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rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrl1spg | hrjnnus | 1,641,523,942 | 1,641,504,165 | 33 | 20 | Architecture school doesn’t prepare you for being a practicing architect at all | Concrete and glass squares are BORING! Watching architecture shows of homes is like "oh wow... yet another stark and cold concrete block bunker... how novel." I want to feel cozy at home, not like I'm in a parking garage with floor to ceiling windows. | 1 | 19,777 | 1.65 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrl1spg | hrkd25y | 1,641,523,942 | 1,641,513,730 | 33 | 20 | Architecture school doesn’t prepare you for being a practicing architect at all | I don’t care for Zaha Hadid and Frank Gehry. Their styles are visually impressive, but ugly AF if you ask me. | 1 | 10,212 | 1.65 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrknqbs | hrl1spg | 1,641,518,076 | 1,641,523,942 | 20 | 33 | Greek revival columns do not belong on cheap 90s/00s cookie cutter houses | Architecture school doesn’t prepare you for being a practicing architect at all | 0 | 5,866 | 1.65 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hriuncn | hrl1spg | 1,641,493,515 | 1,641,523,942 | 20 | 33 | I hate the bowtie/scarf, frizzy hair, and round glasses look. | Architecture school doesn’t prepare you for being a practicing architect at all | 0 | 30,427 | 1.65 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrl1spg | hrj8ge7 | 1,641,523,942 | 1,641,498,557 | 33 | 17 | Architecture school doesn’t prepare you for being a practicing architect at all | Licensure is a total racket, and we are not as important as doctors and lawyers. | 1 | 25,385 | 1.941176 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrl1spg | hrjamia | 1,641,523,942 | 1,641,499,348 | 33 | 16 | Architecture school doesn’t prepare you for being a practicing architect at all | I hate how people act like really old buildings look beautiful just bc its old. No it sucks. | 1 | 24,594 | 2.0625 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrkftqm | hrk044n | 1,641,514,846 | 1,641,508,731 | 29 | 27 | Glass is overused. That’s it that’s all I have to say | I love brutalism. | 1 | 6,115 | 1.074074 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hringzq | hrkftqm | 1,641,490,916 | 1,641,514,846 | 26 | 29 | 40% of global carbon emissions come from architects. It is therefore our duty as architects to use this risk as an opportunity to build back better, more efficient and technologically advanced buildings that promote value-added economic growth, rather than perpetuate the folly infinite, unregulated growth on a finite planet. We can and should embrace micro solar models of production, passivhaus models of consumption and enforce these with building codes. | Glass is overused. That’s it that’s all I have to say | 0 | 23,930 | 1.115385 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrkftqm | hrkcyqq | 1,641,514,846 | 1,641,513,692 | 29 | 24 | Glass is overused. That’s it that’s all I have to say | The profession and its approach to design needs to be more understood by the layman in order to be better appreciated, and better compensated. A lot of good architecture ideas simply cannot be understood by the majority of people because it just has a way too complicated way of talking about something, possibly stemming from the kind of in depth blend of philosophy/grand political idea and design a lot of schools tend to lean towards. At the same time, the practical things in the job we should be respected for, like the execution of building law, control of public safety and project management is heavily suppressed in favour of artist complex, and in my opinion it is because of this that our professional salary is stagnant. We need to find a way to make explanation of space and execution of design clear and concise for the layman to understand without feeling like we are just babbling, and to make our essential roles more apparent, not just design for everything. | 1 | 1,154 | 1.208333 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrkftqm | hrjz3ov | 1,641,514,846 | 1,641,508,354 | 29 | 21 | Glass is overused. That’s it that’s all I have to say | New “sustainable” buildings cost more in natural resources than they make up in operational savings. We shouldn’t build new at all while we have a vast supply of existing building stock that can be improved, and we should never demo a building unless it’s literally a danger to the public. | 1 | 6,492 | 1.380952 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrkftqm | hrjnnus | 1,641,514,846 | 1,641,504,165 | 29 | 20 | Glass is overused. That’s it that’s all I have to say | Concrete and glass squares are BORING! Watching architecture shows of homes is like "oh wow... yet another stark and cold concrete block bunker... how novel." I want to feel cozy at home, not like I'm in a parking garage with floor to ceiling windows. | 1 | 10,681 | 1.45 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrkftqm | hrkd25y | 1,641,514,846 | 1,641,513,730 | 29 | 20 | Glass is overused. That’s it that’s all I have to say | I don’t care for Zaha Hadid and Frank Gehry. Their styles are visually impressive, but ugly AF if you ask me. | 1 | 1,116 | 1.45 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hriuncn | hrkftqm | 1,641,493,515 | 1,641,514,846 | 20 | 29 | I hate the bowtie/scarf, frizzy hair, and round glasses look. | Glass is overused. That’s it that’s all I have to say | 0 | 21,331 | 1.45 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrj8ge7 | hrkftqm | 1,641,498,557 | 1,641,514,846 | 17 | 29 | Licensure is a total racket, and we are not as important as doctors and lawyers. | Glass is overused. That’s it that’s all I have to say | 0 | 16,289 | 1.705882 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrkftqm | hrjamia | 1,641,514,846 | 1,641,499,348 | 29 | 16 | Glass is overused. That’s it that’s all I have to say | I hate how people act like really old buildings look beautiful just bc its old. No it sucks. | 1 | 15,498 | 1.8125 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrk044n | hringzq | 1,641,508,731 | 1,641,490,916 | 27 | 26 | I love brutalism. | 40% of global carbon emissions come from architects. It is therefore our duty as architects to use this risk as an opportunity to build back better, more efficient and technologically advanced buildings that promote value-added economic growth, rather than perpetuate the folly infinite, unregulated growth on a finite planet. We can and should embrace micro solar models of production, passivhaus models of consumption and enforce these with building codes. | 1 | 17,815 | 1.038462 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrk044n | hrjz3ov | 1,641,508,731 | 1,641,508,354 | 27 | 21 | I love brutalism. | New “sustainable” buildings cost more in natural resources than they make up in operational savings. We shouldn’t build new at all while we have a vast supply of existing building stock that can be improved, and we should never demo a building unless it’s literally a danger to the public. | 1 | 377 | 1.285714 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjnnus | hrk044n | 1,641,504,165 | 1,641,508,731 | 20 | 27 | Concrete and glass squares are BORING! Watching architecture shows of homes is like "oh wow... yet another stark and cold concrete block bunker... how novel." I want to feel cozy at home, not like I'm in a parking garage with floor to ceiling windows. | I love brutalism. | 0 | 4,566 | 1.35 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hriuncn | hrk044n | 1,641,493,515 | 1,641,508,731 | 20 | 27 | I hate the bowtie/scarf, frizzy hair, and round glasses look. | I love brutalism. | 0 | 15,216 | 1.35 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrj8ge7 | hrk044n | 1,641,498,557 | 1,641,508,731 | 17 | 27 | Licensure is a total racket, and we are not as important as doctors and lawyers. | I love brutalism. | 0 | 10,174 | 1.588235 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjamia | hrk044n | 1,641,499,348 | 1,641,508,731 | 16 | 27 | I hate how people act like really old buildings look beautiful just bc its old. No it sucks. | I love brutalism. | 0 | 9,383 | 1.6875 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjz3ov | hrkcyqq | 1,641,508,354 | 1,641,513,692 | 21 | 24 | New “sustainable” buildings cost more in natural resources than they make up in operational