVANA SANTILLI Thursday August 26, 2004 The Mod Club Theatre (722 College Street) Tickets are $19.50 in advance and are available at Ticketmaster, Play de Record, Rotate This, Shanti Baba, Ed's Record World, Daily Operation & The Pit Records ****Tickets on Sale Friday July 30**** Must be 19 Years of Age & Older to Attend, Doors @ 8:00pm Brand Nubian With special guest Brother Ali Wednesday August 25, 2004 Tonic Nightclub (117 Peter Street) Tickets are $15.00 in advance and are available at Ticketmaster, Play de Record, Rotate This, Daily Operation Shanti Baba, Ed's Record World & The Pit Records ****Tickets on sale Friday July 30, 2004 **** 19+ Licensed, Doors @ 8:00pm |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | OMG! An Iron Man Match between Benoit and The Game! And it's next Monday night! GETTING THE EDGE July 19, 2004 Edge took a page out of the Evolution playbook Monday night, beating Randy Orton for the second straight time with a nifty backslide and a little leverage from the ring ropes. The Legend Killer hoped to reduce the five-time Intercontinental Champion to another T-shirt statistic, and he seemed a three-count away after a low blow and an RKO. But a groggy referee was slow to make the count, and Edge mustered enough energy to barely kick out. When Orton went to his finisher again, Edge reversed it into a winning — and slightly illegal — pinning predicament. While the fans in Washington were treated to a highly competitive Intercontinental Championship defense, those live in Pittsburgh next week will witness the biggest RAW contest of the year. In a 60-minute Iron Man Match that begins promptly at the top of the hour, Chris Benoit will defend the World Heavyweight Championship against Triple H. Whoever scores the most decisions in the allotted time will walk out with the title. But one question remains: Can the Crippler even walk after the vicious beating taken at the hands (and feet) of Batista? Early in Monday’s Benoit-Batista bout, it was clear that the Evolution member was taking his cues from The Cerebral Assassin. Rather than even attempt a cover, Batista simply continued to assault Benoit with illegal chokes and skull-crushing kicks. Batista repeatedly defied the referee’s orders while Benoit was tangled in the ring ropes, eventually leaving the official no choice but to call for a disqualification. The attack continued after the bell, punctuated by a ring-jarring Batista Bomb. Unable to walk under his own power, Benoit had to be helped from ringside. It was just what The Game ordered only seven days before a championship match of epic length. The animal Batista also made his presence felt during a match between Kane and Chris Jericho — leveling Y2J with an all-too-familiar whirlwind clothesline. Capitalizing while deep in the D.C. crowd, Kane covered Jericho for the “Falls Count Anywhere” victory. Jericho appeared to have earned a count-out victory early on, but a resentful RAW General Manager had different ideas. Eric Bischoff wasn’t the least bit amused after a Jericho prank led to the Diva hopefuls trashing Bischoff’s office. So, he seized the opportunity to get back at Y2J by ordering the match vs. Kane to continue with the unusual match stipulation. After watching the 10 Diva Search finalists strut their stuff and tear apart Bischoff’s office, which one gets your heart rate revved up? Take a closer look through WWE.com and be sure to vote for your favorite before time runs out. Match Results: Sylvain Grenier (with Robert Conway) defeats Tajiri (with Rhyno) Tyson Tomko (with Trish Stratus) def. The Hurricane (with Stacy Keibler and Superhero Rosey) World Heavyweight Champion Chris Benoit def. Batista (DQ; non-title match) Kane def. Chris Jericho (Falls Count Anywhere) Intercontinental Champion Edge def. Randy Orton |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | ANGLE'S A FRAUD July 15, 2004 WWE Champion JBL retained his title in a Steel Cage Match Thursday night, but the bigger story was who gave him a crucial assist: SmackDown! General Manager Kurt Angle. Angle, who earlier in the evening said he’d likely be wheelchair-bound for life, made a shocking and all-too-physical appearance during the match between former champion Eddie Guerrero and JBL. As the masked El Gran Luchadore, Angle scaled the 15-foot-high cage, grabbing Guerrero and holding him long enough for JBL to escape for the victory. Eddie succeeded in unmasking Angle before he could make his getaway, revealing Angle to be a fraud and trickster with an unnecessary leg cast and wheelchair. Angle promised that this would be “a night no one will ever forget.” But at the time he seemed to be referring to his plans for John Cena — not the night’s main event in which the WWE Championship was decided in a Steel Cage Match for the first-ever time on SmackDown! Before donning the garb and mask of a Mexican champion, Angle made a big-time match for next week: John Cena vs. an infuriated Luther Reigns. Angle also placed Cena in another unfair situation — an Elimination Handicap Match against Rene Dupree, Booker T and Kenzo Suzuki. Cena managed to eliminate two of his opponents, but Booker T finished him off after getting a little help from Luther Reigns. With the big win, is Booker T first in line for the vacant United States Championship? Earlier, Spike Dudley got some unsolicited help from the Dudleys during a tag-team match. The Dudleys seemed quite pleased until D-Von lost to Paul London one-on-one. With the rollup victory, London stated his case that winning the WWE Tag Team Championship with Billy Kidman wasn’t a fluke, after all. Lastly, John Heidenreich revealed that he’s now aligned with the dastardly Paul Heyman. Only time will tell what influence Heyman will have on the young WWE Superstar. Match Results: Spike Dudley and Rey Mysterio defeat Chavo Guerrero and Jamie Noble Booker T (eliminated Kenzo Suzuki & Rene Dupree) def. John Cena (Three-on-one Handicap Elimination Match) Paul London (with Billy Kidman) def. D-Von Dudley (with Bubba Ray Dudley) WWE Champion JBL def. Eddie Guerrero (Steel Cage Match) |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | BLOODY MONDAY July 12, 2004 When Chris Benoit raised the World Heavyweight Championship high after defeating Triple H at Vengeance, he couldn’t have imagined that he’d have to defend that title the next night on RAW … against Eric Bischoff’s nephew Eugene. When Eugene learned he’d be in Monday night’s main event, little did he know it was simply part of The Game’s vicious plan. And neither competitor expected to end the night bloodied and incapacitated at the hands of a third party. The match began beautifully for the challenger. He avoided Benoit’s patented diving headbutt, later mimicking his opponent with German suplexes and even the Crippler Crossface. The Rabid Wolverine was clearly willing to do whatever it took to retain, ripping into Eugene with quick, stinging moves. But Eugene again caught Benoit using other Superstars’ attack arsenal, hitting a Rock Bottom that came dangerously close to being the end. Benoit managed to get a foot on the bottom rope, but Eugene thought he won and went to claim his World title. With the match still technically in progress, Evolution descended upon the ring. It was perfect timing for Triple H and Company, as Benoit was down and Eugene was celebrating. Soon, the contest disintegrated into a barbaric beat-down. When Evolution had their fill with Benoit, they turned their full attention to tearing apart Eugene. Randy Orton hit an RKO. That was followed by a Batista Bomb. And worst of all, Eugene’s “favorite wrestler” blasted him with a Pedigree and left him an unconscious mass of crimson. Besides taking his turn beating up Eugene, Ric Flair also found time to school The Hurricane. Flair weathered an early storm from his young opponent, who even managed to draw first blood. But that seemed to incite the “Nature Boy,” who took over in signature fashion. He isolated The Hurricane’s leg, setting up a Figure Four Leg Lock from which there was no escape. Fellow Evolution member Batista had no such luck against the new Intercontinental Champion Edge. The animal dropped everything but the kitchen sink on the five-time Intercontinental Champion, but Edge’s resourcefulness saw him through. When Batista went for his high-impact spinebuster, Edge rolled him up and grabbed the top rope for leverage. The illegal advantage went undetected by the referee, and Batista lost in what could be considered poetic justice after Batista’s controversial Vengeance win over Chris Jericho. The Lita-Kane-Matt Hardy saga spilled over into Jericho’s Highlight Reel on Monday night. In the end, Lita told off Kane and Y2J infuriated the monster into an impromptu match. Kane clearly was more interested in taking out his frustration than winning, opting for a DQ-causing low blow — just because he could. Lita wasn’t the only pretty face on Monday Night RAW. Trish Stratus watched as Tyson Tomko beat Maven, and three Diva hopefuls were interviewed by a very pleased Jerry “The King” Lawler. Match Results: Intercontinental Champion Edge defeats Batista (non-title match) Rhyno (with Tajiri) def. Robert Conway (with Sylvain Grenier) Tyson Tomko (with Trish Stratus) def. Maven (with Nidia) Chris Jericho def. Kane (DQ) Ric Flair def. The Hurricane The match between World Heavyweight Champion Chris Benoit and Eugene ends in a no contest |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | Vengeance opened up with a video package showing highlights of Chris Benoit winning the Royal Rumble, and then winning the World Heavyweight Championship at WrestleMania XX building up tonights main event. The fireworks then went off in the arena for the start of Vengeance as Jim Ross and Jerry 'The King' Lawler welcomed us to the show! Location: Hartford, Connecticut Garrison Cade and the Coach vs. Tajiri and Rhyno The music of the Coach hit in the arena as he and Garrison Cade made their way to the ring and earlier tonight on Heat, Eric Bischoff accpeted Coach's challenge to Tajiri for this match, but now we have to wait to find out who Tajiri's partner will be and it was none other than Rhyno! Rhyno and Cade started out and Rhyno locked in a side headlock and then wrenched on the arm of Garrison Cade. Cade reversed but Rhyno gained back control with a side headlock but Cade fought out and whipped Rhyno to the ropes but Rhyno came back with a shoulder block and Cade exploded in the face of the referee and then slapped Rhyno which enraged Rhyno and he went to work with right hands. Tajiri was tagged in but Cade gained the upper hand and whipped Tajiri but Tajiri fought back with kicks and then rolled Cade up for two. Tajiri continued to work over Cade with kicks and then Coach hit Tajiri from, behind but Tajiri knocked him off the apron with a kick, but the distraction allowed Cade to take control of the match. Coach was tagged in and he kicked Tajiri on the mat and then took Tajiri to the corner and gave him a few shoulder thrusts to the back. Coach picked up Tajiri and slammed him to the mat but Tajiri fought back with a kick to the head, but Coach then have Tajiri and elbow drop and made the tag to Cade and they gave Tajiri a double team suplex and Cade made the cover for two. Tajiri made the blind tag as Rhyno was thrown outside. Coach and Tajiri are the legal men, and Tajiri hit a double springboard elbow on Cade and Coach. Tajiri spat the green mist right in the face of Cade and Coach went to check on him and then Rhyno went for the Gore but Coach side stepped and Cade got the Gore. Coach was hit with the Buzzsaw Kick by Tajiri and then Tajiri made the cover to pick up the three count! Winners - Tajiri and Rhyno Backstage, Evolution were shown and Flair was complaining about teaming with Eugene. Triple H walked in and asked what was up? Orton asked what is going on with Eugene? Triple H told them to calm down. Ric Flair said they love and respect Triple H, but Eugene has got a screw missing and he does not want to be out there with him! Triple H said he will let them in on what is going to happen, but then paused and wondered where Eugene was? Randy said it was Batista's turn to watch him, and Triple H was worried about where Eugene was? Benoit was shown in the corridor talking to Eugene and he told Eugene that Triple H was using him, and that he should listen to him. They don't care about Eugene, and Benoit wants to be his friend and then told Eugene to be careful. Triple H was shown listening in on the conversation, and he did not look too happy. Chris Jericho vs. Batista The music of Chris Jericho hit in the arena as he made his way to the ring for this huge match up with Batista, and Batista cost Jericho the Intercontinental Championship last week on RAW, so Jericho is out for big time revenge! Batista and Jericho went to lock up but Jericho ducked. Batista then went to work on Jericho in the corner with right hands and knees and then choked Jericho with his boot. Batista hit Jericho with some shoulder thrusts in the corner and then whipped him to the ropes but Jericho held on and Batista charged him, but Jericho ducked, sending Batista outside. Jericho went for a baseball slide but Batista side stepped and sent Jericho into the barricade. Batista rolled Jericho back inside and then dropped a knee across the face of Jericho. Batista hit a neck breaker on Jericho and covered him for two. Batista then wrenched on the head and neck of Chris Jericho in the middle of the ring with a modified half nelson. Jericho escaped but Batista again locked in a full nelson on Jericho on the canvas as the fans got behind Y2J. Jericho broke free sending Batista to the outside of the ring. Batista got back inside and Jericho hit a dropkick to the knee and then kicked away on his quadricep. Batista regained control and perched Jericho on the top rope and then went for a suplex, but Jericho knocked him down and then came off with a back elbow for two. Jericho charged at Batista with some flying forearms, but Batista would not go down. Jericho charged at him again and Batista hit a sidewalk slam for two. Batista hit a hard shot the lower back of Jericho and then worked him over in the ropes and then choked him on the bottom rope and then with his knee as the fans chanted 'Y2J'. Batista then hit a back breaker for a near fall. Batista draped Jericho's back across his knee and pushed down on Jericho, working on the lower back of Y2J, but Jericho escaped. Batista kept in control with a clubbing blow to the back and then picked Jericho up, but Jericho floated over and hit some chops and then kicked Batista square in the face and then charged at him with a forearm ro knock Batista down. Jericho chop blocked the knee of Batista and went for the Walls of Jericho, but Batista powered out of it. Jericho sent Batista into the ropes and then charged at him, but Batista hit a huge spinebuster for two! Batista looked to go for a powerbomb but Jericho cradled Batista for two. Batista snapped and hit some right hands on Jericho on the mat and then whipped Jericho to the corner and charged at him but was met by a boot and Jericho hit a bulldog from the middle rope. Jericho went for the Lionsault, but Batista got his knee's up. Batista went for a clothesline but Jericho hit the running enziguri for a close fall! Jericho kicked Batista in the head but Batista got to his feet and hit some right hands and hit a big time spinebuster and then went for the sit out powerbomb and scored with it! Batista went for the cover but Jericho had his foot on the rope but the referee did not see it! Winner - Batista They showed the replay and Jericho did indeed have his leg on the bottom rope, but Batista moved it off! Backstage: Evolution were shown and Eugene walked in and he was upset. Triple H asked him what was the matter and Eugene said that he just talked to Chris Benoit. Triple H said that Benoit is a liar and he makes him sick. Triple H said Benoit does not want to be Eugene's friend. This is the same Benoit that hit him with a chair and the same Benoit that punched you last week, so Benoit is a liar, and Triple H is going to put and end to Chris Benoit tonight. Triple H said Evolution are his friend, not Chris Benoit. Triple H said let's think about something happy, and Triple H said he has a huge suprise for Euegene. Triple H sent Ric Flair to get Eugene's surprise and it was a Nature Boy robe! Eugene loved it and put it on and he was clearly very happy with it! Eugene hugged Triple H and Ric Flair and then strutted around the locker room. World Tag Team Championship Match Eugene and Ric Flair vs. La Resistance (c) The music of La Resistance hit in the arena as Robert Conway and Sylvan Grenier made their way down the aisle as the World Tag Team Champions. Sylvan got on the mic and sang the Canadian National Anthem as the crowd heavily boo'ed. The music of Ric Flair then hit as he made his way to the ring with Eugene close behind in his robe. Eugene and Conway started it out with a lock up and Eugene mimicked Flair. They finally locked up and Eugene backed Conway to the corner and woo'ed and the strutted around. They locked up again and Eugene locked in a side headlock and then they both exchanged hammerlocks. Eugene took Conway down with a drop toe hold and then knocked Conway down with a shoulder block and then a hip toss. Grenier was tagged in as the fans chanted for Eugene. Eugene worked over the leg for Grenier and hit a running knee drop and then a chop to Grenier. Grenier fought back and whipped Eugene to the corner and scored with a back body drop. Eugene hit a thumb to the eye ala Ric Flair but Grenier then made the tag to Conway and he went to work on Eugene in the corner with some chops of his own. Conway worked over Eugene with right hands in the corner and Eugene went for a tag but then collapsed in the ring like Flair usually does. Eugene then got back up and went for the figure four but Conway kicked him off into Flair and Flair made the tag. Flair got in and trotted around the ring woo'ing and strutting. They locked up and Flair backed Conway to the corner and hit a knife edge chop and then took out Grenier who came into the ring with a back body drop. Flair went to work on both members of La Resistance and hit some rights and lefts to Conway in the conrer. Flair then hit a running knee to Grenier and both members of La Resistance are still in the ring. Flair then woo'ed at Eugene and he loved it. Flair hit a vertical suplex on Conway and went for the figure four and locked it in but Grenier came in to break it up with an elbow to the face of the Nature Boy. Grenier tagged in and stomped on Flair and then clubbed him across the chest with Flair draped across the apron. Grenier hit some rights in the corner and knocked Flair down for a two count. Grenier made the tag to Conway and the two double teamed Flair but Flair tried to fight back with chops to Conway but Conway dropped him with a right for two and then went to work on Flair with rights on the mat. Conway taunted Flair and Flair came back with chops and then whipped Conway to the ropes but Conway knocked him down with a clothesline for two. Conway took Flair to his corner and tagged in Grenier but Flait battled back with chops but Grenier stayed on Flair with rights and then back dropped Flair out of the corner for two. Grenier locked in a reverse chin lock on Flair as Eugene jumped up and down on the apron looking for a tag. Flair fought to his feet but Grenier knocked him down with a shoulder block and tagged in Conway who choked Flair on the mat and the locked in a front face lock. Flair made his way to the corner and almost made it but Grenier came around and pulled Eugene off the apron and sent him into the ring steps. Eugene looked angred at what Grenier did as Flair was double teamed in the ring and La Reistsnace hit their finisher. Eugene came inside and went to work on both members of La Resistance and then wrapped the legs of Grenier around the ring psot. Eugene hit rights and lefts on Conway in the ring and the referee tried to break it up but Eugene shoved him down and then hit a stunner on Conway and a Bock Bottom on Grenier and then hit the People's Elbow and went to check on Flair. Winners by disqualification and still World Tag Team Champions, La Resistance No Disqualification Match Matt Hardy vs. Kane A video was played highlighting the Lita, Matt Hardy and Kane saga and tonight Kane and Hardy will go one on one under No Disqualification rules. The music of Kane then hit in the arena as he made his way to the ring and he looks focused on destroying Matt Hardy here tonight. Matt Hardy stormed to the ring and attacked Kane on the outside with rights and lefts. Kane knocked Matt down and charged at him but Matt sent him into the ring post and then into the announce table. Matt whacked Kane with a monitor to the head and got on the announce table and went for the Twist of Fate, but Kane shoved him off. Kane sent Matt Hardy over the barrier and then slammed him onto the guard rail. Kane sent Hardy back over the barricade and hit Matt with some rights and then sent him inside the ring. Kane choked Matt in the corner as the fans chanted 'You Tapped Out!' at Kane. Kane slammed Hardy throat first into the apron and then hit him with an uppercut. Kane continued to work over Matt Hardy with a short arm clothesline and then hit a sidewalk slam in the ring for a two count. Kane wrenched on the head and neck of Matt Hardy but Hardy began to fight back with right hands to Kane. Kane remained in control and sent Matt head first tothe buckle and then kicked him in the gut and hit him with a big right hand and then an elbow to the side of the head. Kane choked Hardy on the mat with his boot as the fans chanted for tables. Kane and Matt went to the outside and Kane shoved Matt right into the entrance ramp and then sent Matt back inside and climbed the ropes and came outt with a clothesline to Matt Hardy. Kane got in the face of Hardy and told him to fight, as Hardy tried to get to his feet and then began to fight back but Kane threw him to the outside. Matt got a steel cahir and hit Kane in the mid section and then charged at him but was met with a big boot to the face. Kane picked up the steel chair and got back inside the ring but Hardy hung Kane on the top rope and then scored some right hands and Kane's foot got