savings. We shouldn’t build new at all while we have a vast supply of existing building stock that can be improved, and we should never demo a building unless it’s literally a danger to the public. | The profession and its approach to design needs to be more understood by the layman in order to be better appreciated, and better compensated. A lot of good architecture ideas simply cannot be understood by the majority of people because it just has a way too complicated way of talking about something, possibly stemming from the kind of in depth blend of philosophy/grand political idea and design a lot of schools tend to lean towards. At the same time, the practical things in the job we should be respected for, like the execution of building law, control of public safety and project management is heavily suppressed in favour of artist complex, and in my opinion it is because of this that our professional salary is stagnant. We need to find a way to make explanation of space and execution of design clear and concise for the layman to understand without feeling like we are just babbling, and to make our essential roles more apparent, not just design for everything. | 0 | 5,338 | 1.142857 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjnnus | hrkcyqq | 1,641,504,165 | 1,641,513,692 | 20 | 24 | Concrete and glass squares are BORING! Watching architecture shows of homes is like "oh wow... yet another stark and cold concrete block bunker... how novel." I want to feel cozy at home, not like I'm in a parking garage with floor to ceiling windows. | The profession and its approach to design needs to be more understood by the layman in order to be better appreciated, and better compensated. A lot of good architecture ideas simply cannot be understood by the majority of people because it just has a way too complicated way of talking about something, possibly stemming from the kind of in depth blend of philosophy/grand political idea and design a lot of schools tend to lean towards. At the same time, the practical things in the job we should be respected for, like the execution of building law, control of public safety and project management is heavily suppressed in favour of artist complex, and in my opinion it is because of this that our professional salary is stagnant. We need to find a way to make explanation of space and execution of design clear and concise for the layman to understand without feeling like we are just babbling, and to make our essential roles more apparent, not just design for everything. | 0 | 9,527 | 1.2 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hriuncn | hrkcyqq | 1,641,493,515 | 1,641,513,692 | 20 | 24 | I hate the bowtie/scarf, frizzy hair, and round glasses look. | The profession and its approach to design needs to be more understood by the layman in order to be better appreciated, and better compensated. A lot of good architecture ideas simply cannot be understood by the majority of people because it just has a way too complicated way of talking about something, possibly stemming from the kind of in depth blend of philosophy/grand political idea and design a lot of schools tend to lean towards. At the same time, the practical things in the job we should be respected for, like the execution of building law, control of public safety and project management is heavily suppressed in favour of artist complex, and in my opinion it is because of this that our professional salary is stagnant. We need to find a way to make explanation of space and execution of design clear and concise for the layman to understand without feeling like we are just babbling, and to make our essential roles more apparent, not just design for everything. | 0 | 20,177 | 1.2 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrkcyqq | hrj8ge7 | 1,641,513,692 | 1,641,498,557 | 24 | 17 | The profession and its approach to design needs to be more understood by the layman in order to be better appreciated, and better compensated. A lot of good architecture ideas simply cannot be understood by the majority of people because it just has a way too complicated way of talking about something, possibly stemming from the kind of in depth blend of philosophy/grand political idea and design a lot of schools tend to lean towards. At the same time, the practical things in the job we should be respected for, like the execution of building law, control of public safety and project management is heavily suppressed in favour of artist complex, and in my opinion it is because of this that our professional salary is stagnant. We need to find a way to make explanation of space and execution of design clear and concise for the layman to understand without feeling like we are just babbling, and to make our essential roles more apparent, not just design for everything. | Licensure is a total racket, and we are not as important as doctors and lawyers. | 1 | 15,135 | 1.411765 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjamia | hrkcyqq | 1,641,499,348 | 1,641,513,692 | 16 | 24 | I hate how people act like really old buildings look beautiful just bc its old. No it sucks. | The profession and its approach to design needs to be more understood by the layman in order to be better appreciated, and better compensated. A lot of good architecture ideas simply cannot be understood by the majority of people because it just has a way too complicated way of talking about something, possibly stemming from the kind of in depth blend of philosophy/grand political idea and design a lot of schools tend to lean towards. At the same time, the practical things in the job we should be respected for, like the execution of building law, control of public safety and project management is heavily suppressed in favour of artist complex, and in my opinion it is because of this that our professional salary is stagnant. We need to find a way to make explanation of space and execution of design clear and concise for the layman to understand without feeling like we are just babbling, and to make our essential roles more apparent, not just design for everything. | 0 | 14,344 | 1.5 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjnnus | hrjz3ov | 1,641,504,165 | 1,641,508,354 | 20 | 21 | Concrete and glass squares are BORING! Watching architecture shows of homes is like "oh wow... yet another stark and cold concrete block bunker... how novel." I want to feel cozy at home, not like I'm in a parking garage with floor to ceiling windows. | New “sustainable” buildings cost more in natural resources than they make up in operational savings. We shouldn’t build new at all while we have a vast supply of existing building stock that can be improved, and we should never demo a building unless it’s literally a danger to the public. | 0 | 4,189 | 1.05 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hriuncn | hrjz3ov | 1,641,493,515 | 1,641,508,354 | 20 | 21 | I hate the bowtie/scarf, frizzy hair, and round glasses look. | New “sustainable” buildings cost more in natural resources than they make up in operational savings. We shouldn’t build new at all while we have a vast supply of existing building stock that can be improved, and we should never demo a building unless it’s literally a danger to the public. | 0 | 14,839 | 1.05 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrj8ge7 | hrjz3ov | 1,641,498,557 | 1,641,508,354 | 17 | 21 | Licensure is a total racket, and we are not as important as doctors and lawyers. | New “sustainable” buildings cost more in natural resources than they make up in operational savings. We shouldn’t build new at all while we have a vast supply of existing building stock that can be improved, and we should never demo a building unless it’s literally a danger to the public. | 0 | 9,797 | 1.235294 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjamia | hrjz3ov | 1,641,499,348 | 1,641,508,354 | 16 | 21 | I hate how people act like really old buildings look beautiful just bc its old. No it sucks. | New “sustainable” buildings cost more in natural resources than they make up in operational savings. We shouldn’t build new at all while we have a vast supply of existing building stock that can be improved, and we should never demo a building unless it’s literally a danger to the public. | 0 | 9,006 | 1.3125 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrj8ge7 | hrjnnus | 1,641,498,557 | 1,641,504,165 | 17 | 20 | Licensure is a total