tied in the bottom rope and Matt Hardy went to work on him with free shots and Kane had to cover up. Kane freed himself but Matt hit him with the ring bell and sent him inside and climbed the ropes and hit a huge legdrop off the rope and went for the Twist of Fate, but Kane powered out. Kane looked angred and picked up Hardy but Hardy reversed and scored with the Twist of Fate and made the cover for two! Kane then sat up as Matt whacked him with rights but Kane grabbed him by the throat and delivered the chokeslam. Kane went to the outside of the ring and grabbed the ring steps and threw them inside the ring. Lita came running down the aisle and got in the way of Kane and told him to put them down, she pleased with him and he finally put them down and then threatened Lita in the corner. Kane again picked up the steps but Matt whacked them with a steel chair and they went right into the face of Kane! Matt Hardy has defeated Kane! Winner - Matt Hardy Matt Hardy is shown in the backstage and Lita is begging him to talk to her. Matt said that Lita is pregnant, and there is no telling what would have happened if Kane hit her with the stairs, and that baby could be their baby and Lita should stay away from the ring and until he figures things out, she needs to stay away from him. Intercontinental Championship Match Edge vs. Randy Orton (c) We are shown a video highlighting the feud between Edge and Orton and that feud will come to a peak tonight with the Intercontinental Championship on the line. The music of Edge then hit in the arena as he made his way to the ring and he looks to be pumped up for this match! Edge and Orton locked up as the fans strangely chanted for Orton. Orton locked in a side headlock and Edge escaped and locked in one of his own. Orton whipped Edge to the ropes but Edge came back with a shoulder block and the fans booed him! They locked it up for a third time and Orton wrenched on the arm of Edge but Edge reversed it and locked in a side headlock and then hit another shoulder block off the ropes, again to a series of boos. Orton took control of Edge with some shots to the back and stomped him on the mat and locked in yet another side headlock. Edge fought out and the two ran the ropes and Edge again knocked Orton down with a shoulder block and locked in another side headlock on the mat. Orton battled out and whipped Edge and Edge hit three shoulder blocks to knock Orton down and outside the ring. Orton began to walk to the back but Edge came out after him and attacked him from behind and brought him back to ringside and sent him into the ring. Orton then threw Edge over the top rope to the outside and admired what he just did. Orton sent Edge head first into the apron and then suplexed him inside. Orton made the cover for two and then pulled Edge's head against his knee. Orton choked Edge out on the ropes and then stomped the abdomen of Edge on the mat. Orton hit a shot to the chest of Edge who was tied up in the ropes to a mixed reaction from the crowd. Orton snapmared Edge down and then wrenched on the neck and head of Edge. Faint boring chants can be heard as Edge fights back with a flying forarm and then a clothesline to knock Orton down. Edge sent Orton to the ropes, but Orton held on and Edge clotheslined him to the outside. Edge then hit a baseball slide to knock Orton down who had picked up the Intercontinental title, and it went right into his face. Edge then hit a clothesline from the apron to knock Orton down again and then threw Edge back inside. Edge ascended the buckle and scored with a missle dropkick to boo's from the crowd for a two count. Edge called for the Spear but Orton gut his knee up and then hit a modified backbreaker on Edge for a close fall. Edge rolled to the outside and Orton followed him out. Orton hit an elbow to the throat of Edge on the apron and then scored with an uppercut and an elbow to the back of the head. Back inside, and Orton choked Edge against the ropes and then dragged him to the middle of the ring and continued to choke Edge out. Orton worked on the head of Edge as the fans chanted for Orton, but Orton tried to make them turn on him by mouthing off. Orton hit a legdrop for two and now an Orton Sucks chant started. Orton was met by an elbow from Edge in the corner and Edge charged at Orton, but Orton hit a knee to the abdomen and choked Edge with his knee. Orton again worked over the neck of Edge on the ropes and then hit a beautiful standing dropkick for two. Orton locked in a rear chin lock on the mat, again focussing on the neck of Edge. Edge fought back to his feet but Orton pulled him down by the hair and hit a legdrop for two and then locked in a rear chin lock again, these guys are out there acting as if they have wreslted for an hour with all these restholds. The fans tried to get behind Edge but Orton kept him grounded. A boring chant started as Orton grapevined the leg of Edge while still in the rear chin lock. Edge finally fought out and hit a cross body on Orton for two. Edge rolled up Orton for another two but Orton got right back up and knocked Edge down with a big clothesline. Orton got on the middle rope and jumped off, but Edge hit a dropkick to his mid section in mid air. Edge scored with a neckbreaker on Orton to a mixed reaction and both men are down on the mat. Orton and Edge exchanged some right hands and Edge got the advantage and hit a side Russian leg sweep for two. Orton went for a dropkick but Edge swatted it away and then cataputled Orton into the buckle and then hit a Edge-o-matic for two. Edge went up top but Orton cut him off with right hands and went for a superplex, but Edge awkwardly knocked him onto the ropes and came off with a cross body but Orton rolled through for two. Orton hit Edge with a thumb to the eye and the removed a turnbuckle pad and the referee went to retrieve it, and Edge had Orton rolled up but only got two. Orton then rolled Edge up for two and then hit a dropkick for another two count. Orton removed his elbow pad but Orton hit the Edgecution for two! Edge stumbled around the ring and went for some punches in the corner but Orton hot shotted Edge and rolled him up with his feet on the ropes for a two count! Orton went for the RKO but Edge shoved him off and went for the Spear but Orton leapfrogged it and Edge went face first into the buckle. Orton went for the RKO but Edge countered into a backslide for two! Edge sent Orton into the exposed buckle and hit the Spear and we have a NEW Intercontinental Champion in Edge! Winner, and NEW Intercontinental Champion, Edge Number One Contendership Match Molly Holly vs. Victoria The music of Molly Holly hit in the arena and she is set to go one on one with Victoria and the winner will be the Number One COntender to the Women's Championship! Molly Holly and Victoria locked up and Molly wrenched on the arm of Victoria. Victoria escaped but was met with some forearms from Molly, but then gave Molly a monkey flip and then went for the giggle moonsault but Molly rolled her up for two. Molly then locked in a side headlock on Victoria but Victoria scored with a hip toss and then an arm drag takedown and scored with a moonsault for two. Molly rolled to the outside but Victoria hit a plancha onto her but Molly fought back by throwing Victoria into the ring steps, shoulder first, and Victoria looks to be hurt. Back inside, and Molly worked over the shoulder of Victoria on the ropes and then stomped it on the mat. Molly hit a handspring elbow onto Victoria in the corner for a near fall and then continued to work over the shoulder of Victoria with an arm bar. Molly continued with the Fujiwara arm bar on the mat, working over the shoulder of Victoria. Victoria fought out, but Molly hung Victoria over the ropes with her shoulder and then kicked her to the outside of the ring. Back inside, and Molly went for an elbow, but Victoria moved and then rolled up Molly for two, and then hit a backslide for two. Victoria went to work on Molly, but Molly went downstairs and charged at Victoria, but Victoria hit a powerslam for two. Victoria went for the Widow's Peak but her shoulder gave out so she hit Molly with a big time superkick to pick up the win and become Number One Contender to the Women's Championship! Winner - Victoria World Heavyweight Championship Match Triple H vs. Chris Benoit (c) We are treated to a nice highlight video showing us what has gone down leading into the match for the World Championship. The music of Triple H then hit in the arena as The Game made his way down the aisle for his shot at the title. Chris Benoit then made his way down to a big pop as the World Heavyweight Champion, and it's go time. Benoit got into the face of Triple H with the title as the referee got between the two men. Benoit and Triple H stared each other down as the fans chanted 'You Tapped Out!' at The Game. The two locked up and Triple H backed Benoit into the corner and the referee got between them to get the clean break. The two locked up again and Benoit wrenched on the arm of Triple H and then locked in a side headlock and the two echanged some chain wrestling which resulted in Benoit taking Triple H down to the mat. HHH gave Benoit another suplex but Benoit fought back with chops but Triple H whipped him to the ropes and knocked him down with a reverse elbow for two. Triple H delivered a backbreaker to Benoit and then sent Benoit to the outside with a drop toe hold. HHH followed him out and rammed the back of Benoit into the edge of the ring and sent him back inside. Benoit battled back with chops but Triple H whipped Benoit to the corner and charged but was met with feet to the face and then was given a series of chops and then a snap suplex. Benoit charged at Triple H in the corner but was met with a reverse elbow. Benoit regained control with a German Suplex and then took HHH down by the legs and capapulted him to the corner and then clotheslined him to the outside of the ring. Benoit went outside and was given a thumb to the eye but Benoit then whipped HHH into the steel steps. Benoit threw HHH back inside and then went to the top rope and went for the diving headbutt but Triple H rolled out of the way. Both men are down on the mat and we are shown a reply of Benoit's head bouncing off the canvas. Benoit went to work on HHH with chops but Triple H sent him sturnum first into the buckle with high velocity. Triple H sent Benoit sturnum first into the other buckle, and Benoit looks to be in severe pain and the impact on that move was unbelieveable. Triple H kicked Benoit in the sturnum and then dropped his knee onto the sturnum of Chris Benoit and this is why he is called the cerebral assassin. Triple H looked to go for a vertical suplex but then threw him off and sent Benoit falling down onto his sturnum and HHH made the cover for two. Triple H stomped on the chest of Benoit on the mat and then again gave Benoit a reverse suplex, sending Benoit sturnum first into the mat for two. Triple H then shoved his knee into the back of Benoit, separating his chest and wrenching back on the arms of Benoit, and Benoit is bleeding from the mouth from the missed headbutt earlier on. Benoit began to fight back but Triple H sent him to the outside of the ring. Triple H sent Benoit chest first into the security wall and then sent Benoit back inside. Triple H again whipped Benoit sturnum first into the buckle for two. Benoit tried to fight back with chops but Benoit locked in an abdominal strecth, which will punish the torso of Benoit, especially with the injured chest of Benoit. The fans got behind Benoit and he escaped the hold and reversed it into one of his own but HHH quickly hip locked out of the predicament. Triple H locked in a sleeper hold on Benoit as Benoit tried to make it to the ropes, but Triple H pulled him back inside. Benoit escaped and locked in a sleeper of his own and then tried to lock in the Sharpshooter, but Triple H kicked him away and went for the Pedigree, but benoit took him down and locked in the Sharpshooter in the middle of the ring! Triple H writhed in pain but clawed his way to the ropes, but Benoit dragged him back to the middle of the ring until Triple H finally made it to the ropes. Benoit hit the German Suplex on HHH twice and then held on and hit the third. Benoit singalled for the end and went up top but Triple H rolled to the outside of the ring and Benoit jumped through the middle ropes with a suicide dive onto the Game sending both of them into the barricade. The referee got knocked to the outside and then HHH hit a DDT on Benoit and then shouted for Eugene and signalled for him to come out! Eugene made his way down the aisle looking nervous, as Triple H pointed at the referee. Benoit then locked in the Crossface on Triple H as Eugene looked on from outside and Benoit was yelling at him to get the referee and Eugene didn't know what to do! Triple H began tapping out but the referee was still down as Eugene made his way up the steps and went to get in the ring and Benoit nailed him, and he can't take any chances in this match. Eugene looked upset as Benoit looked on, and then Triple H scored with a low blow and then hit the Pedigree on Benoit and told Eugene to get the referee, which he did. Eugene shoved the referee back into the ring and Benoit kicked out at the last possible moment! Triple H told Eugene to get him a chair, and Eugene handed it to the Game. TripleH went to hit Benoit, but Eugene grabbed the chair, and then Triple H pie faced him off the apron. Benoit then kicked the chair right into the face of the Game and picked up the chair and Triple H was begging off. Ric Flair came down and was hit with the chair, as was Batista. Eugene got into the ring and told Benoit not to use the chair. Triple H then kicked Benoit in the lower extremities and picked up the chair, but Benoit gave him the low blow! Eugene got into the ring and picked up the aprin and was going to hit Benoit but he changed his mind and then went to hit Triple H and changed his mind and went back to Benoit and then Triple H again and then Benoit tried to grab the chair for him but Eugene would not let go. Triple H got up and Benoit let go of the chair and Euegen hit Triple H in the head with the chair by mistake! Both men got to their feet and then Benoit rolled up Triple H to retain the World Heavyweight Championship!! Winner, and still World Heavyweight Champion, Chris Benoit Benoit made his way to the back with the title and Eugene looked very upset on the outside at what he did to Triple H. Triple H came to his senses and was holding his head in pain and Benoit stood proud as the World Heavyweight Champion! Triple H then turned his attentions to Eugene and gave him an evil glare and Eugene was saying sorry, and he was near to tears. Triple H shouted abuse at Eugene as Vengeance went off the air! |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | More in a few hours. |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | COLD NIGHT IN CANADA July 8, 2004 Winnipeg, Manitoba, was a tough place to be a title holder on Thursday night. WWE Champion JBL was deceived, United States Champion John Cena was stripped and the 18-time tag champs fell to a couple of crisp, counterattacking cruiserweights. After months of trying to wrestle the United States Championship away from Cena through a steady diet of difficult matches, General Manager Kurt Angle finally succeeded — by taking an out-of-the-ring shortcut. Angle vacated the belt after Cena defied previous warnings and put his hands on the SmackDown! GM. But it might be worthy to note that at the time, Cena was battling his scheduled opponent, Booker T, as well as enforcer Luther Reigns, a cane-wielding Angle and fiery Kenzo Suzuki. A Reigns sneak-attack and powerslam left Cena writhing in the ring; Angle’s proclamation added insult to injury. After nearly losing the WWE Tag Team titles on Velocity, The Dudleys were wary of the courageous tandem of Paul London and Billy Kidman. They isolated London in classic Dudley fashion, using their superior size to grind down the challenger. But both London and Kidman proved far more resilient than expected, eventually turning the tables on D-Von and Bubba Ray. With a WAZZUP! headbutt of their own, the challengers began building momentum. When a London crescent kick set up Kidman’s patented Shooting Star Press, we suddenly had an upset special. The new WWE Tag Team Champions were met with a hero’s welcome backstage, and surprisingly, they even received a congratulatory handshake from the beaten Dudleys. WWE Champion JBL hand-picked another opponent Thursday, seemingly ensuring a smooth path to next week’s Steel Cage Match with Eddie Guerrero. Promising a “champion vs. champion” competition, JBL brought out a Mexican title holder, El Gran Luchadore. Just as planned, JBL dominated with power moves. But when he tossed El Gran Luchadore to the outside, things quickly got interesting. The masked Mexican Superstar switched with an near-identical wrestler under the ring — one who could hold his own with the WWE Champion. Suddenly, JBL had his hands full with his opponent. And before he could fully sort out the circumstances, El Gran began to strut just like Latino Heat! After finding himself on the wrong end of the “Three Amigos” suplexes, JBL knew something was amiss and made for the entrance ramp. The familiar-sounding second Luchadore reminded JBL that next week, there will be no running from the Steel Cage. Match Results: Rob Van Dam defeats Mark Jindrak Paul London and Billy Kidman def. The Dudleys (new WWE Tag Team Champions) JBL and El Gran Luchadore wrestle to a no contest Chavo Guerrero/Akio/Jamie Noble def. Spike Dudley/Scotty 2 Hotty/Rey Mysterio (Six-man tag match) John Cena def. Booker T (DQ; United States Championship vacated ) |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | Just saw Bad Blood, and I have to say, that was the best pay-per-view I've ever seen. Here's a review I prepared while viewing the matches: Bad Blood June 13th 2004 Nationwide Arena, Columbus, OH Bad Blood was spilt all over when two rivals busted each other in a Hell In A Cell and a champion himself had to become a monster to surpass the monster. The 1st match was for the World Tag Team Championship Champions La Résistance vs. Chris Benoit and Edge This was a rematch granted by Eric Bischoff on the last episode of RAW, but you would see (even the announcers mentioned it) Edge fighting and being more involved in the match more than Benoit. Whether that was to rest himself before facing Kane later that evening remains to be seen. La Rez proved that they could defend their new World Tag Team titles against the team they defeated to win them, but the challengers almost turned the tables as Benoit locked the Crippler Crossface on Sylvain Grenier and Edge speared Rob Conway to throw him out of the ring. Unbelievably, La Résistance kept their titles, but by disqualification, when Kane crashed the scene and attacked and chokeslammed Benoit and Edge. Singles Match Chris Jericho vs. Tyson Tomko w/ Trish Stratus This was a typical 'David vs. Goliath' situation. Speed against power. Tomko is a physically dominating athlete, and this match showed how powerful he was as he threw Y2J from one side of the ring to the other. The tables turned when Tomko accidentally knocked Trish off the ring apron and Jericho, seeing the opportunity, did a sort of dropkick / drop toe hold mix to get the 1-2-3. Intercontinental Championship Champion Randy Orton vs. Shelton Benjamin Shelton completely dominated the match and blew Orton away. Everything that Randy could do, Shelton could do it better. The only reason he won was because of Ric Flair's dirty tactics and a handful of tights. Next time he won't be so lucky. Women's Championship Champion Victoria vs. Gail Kim vs. Lita vs. Trish Stratus This one was a very quick match, when Lita DDT'd Gail Kim the Champion seemed to be decided, if Trish didn't roll Lita all of a sudden to get the 3 count and to become the only 5-time Women's Champion. Singles Match Eugene vs. Jonathan Coachman Eugene outsmarted and outwrestled the Coach, applying a Rock Bottom and a People's Elbow just before the pinfall, Stunning Garrison Cade after the match, and after that Stunning the Coach. I tell you, this kid has future. World Heavyweight Championship Champion Chris Benoit vs. Kane As the Bad Blood introduction said, 'To slay the monster, the champion must himself become a monster; to become the champion, the monster must evolve into pure evil.' Kane just dominated physically in this match, as Benoit could hardly stand up. Miraculously, the Rabid Wolverine threw a wrench in the gears of the Big Red Machine. While trying to apply the Crossface to Kane, he powered out by standing up, but Benoit immediately went for the other arm, and while Kane's knees fell, he turned around and pinned him with a half Nelson - cradle mix. And as he said while being interviewed by Todd Grisham after the match, he sure is for real! Hell In A Cell Shawn Michaels vs. Triple H After years of clashes and rivalry, it escalated to this. When I saw this match, I thought anyone could win. But then again, the announcers did a good job by saying that Hell In A Cell produces not winners nor losers, but survivors. These two went at it for 47 minutes and 26 minutes, with chairs, tables, ladders, and the cell itself. The most famous rivalry in the history of the WWE ended with two straight Pedigrees. HBK and Triple H gave it their all and then some, so much that Evolution had to carry The Game out of the ring. Shawn got up a few minutes later, receiving a wild ovation. Good work Shawn. And that's my review. Hope you enjoyed it. |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | Just got the 2004 pay-per-view on DVD. I'll watch it today and, as a follow-up, comment on both the DVD and the airing on RAW's June 14 episode tomorrow. |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | I know, I know, Vengeance is only in 4 days, but as of now I would like to post my match predictions: Chris Benoit vs. Triple H World Heavyweight Championship I'm gonna predict Benoit the winner. I don't think a Pedigree would finish him, and he has made Triple H tap out to the Crossface in two house shows prior to Bad Blood. Randy Orton vs. Edge Intercontinental Championship Here we go... Since nobody has announced Evolution was banned