racket, and we are not as important as doctors and lawyers. | Concrete and glass squares are BORING! Watching architecture shows of homes is like "oh wow... yet another stark and cold concrete block bunker... how novel." I want to feel cozy at home, not like I'm in a parking garage with floor to ceiling windows. | 0 | 5,608 | 1.176471 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjamia | hrjnnus | 1,641,499,348 | 1,641,504,165 | 16 | 20 | I hate how people act like really old buildings look beautiful just bc its old. No it sucks. | Concrete and glass squares are BORING! Watching architecture shows of homes is like "oh wow... yet another stark and cold concrete block bunker... how novel." I want to feel cozy at home, not like I'm in a parking garage with floor to ceiling windows. | 0 | 4,817 | 1.25 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrkd25y | hrj8ge7 | 1,641,513,730 | 1,641,498,557 | 20 | 17 | I don’t care for Zaha Hadid and Frank Gehry. Their styles are visually impressive, but ugly AF if you ask me. | Licensure is a total racket, and we are not as important as doctors and lawyers. | 1 | 15,173 | 1.176471 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjamia | hrkd25y | 1,641,499,348 | 1,641,513,730 | 16 | 20 | I hate how people act like really old buildings look beautiful just bc its old. No it sucks. | I don’t care for Zaha Hadid and Frank Gehry. Their styles are visually impressive, but ugly AF if you ask me. | 0 | 14,382 | 1.25 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrknqbs | hrj8ge7 | 1,641,518,076 | 1,641,498,557 | 20 | 17 | Greek revival columns do not belong on cheap 90s/00s cookie cutter houses | Licensure is a total racket, and we are not as important as doctors and lawyers. | 1 | 19,519 | 1.176471 | ||
rxj97q | architecture_train | 0.94 | What are some of your unpopular opinions about Architecture? Care to share? | hrjamia | hrknqbs | 1,641,499,348 | 1,641,518,076 | 16 | 20 | I hate how people act like really old buildings look beautiful just bc its old. No it sucks. | Greek revival columns do not belong on cheap 90s/00s cookie cutter houses | 0 | 18,728 | 1.25 | ||
bwd810 | architecture_train | 0.84 | [ask] i failed studio i'm a Y1 undergrad who just finished semester 2 (S2). results were released officially today and my studio master gave me a D+. the problem is, my university requires us to obtain a C grade minimum in order to take the next semester's studio, so i'm one grade away. i received an email informing me that i would have to retake Y1S2 studio in 2020, and in the mean time i can't progress to Y2S1's studio. they actually sent me information telling me about how my fees would be affected because i would have to delay graduation. i'm not sure what to do. i actually did decently in Y1S1, got a 4.2 GPA out of 5. this totally took me by surprise today. i knew i would get a bad grade in studio, because i had an incomplete model for final crit and well i didn't cope very well this semester. but i didn't expect that i wouldn't earn a grade good enough to even progress to next semester's studio. i'm not sure if i should switch major or if i should just stay back a year and actually redo studio. i have never heard of anyone redoing studio before, or even anyone receiving a grade below a C before. not that it's something i would hear about because it's not something people would broadcast. honestly i think anyone who does usually just drops out. if i switch major, at least i might be able to graduate as scheduled. i am passionate about architecture, but not sure if i'm passionate enough to add another 30k to my debt in order to delay graduation and retake studio. if i were to switch major, i would probably switch to mechanical engineering, psychology or PPE. please share your thoughts and advice. would really appreciate it. thanks! | epx6ek2 | epyjtmw | 1,559,593,122 | 1,559,639,015 | 1 | 3 | Shit happens, try again next year. | Hey! I'm in the same situation. I'm about to go back to school myself. I chose to continue my b.arch, and if you're really passionate about it, I would suggest you do the same. I know school debt is daunting, but if you like architecture, paying loans back while you're actually working in the field would be way less miserable than paying back whatever you might owe now while in a different career field. I'm not sure if that makes sense, but basically, your happiness is ultimately what's important. Sounds like you know what you're doing when you finish your work, it's just finishing it that's the challenge. I was literally in the same boat. I was in the top 5 of my class when I finished projects, but I got overwhelmed with a lot of different things the semester before I took a break. You can take classes in the mean time to minor in psych or PPE. Hope that wasn't too hard to follow. lol | 0 | 45,893 | 3 | ||
8inee9 | architecture_train | 0.78 | [ask] Am I cut out for Architecture school if I failed Calculus? Or didn't have enough math in Undergrad? And that math in general is not my forte? I am an artist and I love to draw, additionally I can very quickly pick up new software and learn how to use it effectively. But this is about my math skills, which are currently terrible. One of the biggest reasons I chose my undergrad degree at all was specifically because of it's lack of math requirements in order to graduate. Thankyou | dyt5ck1 | dyt4z0r | 1,526,046,047 | 1,526,045,657 | 13 | 10 | You almost don't need any math for Architecture. Some basic math for preliminary structure calculations, that's it. | Algebra, not calculus, would be enough to pass any courses in the architecture program. Unless it's like my school, where you have a mandatory, stand-alone calculus course like CALC1. So you should check the curriculum for whichever school you're applying to! | 1 | 390 | 1.3 | ||
8inee9 | architecture_train | 0.78 | [ask] Am I cut out for Architecture school if I failed Calculus? Or didn't have enough math in Undergrad? And that math in general is not my forte? I am an artist and I love to draw, additionally I can very quickly pick up new software and learn how to use it effectively. But this is about my math skills, which are currently terrible. One of the biggest reasons I chose my undergrad degree at all was specifically because of it's lack of math requirements in order to graduate. Thankyou | dyt5ck1 | dyt2900 | 1,526,046,047 | 1,526,042,533 | 13 | 5 | You almost don't need any math for Architecture. Some basic math for preliminary structure calculations, that's it. | Yes, absolutely. Source - Architecture student, second year. It will be harder only on maths, but not much anyway. Everything is fixed with a little bit of extra studying. | 1 | 3,514 | 2.6 | ||
8inee9 | architecture_train | 0.78 | [ask] Am I cut out for Architecture school if I failed Calculus? Or didn't have enough math in Undergrad? And that math in general is not my forte? I am an artist and I love to draw, additionally I can very quickly pick up new software and learn how to use it effectively. But this is about my math skills, which are currently terrible. One of the biggest reasons I chose my undergrad degree at all was specifically because of it's lack of math requirements in order to graduate. Thankyou | dyt36mx | dyt5ck1 | 1,526,043,687 | 1,526,046,047 | 3 | 13 | It depends on your undergrad program. Higher math will be important during structures and maybe materials class (energy loss or acoustic/lighting calcs). Generally calculus isn't terribly important for the minutia of code review/programming, but if you have the basics that should be ample. I have folks working that are horrible at math, can't spell worth a damn, couldn't turn on a computer in a dark room, and have never touched a code book, but they can charm clients and come up with a wide variety of great ideas on the spot. We all bring different talents to the profession. It is a group sport, there are very little architects doing it all themselves. Play to your strengths while figuring out how to exploit your weaknesses in a positive way (know when to bring in an expert/ask for help). You should be fine. If your program has its sheet together you would be doing structures and material science projects as part of design studio, so the practical application of the theory would make more sense and you would better understand not only how to do something, but why you would do it in a certain manner. Luckily there are quite a few helpful sources online and check to see if your department has a mentorship program with a higher year level so you have someone to go pester for help. If your department offers a graduate program, they should have some folks on hand for mentoring (teaching something is a great way to really learn it). | You almost don't need any math for Architecture. Some basic math for preliminary structure calculations, that's it. | 0 | 2,360 | 4.333333 | ||
8inee9 | architecture_train | 0.78 | [ask] Am I cut out for Architecture school if I failed Calculus? Or didn't have enough math in Undergrad? And that math in general is not my forte? I am an artist and I love to draw, additionally I can very quickly pick up new software and learn how to use it effectively. But this is about my math skills, which are currently terrible. One of the biggest reasons I chose my undergrad degree at all was specifically because of it's lack of math requirements in order to graduate. Thankyou | dyt2900 | dyt4z0r | 1,526,042,533 | 1,526,045,657 | 5 | 10 | Yes, absolutely. Source - Architecture student, second year. It will be harder only on maths, but not much anyway. Everything is fixed with a little bit of extra studying. | Algebra, not calculus, would be enough to pass any courses in the architecture program. Unless it's like my school, where you have a mandatory, stand-alone calculus course like CALC1. So you should check the curriculum for whichever school you're applying to! | 0 | 3,124 | 2 | ||
8inee9 | architecture_train | 0.78 | [ask] Am I cut out for Architecture school if I failed Calculus? Or didn't have enough math in Undergrad? And that math in general is not my forte? I am an artist and I love to draw, additionally I can very quickly pick up new software and learn how to use it effectively. But this is about my math skills, which are currently terrible. One of the biggest reasons I chose my undergrad degree at all was specifically because of it's lack of math requirements in order to graduate. Thankyou | dyt4z0r | dyt36mx | 1,526,045,657 | 1,526,043,687 | 10 | 3 | Algebra, not calculus, would be enough to pass any courses in the architecture program. Unless it's like my school, where you have a mandatory, stand-alone calculus course like CALC1. So you should check the curriculum for whichever school you're applying to! | It depends on your undergrad program. Higher math will be important during structures and maybe materials class (energy loss or acoustic/lighting calcs). Generally calculus isn't terribly important for the minutia of code review/programming, but if you have the basics that should be ample. I have folks working that are horrible at math, can't spell worth a damn, couldn't turn on a computer in a dark room, and have never touched a code book, but they can charm clients and come up with a wide variety of great ideas on the spot. We all bring different talents to the profession. It is a group sport, there are very little architects doing it all themselves. Play to your strengths while figuring out how to exploit your weaknesses in a positive way (know when to bring in an expert/ask for help). You should be fine. If your program has its sheet together you would be doing structures and material science projects as part of design studio, so the practical application of the theory would make more sense and you would better understand not only how to do something, but why you would do it in a certain manner. Luckily there are quite a few helpful sources online and check to see if your department has a mentorship program with a higher year level so you have someone to go pester for help. If your department offers a graduate program, they should have some folks on hand for mentoring (teaching something is a great way to really learn it). | 1 | 1,970 | 3.333333 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itze7di | itzju6y | 1,666,875,225 | 1,666,877,868 | 129 | 135 | OP, you just give a chronology of your career, but no motivations or aspirations. Why did you become an architect? Why did you push through the difficulties of school? What are your long term goals? If life’s taught me anything, it’s that it’s almost never “too late” for something. And if it is, that door closed while another one opened. Compared to so many other professions, architecture can be a grind with the pay, hours, and opportunities, but I hope you can find your core inspiration again and not let your past hold your future captive. https://youtu.be/SemHh0n19LA | I’m just here to say, you are only 34, time is completely on your side. You have some great experience, some great education and some great self-knowledge. Take a deep breath, you can totally turn this around. I didn’t begin studying architecture at all until I was 39 and I didn’t begin working until I was 45. | 0 | 2,643 | 1.046512 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzdpba | itzju6y | 1,666,874,976 | 1,666,877,868 | 66 | 135 | 1 you are still young. 2 try freelancing, maybe a project you finish on your own will help boost you. 3 do your own projects, draw sketches, CAD, 3d model all that. keeps you sharp, | I’m just here to say, you are only 34, time is completely on your side. You have some great experience, some great education and some great self-knowledge. Take a deep breath, you can totally turn this around. I didn’t begin studying architecture at all until I was 39 and I didn’t begin working until I was 45. | 0 | 2,892 | 2.045455 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzjn35 | itzju6y | 1,666,877,780 | 1,666,877,868 | 58 | 135 | As someone who has also had to navigate this profession while struggling with mental health issues, you need to get professional help. Start with speaking to your GP and look up any free mental health resources in your area. | I’m just here to say, you are only 34, time is completely on your side. You have some great experience, some great education and some great self-knowledge. Take a deep breath, you can totally turn this around. I didn’t begin studying architecture at all until I was 39 and I didn’t begin working until I was 45. | 0 | 88 | 2.327586 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itze7di | itzdpba | 1,666,875,225 | 1,666,874,976 | 129 | 66 | OP, you just give a chronology of your career, but no motivations or aspirations. Why did you become an architect? Why did you push through the difficulties of school? What are your long term goals? If life’s taught me anything, it’s that it’s almost never “too late” for something. And if it is, that door closed while another one opened. Compared to so many other professions, architecture can be a grind with the pay, hours, and opportunities, but I hope you can find your core inspiration again and not let your past hold your future captive. https://youtu.be/SemHh0n19LA | 1 you are still young. 2 try freelancing, maybe a project you finish on your own will help boost you. 3 do your own projects, draw sketches, CAD, 3d model all that. keeps you sharp, | 1 | 249 | 1.954545 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzy3s2 | itznjrj | 1,666,883,728 | 1,666,879,460 | 37 | 19 | You need help from a medical professional before anything. You are describing dark thoughts, depression and other mental health issues. Getting burnt out again will not help. Your career can absolutely be fixed but you need to get well first. | A lot of the better CMs I’ve worked with were ex architects. I would look at some of the larger CM firms like CBRE, JLL, etc and think about transitioning over. It’s a fairly easy transition from what I’ve been told, and the work life balance is among the better in this industry. Good luck. | 1 | 4,268 | 1.947368 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzy3s2 | itzrsgg | 1,666,883,728 | 1,666,881,216 | 37 | 16 | You need help from a medical professional before anything. You are describing dark thoughts, depression and other mental health issues. Getting burnt out again will not help. Your career can absolutely be fixed but you need to get well first. | You are not alone my internet friend. Please try to get treatment for your ADHD as soon as you can. ADHD causes not only your executive function issues, but it can be adding to your anxiety/depression. If you are in the states, maybe consider a career in a local or state building department as a plans examiner. Depending on the state you might not need to be a licensed