from ringside, I am perfectly seeing Ric Flair at ringside using his dirty tactics to steal victory from Edge. So Randy it is. Chris Jericho vs. Batista Singles Match Ah, the typical 'David vs. Goliath'. I'm gonna choose Chris Jericho, and I predict Batista is gonna tap out to the Walls Of Jericho. Ric Flair and Eugene vs. La Résistance World Tag Team Championship Eugene is a promising wrestler and Ric Flair a much more experienced wrestler than La Rez. I predict Eugene and the Nature Boy will come out on top. Matt Hardy vs. Kane No Disqualification Match Unfortunately, I predict Matt is gonna be man-handled by the Big Red Machine. As much as I like Matt Hardy, I predict Kane is pulling an easy victory. These are the announced matches for Vengeance as of today. There may be more, just like it happened at the Great American Bash from SmackDown!. Is that's the case, I'll edit this post in order to contain the new matches, if there are any. |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | Eugene allied himself with Triple H and Ric Flair to take on Chris Benoit and Edge in a Handicap Match. From RAW.WWE.com: SPECIAL NIGHT July 5, 2004 Eugene may have been RAW General Manager for a day, but it was Evolution who ruled Monday night in Winnipeg, Manitoba. In a Handicap Match ordered by Eric Bischoff’s nephew but orchestrated by Triple H, Evolution (including honorary member Eugene) took down the team of Edge and Chris Benoit. The bout was part of The Game’s master plan to wrestle the World Heavyweight Championship away from The Rabid Wolverine at Vengeance — and it seemed to be working. Evolution walked away victorious Monday, leaving Benoit unconscious and beaten in the ring. The Cerebral Assassin’s mental manipulation of Eugene also paid dividends, as a conflicted Eugene broke up a Sharpshooter and set up a match-ending Pedigree with a chair shot to The Crippler’s back. Monday Night RAW opened in surreal fashion as a potpourri of Superstars got a taste of what Eugene was cooking up for his special night. Eugene’s first order of business was determining Randy Orton’s challenger for an Intercontinental Championship match later in the evening — usually a routine matter. Instead, Eugene whittled down the hopefuls to one through a game of musical chairs. The final two were big man Tyson Tomko and Winnipeg’s own Chris Jericho. To the delight of the crowd, Y2J “earned” the coveted match, sitting proudly in the sole remaining seat. In the Intercontinental Championship battle that followed, Jericho gave Orton all he could handle. Y2J tagged the Legend Killer with a running enzuguri. Later he reversed an RKO attempt and locked Orton in the Walls of Jericho. But the looming presence of Evolution member Batista proved too distracting for Jericho, who released the submission hold to eliminate the outside threat. It was exactly the result Batista was hoping for, and he smiled coyly as Orton propped his feet on the second rope and rolled Y2J up for the three-count. Thanks to Eugene, the animal Batista got a chance to show the world what he’s made of in a match against the Big Red Monster Kane. But an enraged Matt Hardy seemed to snap, erasing the match and slamming Kane’s head against the steel ring steps repeatedly. As a result, Matt Hardy will face Kane at Vengeance in a “No Disqualification” Match. Eugene made plenty more news Monday. He took full advantage of his authority by making a Vengeance pay-per-view match — and putting himself in it! The team of “Nature Boy” Ric Flair and Eugene will face World Tag Team Champions La Resistance on Sunday. This latest chapter in the life of Ric Flair must be utterly mystifying. The 16-time World Heavyweight Champion began the night playing musical chairs, then he was ordered to team with the uniquely talented Eugene in a pivotal match. All the while, Flair is preparing for the imminent release of his eagerly anticipated and extremely honest autobiography, “To Be the Man”. Flair’s frank discussion of his career — and those with whom he’s crossed paths — is already creating a great deal of controversy. Flair also discusses his tragic youth, shedding light on some of the events that have molded the man. It’s required reading for all those who have followed his storied career and a page-turner for the members of every generation of wrestling fan. Match Results: Chris Jericho wins a Musical Chairs contest against Tajiri, Jonathan Coachman, Jerry “The King” Lawler, Stacy Keibler, Ric Flair and Tyson Tomko World Tag Team Champions La Resistance defeat Rhyno and Val Venis The match between Kane and Batista ends in a no contest when Matt Hardy interferes Intercontinental Champion Randy Orton def. Chris Jericho Nidia def. Victoria and Molly Holly in a “Contract on a Pole” Match Women’s Champion Trish Stratus (with Tyson Tomko) def. Nidia Eugene, Ric Flair and Triple H def. Chris Benoit and Edge (Handicap Match) |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | Done a little more updating |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | Done my profile and 'polished' the blog a little more |
3,865,378 | male | 15 | Student | Sagittarius | 07,July,2004 | Testing... 1 2 3! |
3,065,493 | male | 13 | Student | Leo | 28,March,2004 | Hello! Welcome to my blog. I am in 7th grade now. I go to school at NJIS. I hate math and I also hate English. This is my first blog. I can play the piano. I am good at playing Magic;the gathering cards. So far, I have collected over 100 rare cards, 200 uncommon cards, and 50 common cards. I like to modify my deck. I usually played the pc version of the game. I also like WWF cards. I am now still a beginner and I am stil learning the basic of the game. My starter deck now is Eddie Guerero . This weekend, I am planning to buy the deck titled ' Brothers of Destruction '. I heard that it is a good deck. I also play with my PS2. I like the new games this year. My favourite games are : NFL streets, I Ninja, Onimusha 3, Metal Gear Solid 2 substance, and Dragon Ball Budokai 2. |
3,065,493 | male | 13 | Student | Leo | 25,April,2004 | 1. Do you feel this would be something you would like to use? Yes, because with this technology, I could buy anything easily and I would not have to look for things. They will advertised the things you want for you. 2. Do you think society is ready for technology like this? I think that the society is not ready for this because most people will not take it seriously and they don't know much about this technology. 3. What would be the benefits of this technology? People could shop easily. They would not have to spend hours to look forn the things they want to buy. The chip could detect the things easily. 4. What could become problems with this technology? Terrorist could kill a person with an important chip implanted in his body and used his chip inside his body to gain access to secret files. 5. What other thoughts or opinions do you have regarding this technology. I think that this technology will be fine for some people. But others will want to stay the same by not accepting this technology. 1. How does the increasing use of cameras affect privacy? It could affect us because people will be watching us when we are eating, sleeping, talking, and walking on the streets. 2. Where do you think it is fair to have cameras installed? Not fair? It is fair to have cameras installed on the streets, buildings, parking areas, stores, malls, and crowded places. I think it is not fair to install cameras in toilets, houses, and schools. 3. What is your opinion on this subject? I think that this subject tells a lot about the technology around us. It also tells us how it could affect our lives. 4. If you feel that this is an invasion of privacy, how do you feel governments should help increase protection from the inclining terrorist threats? I thing that the governments should put more cameras on airports and streets. The more cameras the government install, the saver it will be. But we will get less privacy. |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 23,July,2004 | well well well, it seems Mattoose must revise his list of trustworthiness....just a little tit-bit to leave you gagging for more my followers. On a random note demon-matt got upgraded today to the level of Lucifer, not far now until he becomes a fully fledged Devil. Well doneth him. Yesteryear saw matt retire to a pleassant little eatery delightfully decorated with the title Donnateloes, In Brighton, whereupon i did sup upon a Pizza large enough to satisfy even the most hairy chested of us...you all know who i mean! whilst in said delicious restaurant we did recive humble entertainment from that escaped lunatic otherweise known in dramatic circles as Christopher Davey. Nuff Said. Anywho i musteth away, for mym suitcase is beckoning me to fill it with joyous tat. Fair thee well my impish servants of the goated one. Matteth. |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 19,July,2004 | Well my mashed potatoes, I have just returned from trundling in an Automobile named Bob, and its dominatirx owner who masquerades under the sudonym of Lesley-Anne. As earlier mentioned we did but trundle in the said automobile and it was good. I did hit the landmark of 50mph, which cetianly tested my gyle and the breaking mechanism. anywho after this joyous interlude contained to burtsting with frivolity we henceforth prcoeded to the beach hwereupon we thru stones at each other, and all the usual trappings of a beach outing. Well that twill be all you are going to get today my little ones, i shall sporead more joy tommorw. Kejay-tos. |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 18,July,2004 | Ahhh such a day...I get honured by having a tamagotchi named after oneself! In the words of the divine creator himself...Lee...'i shall call him Matt the second'...'So shalt it be written, so shalt it be done' Well isnt that just fab? Not much else happened today. I have thought a bit more about my art topic...Surrealism...and i will be monitering my dreams for the next few weeks! Anyway Mush im off now to recuperate after what has been an interesting day....Signing off at 16.47 Scout Time. Tata mien Berhindet! |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 18,July,2004 | Well today was an adventurous day in the wacky world of Matt. To begineth I started work, what a load of fun that was...anywho made £620 not too bad. So my children, when will you statrt pouring in and purchesing your peripherals????? Then one did arrive home, whereupon I ate a chinese. She was very nice, if not a bit stringy.......Aftet this brief enocunter with another culture I enbarked on a worldwind advetnure with my good pal Bruce, or Lesley as she likes to be known in certain circles... We went to drive, foiund some hidden treasure, got hissed at by an old women with a bag, then solved world peace and the aids pandemic...after that we went to mcdonals and got hot apples pies, which we tried to give one to Lee only he didnt asnwer his door...rudeth scallywag. Upon hearing this sad news I began to eat the afformentioned hot apple pie and it was good. I then came home. I fully suppoort the work of the Fontwell for Capital commitee and feel that a change of scenery from London to Fontwell could be very well what this country needs... Altho such drastic moves are not leagally binding in 48 states. Anywho my brethren i shall leave thee be for i must move on and proceed to sleep.... tatty bye spudlings |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 18,August,2004 | Hey Hey, well it appears that I havent been here for a while, and consequently have neglected my duties to the Fontwell for Captial campaign and the Legend known as Lauren. Shame. I shall rectify this insubordination ASAP. Hmmmm so what have I actually been up to??? A load of bugger all if you ask me, oh yes we went to Laurens yesteryear for a video evening which turned into just chatting and we neglcted the video, which I suppose was for the better, after which we left in the Early Hours and rolled home thus. But my chums I must away for I am being dragged to the Dungeon to start my training for Eclipse...ooooohhhhh...TatyBye |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 12,August,2004 | Well as you can probably tell I am vexed. This was due to a certain little sack of wank we shall hence forth call Tossing Twat Fcuk. In case you dont know who i'm going on about then...wait for it...*cough* joe *cough*...there we go...Well he hath ruined my life long enough and I have had enough of the afformentioned slag bangle. If he so much as steps one foot into my life he shall rue the day he messed with me. I bet you didnt think I had it in me fellows. Anyway I saw spiderman 2 mit Matt today, twas good. And tommorw I am going to London to look at some galleries which im looking forward. Right I must away now, if any of you hear any gossip about me sprouting from the She-Fag's lips or any of his cronies then be a dear and let me know! Danke. |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 07,August,2004 | Well I have just completed another day of toyle at the Currys Dungeon in Littlehampton. After said hard day of toyle I am feeling a bit more confident in selling my wares. Wahoo. You could just here that smidge of sarcasm couldn't you? Well as Frielfer says where have you all gone??? I longed for a bit of a chat with you all after my holiday but that wasnt to be, Iv only spoken to a few of you properly. Anywho the dog with two heads and two bodys is knocking on my door and if I dont answer it now he may eat the hob goblin who also needs to speak to me. Fairwell my chummies and I bid thee good night. |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 03,August,2004 | Well kiddies hasn't it been quiet on the old MSN recently? Shame becasue I WANTED TO BORE YO...shit caps lock, dam it dam it dam it...anyway...u with more boring facts about my life. A little puzzle did but irritate me yesteryear. The said puzzle was brought to my attention to Heldric, who is one half of the troublesome duo Layla...or is it lemer...or pehaps Leilo...Lido...Lickspittle...oh i dont know wel shes part of this cliqe, anyway she mentioned there was a comment on one of my blogs, naturally this intrugued me so i trundled online to have a look, only to find it had been removed by a blog administrator! Shock Horror! The comment had been left by none other than Stringy...I quizzed this bouncy haired being but he was alusive. Was it rude? what did it say??? I must know...Whats that? Someone fell down the old mine shaft...Go ahead young man! |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 01,August,2004 | Ahh I feel I must write some useless crap that no-one really gives a toss about. Here goes. Leyles and myself have decided we are going to get stringer more involved ion the goings on in Littlehamptoin so we are going to invite him out more and more! huzzaa. Anyway it has reached my attention after browsing through lauren, stirngers and helens blogs, how sad, that there is a brawl in action. Naturally i wish to get myself involved and spread infamy and bewitchment to all unfortunate enough to read my ramblings. Thus having decreed my services i feel it fair to join stringers side since helen join the ranks of Lauren. stringer i pledge my alleigience to you until such time as i feel it necesary to exchange it for a plastic goblet. That my friends ends my poinless ramblinhgs for another day. i bid u fairwell for i wish to have a bath, whereupon on my exit i shall smell bewitchingly of addidas shower gel. Hurrah. Nachos. |
3,956,774 | male | 17 | Student | Capricorn | 01,August,2004 | Hello flip flops of my mind, indeed as you may have gathered from my title, I am back, back from my holiday on the canals, and back from steering a ruddy great 70 foot long boat through incredibly narroweth locks. They were of no match for my cuning and guile. besides had a nice chat with bex-butch on the roof of the boat on a very sunny afternoon eve. So have you missed me? Actually dont answer that cos i know the utterings you may perchance to display will not be to my desiring. lol. Well even if you didnt misseth me i certainly missethed you, and bugger of all buggers i ran out of credit so couldnt text my kiddies. Shame. Right must dash theres a bowlful of washing up that is spelling out my name in soapy letters. Ciao mien. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 28,May,2004 | Well not exactly 2 years, 51 weeks I know. I didn't want to do the math. Anyway. Yep, I'm alive. I have almost survived my first week of law school. It seems like a blur already. I feel like I've been here for at least a month. Things that just happened yesterday seem like they were days ago. Here's what my week has been like: Monday, 8:00 a.m. Begin reading for first day of class. Start with Torts. Do not finish Torts until 6:00 p.m. Eat dinner. Start with Criminal Law. 55 pages of Criminal Law. Go to bed at 2:00 a.m. Do not sleep well. Tuesday, 6:45 a.m. Wake up, which isn't hard since I wasn't really asleep. Feel sick. Try to finish reading Crim. Force self to eat breakfast. Feel sick again. Get dressed. Leave house early. Drive to campus, walk to class. Wait for friend. Feel really sick. Panic about being called on. Almost head to the bathroom to get sick. Decide to get bottle of water instead. Sit down in first ever law school class. See little prof run around class talking about how important this first day is. We are beginning our legal career. How important our first class is! He doesn't feel up to the pressure. Cool guy. Break for lunch. Head back for Crim. Feel sick again. Crim teacher is rumored to be awesome though, so not as sick as earlier. Crim teacher is awesome. Feel lucky. Make mental note to visit her office. Survived first day. Feel pretty damn good. Think, 'hey, I can do this.' Go home. Begin reading for class next day (3 hours of Torts). Eat gourmet dinner of PB&J and Kraft macaroni. Go to bed at 2:45. Sucks again. Wednesday, 7:00 a.m. Wake up, finish reading. Worry about being called on. Do not get called on. Relief, although realizing it would have been better in the beginning when no one knows what's going on. Although some people think they do. They really think they do. Be annoyed at this. Very annoyed. Worry that everyone is smarter, more organized, how on earth will I stay in top 1/3???? Call friend who just graduated. Get reassurance. Gossip. Feel better. Try to start Crim reading. Can't concentrate. Try out library. Can't concentrate. Spend 3 hours on two cases. Go home to watch American Idol. And the Bachelor. Feel guilty. Read again, until 2:00. Try to sleep. Thursday, 7:30 a.m. Wake up, finish reading. Meet upperclassman to discuss Crim. Get some real help. Get his old outline. Awesome. Feel good. Go to pointless Academic Skills class. Get annoyed. Regret signing up. Hope it gets more relevant. Read more for Crim. Do not get called on. Return phone calls during drive home. Inform friends that car time now equals phone time because I can't be studying. Decide to take power nap. Phone rings 10 min later. Return to library at 5. Do Torts reading until 9:45. Answer questions for friend. Feel smart again. Feel like it is getting easier. Worry that I am missing something. Go home, do some Crim reading. Think about weekend. Thank goodness. Friday, 7:00 a.m. Wake up, turn alarm off (it was set for 8:45). Decide to clean kitchen. Sit outside with dogs. Finally post to blog. Feel guilty. Must return to reading. I am too tired to think of anything funny. After class today I'm taking a break. No more law school tonight. I'll resume that tomorrow morning. There is a big SBA party tonight. Should be interesting. Hopefully I'll write more interesting stuff this weekend. Just wanted to assure you I'm still alive. And I don't feel like proof reading this, so if there are error please let me know. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 24,May,2004 | I've had this blog for only a week now and I'm already slacking with my posts. This weekend was nuts though, so I think I have an excuse. It began on Thursday night, in Fort Myers for a wedding rehearsal. Thursday night I came back up to St. Pete for orientation the next day. I was at Orientation from 8-5:30, and then again Saturday morning from 9-12:30. I then rushed back to Fort Myers to the church to get my hair done for the wedding at 4. Sunday I came back to St. Pete. Wow. I'm still tired. So here are my thoughts on orientation: 'Holy &*&^, how am I going to survive this'?! It was very intimidating to me. I have something like 80 or so pages to read before the first day of class (tomorrow). Our syllabus for Criminal Law says 'The reading assignments in this class are relatively short: You should plan to cover approximately 40-50 pages of readings for each of our class meetings.' Since when is 40-50 pages considered short?? I guess I'm really in for a shock. Especially at the rate of 10 pages per hour, which is an estimate I read in some law school prep book. Also, the whole idea of being called on in class terrifies me. They did a sort of mock class session at orientation and I would have have sat there dumbfounded if I'd been asked some of those questions. It definitely wasn't a confidence booster. On a better note, I met some really cool people. We have 76 in our summer class, more women than men. I'm not sure yet who the 'gunners' will be, but I'm sure they will be revealed soon. (In law school, people who always raise their hand and try to impress the professor are usually referred to ask gunners). On a side note, one of the Ambassadors is actually named Gunner. I found that quite funny. One thing that really struck me was how attractive people are. While there are some good looking guys, we have a large number of really pretty girls. I'm not sure why, but that really came as a surprise to me. Also, I must wonder what some people think when they got dressed for this occasion. I don't want to post specifics just in case someone from Stetson actually reads this, but wow. That's all I can say. The wedding went very well, minus one little catastrophe right at the beginning. Our bridesmaid dresses were two pieces, and one of the girls discovered (at about 3:45) that she was missing her top. I suppose it wouldn't have been proper for her to stroll out into the church wearing only the bottom, so it had to be rushed from her home in LaBelle. Since LaBelle is 25 minutes away, you can imagine that may cause a problem for a wedding that was supposed to begin at 4. The poor girl was so upset she wouldn't come out of the bathroom the entire time. She was afraid the bride was going to freak out, which she didn't actually. It worked out great for me because it gave me more time to get ready. After the ceremony started we had two funny incidents: 1) the bride lost her shoe going up the steps to the altar, and 2) the groom dropped her ring. Number two was so funny because he had been worried about it so much that he wouldn't hold both her engagement ring and her wedding ring because he was afraid he wouldn't be able to get both on her finger without dropping them. Oops. We had so much fun at the reception the entire wedding party and many of the guests decided to head to the local bar afterwards. We stayed and partied there, in complete wedding attire until it closed. That basically rendered yesterday useless for me in terms of preparing for my first day of school. Thank goodness it is tomorrow, not today. Speaking of that law school thing, I guess I better get started on my million pages of reading. I'll post a link to some pictures of the wedding later. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 20,May,2004 | Recently I came across a mix CD that somehow got thrown in a box of my desk stuff. The date says I compiled it on 9/18/03. I had completely forgotten I'd missed it, but was so excited to find it! I tossed it into the CD player on my way to the beach yesterday and began to remember the songs. Since most of my other mix CDs have long worn out their welcomes this discovery was especially important. So I sang along (and danced a bit) to its various tracks, still happily surprised I'd found it. On the way home from the beach after scanning through its entirety I realized that while this strangely eclectic mix of songs was normal to me, it may strike others as odd. Here are the tracks: 1. Outkast, I Like the Way You Move 2. Outkast, Hey Ya 3. Unknown, Unknown--but the hook goes something like, 'What you talking bout...Shawty? Now get (?) out ya mouth. You say you want some cash...before I hit that...' You get the point. 4. Bubba Sparxxx, Deliverance 5. DMX, Where the Hood At? 6. Tom Petty, Won't Back Down 7. Tom Petty, Free Fallin' 8. Tom Petty, Last Dance with Mary Jane 9. Bon Jovi, You Give Love a Bad Name 10. Guns N Roses, Welcome to the Jungle 11. The Ataris, Boys of Summer 12. Leonard Skynard, Simple Man 13. Syrai, Ladies 14. JLo, Waiting For Tonight 15. Creedance Clearwater Revival, Proud Mary 16. Tina Turner, Proud Mary 17. Bob Segar, Old Time Rock N Roll 18. Tito Nieves, I Like it Like That You'd think I'd at least put all of the new songs together and the old ones...nah. Instead the natural progression to me was DMX to Tom Petty; JLo to Creedance Clearwater; Bob Segar to a song from Jock Jams. Is this normal? |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 19,May,2004 | So, as I said in one of my posts before I am a first time home owner. I now have a lawn that needs to be mowed. I am on a law student budget, so no, I will not be hiring someone to do it. I must purchase a lawnmower. After three weeks of growth the grass is now so high that my Shih Tzu will not walk on it to use the bathroom. She instead prefers the concrete sidewalk. This is my advice on what not to do if you need to get a lawnmower. 1. Do not buy a lawnmower that comes unassembled, in a big cardboard box. 2. Do not buy a $99 mower and expect it to be easy to assemble. 3. Do not buy a lawnmower that will, after two different attempts to assemble, have your boyfriend throwing a rake across the yard and/or screaming obscenities out of frustration/rage at said mower. 4. Do not buy a lawnmower that requires you to return to the store (Wal-mart) to look at a fully assembled version to discern the correct way to attach the starter pull. 5. Do not buy a lawnmower that requires you to return a second time to the store digital camera in tow, with which you must take pictures of fully assembled version's starter pull in order to finally figure out that beast you have a home. Bonus: After an entire weekend of attempts to assemble this mower, do not mow the lawn for the first time and tell your girlfriends about it, only to have them laugh and exclaim 'I'd love to have seen that'! |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 18,May,2004 | So here's my dilemma tonight. Should I continue to publish this blog with my full name attached? Do I really want any of my fellow classmates to read this and know exactly who I am? What about anyone else for that matter? Should I be worried? Will it alter anything I want to write? Am I putting myself in a potentially detrimental situation by publicly posting my honest thoughts about what goes on in law school and at my school specifically? I don't suppose any of the other bloggers who keep their names available on their sites have had major problems, and hey--they probably have readers. I guess this dilemma is contingent on my assumption that I'll actually have readers other than those I personally direct to this page (who of course, will know my identity anyway). Maybe I won't have readers, who knows? Actually I'll know, since I now have a handy little counter at the bottom to keep track of how many people aren't reading this (thanks Natalie). I guess for now I won't change the name. I can't think of anything incredibly unusual or funny anyway, so it's probably better. On another note, I had dinner tonight with a girl who will also start school with me next week. It was very much a reality check--I actually met someone new, someone who is directly connected to that whole law school thing I've known I had to start soon but have been in denial about. Other than that it went very well, and I am glad to know I at least have someone with whom I can walk to orientation. Bonus: I even get to park in her yard, which is about 25 steps from the law school! Why do I keep thinking dilemma is spelled dilemna? Great, on the cusp of beginning a legal education in which my success will depend heavily on my writing skills and I can't even spell a simple word. What a dilemma. OK, not funny. Time to retire. Goodnight! |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 17,May,2004 | I ended the previous post thinking I was going to run some errands and then come back to finish later. However, I just realized I cannot leave my house until after 2:00 or when the UPS guy returns, whichever comes first. Apparently they are holding a package hostage until it can be delivered with signature confirmation. Actually, I guess I really can't leave until he comes, right? So I'll begin to impart to you how I ended up here at Stetson Law School. I don't really know why I'm typing this as if people other than my friends (who already know the story) will read it...But hey, who knows right? A girl can only hope. Alrighty. I came from a ridiculously small redneck town in SW Florida. I'm not sure if 'ridiculously' should go before small or redneck, probably both. Anyway, I'll get into a more thorough description of LaBelle later. I attended college at the University of Florida, from where I graduated in December 2002. My senior year included the typical law school application preparations--LSAT class, recommendation requests, personal statement procrastination, etc. I sent them all (10) around Christmas. Fast forward to April 2003. I received my final response, and my only rejection--from my wonderful alma mater on April 15. I remember the exact date because they actually sent the rejection letter to my parent's address and my dad, who is a CPA, called me on the worst day of the year for an accountant to inform me of its receipt. He is a Gator, and he was disappointed. I was just pissed, because I attribute at least part of that rejection to a screw up on UF's part. In February, I received a letter from the school claiming that they couldn't classify me as a Florida resident for admission purposes until they verified where I would be living from the time I graduate (12/02) until the time I'd matriculate into law school (8/03). Considering that 90% of the entering class must be from Florida you can imagine how important that fact would be. So,what I was so pissed about? Well you see, they drafted and sent this letter to me at my GAINESVILLE address. The current address I sent in on my application--where I was still living and working. How the hell could they not classify me as a resident?? Didn't they send this letter intending to get a response? How did they expect to get a response if I wasn't actually living at this Gainesville address?? Who knows. But nah, I'm not bitter. Anyway, I decided I wanted to attend Tulane Law School in New Orleans. Their admissions office (and everyone else I encountered) was amazing and incredibly helpful. New Orleans was new and exciting, not to mention beautiful (Uptown especially, where I'd live). I found an apartment, sent in a deposit, set a moving date, and decided to take a year off. Oops. So here I am, one year later on the verge of beginning law school at Stetson in Gulfport, FL. This decision was a long and ardous one, partly because the only uniform advice you get about law school is to attend the best school to which you are accepted. I guess that means I should actually be at Emory, ranked 22. So why did I choose third tier (schools 101-150) Stetson over other higher ranked schools? I sent in the application because of the school's proximity to my boyfriend, who lives in Tampa; my family, who lives in LaBelle/Boca Grande; and the beach. I decided to attend after visiting the campus and meeting with several people--including the Career Services Director, who was awesome, seemed accessible, and basically told me that if I did well she would have absolutely no problem placing me in my desired location; and a former Editor-in-Chief of the Law Review (who also is a friend) who told me I'd be a dumbass not to come here with a scholarship offer. She raved on about the school and said that even coming out with a mountain of debt she wouldn't change a thing. I feel confident that I will be taught how to be a lawyer here more than at a lot of schools that tend to be heavily based on theory. So far every student I've met seems extremely happy. The law school is separate (in different cities) from the Stetson undergrad--which to some may make it seem more like a high school, I however think is pretty great. Also, I knew I wanted to buy a house and the market is great here (more on first time homeowning later). Oh yeah, and have you ever seen the campus? Check out some of these urlLink pictures . So here I am. If I do well in school (top 1/3 of class) I will graduate with very little debt and three years worth of appreciation on my house (more on first time home owning later). If I don't, I'll still have less debt than I would have undertaken at Emory, and I will have spent my three years of law school 5 minutes away from the beach. Life isn't so bad here after all, I don't think. :) So that is my road to Stetson in a nutshell, albeit a rather long nutshell. Since I'm at least as tired of typing as you are of reading I'm going to end this--even though it's almost 2:00 and I still can't run my errands. Damn, UPS cuts it close! |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 17,May,2004 | So, my first attempt to link to something failed. Great. I hope that's not an indication of how well this site will work. I'm going to try again, in two different ways, to see if I can get it right. urlLink Jeremy Blachman urlLink Jeremy Blachman Geez, those still look scary. I guess if they don't work, I'll have to read the help directions. Wonderful. EDIT: I just discovered that I can edit posts after I publish them. I also figured out that you have to include the 'http://' to successfully link. Two new things and no help directions! |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 17,May,2004 | I'm not quite sure how this whole weblog thing works, so bear with me. I was inspired to start this after regular reading of other law student blogs (is that a word?), especially Harvard 2L urlLink Jeremy Blachman's . (I hope that link works...it looks pretty scary on here). Unfortunately mine will not be as amusing as his, as I am not capable of making up the absurdly funny song parodies, lists, etc he routinely has on his blog. If you have never looked at it, I highly suggest it. I do hope, however, to chronicle (in my own sarcastic and cynical way) my thoughts and experiences throughout this law school journey (sorry, couldn't think of a better word). The main purpose of this will be for my pleasure and benefit. Ha. Basically I'm hoping it will be a bit therapeutic at the time I write it, and a bit humorous for me to look back on someday. I would also like to give my *non-law school* friends (actually, all my friends at this time) some insight into what is going on in my life. I can post it once here, instead of explaining it 578 times. How great is that?! Anyway, enough for now. I'll be back later to post more about myself and how I ended up here at Stetson. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 28,June,2004 | I think I jinxed myself when I made the comment about getting better about posting more often. Oops. We've got two weeks and one day until finals begin--I have a TON of stuff to do in the meantime, so I may be slacking a bit. Keep checking back though, I'll try to post some short little thoughts whenever I can. On another note, I saw 'The Notebook' this weekend with two of my girlfriends. It was definitely a tear-jerker! I wasn't as bad as the other girls though (one had a pile of tissues; the other needed a tissue but was sobbing so profusely she couldn't ask for one). The acting was decent, though I much preferred the flashbacks with the young actors to the older version of the main characters. The last scene was quite poignant though--I doubt it could ever happen like that in real life, but it was one heck of a way to end that movie. I wonder if love like that ever really happens in real life... If you like love stories it's a good one and I would definitely recommend it. It's got some funny moments as well, so if you drag your man along he won't be completely miserable. I would write more, but I'm in the library...duty calls. :) |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 24,June,2004 | I'm getting good at this posting every other day thing. Maybe someday I'll graduate to every day. Probably not. We took a practice exam today in our Academic Skills Workshop. It was a Criminal Law Hypo (from our actual professor) that had a ton of issues in it. Rape, murder/manslaughter/negligent homicide, transferred intent, larceny/burglary/robbery, conspiracy, and more. All in one hypo. The difference between this exam and the real one is that we got to use our notes--the real exam is closed book. Listening to everyone's reactions afterwards was quite entertaining. Some people looked like they wanted to cry. Others were comparing their answers to their neigbors. One guy said he wanted to go get hammered. Personally, I wanted to go to the library and not leave for the next three weeks. Just put the dogs in a kennel, forward my mail, and bring a blanket--live, eat, sleep, and study in the library. And this is coming from someone who spends hours a day studying. I can't imagine how the people who don't feel. I think that the general consensus is that we have a LOT to learn in not a lot of time. It was definitely an eye-opener. It also made me realize that I spend too much time worrying about being prepared for class. What was important for this exam was not the holding of the Brown case or the facts of the Sherry case, but the substantive law--the rules, elements, etc. Sure, it's nice to throw in a case reference, but you don't have to memorize every line from every case. I need to get over this fear of being called on so I can get on with my exam preparation. We'll see if that happens. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 22,June,2004 | (That 'Argh!' is my lame attempt at a pirate sound) Yesterday we had an 'optional' event in Criminal Law. The professor invited us to come to school and watch the movie 'Pirates of the Carribean.' Yes, the new popular one with Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom. She brought food and everything, it was pretty awesome of her. The relevance to studying Criminal Law was that our job was to try to pick out all of the common law felonies that occurred throughout the movie. There were a ton of course--mostly larceny, robbery, and murder. But were they really murders? Can undead pirate be morally culpable? Is it wrong for a human to kill an undead pirate? Gosh I hope this isn't the stuff that's going to show up on law school exams. I must admit it was more fun than talking about rape, which we've been doing for the last week or so. It was pretty actually pretty uncomfortable. Yeah, we are all adults (and most act like it), but there's something unsettling about hearing the guy down the row recite the much-too-detailed facts about three doctors engaging in group sex with an unwilling nurse. Yuck. I'm glad that's over. I've got to finish reading about Wrongful Death and Pure Economic Loss for Torts tomorrow. A group of us are having a cookout tonight--I never expected to hang out this much. That's three times in the last six days. You'd think we had enough to keep us busy. I suppose we do, we are all just in denial about our looming exams (21 days away). Let's just hope tonight is just dinner only. It seems like every time we plan on just hanging out for a little while it turns into an all night ordeal with lots of beer and hangovers. We should be ok if we stay away from the beer. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 20,June,2004 | Here I am, 8-something a.m. on Sunday, wishing I was still asleep. If my wonderful, sweetheart of a non-sleeping dog would've shut up instead of insisting I got up to take him out I would still be sleeping. But anyway, I don't really feel like starting on my reading yet (even though I spent all day yesterday reading and still have a ridiculous amount left), so I thought this would be a good time to reflect on my first month of law school. This will probably be another marathon post, so buckle up. We are two days shy of it being one month since we started Orientation. In a way it's gone by really quickly, like a blur. But on the other hand, I feel like I've been in law school for much longer, which probably has a lot to do with the fact it's a summer session and we've covered almost 3/4 of a 14 week regular semester's worth of material in 4. What I can say for sure though is I definitely feel like I've known my classmates for more than a month. I flipped open my cell phone yesterday afternoon and noticed that the last four people I'd talked to were people I didn't even know before this thing started. If I feel like I know them all so well now I can't even imagine what it will be like after the spring. The way law school (generally) works is that you are with your section of classmates your entire 1L year. That means not only do we have every class together now, but we will this fall and next spring as well. Actually, we will be split up into smaller groups for Research & Writing, but they will still be groups of only our class. It's a lot like going back to elementary school. We don't get to choose our classes, our professors, or even our class times. We just log on to the computer (not-so-much like elementary I guess), view whatever schedule the registrar decided to give us, and show up to class. Now this has the potential to be either really good or really bad--I actually think in some ways it will be both. For the most part, I am quite happy with the people I've met. They are smart, interesting, and fun. However, being stuck in a class every day for an entire year with a handful of them will be just about as fun as cleaning a toilet or putting together a lawnmower (see the May archives). I just can't see myself growing to like people who snicker when someone says the wrong thing or immediately begin flailing their arm in hopes the prof will let them correct their classmate or talk just to hear themselves talk. It's great that you know the answer, but at least wait until the prof asks for someone else's opinion. We are all in the same boat--get over yourselves! You don't make yourself look cooler or smarter than that person you felt the need to belittle with your snickers or hand flailing. I'm really hoping the rumors about the quiet people in the back row ending up with 3.75+ are true; and that the know-it-alls will see that their incessant ramblings amounted to a 2.0. Actually, hopefully the quiet people (person) in the center of the third row will be the ones with 3.75s. :) The day grades come out will probably pretty shocking for a lot of people, myself included. I'm not sure how often anything over a 3.5 happens in law school--not too much here at Stetson I don't think. One person graduated summa cum laude last spring, and I've been told she was the first in almost 10 years or something outrageous like that. Now receiving something less than a 3.5 certainly won't be shocking to me because I've never received a low GPA (there's always that 1.75 my first semester at UF), but I've definitely never put in this much work and received a low GPA. Actually, I've never put in this much work period. I've gotten plenty of 3.5+ semester GPAs and not put in a fraction of the work I do now. To make matters worse, we aren't even ranked this summer so that 2.5, 2.75, whatever I get will mean virtually nothing since I won't know if that puts me in the bottom or the top of the class. They've made some new change to the grading scale that the classes before us are pissed about (they moved the class average to a minimum 2.9 I think), so I guess that will be some kind of guideline. Who knows. Another thing I want to mention is how often my feelings about school seem to fluctuate. I know that coming in here, and right after Orientation I was scared to death I wasn't going to be able to cut it. It all seemed so intimidating and everyone seemed so smart. Then my second week I was more confident about myself and my potential. Now, pretty regularly, I seem to either feel really good about the way things are going, or really bad. The added pressure of staying in the top third for scholarship purposes doesn't help much either. The workload is crazy. Even when you keep up with all of the reading (which is a task in itself) there is always something else I could be doing (and feel like everyone else is doing). I could be outlining, or reading study guides, or making flashcards, or meeting with a Deans Fellow--always something. I suppose it won't stop until 2 p.m. on July 15 when I turn in my 48-hour take home Torts exam. I'm not sure that this post accomplished what I intended, but I know I wrote an awful lot so hopefully there's must be something useful in here. I hope so. Gotta run for now...the dog is calling again. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 18,June,2004 | I took this 'Which Reality Show's Right for You' test on urlLink tickle.com . Here are my results: American Idol Stars aren't born they're created — just ask the Monkees. All you need is the big break and American Idol is it. Whether it was an impromptu serenade in the school cafeteria or the business presentation-turned-standup routine, you've always been a performer at heart. Yeah, right! The thought of performing anything (much less singing) on stage terrifies me. It's strange though, in high school/middle school I loved being in front of a crowd. Who knows what happened to that. I dread going to school everyday because I hate the thought of a professor calling on me. American Idol? Come on. The only singing I do is in the car, and even then I make sure the music is loud enough I don't have to hear myself. :) Check out that website--they've got some pretty funny tests. I'll post another one later. I've got to catch up on some sleep tonight. We had our first big outing as a group last night--getting enough sleep was apparently not part of the agenda. We had a pretty damn good time. Let's just say I was counting down the minutes in Crim Law today because I wasn't sure I was going to make it. Hopefully I'll feel like a normal person again tomorrow. Good night! |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 16,June,2004 | I came up with this idea last night around 1 am while reading an article about rape laws. While I won't bore you with the outrageous details of how a man can't really be prosecuted for rape unless he uses physically force during the commission of the act, I will tell you that I found a word in the article that I find really interesting. It's not a new word to me--and I don't really know what I find so amusing about it--but for some odd reason I felt inclined to post about it. (Maybe I should be concerned) I thought it might be kind of cool to post a word once a week (or so). It could be a new legal term I've learned, a funny word, a useless word, or just some random word, like this week, that I like for whatever strange and unexplainable reason. So here you go: Accost : to approach and speak to often in a challenging or aggressive way. Here's the sentence from the article, 'Men today are free, as in the Illinois case, to take advantage of strangers the accost in isolated settings.' I don't really know why I find that word so cool, and I'm disappointed because I thought I was going to be able to do something funny with it but it's just not coming to me. I'm beginning to realize this was a pretty pointless post, and I've now put off my Crim reading for an additional 20 minutes. This may be the first and final word of the week! Hopefully I'll think of something more fun to post about later. Probably not though, since in the interim all I will be doing is reading about rape. Not exactly hot comedy club material. Of course, this isn't a comedy club either... |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 14,June,2004 | This is probably a little premature, but I've been thinking lately about my plans for next summer. For a law student, summers typically involve clerking at a law firm or taking additional classes. The summer after your first year is the most flexible, but it's still good to add some work experience to your resume for the fall, which is when the On Campus Interview chaos begins. Your 2L (second year) summer is of the ultimate importance because the goal is to have a summer associate position that leads to a permanent offer. Then it's smooth sailing your third year. Lucky for me, that's a way off. I've got to decide what to do next summer. I've always been interested in studying abroad, and I really wish I would have done it in undergrad. This next summer is pretty much my last chance if I'm ever going to do it. The study abroad programs at Tulane were one of the main reasons I decided to go there, so as you can see I've been thinking about this for awhile. Stetson has a few programs--Tallinn, Estonia; Granada, Spain; and Buenos Aires, Argentina. I'm sure they are great programs, but for some reason I can't get extremely excited about any one of them. The good thing about study abroad programs (at least in law school, I don't know about undergrad) is that you can go with any law school. That means I can still go to one of the Tulane programs, or any other for that matter. I've narrowed down the list of countries in which I'm interested--England, Ireland, Greece, Germany, or Italy. Some other countries like Switzerland or Norway would be cool but I can't find any programs there. The University of Miami has an awesome 'Mediterranean Experience' program that goes to Greece, Italy, and Spain. Check it out urlLink here . That might be a little tiring though, moving around and having to study at the same time. Florida State has a program at Oxford in England--just taking any courses at a college at Oxford would be awesome to put on a resume. Here's the link to that urlLink program . The real jewel though has to be the program at urlLink Tulane . They offer 7 or 8 different locations, two of which I like very much. First, a Greek Isles program; second, a program at Cambridge. The second program has the prestigious name like FSU's Oxford program. But one thing these programs have that the others don't? Oh, they are just being taught by a couple of justices from that Court in Washington, D.C. called the United States Supreme Court. Justice Scalia will be teaching a session in Rhodos, Greece; Chief Justice Rehnquist will be teaching at Cambridge. I can't even begin to tell you how much that excites me. While they aren't the only professors teaching, they do come in for a large chunk of the program. I can't even fathom sitting in a classroom learning from a Supreme Court Justice on a daily basis. They say you need to do something interesting your first summer so you can talk about it during your 2L fall interviews... 'So a, Ms. Boy is it? (Yeah, it's Boy. No, not Boyd, Boy. As in boy/girl. Yeah.) What did you do over the summer?' 'Well, Mr. Interviewer, I learned Constitutional History at Cambridge from this guy named William Rehnquist, you may have heard of him...' It's not guaranteed that they will be teaching next summer, but Tulane has a good history of Supreme Court Justices in their programs. Generally you can find out before you sign up. Maybe I'm crazy, but I think that is an awesome opportunity. I guess it kind of sounds like I've already made up my mind, doesn't it? Well, then I've got to consider the money issue. These programs run several thousand dollars I believe. Plus, I have a mortgage payment that won't go away, and my dogs, and my family, friends, and boyfriend, etc. However, I'm not borrowing very much in loans anyway because of my scholarship and familial support--I could borrow it in loans then pay it back when I (hopefully) get a good job. You can't beat the student loan interest rate. I'm sure someone could take care of paying my bills while I'm gone if I forward the mail somewhere. What do people do with their houses if they leave for a long time? I'm not really sure. I guess I'd have someone come check on it every now and then. I'm sure my mom would keep the dogs. My friends and boyfriend could live without me for 6 weeks. Actually, they are now (not the boyfriend, the friends) since I do nothing but school anyway. One thing I really worry about is the possibility of something happening here and me being across the ocean and unable to get home quickly. Accidents happen, my grandparents are getting older--I would never forgive myself if something happened and I couldn't be here. That's the major downside to all of it. At least if something happens now I'm only two hours away. In Europe I'm probably a day away at best. Then the other problem is not having any work experience. In the ideal situation these programs would take place either at the very beginning or the very end of summer so I could work the other half. Nope, most of them are smack dab in the middle. I doubt I could get anyone to hire me (it's hard enough as a 1L anyway I'm told) if I said, 'Yeah, I'll work for 3-4 weeks in June, then I'll be gone for 5-6, then back sometime in August.' Right. So that's my other big concern. I plan on talking with the career services director sometime this week about it. Well, those are my (rather long, sorry) thoughts about studying abroad. I should be thinking about Torts, but this is much more fun. If anyone reading this has studied abroad (or knows someone who has) during law school I'd love to hear about it. I've got several months to figure it out, but in the meantime it's a nice distraction. Now that I've spent 30 minutes on this post, I better start outlining. Yippee. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 12,June,2004 | Someone sent me a link to this website that, after a series of questions, proposes your 'best place to live, work, and retire.' Here's my top three: 1. Norfolk, VA ' Heart of the Hampton Roads ' 2. Charlotte, NC ' The Queen City ' 3. Richmond, VA ' Rising Star of the South ' I found that odd for a lifelong Floridian who loves the beach. Florida doesn't show up on the list until number 5, and it's Orlando ' Florida's Entertainment Capital '. I would NEVER want to live there permanently. Florida's Tourist Capital is more appropriate--no thanks! The only reason I want to stay in Florida is to be close to the beach, and Orlando certainly doesn't qualify. Plus, the closest beach to Orlando is on the east coast, which I don't like either. I prefer the west coast of Florida. I guess I've been spoiled by Boca Grande. Louisville, KY ' Home of the Kentucky Derby ' was in the top 10, as was Nashville, TN ' Music City USA . Tampa ' Paradise on the Bay ' came in at number 11. That's good news, since I just bought a house in St Pete. Charleston, SC ' Cosmopolitan Southern City ' was up there, which is a city I've heard wonderful things about but never visited. I've heard it's like Savannah but prettier. Maybe I'll try to go up there after school is out. Then Miami ' The Gold Coast ' shows up. You couldn't pay me enough money to live down there! There's no way in hell I'm going to live in a place where the billboards say 'We Speak English.' You're damn right you better speak English--last time I checked Miami was still in AMERICA! I guess I'm being a little harsh, I do have some friends who are from Miami and love it, but it's just not for me. Greenville, SC is also on there, and is called 'Rising Star of the South.' See Richmond, above. Guess there's two stars. A few Texas cities are on there, but it's mostly North Carolina, South Carolina, and Virginia. And then Oklahoma City. Yeah, I'll pack up and move there...it's SO close to the beach. Anyway, if you want to do this test yourself click urlLink here . It's a pretty good way to waste a few minutes! |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 11,June,2004 | All of that time spent on Res Ipsa Loquitor for nothing. Apparently they didn't get to it in class the day I missed, so we covered it today. Actually, we pretty much only talked about how we weren't going to cover it. The prof says it's pretty useless and almost never comes around in real life--so glad I studied it, and understood it. He even went as far as to say that if we used it more than once every 10 years in our career it would be malpractice. This came after the first 15 minutes of class we spend watching a movie on Billy Joel. Yep, Billy Joel. The prof had been doing 'a lot of thinking' about how to impart to us his feelings about the passing of both President Reagan and Ray Charles, and this video was his way of doing it. The first part was a video of Joel and Charles recording the song Baby Grand. The second part was his commentary on a song inspired by a Russian clown during the Cold War (can't remember the name unfortunately). I really wish I could remember (that seems to be a recurring theme) what the prof said at the beginning, but he was asking our permission to devote the first part of our class to a humanity lesson or something like that. It was touching, and definitely better than learning about limitations on duty. Now it's almost 9 and I haven't done any studying. I watched Oprah, took a nap, then went to the mall to meet a friend for Chic-fil-a. Then of course I had to buy a shirt (it was only $7.00 though--I might go back and buy one in every color!). My plan on this lovely Friday evening is to do all of my reading for Tuesday, then watch the Reagan funeral I recorded from earlier today. Doesn't that sound like a wonderful way to kick off the weekend?? |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 10,June,2004 | I was going to completely remove the comments section since anyone can go on and post anonymously, which can be pretty dangerous I think, but now that I figured out I can go back and delete them if I want I'm going to leave it up. Now you can say whatever you want without me knowing who you are...but I can delete it too! If you really have something to say just send me an email. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 09,June,2004 | Here's the link to Tony and Kelly's wedding urlLink pictures , as promised a long time ago. Oops! If the link doesn't work for you, go to webshots.com, community, and look up my user name UFSuz99. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 09,June,2004 | Have you ever actually paid attention to the word suggestions in Spell Check? Since I have nothing to do this morning (I love to tell myself that), I actually paid attention. Here's what it suggested for the first paragraph of my last post: Torts should be replaced with 'trots' Ybarra should be replaced with 'eyebrow' Spangard should be replaced with 'sponges' Appendectomy should be replaced with 'appendicitis' This is what it would read: I'm sitting at my desk at home, waiting for my breakfast to finish cooking. This is a problem. I'm supposed to be sitting at my desk in 'Trots' right now... An example (from 'Eyebrow v Sponges') is a patient who is injured during surgery, while anesthetized. The injury produced (to his shoulder) had nothing to do with the actual surgery ('appendicitis'), so someone was definitely negligent...There's your lesson in 'Trots' for the day. OK, so I thought it would be funnier than that. Oh well. I wonder why spell check has appendicitis and not appendectomy. Time to be productive. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 04,June,2004 | I'm sitting at my desk at home, waiting for my breakfast to finish cooking. This is a problem. I'm supposed to be sitting at my desk in Torts right now, learning about Res Ipsa Loquitor. Oops. I've missed my first class now. I'm ok with that though, I actually don't feel guilty. I did all of the reading, and I can tell you that Res Ipsa Loquitor means 'the thing speaks for itself.' It basically allows a jury to infer from circumstantial evidence that a defendant was negligent even when the plaintiff doesn't have specific allegations as to how the defendant was negligent. An example (from Ybarra v Spangard ) is a patient who is injured during surgery, while anesthetized. The injury produced (to his shoulder) had nothing to do with the actual surgery (appendectomy), so someone was definitely negligent. As you can imagine, it may be a little difficult for someone who was unconscious at the time of an injury to point out specifically who injured him and how. In this case Res Ipsa Loquitor allowed him to bring each person in the operating room to court and force them to explain their conduct. Isn't that wonderful? There's your lesson in Torts for the day. I had my first study group meeting last night. It went ok. I forgot to take my folder, my computer, and all of my notes. Well, I didn't forget the computer, I intentionally left that. The other things I accidentally left, which rendered me fairly useless to the process. Hopefully it will be better on Monday, our next meeting. We are going to do it at my house and order pizza, Chinese, or something. Hopefully not pizza. As 1Ls we have several mandatory meetings to attend throughout the semester, and each one attempts to be more enticing by advertising, 'Lunch provided'. It's been pizza every time. And not good pizza like Papa John's or Pizza Hut. I'm pretty convinced it's something along the lines of Five Star. Don't get me wrong--Five Star was great in undergrad at 4 a.m. after a long night of partying. Not so much anymore. You'd think at a school where the tuition is close to 30k/year the food would be better. I have been slacking on this blog also, I know. I have all of these grand plans that just never seem to materialize. I still have lots of posts planned, and several half-finished ones hanging out in my inbox. Someday I'll get to them. Until then, these random, pointless posts will have to do. ;) |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 04,June,2004 | I'm working on a post about the Myers-Briggs personality types, but I haven't had a chance to finish yet. In the meantime, I thought I'd post a little test I came across in the process. Does anyone remember the old spark.com? Well, it has changed now but it still has some of the funny little quizzes on there (although the best one is gone). I'm going to do a couple of them and post the results. The first one is the 'Death Test.' Yeah, that's really uplifting, right? It's purpose is to ask a series of random questions like: *When is your birthday? *Do you smoke? *Do you have a tattoo? *Do you have any of the following illnesses--cancer, heart disease, head lice, hairy nipples, etc? *Does your family suffer from the following--alcholism, cancer, mafia connections, insomnia, poor penmanship? *How often do you--go hunting, talk to strangers, sky dive, drive a car, swallow knives, play drinking games, watch South Park, ride a mechanical bull? *Are you good at math? *Do you speed? *Are you in the adult entertainment business? *Are you paranoid? *Do you cross when it says 'Don't Walk?' It then calculates the exact day on which you'll bite the dust. As you can see, this is a wonderfully scientific examination I took. My results? I am going to die on October 20, 2039 at the tender age of 59. I will most likely die from cancer. They should put something a little funnier/less likely I think. Even though it's a stupid test no one wants to hear that! Random facts: *The average life expectancy is 66. *71% have hairy nipples. *4040 people claim to have leprosy. Wow, I thought I was relatively healthy and I don't even make it to retirement! I'd hate to see the life expectancy of someone who checks mafia connections or that they swallow knives. I guess I need to spend my Pfizer DRIP now, while I can! No sense in letting it compound anymore if I won't be around to spend it. If you want to determine your own date of death, go urlLink here . Please let me know so I can plan to send a card. ;) There's one more death countdown site urlLink here . This one gives me a little longer, until October 18, 2059. At least then I'll be 79. This one actually shows a countdown of your seconds left to live. See how long you can watch it without feeling weird to know that your life (even though this is joke website) is ticking away. Well, that's all for my little upbeat inspirational post this morning. I've wasted about 480 seconds of my life typing this, so I'll get going now. I'm going to do the wench test this afternoon. Hehe. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 03,June,2004 | I've been reminded more than once that I haven't been very diligent about posting here, which to me means three very important things: 1. People are reading this 2. I'm not posting because I've been doing so much work 3. People are reading this So I figured I'd get up early this morning and jot some thoughts down. I've got a couple of different posts planned, including one about Myers Briggs Personality Types, that I hope to do this weekend. Hope. Anyway, so I'm now almost done with two weeks of law school. Which, as I'm reminded every night when I look how far we've gotten in the books, is the equivalent of a month during a regular semester. The bad thing is, I don't really feel like I've learned a month's worth of material. It's very different, this law school thing. It's definitely not like undergrad where you sit in a lecture for a few hours a week and then just regurgitate information on a few tests throughout the semester. I suppose that once I actually have a chance to go back and look over the topics we've covered this feeling may be somewhat alleviated. Now I barely have time throughout the week to keep up with all of the reading for class, much less time to go back and try to learn the stuff we've covered. I'm pretty far ahead in the reading now so I plan to do a lot of that this weekend. The two weeks has definitely not been a complete waste though. I definitely feel like I've learned how to be a law student even if I haven't learned much substantive law. I am getting more efficient with my reading and briefing. I go to every class, every day. I have figured out what kind of outlining works best for me. I've gone to a professor's office hours. I'm about to register for a bar prep course (you get major discounts for registering early--several hundreds off). I've thought about my plans for next summer, graduation, and the future. After many years of school (college included) I actually feel like I'm doing something useful, something that will hopefully have a big payoff in the end. And the crazy thing is I'm actually enjoying it. Don't get me wrong--it is unbelievably time consuming, by far the most I've ever worked in my life. But I'm happy. I wasn't sure if I would be able to say that. I suppose that is more important (for now at least) than learning the elements of a tortious assault or a trespassory taking of property. I enjoy law school. I will post more soon, I promise. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 27,July,2004 | I went to Tire Kingdom today get an alignment, an oil change, and new tires put on my car (Poppie will be happy!). Of course I didn't get out of there without being offered a million other things (I actually didn't intend on having the alignment done either, but of course I really needed it, what with those expensive tires I had to get). I now have some kind of special warranty on my tires, free rotation/balancing for a year, and who knows what else. I hate dealing with car issues on my own -- it seems like they always try to take advantage of women. It seems like every time I get the oil changed I need a new air filter or transmission fluid or fuel injection something-or-other. Yuck. I hate it. Anyway, a solid two and a half hours and $404 later I was on my way. I knew it would take forever, so I began reading The Lovely Bones . I didn't get through enough to give a complete review, but so far so good. It's about a young girl who is murdered and her experiences in heaven. It's very well written (it has some great vocabulary!) and easy to read. I'll report back when I finish (assuming I finish--I doubt I'll be doing a lot of reading in Key West this weekend). Speaking of Key West, this Thursday I embark on a girls' trip to the Keys. We are staying on Duval Street (the heart of the party zone). It should be quite interesting, and I'm extremely excited. Hopefully I'll have some good stories to tell when I return. Only three weeks to go until fall semester begins... |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 24,July,2004 | As you know, I've recently completed my first summer semester of law school. Now I know it's not a real semester that entails juggling 4 classes *and* research & writing -- but it was definitely a start, and I think I have some useful advice for people who haven't been through any type of law school semester. Here we go... 1. Buy a good, light laptop . Even if you don't think you'll lug it around a lot, chances are you will. I took class notes on mine about half of the time, but I always carried it to class and the library. I can't explain how many times I heard someone complain that their laptop was too heavy. The most common type at my school is the new Dell Inspiron. Mine is a Fujitsu Lifebook, and I absolutely love it. It's quite small, has a great keyboard and weighs less than five pounds. If you haven't purchased a laptop yet, check it out. 2. AIM has big pros and cons . Midway through the semester my friends and I began using AIM during class and while we were studying in the library. The cons are probably obvious -- it's very easy to get distracted, both in class and in the library. If your professor calls on people at random I wouldn't recommend it, because sometimes I got so caught up in my IMs I had no clue as to what was going on in class. Similarly, in the library I would have multiple IMs going with my classmates (who were usually also in the library), and I would waste an hour or more at a time. The pros of AIM -- well, if you do happen to get called on in class you will often be bombarded by answers via IM in case you are totally lost. One of my good friends got called on in Torts one day and soon several of our friends' IM screens popped up with 'Help!' to which people obliged, of course. In the library, it's good to have IM if you have a question for someone or want to take a break or go to lunch, etc. You don't have to get up and search for someone...you have them right there on your buddy list. Or if you are like me and skip class every once in awhile (and it's not like I skip to go to the beach or sleep or something fun like that -- I was usually in the library when I skipped), you can IM people who are actually in class that day. A friend and I were in a study room during Criminal Law one day and the professor called on me. Immediately I received three IMs (he received a couple as well) from various people telling me all about it. How great is that? 3. Get into a routine . What works for you will certainly differ from what works for me, but definitely try to get your studying down to a routine. For class preparation, I would read about the topic for the next class in a study guide and take some notes (on my computer). Then, I would read and brief each case (also on the computer), and print out my notes and briefs so I could have them in my folder for the next class. I would often handwrite my class notes directly on my briefs, unless we were going so quickly I had to type them. On the weekends I would go back through the week's cases/notes and put them in my outline. Of course I slacked a bit from time to time, but generally this is what I did. I know some people who never briefed a case (or book briefed) and some who didn't make outlines. Don't feel pressured to do what someone else is doing, and don't feel silly if they make fun of you for continuing to brief cases (yep, it happens). Do what works for you. 4. Supplemental materials . This is a big issue -- some people love them, some don't. I was one of the people who had way too many of them. DO NOT do this. With the exception of case brief guides that are keyed to your book, do not buy any study guide before you begin school. They are all so different it will be impossible to gauge which one will be useful in your class. As for the case brief guides/outlines (like High Court Case Summaries, Legalines, etc), if you can find one that is keyed to your textbook I think they are useful. I would absolutely not recommend slacking off so much that you do not read the cases and only read these condensed versions (as some of my friends did), but they can really aid you in seeing what is important from a case and what you should have gotten from it, especially in the beginning when you really have no idea. You have endless other opportunities for study guides -- wait and see which will be helpful for your particular course before buying them all. I have (for both Torts and Crim) Gilberts, Examples & Explanations, and the Understanding series. After the first week I never cracked Gilberts, and hardly used the E&E Torts. The Understanding series was quite good (better for Torts than Crim) and the E&E Criminal Law was great. Check out your library before you go off on a spending spree, they will often have copies in there (if you can look at them before your classmates confiscate them). Finally, I really liked the Sum & Substance Criminal Law CDs. They are read by Joshua Dressler, who authored my book. It's great to have them for a car ride or while you are working out so you don't feel guilty for wasting time. You can find these CDs for most (if not all) of your first year courses. Check for all of this supplemental material on eBay or half.com, you can almost always find what you need and save a lot of money. 5. Be prepared for high school all over again . I didn't believe it when people told me it would be like high school, but it really is. Think about it...you are in the same classes every day with the same people (which I guess makes it kind of like elementary school actually--at least you change classes in high school). You study with them. You have lunch with them. You party with them. You worry about exams with them. You experience something with them that your friends/family outside of law school cannot understand. I've known my classmates for less than three months, yet I can tell you something interesting (or maybe not interesting, but something at least) about almost every single one of them. I could tell you really interesting things about a lot of them. Countless long-term relationships have broken up. Many people have hooked up. Lots of people have gotten really drunk. Those last two are probably in the wrong order. You get the point. Don't make the mistake of doing something you don't want your classmates (and future colleagues) to know about because they will. Just like high school, the rumor mill thrives. **Bonus . Enjoy it! Let yourself have fun. Go to the school sponsored parties. Go out when people go, as much as you can without getting behind. Actually, it's ok if you get behind once or twice. You have to remember to enjoy it. I worked much harder than I ever did in college, but I think I had more fun too. That's saying a lot coming from a party school like the University of Florida. It's a different kind of party than undergrad, but it can be so much fun. Meet people! I can't stress this enough. Please make friends with your classmates. You will be stuck with them every day for at least your first year, and often after that I'd imagine. I already feel like I've made good friends just in this short summer semester. Don't neglect your old friends though. I wasn't particularly good at this one, but don't allow yourself to get so caught up in your new law school life that you forget about your friends and family. Return their calls, and call them sometimes. You may have to explain the same things about law school a million times, but do it (or make them read your blog!). Ultimately, be prepared to work harder than you probably ever thought you would, but be open to the fun side of law school as well. It's a great experience, it really is. Work hard, play hard. Mostly work though. :) I have a completely different perspective than I did when I entered, thank goodness. I thought it would be hell, which it can be sometimes, but is not overall. There are certainly many other things I'd like to post about, but this is already ridiculously long so I'll stop. Good luck to everyone who begins in the fall! |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 19,July,2004 | It took me almost five days to get motivated enough to post my thoughts about ending my first week of exams. I think my previous post 'Panic' pretty well sums up my feelings on my Criminal Law exam, so I guess now I need to reflect on my Torts exam. As you know, my Torts final was a 48-hour take-home essay exam. At my last post I was 18 hours into the exam, and hadn't done much with it except write down page numbers of various cases I wanted to use. Big mistake. I didn't really even get started until around 1:30 that day, giving me about 24 hours in which to complete 10 questions. Big mistake. Big mistake!! I slept for about 2 hours that day, but I finished. I turned it in (13.5 pages) with 10 minutes to spare. I think my printer worked slower than ever that day -- I was worried that I wouldn't make it on time. You'd think that most normal people would immediately go home and take a nap. Nope, not me. My group of friends already had a party going across the street from school (it started around noon, for the non-slackers who turned their papers in early). We consumed lots of beer and played some silly games. Some of the guys swam in a little kiddie pool. We then went to a bar on St. Pete Beach for the remainder of the night. I haven't been posting because pretty much all I've done since that night is sleep. Off and on at least, intermingled with some driving, shopping, and eating. But I've slept more since Friday than I had in probably three weeks. It's been great. Really great. I'm still not feeling motivated to do much of anything...but luckily I don't have to feel guilty about it anymore. All I have to do now is sit and wait for my grades. The professors have until Aug 9 -- the waiting is going to be just-so-much-freaking-fun, I-love-having-to-check-every-single-day-for-three-weeks. Vomit. When I get so inspired (hopefully tomorrow), I'll post some general thoughts about my first semester. I promise it won't be another five days -- I have no more excuses! :) |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 14,July,2004 | Is that what everyone does after taking their first law school exam? I would like to think so, since that is certainly how I felt yesterday. After spending over 12 hours in the library Monday, I was sure I knew my criminal material at least as well if not better than the rest of my classmates (which is the standard I've come to desire here at law school--no more wishing to be top of the class...average-plus will do just fine). We took the three-hour closed book exam yesterday morning. It has 60 multiple choice questions and a two hour essay. I felt really confident about the multiple choice questions until the exam was over and we all began discussing questions (not recommended, by the way, for benefit to your sanity). I learned that I had missed at least two ridiculously easy questions like: How many jurors were on jury at common-law? What theory of punishment would support FL's 3 strikes rule? I wanted to kick myself (or worse). That doesn't even include my panic about the essay exam. Eight of us went to lunch after the test was over (also a big mistake) and of course we had the 'did you see this issue, or that issue? Oh shit, I missed that!' discussion. I missed a big defense issue--a limitation on the felony-murder rule called Res Gestae. It's pretty disappointing considering the fact that I knew those rules incredibly well. It may have something to do with the fact that it took me about 15 minutes to figure out that one of the deaths fell under the F-M rule. I thought (and even wrote) for 14 too many minutes trying to figure out with what kind of homicide to charge one of the felons--it wasn't an intentional killing so I tried to say it was a 2nd-degree intent to inflict serious bodily harm homicide. Several sentences in I realized it was glaringly obvious that it was a felony murder. I also confused fraud-in-the-factum and fraud-in-the-inducement (dealing with rape). It was a case of mistaken spousal identity that in early CL was dealt with as inducement but is now considered by most courts to be factum. I missed that on the multiple choice as well. It's so discouraging when you really know something and then still do it wrong. OK, I don't want to talk about it anymore...that whole panic feeling is starting to return. I chose to use the subject line 'Panic' for this post because that is the most appropriate word I could think of to describe how I felt about my first ever law school exam. Panic--before, during, and after. I'm now almost 18 hours into my 48-hour take home Torts exam. I thought I would fair better on this exam since I like to write and have ample time in which to do it--but we were informed that the professor did not care about our opinion, we were to answer directly from case law. I can definitely understand his reasoning for that, but it kind of takes the fun out of it. Oh well, I suppose I better get to work. Fun, fun. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 10,July,2004 | We received an email a few days ago from one of the deans here on campus. Here's an excerpt: Dear students: I hope that no one needs to use this policy, but it is there if the worst occurs. Policy: Any request, or other relief regarding examinations, that may involve retaking an examination based upon a claim of physical, mental or emotional illness or distress at the time of taking the original examination (from which relief is sought) must be made before the commencement of such examination or at such other time as may be permitted under extraordinary circumstances, but in no event later than the date the examination grade is posted. I found this to be interesting--the fact that law school exams can be so stressful that a school has a policy set in case someone becomes so out of their mind they cannot take the exam. Now, I realize how much we have riding on these tests--the entire grade is based upon one test; our first year grades are the most important in finding our second year summer associate posistion (and ultimately a permanent position); selection for Law Review is based upon first year grades--you get the point...but does anyone ever really freak out so much it becomes physically impossible for them to take an exam? Maybe there is something wrong with me (and the majority of my friends). I haven't encountered anyone (yet) who is incredibly stressed out. Here I am, in Boca Grande at the beach--yeah, I'm studying but I'm not holed up in the library 24/7 (which is impossible since it's only open until 12). I justified my driving time by listening to the Sum & Substance Criminal Law CDs , which are read by the author of my book (Dressler) and are pretty damn good. Granted I get a little distracted at times by scenery, other cars, or my own random thoughts, but I still feel like I'm being productive. I went to bed around midnight last night and slept for 8 hours. Maybe I'm too relaxed, I don't know. I guess I'll find out when I get my grades. Luckily, if I learn that I need to be a little more uptight to get better grades I can change my outlook while I only have two grades riding on an exam week instead of five. I suppose now I should quit musing about my lack of stress in studying for exams and start actually studying, as to prevent the possibility of an impending freak out. :) I'll post more later. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 08,July,2004 | You would think that with my first final exam week approaching so very rapidly I would have lots and lots of things about which I'd be motivated to write. Nope. I just don't. In fact, I don't feel motivated to do very much of anything. It's almost 10 a.m., I have class at 2, and I don't feel motivated to do the reading. I've found it quite hard lately do make myself do new reading when all I really want to do (school-wise at least) is study for exams. I have two next week. My first is a three hour closed book Criminal Law exam at 9 on Tuesday. I pick up the second, a 48-hour take home Torts exam, at noon after the Crim exam. The torts exam is due Thursday at 2. I suppose that really gives us 50 hours. I wonder how many of my classmates will sleep during that time. We are going to be given 7-8 hypotheticals, each of which we are limited to 2 pages of discussion. It certainly sounds like a lot--14 to 16 pages in two days, but I'm pretty sure I'm going to have a difficult time condensing everything to 2 pages per hypo. If I don't answer my phone or return calls during that period, please don't be alarmed--not only am I not on the phone, I'm probably not eating, sleeping, or showering. Well, I'm sure I'll eat and shower at least...not so sure about the sleeping though. I guess we'll see. I'm going to Boca Grande this weekend (my favorite place on the planet). I just feel like I need to get away from here. At home it's impossible not to get distracted, and even at the library everyone is around so it's difficult not to stop and chat. I studied for the LSAT in Boca Grande, so at least I know I can do it. You can't beat sitting at a table looking out at the ocean. It's distracting, yes, but in a very calming way. Plus, I have 7.25 hours of Criminal Law CDs to which I can listen during the drive and during any laying out I decide to do. I won't feel guilty for wasting the time driving since I'll have those. I'm pretty darn excited about it actually, and if we weren't having a review in Crim (and if I hadn't missed the max in Torts) I'd leave today instead of tomorrow. But I suppose I can suffer through 3 more classes--how crazy, only three classes until my first semester is finished. I know it's not a real semester--but hey, it's a start. OK, enough procrastinating for now. I've got to learn about solicitation. |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 04,July,2004 | Yes, I am still alive. I have been living at the library--I spent 12 hours there three times last week. Isn't that sad? Of course the entire time was not spent studying--I get distracted rather easily be email or IM or random things I decide I just have to look up online (like study guides for next semester or new songs to download or directions on how to grill a steak {even though I don't have a grill!}). But anyway, the point is that I have been busy preparing for finals. I have 8 days until my first, so I will probably be MIA a lot this week. I will try to post a longer message tomorrow. I hope everyone has a good 4th of July! |
3,366,901 | female | 24 | Law | Leo | 08,August,2004 | What on earth is going on with my counter? Last week I checked (yes, even though I didn't post...shame on me) and the counter said around 1100 hits. Now it says over 93,000 . I don't understand -- and I'm relatively sure it's impossible. I can't imagine having that many hits in just a week even if multiple people linked to me. On another note, I just haven't been doing much of anything and therefore haven't been motivated to post anything. I will get my second grade tomorrow though (I got the first about two weeks ago) so I will post about that tomorrow evening. Grades in law school suck. I'm definitely not looking forward to going back now...but I'll post more about that later. If anyone has any ideas about the counter, please let me know. |
4,068,174 | female | 13 | indUnk | Aries | 30,July,2004 | urlLink lonely house.. urlLink |
4,068,174 | female | 13 | indUnk | Aries | 29,July,2004 | YESSSSSS!!!! Finally, my endless, usually futile cracks at this scanning stuff is SUCCESSFULL!!! yipeee... haha. Hope you like the pics..~ame. |
4,068,174 | female | 13 | indUnk | Aries | 29,July,2004 | urlLink back of my sketchbook.. urlLink |
4,068,174 | female | 13 | indUnk | Aries | 29,July,2004 | Yay got the (blasted) scanner working.. haha.. My first scanner pic from my sketchbk... hope y'all like it.. does anyone know how to turn the pic into HTML form and put it in the sidebar?? I'm real lousy at this template thing. Actually, i'm real lousy at the whole blimmin' blog.. urgh. So someone help ok? I'll put up my tagboard soon-- that i can do, cos it has the HTML stuff.. tagtagtagtagtag i am going nuts. OOPS the blasted pic isn't here.. can't activate the Hello Bloggerbot rubbish thing yet... see i told you blogs are aggravating!! |