design professional, just have the degree and experience in architecture. You won’t have to deal with clients or design, just short-term assignments with clear deadlines (something good for us ADHD folks). The pay is usually decent and the retirement benefits good. | 1 | 2,512 | 2.3125 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzy3s2 | itzuv5v | 1,666,883,728 | 1,666,882,436 | 37 | 7 | You need help from a medical professional before anything. You are describing dark thoughts, depression and other mental health issues. Getting burnt out again will not help. Your career can absolutely be fixed but you need to get well first. | Dude, are you me? I’m also 34, started academia 2006, burnt out, depressed, and nothing to show for professionally. Every degree took at least a year longer than planned but hey, it doesn’t matter how long it takes as long as you get there, right? Never had a job longer than a year before quitting. I applied for a PhD position two years ago and got it, but the stress is killing me. At this pace I’m not gonna finish in time. Fuck me. | 1 | 1,292 | 5.285714 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzy3s2 | itzqcxa | 1,666,883,728 | 1,666,880,630 | 37 | 5 | You need help from a medical professional before anything. You are describing dark thoughts, depression and other mental health issues. Getting burnt out again will not help. Your career can absolutely be fixed but you need to get well first. | start learning about meditation. The root of the problem is deeper. The things that have happened are the fruit of a deeper issue. | 1 | 3,098 | 7.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzrsgg | itzqcxa | 1,666,881,216 | 1,666,880,630 | 16 | 5 | You are not alone my internet friend. Please try to get treatment for your ADHD as soon as you can. ADHD causes not only your executive function issues, but it can be adding to your anxiety/depression. If you are in the states, maybe consider a career in a local or state building department as a plans examiner. Depending on the state you might not need to be a licensed design professional, just have the degree and experience in architecture. You won’t have to deal with clients or design, just short-term assignments with clear deadlines (something good for us ADHD folks). The pay is usually decent and the retirement benefits good. | start learning about meditation. The root of the problem is deeper. The things that have happened are the fruit of a deeper issue. | 1 | 586 | 3.2 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu050d7 | iu0nh5h | 1,666,886,420 | 1,666,893,554 | 11 | 16 | I’m not an architect, but I’ll present an unpopular, contrary opinion. Maybe you’re not cut out for this and better off doing something else in a related field? It doesn’t sound like architecture makes you happy. Don’t let the sunk cost effect get you down. All that matters to do whatever makes the rest of your life better right now, not influenced by the last 16. sorry to be blunt. Ps- get some treatment for your mental health before you make any major decisions. Getting a third degree in a field you’re dissatisfied with seems like folly to me. | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | 0 | 7,134 | 1.454545 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzuv5v | iu0nh5h | 1,666,882,436 | 1,666,893,554 | 7 | 16 | Dude, are you me? I’m also 34, started academia 2006, burnt out, depressed, and nothing to show for professionally. Every degree took at least a year longer than planned but hey, it doesn’t matter how long it takes as long as you get there, right? Never had a job longer than a year before quitting. I applied for a PhD position two years ago and got it, but the stress is killing me. At this pace I’m not gonna finish in time. Fuck me. | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | 0 | 11,118 | 2.285714 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0nh5h | iu06fjr | 1,666,893,554 | 1,666,886,977 | 16 | 7 | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | You cannot grow if you shame yourself. Be proud of your accomplishments! You have worked very hard to get where you are today despite the obstacles, and remember that this is just the morning of your life. I know all of this probably sounds formulaic and annoying, but I swear that as soon as you start being a little easier on yourself, things start looking up | 1 | 6,577 | 2.285714 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0nh5h | iu05pyd | 1,666,893,554 | 1,666,886,700 | 16 | 5 | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | Hi there! I was in your position a few years ago. I couldn’t afford to get my masters in architecture and it ended up being a blessing in disguise. I now do product design. The first step is to get medicated now (if you can). I started on adderall and it fixed 50% of what you wrote up there. After you’re medicated, life will get easier. You’ll think clearer, everything won’t feel like such a burden anymore. You’ll have a quieter brain. Lastly, I would either go into teaching or UX. It has been good to me. | 1 | 6,854 | 3.2 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0nh5h | iu05yyo | 1,666,893,554 | 1,666,886,799 | 16 | 5 | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | I feel you OP. Life can be super hard and unsatisfying at times, often long stretches. I went to music school and am a professional musician and at 34 I am now working a starter job at Walmart (back room hard work, heavy lifting for 10 hours a day) with managers nearly half my age lol. It’s all good though because I have been working my ass off there going above and beyond and my bosses are definitely noticing. The entire culture of my department has changed a lot since I’ve been there and we transformed from one of the worst in the state to one of the best. It’s not what I dreamed of doing as a kid.. but I find satisfaction in it anyways. I know that as long as I can stick around and keep up the work ethic I will be able to transform my life for the better and I’m ok with it. | 1 | 6,755 | 3.2 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0nh5h | iu0djwj | 1,666,893,554 | 1,666,889,733 | 16 | 5 | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | I am in a similar place. Starting talk therapy has been enormously helpful. Getting the underlying issues a little bit more under control will help you start to get out of your own way. None of the top comments are addressing the underlying mental health issues. I think that is an oversight. Start by learning more about yourself and growing. You will be able to make better decisions once you have a more stable and healthy mindset. | 1 | 3,821 | 3.2 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0gv1x | iu0nh5h | 1,666,891,015 | 1,666,893,554 | 5 | 16 | Have you ever read up on OCPD? Toxic perfectionism, procrastination & regular burn out is very common for those of us with this condition. | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | 0 | 2,539 | 3.2 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzqcxa | iu0nh5h | 1,666,880,630 | 1,666,893,554 | 5 | 16 | start learning about meditation. The root of the problem is deeper. The things that have happened are the fruit of a deeper issue. | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | 0 | 12,924 | 3.2 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu04wt1 | iu0nh5h | 1,666,886,382 | 1,666,893,554 | 3 | 16 | Do you have an equivalent to at least one year of full time work experience in the industry? Because if so - you most likely qualify for immigration to Canada through the skilled worker category. With your education, English skills and experience it should be relatively easy for you to get that approved and get a decent mid-level architecture position in Canada. Just make sure you put together a portfolio that combines your school projects and professional work. It doesn’t have to be very long 5-6 projects should be more than enough. And don’t worry too much about having unbuilt projects, it’s not that important unless you want to get a job doing construction admin. I’ve also been in the profession for a long time - almost 15 years and still struggling through some aspects of it. While I’ve had some pretty good jobs I’m still not done my M.Arch and have probably another 3 years to go. But a lot of my colleagues also took almost at decade to finish their schooling and most people don’t even become a license architect until they’re in their 40s or later. It is a tough career so don’t feel bad about being behind because chance are you’re not compared to most other people. However you do have to ask yourself if you actually find satisfaction in this career because it does take a lot of will power to stick through it. Best of luck. | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | 0 | 7,172 | 5.333333 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0nh5h | iu0lld6 | 1,666,893,554 | 1,666,892,834 | 16 | 3 | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | I don't see any failures just possibly insurmountable obstacles. you haven't really done anything wrong. here I thought you had designed a building that wasn't to standard and people had been injured or died or had done something professionally unethical. it does not appear that you have done anything unethical. you have circumstances that are hard due to immigration and personal/ family issues. | 1 | 720 | 5.333333 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0nh5h | itzys4z | 1,666,893,554 | 1,666,883,990 | 16 | 2 | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | As cliché as it sounds, you can try to go into tech UI/UX. Its probably one of the lower barriers of entry with decent pay. Also same as programming, there are resources to learn this online. Reason i am saying this is because UI/UX needs the same mix of art and problem solving - like industrial design. | 1 | 9,564 | 8 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0nh5h | iu04wbw | 1,666,893,554 | 1,666,886,377 | 16 | 2 | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | First and foremost, work on improving your mental health. That will make everything easier to accomplish. Next, try to understand what you want out of architecture. It sounds like you want to do the design part, but are less enthusiastic about the process of documenting a design to get it built. The reality is that no firm is going to put green hires into a lead design position, and almost all of us start doing grunt work and work our way into more parts of the process. A good employer will work with you to achieve your goals, but you also can take advantage of learning from the gruntwork- for instance, learn technical details from what you are drawing, try to understand what the design is trying to do and ask the leads about the process. Look up the requirements for licensing and use that as a guide to things you need to work on, even if you aren't planning to get licensed. It will give you some direction in a job and a way to approach your bosses about things you want and need to work on. Finally, not every firm is a good fit for a particular person. I love working in a small firm- I got to be part of the design process early on, and I wasn't simply a cog in a big machine. The work isn't as big and sexy as many large firms, but I was seeing results of my design input in built projects while friends at large firms were still detailing public restrooms. | 1 | 7,177 | 8 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0nh5h | iu06x53 | 1,666,893,554 | 1,666,887,167 | 16 | 2 | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | Only you have the power the change your circumstance here. It starts with changing the story you tell yourself. Your post shows that you are harboring a lot of negativity about yourself. You absolutely have to free your mind from this or this will become the norm. Try not to look to others for approval, your opinion of yourself is the one that matters first and foremost. In spite of your perceived failures, you have achieved a lot more than many many people who have lived on this planet. Your past is a series of step stones and learning that has led you to where you are today. | 1 | 6,387 | 8 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0c2u2 | iu0nh5h | 1,666,889,175 | 1,666,893,554 | 2 | 16 | What country are you from? | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | 0 | 4,379 | 8 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0dtr1 | iu0nh5h | 1,666,889,837 | 1,666,893,554 | 2 | 16 | Start a garden or find something that gives you joy and do that. | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | 0 | 3,717 | 8 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0dwkl | iu0nh5h | 1,666,889,866 | 1,666,893,554 | 2 | 16 | Ok, so a lot to unpack here but: Let's put your economic situation aside, and other personal circumstances. All of what you tried to achieve was technically achievable, therefore I would not share details with potential employers. Also - you're likely not overqualified - you've not had significant professional experience and just graduating does not make you qualified really. As for how to push this forward: short term seek to build up skills that are sought after for arch assistant roles: Revit, BIM related knowledge, general 3d modelling etc. Start building your professional career based on that. Be patient. All of the options you've outlined make sense but require at least some patience. Lack of it is worrying. I'd try looking into help, therapy, mentoring at the very least. In architecture you have to be good at self organising, focused, resilient, smart and good at what you're doing to achieve work life balance - and it's totally doable, but requires to put in effort to start, and it takes years. Good luck | Please don’t delete this post. Your story and the comments are going to help so many people. Me being one 💚 May all of us find happiness and success | 0 | 3,688 | 8 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzuv5v | iu050d7 | 1,666,882,436 | 1,666,886,420 | 7 | 11 | Dude, are you me? I’m also 34, started academia 2006, burnt out, depressed, and nothing to show for professionally. Every degree took at least a year longer than planned but hey, it doesn’t matter how long it takes as long as you get there, right? Never had a job longer than a year before quitting. I applied for a PhD position two years ago and got it, but the stress is killing me. At this pace I’m not gonna finish in time. Fuck me. | I’m not an architect, but I’ll present an unpopular, contrary opinion. Maybe you’re not cut out for this and better off doing something else in a related field? It doesn’t sound like architecture makes you happy. Don’t let the sunk cost effect get you down. All that matters to do whatever makes the rest of your life better right now, not influenced by the last 16. sorry to be blunt. Ps- get some treatment for your mental health before you make any major decisions. Getting a third degree in a field you’re dissatisfied with seems like folly to me. | 0 | 3,984 | 1.571429 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzqcxa | iu050d7 | 1,666,880,630 | 1,666,886,420 | 5 | 11 | start learning about meditation. The root of the problem is deeper. The things that have happened are the fruit of a deeper issue. | I’m not an architect, but I’ll present an unpopular, contrary opinion. Maybe you’re not cut out for this and better off doing something else in a related field? It doesn’t sound like architecture makes you happy. Don’t let the sunk cost effect get you down. All that matters to do whatever makes the rest of your life better right now, not influenced by the last 16. sorry to be blunt. Ps- get some treatment for your mental health before you make any major decisions. Getting a third degree in a field you’re dissatisfied with seems like folly to me. | 0 | 5,790 | 2.2 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu04wt1 | iu050d7 | 1,666,886,382 | 1,666,886,420 | 3 | 11 | Do you have an equivalent to at least one year of full time work experience in the industry? Because if so - you most likely qualify for immigration to Canada through the skilled worker category. With your education, English skills and experience it should be relatively easy for you to get that approved and get a decent mid-level architecture position in Canada. Just make sure you put together a portfolio that combines your school projects and professional work. It doesn’t have to be very long 5-6 projects should be more than enough. And don’t worry too much about having unbuilt projects, it’s not that important unless you want to get a job doing construction admin. I’ve also been in the profession for a long time - almost 15 years and still struggling through some aspects of it. While I’ve had some pretty good jobs I’m still not done my