4,068,174 | female | 13 | indUnk | Aries | 29,July,2004 | I'm going crazy with the blog thing!!!! Ok i know i'm extremely lousy at this blog business, but.. COUD SOMEONE HELP ME WITH: 1) adding contacts!! 2) changing the blasted skin (using blogskin)... Yes yes you're probably laughing at my un-blogginess but i mean, i didn't use a blog for like a million years!!!! So HELP ME!!!!! ASAP!!! I got no time to add tagboard yet (should i use flooble or tagboard?? tagboard seems more reliable you know) so give me your answers like in school can????? I'M DYING HERE... Thanks a ton... :P Hopefully when i get better at this miserable blog-of-a-thing, i may scan the pics i draw into the com and post it here!! Haha that will probably take another million years. Maybe 5 million. Oh well.. GBYa'll! thanksthanksthanks: ame.. |
4,068,174 | female | 13 | indUnk | Aries | 29,July,2004 | I STILL don't get it. Why's everyone so hyped about this blog business?! Ok i know i have a blog too (ya well) but still... i mean, this is a stupid, lame, wuliao, nasty pasttime, doing blogs and all. I'm just doing this for..er.. fun. If there even IS fun in doing this rubbish.. ANOTHER THING!!! More annoying than blogs:::: friendster!!!!!!!!!! The moment you meet someone new and after they ask what your name is, they immediately ask 'DO YOU HAVE FRIENDSTER??!?!' It annnnnnoooooyyyyyyyyyyyyyssssssss....... i stress the word.. yeps. anyway i gotta scram now so tata! :P vc. + |
4,068,174 | female | 13 | indUnk | Aries | 06,August,2004 | Aren't y'all happy? It's the HOLS!! But the prob is that we all have the blasted PW hmwk and other homework right?? sigh... I think i'm going KL tomorrow, so i'll be missing Youth Alpha, jiaen and liany! Sigh again. Hm listening to Linkin Park's Session, i think the drums are really good!! i got the Linkin Park files from my older sister's desktop: my sis claims no one can hack into her desktop to gain access to her personal files.. BUT I DID!! I rock, don't i? hooboy i hope my sis doesn't see this entry. She'll murder me till the cows come home..haha.. Okay i gotta run now, my sister just came out to get a cup of water (it's 10:30 now, btw.) and suppose she hears the (rather loud) LP music i'm blasting.. Whew she just walked in and walked out without noticing anything! A miracle! I wonder how that happ--oh she has her iPod earplugs on.. sheesh she's like addicted to that little white contraption. Ya so the point is, i don't really like iPods!! urgh. The second point is that i needa go to sleep now and put on those dastardly night-contacts now.. bye! |
4,068,174 | female | 13 | indUnk | Aries | 03,August,2004 | At long last, the horrible tb is in! It's a great accomplishment for a close-to-nonblogger person like me ok. Can't scan anything, i'm in the school library now..Freezing to death, i tell you. But it's not as cold as the swimming lesson today, my teeth was audibly chattering! I am not exaggerating. Argh the stupid library com's keyboard is so LOUD when you type! Urgh...I'm half-studying for german test today, half-typing this rubbish thing..ow i think an eyelash is in my eye. Don't ask me why i'm using pink... just tryin' out all the colours la. Btw have you guys done your hmwk? Hmm wait there is no hmwk.. Ooh i really have to study no, it's 2:56pm & i needa read my txtbk pronto before i fail..Ow i plucked the eyelash from my eye. 2 eyeleashes, in fact. Gonna sign off in GREEEN!! haha. Ok folks, tata and gd luck for Thursday's (awful, disgusting, diametrically utterly despicable in all eyes except teachers'...) Geog and Science test... Bleaugh. so ya.. bye!! [P.S.Jiaen loves ac! Jiaen don't kill me, which i think you will but never you mind. :P do i rock or what?] |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 30,September,2002 | Today is my first post. Of course it is. Em, I thought this would be an interesting thing to start. Maybe it will help me thru some of my issues. Just not sure that I want anyone reading this at all. I've had a stressful few weeks. My daughter just started daycare. I am scared somewhat. I hate trusting people. I've been pretty depressed. I keep realizing how alone I am. I just wish, I had someone to love me. Or at least a good friend to hang out with once in a while. All I do here is work, sleep, talk on the net and go to school. It's beginning to really suck. Well, it has sucked for a long time, I'm just realizing how bad it is. Least I don't have to deal with Wil much, cuz he started working. I've had a lot of anger issues lately. Wish I didn't, wish I could control it. I want to get therapy or something, but I've very scared. Scared of change I guess. Scared that people will find out what goes on in my head. It's not a good thing most the time. Just so many bad things happened to me, when I was young, and the people should of been punished, and they haven't. I guess that is just what I want. To give me closure. I don't want this guy to do things to his daughters now that he has some. I fear for things like these daily. Especially for my daughter. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 27,October,2002 | Ok, well the other day... I wrote a whole lot of touchy feely things here, and knowing my luck, the computer at work, messed up as i was trying to Post & Publish it. Oh well... Well her I come to write again. I don't much to say, though. I am not doing so good. I'm not feeling well,and I'm getting nervous..and stuff about moving. My car is still not fixed, I really haven't done anything. Big problem is money though. Not sure I have enough. And what happens if I have trouble getting an apartment. I keep dreading that. I am going to have to live in a shitty litte apartment. And pay most of my money to daycare. My car will die, and I will be stuck again. I am so scared. I just wish, that I had someone around to love and support me. I am beginning to hate my life here. I do know, though, that things will get better. I have yet to call most my family and tell them I'm moving. I guess that I should do that tommorrow. Well I dont have anything else to say that would be productive, so I will shut up now. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 19,October,2002 | Em, It's been a while since I've wrote here... on my website. WELL, with all the bad things that have happened to me lately, some good things are finally starting to come thru. I'm moving out of the apartment that I share with Wil. I can't handle living with him. He makes me want to be violent. That is NOT my good side. I went on a date with Shane yesterday, it was same old.. same old. He picked me up at Hobby Lobby, and I seriously thought we were going out.. going out.. But we went back to his.. house. The same house, he told me that he had moved out of. Everything he said, didnt' make sense. Oh.. well he told.. me.. oh, he's been single since December, and that.. he didn't really date any girls, just hung out with them a while. YEAH!! well that is what he does with me. I can just imagine how many other girls, he has over. He always, seems to want to demand, me to do something. Then, after a while, I think he gets sick of hearing me say no, and that is when.. he says..he has a meeting, or has to go to work. Oh well. I didnt' want to date him .. I just wanted to get someone else off my mind. It doesn't seem to be working. All the nice guys, seem to be married(or dating) or gay. I'm not sure I understand this. It's crazy. Every guy I meet, is either, crazy, clingy.. or married. With the exception of one. Well, and maybe he is crazy. But I'm crazy too, so I guess that part doesn't matter. I guess it's the degree of craziness. I can't believe I am finally moving out. I'm so nervous and scared. I hope things go alright. I have so many things to do this week. You should hear Wil, he's been so evil lately. I think he has a major mental problem. Oh, well, soon enough.. not my problem. I just hope Darian does alright... I don't want to break her heart. I know this will hurt her. As long as Wil acts civil though, he can see her. Well, I need to get off this.. thing, and write a letter to my brother, and a friend..and do some homework. Wish anyone that reads this.. a great day. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 07,October,2002 | Well, today was uneventful. The best thing that really happened today, was I got to chat briefly with a friend that was out of town for a few days. I enjoy, his company(although brief) very much. I've had a rough weekend.. I guess you would call it that. Thursday and Friday I had off. School was Thursday. I did ok on my test. My essay is going ok also. Friday I went to Wellington. Wil finally let me use his car. The drive down was nice. Very pleasant. Meeting my friend was great also. She's very very nice. Saturday I had to work. That was fun also. I got to hang out talking to Michael most of the day. And also got to talk to Mickey for a little bit. I had not seen him all week. Work is usually the highlight of my days. Some strange things happened in the last few days. I'm not sure what to do about it. These things happened between me and Wil. I think he wants to get back together. I have no desire to do so. I want someone to truely love me. Someday I will find that. I think I will be breaking his heart. He's been telling me that he loves me for like three days. And I just shrug him off and say, Yes.. I know. Well not sure what else to write. Today was my Grandmother's Birthday. I can't believe I didn't remember. I never remember important things. With the exception of today, I have been much happier. I am trying not to dwell on what I can't have, and just work on what I do have. I'm still losing weight.. this makes me so happy. I fit into the pants.. from my mom, that I didnt' fit into three years ago(almost) when she bought them. I have reached my first goal. I can't wait.. till I lose about 30 more pounds.. I will look sooo hot. Oh, wait.. I already do.. Well I will end this here and now. I am going to get offline. I think Darian may have just went to sleep. :) |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 02,October,2002 | Well not sure how my day went today. I guess that is was ok. Not that great. Not that bad. Work was tiring, and boring at the same time. I had a guy yell at me, and say that he wanted to talk to someone else, so when I was transferring him, he hung up. Laughs, that is typical of men like that. I still have not contacted that guy. The one that likes me so much, but I don't trust him. And so far, he has not called me either. That is a good thing. The other guy, the one I like so much, and doesn't like me. Well that is uneventful. As usual. I guess it's not a matter of him not liking me. I think there are other reasons for the way he acts. None of which I will mention, because they will make me seem paranoid. I think. I have school, tommorrow. Oh NO. Hopefully I will have time to work on my essay. Still don't know if I can get Friday off. I wish I could find out soon. I really want to take it off. I'm still pissed. I found out today for sure, the temps are getting paid more than me. It sucks. Everyone agrees I should take it up to with my boss. I dunno... what to think. I hate .. I dunno. I know I deserve to make more money, but in the same breath.. I don't want to rattle anyones chains. Especially since this... was supposed to be a secret and not told to anyone. I guess I will stop writing now, and get my butt to bed. I hope to have lovely dreams of possibly falling in love. I had some neat dreams last nite (or the nite before) of my wonderful flying acrobats. Those dreams are also fun. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 01,October,2002 | Another day, another dollar. I got upset on the way home from work, because the temps are getting paid as much as I am. I've put in almost a year with Viking. And I tell myself.. it's ok, Julie, you of all people know life is NOT fair. Oh well. So why does it piss me off so? Um.. I have no idea. I get home tonite.. and think... Oh.. I can have a snack, no such luck. All the good snacks are eaten all up. It only took them two days this time. Least they gave me a chance so I could have some earlier today. I am mad at myself for putting Darian in a group with Wil. She's picking up all his bad habits. That guy came over today. His intentions were the same I believe. He didn't explain anything to me at all. It wasn't a bad visit though. I was nice to feel some affection. Hard to stave him off though. Least he knows that I don't trust him. Although I couldn't begin to tell him, why or.. why I did not want to date him. Um.. He's too agressive. I feel shy and reserved around him, maybe somewhat scared. I guess scared really isnt' the word. I don't what is the right word. I also think about this other guy too much. When I go to sleep, when I wake... any time I have a chance. It's hard on me. I wish I could just forget, and make my life easier. He is so unforgettable though. I know that he will never change his mind. But I wish he that he could. I keep telling myself, that it's ok, and then he pops into my head again. It's almost like a nightmare. I am so unprepared for my test, and for finishing my essay. I guess I should work on them tommorrow. If only I have the time. The.. idiot guy, wants to see me again... and I didn't outright say no. I should of... but I didn't. So who knows, he will probably call. I am hoping not, I'm hoping he will just forget. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 18,November,2002 | I had some crazy dreams last nite. I dreamt that Jenn was visiting me, and I was too busy and lost track of time. I was almost 2 hours late for work so I kept trying to dial the number and.. it wouldnt work.. I kept miss dialing.. . I never did get thru.. but.. I tried for over a half hour. I was crazy. Things are going ok.. I keep telling myself.. to not see Matt again. Im really pissed. I dont know what to think. Some girl was on his messenger last nite.. named Rachel.. and she was talking to me.. while he was playing a game. Should I want to date him? (um.. maybe) Should I even try? (NO) let him come to me.. if he wants something. He needs to call me. I guess.. overall it is just his loss. I am trying to move on already. If he wants to see me, that will be fine. But Ive changed my mind and wont take a day off for him. Anyway.. it is hard. It sucks Well.. work is going good. I need to quit surfing the net and work on my homework. I guess the first step on this is to quit typing here. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 13,November,2002 | Well.. I'm back.. back again.. Um.. things are going better. Having a nice time here at Susan's house. Not sure what to do about getting an apartment though. I'm going crazy. I really don't want to pay for a storage unit another month. Reminds me.. I need to give them my new address. I think I'm receiving mixed signals from Matt. He seems a little stand offish.. but always I'ms me immediately upon my arrival online. I dont' get men. Um.. I just .. well.. I really would like to date him.. I think( he's not the only one.. but anyway) But.. I dunno what to think. I think Matt just came online.. and .. he did.. and he I'med me already. Um.. he was kind of iffy though when I asked him.. to go to the movies with me Sunday. I guess we will see. Well.. I thought.. i would have a good nite.. and go to bed early.. but Darian woke up.. so I'm sure I will have a hell of a time. I also finally got my first Draft of my essay done. I hve a feeling I will be printing off my final draft right before class.. I am going to try and make it to the writing center tomorrow for help.. I just hope Wil will be around to babysit for me. well I'm doing good on writing here more often. I guess it may also help with my writing skills. I also gave another friend the link to this.. so I will have more people reading this. Mostly .. I regret.. giving the link to one person.. ( I think) because then I can't write about him.. with out him knowing how i feel about him. I also clicked on this link from Michel blog.. and this is the link.. that it said I could publish.. I hope this works.. I'm a Sex on the Beach, urlLink discover your ALcoHoLiC personality! |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 10,November,2002 | I don't know what my problem is today. I can't stop crying. I walked into this room earlier.. and was glad that I removed the knifes from here a few days ago. I was under so much tension, and sadness, I wanted to hurt myself. I am somewhat glad there was not a knife within reach. I hate feeling like this. My life seems so hopeless. I am seriously contimplating... leaving after next semester of school.. going back to PA.. and try to be satisfied making 5.15 an hour at the local store. Can I be happy that way.? What do I really want in life? I want to be loved, and to fit in. I don't know that I will ever feel those things. I haven't allowed myself yet. I'm scared, today is part of my moving on. I hope I have enough money by the end of the month.. to move. I am doubting i will. I can't even find anything that I need. I hate this. I must go now.. I have a splitting headache. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 08,November,2002 | Overall, I had a good day. I just had to tell someone something, I did not want to tell him, but because I am an honest person. I had to tell him. I told him about my secret. The secret I only have to tell close people, that have an interest in having sex with me. I wish that there was not such thing as sex sometimes. I also initiated a strange conversation with another friend. Although, the response I got was strange.. I learned a few things. Well, back to the orginal someone. Now he says.. he will still come over, and that we can be friends... but no sex. I really don't want sex though.. I seem to go after it though. I don't know what I'm trying to prove. I just want to feel loved. I always go about it the WRONG way. Well this guy.. I sort of told him, I didnt' want to see him agian, and since I'm moving... and he's leaving in a few weeks... I'm not sure if I will. I guess we will see. I really like him, and right now my heart aches... I feel so sad. I guess I will go to bed now, and hope to dream... of maybe the cure to my sexual problem.. and to the rest of my problems. I want to dream only of happiness and love. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 08,November,2002 | Gosh, I haven't written in here in quite a while. Things are going pretty good. I'm about to move out. Having a little trouble letting go. I will miss the internet and my friends. It will be hard for me. I do have some other good news. No.. I did not win the lottery.. I'm still broke. :) Well, this guy, that I've been chatting with.. and actually I've been chatting for over a year I believe. Well, he just got back from Korea, (he's in the army). And he came and helped me move. He is really nice. I'm really attracted to him. It is nice to give and receive affection. I went over to his house today. It was very nice. Sweet, and he acts like such a gentleman. Not sure where this is going... but it doesn't seem like a bad thing. Not sure that I want something serious, because he will be leaving again soon. But.. having someone nice to spend time with is wonderful. I've been doing good in school also. Averaging A's & B's it seems. I have another essay to write. I'm worried about the move. I am paranoid, I will not have enough money. I will miss my friends online. They keep me sane. I will definately miss chatting with Michel nightly. Haven't seen him much this week though. I got my Box-address today. I got it at Mailboxes Etc. It was like 45 dollars.But it will work, for what I need it to work for. Can't wait to have my own apt. I feel like I will never have the money. I wish things were easier.. but that is life. Um.. I've skipped work all week. I have not been feeling that great. Well I am tired and shall go to bed... hopefully will keep up with my blog better... if at all possible. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 30,September,2003 | Sadness, always comes, when it is least wanted. Anger comes, when it is taunted. Happiness comes, as is should, wishing I had it, wishing I could give, all my love to you, so my heart can live. urlLink )' title='Comments by SquawkBox.tv'> javascript:SquawkBoxCount( ) |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 29,September,2003 | My sadness has come back. I can sometimes keep that positive attitude, but then days like this hit. I feel sad and tears in the edges of my eyes.. for most the day now. What is wrong with me? Does the medicine really help? I never know what to think. I don't know what to think on days like this. Now my gram is making me feel more sad, or I should say, I'm letting her make me feel sad. She is saying she isn't coming to D.'s birthday party. What a fucking crock of shit. Why do people have to be like that, for no reason. My gram is depressed herself. I am missing my C. He wasnt online today, that I know of. I stayed online till 15 after 3 and he didn't come online. I left him a message, saying please leave me a message if you are online or email me, and I haven't heard anything from him. It makes me sad and worried, especially after him being so upset yesterday about his sister. And I still don't know what all is going on with that. I hope all is alright. I wish he was here now though. His smile, his eyes, his loving words, could help cheer me up. I hate depression. I hate sadness. I know I need to expect it. It's not like it is even PMS either. I understand the sadness when that comes. But of of the blue I have the blues today. I was extremely anxious at the doctors today. But luckily he was very friendly and seemed down to earth. He is not the regular doctor at the center though, which kind of sucks. I had dreams my wheel of my car fell off last nite. I can't imagine anything like that happening. I need to get the oil changed and get my car looked at though. I hope to get that done soon. Well, I am feeling too sad to write any more today, so I will end my post here. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 29,September,2003 | A new day, brings new thoughts, new fears. I hope today is the best day, of my life, because I only want things to get better. I know it takes some hard work, and a lot of time. I know that I have discovered my true love. I know it to be true. Thru all the disagreements, I've never felt I don't love him. A year ago, I would of never thought, that C. and I would become so close. I feel it was meant to be. I know we will be together soon, and I can't wait until that first moment, my first moment in my wonderland. NO, I am not Alice... I am Jae :) Note to self: I have to start working out again, I'm gaining weight. blah! |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 28,September,2003 | Wow, it's too early for me to be up, but I had to get on and post, because last nite, Well I dreamt of my 'perfect' wedding. Well needless to say it was imperfect, but I was still happy, because I was with my love. I want to write this down, to see if I can find an interpertation of it later: Starts out that my whole family goes there, by that , I basically mean my sisters, A., her fiance, and baby Jaz, and S., my other sister. So we fly to Europe( I suppose so that part wasn't in the dream). We are at C.'s flat, which in the dream is more like a huge loft. And I hardly see C. while we are there. We basically make ourselves at home, and show ourselves around. We talk briefly with C.'s sister, and neice. Then the wedding day comes. We are in our dresses, running around like chickens with our head cut off, and I haven't any nice shoes.. I look around and around.. and shop (at a store convienantly located in the house, and find nothing.. so I basically end up wearing some old shoes I had that were like slippers and white. And then, we have no flowers or decorations, so we use some flowers that C. has in his house, and the same for decorations. We get married, and it looks like a zoo, no organization at all, but we look happy. Then afterwards, C is on a bicycle and wanting to ride down the hill, and I hop on the bicycle with him, and we race down the hill. ( I am thinking .. WTF.. and laughing at the same time) Also some things that happen in the dream, is that D. gets sick, and some guy I know, supposedly in the dream, a Doctor, comes to fix her up. I get this bad feeling and stop him. In the meantime someone has called the cops. We find out he was trying to poison her. It was very scary. Then, part of the dream we find out C. had a twin brother.. (who looks nothing like him) this guy is raggedy and apparently he is always in the basement, working. I figured he's either a strange artist or a slave in the dream. Then, something I forgot, before C. and I ride off on the bicycle, we talk to his uncle. His uncle wants to buy this book, apparently an antique, and C. says he can have it for 15 dollars.. Uncle opens the book and laughs, saying it is worth much more. C. just shruggs, uncle hands him some money, and C. hands it to me. I start counting the money, it is much more than 15 dollars. That is all I can remember of the dream right now, but maybe later some more will come to me. I got to get going, got a long day ahead of me. I am going to school with D. to help with the kids on the bus. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 28,September,2003 | I hate the pain of life, of living. These are the time, I sometimes wish I was dead. I can't stand the emotions, that flutter thru my mind, my soul, my heart. I don't know how to handle the pain. I don't know what to say. I don't know how to share. I just want it all to stop. I can probably say I am doing better in my life, because I am NOT going to kill myself today. I will have to fight the feeling though. It will be hard... It is extremely overwhelming now. I told C. over the weekend about the whole thing with I. I didn't know how he'd reacte, and I guess even though I told him, I still don't know. He's always so quiet. I guess I use sarcasm more than I've ever realized. He pointed that out to me, so I will have to learn to note that to myself, so I can try to change that bad habit. It hurts though. I don't like feeling stupid. I feel that we are argueing, and then he says things I don't understand. Now I am about in tears, trying to cry for fear of letting it hurt more. This is something I will always remember, C. Says 'i've never regreted whatever i've been doing in my life so far', then says 'please,...PLEASE,don't make me this time' And I say, 'please what honey?' and then it hits me.. he is talking about us.. and our relationship. and then I say' Regret what? us?'and he says yes. I feel like I was just stabbed in the chest. I'm about in tears. I only fear the tears because my grandma and daughter are in the next room, and I don't want to share my pain with them. I am starting to think maybe getting off the meds was a bad idea. Now I am thinking more clearly, and I keep more things in my head and I don't like this. I don't like feeling this pain. At least with the medication I was mostly numb. I don't know how to handle stress. I don't know how to live in the real world. How do I do it, How do I survive. Survive without the knifes, the blades, and pills. I'm hoping writing is the key, writing and sharing. So far it is starting to work, but it can't solve all my problems. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 27,September,2003 | Anyway, more of a happy post, I went to see Michels blog.. and from there linked to his friends blog and took a personality test, and this is my result: The Exhibitionist urlLink The ULTIMATE personality test brought to you by urlLink Quizilla Pretty neat, You should go take the test. I love fun stuff like this, keeps my mind off the shitty stuff in life. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 26,September,2003 | So, what to think, what to do I have no idea. I feel my best friend, JB, should know these things going on, but is it my place to tell her. I don't want to be the bad guy. I., her husband, was trying to hit on me again. And right in front of his nephew. I was like WTF, what a creep. He actually was good to JB most of the day. He helped some with the kids, something I have never seen him do. But then, when we all were back at the house, with the family, he says in a mean tone... 'JB, Put those kids to be, before my brother gets here., Go in the room and put them to bed.' Her children are 2 and 6 months, and he hardly helps, I don't know how she deals with it. Everyone says marriage is different, but I know that mine will. I know my husband will take more of a part in our childrens life, and of D.'s. I find that he would be like this, because he loves them, and me. If a father is limitedly involved like I. is with his kids, what the fuck kind of father is that. I raised D., on my own, and she knows I loved her. If her father was part of her life, and acted like I. does.. I would tell him to leave, because it would help her if he was gone more than it hurt her. I find in some ways I will have a lot of adjusting to do, because I am not used to anyone helping. I do know that C. and I will have a lot of open communication, and that when things don't work the way they should, that we will talk about it. Right now I am missing C. so much. I am wishing I was in his arms. Between the events of today, and being exhausted(partly because of meds) and partly emotionally exhausted because of the events the last few days, I am being pretty lonely, and wishing that C. was here right now. I would love to be looking in to his sexy brown eyes, and feeling his arms around me as we kiss. :) Emotionally I am pretty drained, I shared with C., many things I thought he should know, that were hard for me to tell. I can say he did take them well, but the conversation hurt our feelings a bit. I just so wanted him to know these things, so he could take a step back and to make sure this is what he really wanted, was me .. and D. I think he loves D. as much as he loves me, if not more. The way he acts towards her is so precious. She acts about the same though. She thinks C. is great, and she can't wait till he comes to America. :) Only a few more days on the Effexor. Partial called and hopefully I will start the hospital next week, that will be great. I could really use the support. Only thing that sucks though, is missing my talks with C. We will survive though. :) As the deer walks thru the forest, I hear the wind brush over the leaves, Water dripping over rocks, A cool, fresh breeze. Life is so precious, Always meant to be, I'll tell you my dreams, and show you, One day you will see. I will show you rainbows, sorrow and joy, I will show you love, without being coy. I will kiss your precious lips, I will show you love, Almost like a rainbow, and a flying dove. Love is something special always meant to be, Love is something great, Just like you and me. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 26,September,2003 | I hate this feeling. The sadness the shame. Months ago, when I couldn't figure out what was happening to me, I became close with my best friends husband. Too close, and I couldn't stop him at the time, because I was scared, alone, and because having attention felt good. I made a mistake, and am still living with it. I am crying as I type this, because now, I have told C. and I feel like he has no understanding of the situation. I was so fucked up back in June. I cried whenever I was alone. I could not stand it. I let his words go thru my mind, because I trusted him, and he wasn't to be trusted. What do I do? I mean, he tells me he is only with my friend now because of the kids. What kind of marriage is that? My friends deserves so... so much more. But I don't want to be the reason they are not together. I want her to see for herself. Last nite, he tried to kiss me, he tried to basically molest me. I repeated told him no, and he still didn't get it until I called him an asshole. He seriously, although, I have pushed him away repeatedly, thinks I want to fuck him. I didn't want to in the first place, but it happened. I can't change the past, I can only make the future different. I refuse to let the feelings I have defeat me again. I will not cut myself to make things better, I will not cry when I am alone. I will figure this out oneday. I just hope it is oneday soon. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 24,September,2003 | Wondering Wondering, It seems all that I do, Why do I have to always wonder about you? I do not want to, I want to try, to stop wondering why? I had a pretty uneventful nite. The things that happen right now, I can not talk about. I am in Pittsburgh now, visiting my best friend. I will update more, when I get back to my home and my own space, so I can right more freely. I'm still in a good mood, doing good despite the fact that I have forgoten my meds from this morning, and took them at 3pm. I have only a few more days and I am off the Effexor. :) I am getting currently upset by C. I am talking to him on MSN, and I am feeling that he doesn't trust me, because my uncle was on my yahoo messenger of something. I just don't understand what is going on in his head. I wish I could understand more. Oh well, I guess men and women were not meant to understand each other all the time. I do love him so much. The feeling of us together makes me feel so happy. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 24,September,2003 | You think of your best friends, and you wonder what has changed over the years. So much has changed, yet we still stay in touch... why? Is it some internal obligation we feel. I love them, but I don't feel the love from them like I used to. I mentioned to my best friend S. that we don't talk as much as we used to, and she didn't quite understand. I guess I felt bad, when she didn't understand, cuz it was hard for me to say in the first place. I spent the weekend with her, and some of it was like old times. It's just maybe it is me, I'm not as open with her as I used to be. We both have so many problems, problems we don't know how to solve. I wish that we both find our true happiness someday. I know, in my heart that we will. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 23,September,2003 | C., he officially asked me to marry him today. Then he started having all the worries of our future like I did. It was good to know that he had the same worries. Made me feel less crazy. He is just so wonderful, sometimes it doesn't real. Sometimes it feels so real. My daughter made me realize, I need to do what is going to make me happy, and to try and not worry of the future. SHe is very interested about babies, and I try to explain to her the best I can. SHe was talking about babies growing inside me, and I tried to explain to her, that there needed to be a daddy for me to have a baby. I told her I would hope to have more babies after I am married. She told me I could marry my boyfriend C., and that the builders could build us a house and we could all live together. It was very cute. She is always optimistic, and makes things seem so easy to do. It was just cute, I guess you had to be there to actually see it. I'm at the point now, where if we get along when we meet I don't feel I will have anxiety about getting married. I feel we communicate well, and can work thru anything if we really want to. This is what I've really always wanted was to be married, and to have my own family. I feel that if it isn't meant to be, I will change my mind beforewords. I have never gotten this close really to marriage. I am actually making plans. My gramma doesn't think it will happen, and if it doesn't it doesn't. I have made a wonderful understanding friend. He is a wondeful man. He has been here by my side, thru the worst in my life. I have so many things I feel I need to tell him. Things I rarely share with anyone. I know they won't change his mind about me, but it is something that needs to be said. I am having one of those headaches again. Trying not to take my meds, cuz I only have one pill left. I am about to break down though. I went to bed with a headache, and since I had a rough nite. My horn on my car woke me up twice last nite, cuz apparently it shorted... and was going off insistently. I still have that headache. I hate this feeling. I had more dreams last nite. Can't remember quite what they were right now. I don't like these dreams much. I am almost off the Effexor though, down to 75 mg. Only a week or so to go. Still trying to get into a day program at the hospital, I have a lot of work to do on myself. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 23,September,2003 | A new life, but not a new blog. Kind of partial to this one. I have started a new life recently, and also decided to write a book about my whole life. So what better than this blog to help organize my thoughts for my book. Part of my whole new life is shaving my head. I have shaved it three times. I went thru a phase where I wasnt growing or getting better like I planned but worse. Now I have come to realize so many things, and am letting my hair grow, and my life is growing with it. I am starting to heal. I have a long journal, and many paths and dead ends along the way. I have been on alot of medications, and currently trying to get off. I want my mind to be clear. I have recently fallen in love. C, well I love him dearly, he has been a great support to me thru all this. We do have our ups and downs, but when I speak and chat with him, I am overjoyed with love and affectionate feelings. It feels good, to know someone loves me. JP has also helped me thru this. I write to him when I feel down. Most people don't think he is really a good person, but I know in his heart he is. He would give his life for his loved ones. He has led a troubled life like myself, only he never really had any LOVE or SUPPORT at all. I hope to go and see him soon. Sort of as a closure, to the love we had... because I am moving on with my life. I have to move on soon, and make a place for myself, I am almost strong enough. I few more weeks or months, will tell. I will know, I will feel it in my heart when I am ready. Until then, I will just stay put. Hard, but tolerable. I will end this tonite, mostly because I am tired and have a long day tommorrow. I am helping A help herself, which is a good thing. But it means I have to get up early. Blah, definately not a morning person. More updates about my life in the last (almost year) tommorrow. :) Till then, I go to bed with a big smile on my face, because I know tommorrow will be a good day. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 26,October,2003 | urlLink )' title='Comments by SquawkBox.tv'> javascript:SquawkBoxCount( ) I don't know what to really type here. I'm on the edge. I want to die, but I don't. I can't deal with my life. I feel the only way out of this pain is death. How do normal people deal with this? I want to go into the hospital. I have to, I don't know if anyone will listen though. I have noone to take care of Darian. I don't know what to do. I wish I had someone to hold me and love me. I need that right now, more than anything in the world. Why does living have to be so hard. Why are there no rewards? I NEED HELP. I pray.. please help me. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 22,October,2003 | urlLink )' title='Comments by SquawkBox.tv'> javascript:SquawkBoxCount( ) I don't know how to deal with my gram. I wish I did. She is so intolerable. She purposely picks fights, I think that is how she feels loved. I told her tonite... if she wanted me to leave all she had to do was say so. She drives me up a wall. BItching for an hour on what to have for dinner. I didn't want any dinner, I am not hungry, nor feeling good. BItching because I swore in front of my daughter. That is my business, not hers. I hate being here. I know Darian feels the stress, but I still don't know what to do or say. I don't belong here, I know that. I am just soo tired, this is the second day of tiredness.. (well half the day yesterday) earlier in the day yesterday, I worked my butt off, and Gram of course didnt appreciate it. Also today is the third day for my headache. I wish they would go away. I guess that is life. Today, in group, they asked me all kinds of questions about my relationship with C. I answered them all. I realistically believe C. and I are meant to be together, and that we can have a healthy relationship. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 20,October,2003 | urlLink )' title='Comments by SquawkBox.tv'> javascript:SquawkBoxCount( ) Again, the moodiness..going from feeling ok.. to miserable.. but.. I'm trying to cope a little better. Talked to my mom and stepdad today, and hopefully they are going to do the paperwork I need done.. for C. to come up. I am hoping..they acted like they would fill it out. Crossing my fingers. I feel that C. and I will be great together, and I want to share my life with him. I've missed him today. We missed each other online. I had an errand to do, and then I forgot to do something and I had to go back to Bradford. I was so mad. I got that game returned though. Thank goodness. I get to go on a field trip with Darian to a farm. Hope I am feeling better tommorrow. I had one of my headaches today. Darian will be sleepy, she was up late tonite. I feel bad.. cuz she is cranky and sleepy. I feel it has something to do with the tensions of living here. I wish I could do something. Well I am off for the nite, trying to get my email to work. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 19,October,2003 | urlLink )' title='Comments by SquawkBox.tv'> javascript:SquawkBoxCount( ) I hate going from feeling ok.. to feeling miserable, because of the way I take peoples words and attitudes. My gramma is always dogging me. SHe blamed me for my aunt not calling, cuz my aunt is talking to me online. Her throat hurts. My gram just ignores me. What do I do. I have been trying to do what i've learned of my coping skills. It doesn't help. I have tears in my eyes.. and my heart hurts. Hurts from the pain. I can't stand it. My thoughts then go to dying, to cutting. I know I can control that. .. but they thoughts, they border obsessive... they won't go away when I feel like this. I need to be held, I need to feel loved. I don't feel loved here. I hate that my grandmother acts this way. I know I can't change her.. but I don't know why I should sit here and take this. I have nowhere else to go though. I just want to curl up in a ball and die. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 17,October,2003 | urlLink )' title='Comments by SquawkBox.tv'> javascript:SquawkBoxCount( ) Not sure what to say about today. I tried to sooth my anger that I felt towards my grandmother. I feel it more and more. I do not like the anger I feel. I wish I could do something, something to make it easier here. Things with C. and I are going good. I've missed him this weekend, we didn't really talk much this weekend. I can't wait for him to be here though. I just wish I could do the paperwork myself, instead of having to ask someone else to do it for me. IT SUCKS. Tommorrow I will be going to Darian's school. That will be fun. The love I cherish, The love I see, It is right there.. waiting for me.. Waiting for me, To be free, Of this pain, I hold inside me. The pain I hold, wants to leave, I feel it inside, I want to believe I want to believe, That the pain is gone, I can't feel it now, but it will be back before long. |
902,615 | female | 25 | indUnk | Aquarius | 17,October,2003 | urlLink )' title='Comments by SquawkBox.tv'> javascript:SquawkBoxCount( ) I took this test.. I found it funny, and well i'm prolly going to the 7th level of hell, because I answered that I do not believe in God. That is prolly a big one. Check it out!! The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell! Here is how you matched up against all the levels: Level Score urlLink Purgatory (Repenting Believers) Moderate urlLink Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) High urlLink Level 2 (Lustful) High urlLink Level 3 (Gluttonous) Moderate urlLink Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Very Low urlLink Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) Low urlLink Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) Very Low urlLink Level 7 (Violent) High urlLink Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) Moderate urlLink Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) Low Take the urlLink Dante's Inferno Hell Test |
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