M.Arch and have probably another 3 years to go. But a lot of my colleagues also took almost at decade to finish their schooling and most people don’t even become a license architect until they’re in their 40s or later. It is a tough career so don’t feel bad about being behind because chance are you’re not compared to most other people. However you do have to ask yourself if you actually find satisfaction in this career because it does take a lot of will power to stick through it. Best of luck. | I’m not an architect, but I’ll present an unpopular, contrary opinion. Maybe you’re not cut out for this and better off doing something else in a related field? It doesn’t sound like architecture makes you happy. Don’t let the sunk cost effect get you down. All that matters to do whatever makes the rest of your life better right now, not influenced by the last 16. sorry to be blunt. Ps- get some treatment for your mental health before you make any major decisions. Getting a third degree in a field you’re dissatisfied with seems like folly to me. | 0 | 38 | 3.666667 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzys4z | iu050d7 | 1,666,883,990 | 1,666,886,420 | 2 | 11 | As cliché as it sounds, you can try to go into tech UI/UX. Its probably one of the lower barriers of entry with decent pay. Also same as programming, there are resources to learn this online. Reason i am saying this is because UI/UX needs the same mix of art and problem solving - like industrial design. | I’m not an architect, but I’ll present an unpopular, contrary opinion. Maybe you’re not cut out for this and better off doing something else in a related field? It doesn’t sound like architecture makes you happy. Don’t let the sunk cost effect get you down. All that matters to do whatever makes the rest of your life better right now, not influenced by the last 16. sorry to be blunt. Ps- get some treatment for your mental health before you make any major decisions. Getting a third degree in a field you’re dissatisfied with seems like folly to me. | 0 | 2,430 | 5.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu04wbw | iu050d7 | 1,666,886,377 | 1,666,886,420 | 2 | 11 | First and foremost, work on improving your mental health. That will make everything easier to accomplish. Next, try to understand what you want out of architecture. It sounds like you want to do the design part, but are less enthusiastic about the process of documenting a design to get it built. The reality is that no firm is going to put green hires into a lead design position, and almost all of us start doing grunt work and work our way into more parts of the process. A good employer will work with you to achieve your goals, but you also can take advantage of learning from the gruntwork- for instance, learn technical details from what you are drawing, try to understand what the design is trying to do and ask the leads about the process. Look up the requirements for licensing and use that as a guide to things you need to work on, even if you aren't planning to get licensed. It will give you some direction in a job and a way to approach your bosses about things you want and need to work on. Finally, not every firm is a good fit for a particular person. I love working in a small firm- I got to be part of the design process early on, and I wasn't simply a cog in a big machine. The work isn't as big and sexy as many large firms, but I was seeing results of my design input in built projects while friends at large firms were still detailing public restrooms. | I’m not an architect, but I’ll present an unpopular, contrary opinion. Maybe you’re not cut out for this and better off doing something else in a related field? It doesn’t sound like architecture makes you happy. Don’t let the sunk cost effect get you down. All that matters to do whatever makes the rest of your life better right now, not influenced by the last 16. sorry to be blunt. Ps- get some treatment for your mental health before you make any major decisions. Getting a third degree in a field you’re dissatisfied with seems like folly to me. | 0 | 43 | 5.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu1lj3x | iu0v9li | 1,666,906,859 | 1,666,896,559 | 7 | 5 | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | You need a therapist, dude. It sounds like you’re your own worst enemy and the “woe is me” self deprecation that is subtextually there in your post is really not helpful. | 1 | 10,300 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu1lj3x | iu05pyd | 1,666,906,859 | 1,666,886,700 | 7 | 5 | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | Hi there! I was in your position a few years ago. I couldn’t afford to get my masters in architecture and it ended up being a blessing in disguise. I now do product design. The first step is to get medicated now (if you can). I started on adderall and it fixed 50% of what you wrote up there. After you’re medicated, life will get easier. You’ll think clearer, everything won’t feel like such a burden anymore. You’ll have a quieter brain. Lastly, I would either go into teaching or UX. It has been good to me. | 1 | 20,159 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu1lj3x | iu05yyo | 1,666,906,859 | 1,666,886,799 | 7 | 5 | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | I feel you OP. Life can be super hard and unsatisfying at times, often long stretches. I went to music school and am a professional musician and at 34 I am now working a starter job at Walmart (back room hard work, heavy lifting for 10 hours a day) with managers nearly half my age lol. It’s all good though because I have been working my ass off there going above and beyond and my bosses are definitely noticing. The entire culture of my department has changed a lot since I’ve been there and we transformed from one of the worst in the state to one of the best. It’s not what I dreamed of doing as a kid.. but I find satisfaction in it anyways. I know that as long as I can stick around and keep up the work ethic I will be able to transform my life for the better and I’m ok with it. | 1 | 20,060 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0djwj | iu1lj3x | 1,666,889,733 | 1,666,906,859 | 5 | 7 | I am in a similar place. Starting talk therapy has been enormously helpful. Getting the underlying issues a little bit more under control will help you start to get out of your own way. None of the top comments are addressing the underlying mental health issues. I think that is an oversight. Start by learning more about yourself and growing. You will be able to make better decisions once you have a more stable and healthy mindset. | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | 0 | 17,126 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0gv1x | iu1lj3x | 1,666,891,015 | 1,666,906,859 | 5 | 7 | Have you ever read up on OCPD? Toxic perfectionism, procrastination & regular burn out is very common for those of us with this condition. | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | 0 | 15,844 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzqcxa | iu1lj3x | 1,666,880,630 | 1,666,906,859 | 5 | 7 | start learning about meditation. The root of the problem is deeper. The things that have happened are the fruit of a deeper issue. | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | 0 | 26,229 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu04wt1 | iu1lj3x | 1,666,886,382 | 1,666,906,859 | 3 | 7 | Do you have an equivalent to at least one year of full time work experience in the industry? Because if so - you most likely qualify for immigration to Canada through the skilled worker category. With your education, English skills and experience it should be relatively easy for you to get that approved and get a decent mid-level architecture position in Canada. Just make sure you put together a portfolio that combines your school projects and professional work. It doesn’t have to be very long 5-6 projects should be more than enough. And don’t worry too much about having unbuilt projects, it’s not that important unless you want to get a job doing construction admin. I’ve also been in the profession for a long time - almost 15 years and still struggling through some aspects of it. While I’ve had some pretty good jobs I’m still not done my M.Arch and have probably another 3 years to go. But a lot of my colleagues also took almost at decade to finish their schooling and most people don’t even become a license architect until they’re in their 40s or later. It is a tough career so don’t feel bad about being behind because chance are you’re not compared to most other people. However you do have to ask yourself if you actually find satisfaction in this career because it does take a lot of will power to stick through it. Best of luck. | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | 0 | 20,477 | 2.333333 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu1lj3x | iu0lld6 | 1,666,906,859 | 1,666,892,834 | 7 | 3 | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | I don't see any failures just possibly insurmountable obstacles. you haven't really done anything wrong. here I thought you had designed a building that wasn't to standard and people had been injured or died or had done something professionally unethical. it does not appear that you have done anything unethical. you have circumstances that are hard due to immigration and personal/ family issues. | 1 | 14,025 | 2.333333 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu1lj3x | itzys4z | 1,666,906,859 | 1,666,883,990 | 7 | 2 | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | As cliché as it sounds, you can try to go into tech UI/UX. Its probably one of the lower barriers of entry with decent pay. Also same as programming, there are resources to learn this online. Reason i am saying this is because UI/UX needs the same mix of art and problem solving - like industrial design. | 1 | 22,869 | 3.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu04wbw | iu1lj3x | 1,666,886,377 | 1,666,906,859 | 2 | 7 | First and foremost, work on improving your mental health. That will make everything easier to accomplish. Next, try to understand what you want out of architecture. It sounds like you want to do the design part, but are less enthusiastic about the process of documenting a design to get it built. The reality is that no firm is going to put green hires into a lead design position, and almost all of us start doing grunt work and work our way into more parts of the process. A good employer will work with you to achieve your goals, but you also can take advantage of learning from the gruntwork- for instance, learn technical details from what you are drawing, try to understand what the design is trying to do and ask the leads about the process. Look up the requirements for licensing and use that as a guide to things you need to work on, even if you aren't planning to get licensed. It will give you some direction in a job and a way to approach your bosses about things you want and need to work on. Finally, not every firm is a good fit for a particular person. I love working in a small firm- I got to be part of the design process early on, and I wasn't simply a cog in a big machine. The work isn't as big and sexy as many large firms, but I was seeing results of my design input in built projects while friends at large firms were still detailing public restrooms. | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | 0 | 20,482 | 3.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu06x53 | iu1lj3x | 1,666,887,167 | 1,666,906,859 | 2 | 7 | Only you have the power the change your circumstance here. It starts with changing the story you tell yourself. Your post shows that you are harboring a lot of negativity about yourself. You absolutely have to free your mind from this or this will become the norm. Try not to look to others for approval, your opinion of yourself is the one that matters first and foremost. In spite of your perceived failures, you have achieved a lot more than many many people who have lived on this planet. Your past is a series of step stones and learning that has led you to where you are today. | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | 0 | 19,692 | 3.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu1lj3x | iu0c2u2 | 1,666,906,859 | 1,666,889,175 | 7 | 2 | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | What country are you from? | 1 | 17,684 | 3.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu1lj3x | iu0dtr1 | 1,666,906,859 | 1,666,889,837 | 7 | 2 | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | Start a garden or find something that gives you joy and do that. | 1 | 17,022 | 3.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0dwkl | iu1lj3x | 1,666,889,866 | 1,666,906,859 | 2 | 7 | Ok, so a lot to unpack here but: Let's put your economic situation aside, and other personal circumstances. All of what you tried to achieve was technically achievable, therefore I would not share details with potential employers. Also - you're likely not overqualified - you've not had significant professional experience and just graduating does not make you qualified really. As for how to push this forward: short term seek to build up skills that are sought after for arch assistant roles: Revit, BIM related knowledge, general 3d modelling etc. Start building your professional career based on that. Be patient. All of the options you've outlined make sense but require at least some patience. Lack of it is worrying. I'd try looking into help, therapy, mentoring at the very least. In architecture you have to be good at self organising, focused, resilient, smart and good at what you're doing to achieve work life balance - and it's totally doable, but requires to put in effort to start, and it takes years. Good luck | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | 0 | 16,993 | 3.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu1lj3x | iu0y67g | 1,666,906,859 | 1,666,897,695 | 7 | 2 | I got a bachelors in architecture and learned with my first job that I didn’t really enjoy architecture practice, I liked school and loved doing the projects but a lot different than real architecture practice. Anyway I work in construction management now hahahah started as an assistant project manager. Life is funny but I guess my advice is just find a job that you don’t completely dread and that leaves you with plenty of time to do what you love. For me it just wasn’t it. Too much work lol | You sound like me. I only found out around the age of 48 that I had ADHD. I have 3 degrees in 3 different fields and can do each field well, but get so bored with my work so fast (all 3 are on the creative side but not art in itself). If I did not have a loving husband with a steady job, I would not have been able to start my own company. Without his degree in engineering, the company would also not be as valuable. My advice to you is that people with ADHD have a knack for finding work and being entrepreneurs. We struggle to stay the course and we get bored fast, but once we get that one that sticks, it really sticks. Get on some meds and find therapy. I have and it has really helped me get back on my feet after I was unemployed for 5 years and back in school with baby sitting on the side for 6. If meds and therapy is not available because of medical insurance or something like that in your country go to youtube and watch "How to ADHD" to at least understand yourself and your inclinations better and to find inexpensive tips to get back on your feet. | 1 | 9,164 | 3.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzqcxa | itzuv5v | 1,666,880,630 | 1,666,882,436 | 5 | 7 | start learning about meditation. The root of the problem is deeper. The things that have happened are the fruit of a deeper issue. | Dude, are you me? I’m also 34, started academia 2006, burnt out, depressed, and nothing to show for professionally. Every degree took at least a year longer than planned but hey, it doesn’t matter how long it takes as long as you get there, right? Never had a job longer than a year before quitting. I applied for a PhD position two years ago and got it, but the stress is killing me. At this pace I’m not gonna finish in time. Fuck me. | 0 | 1,806 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu05pyd | iu06fjr | 1,666,886,700 | 1,666,886,977 | 5 | 7 | Hi there! I was in your position a few years ago. I couldn’t afford to get my masters in architecture and it ended up being a blessing in disguise. I now do product design. The first step is to get medicated now (if you can). I started on adderall and it fixed 50% of what you wrote up there. After you’re medicated, life will get easier. You’ll think clearer, everything won’t feel like such a burden anymore. You’ll have a quieter brain. Lastly, I would either go into teaching or UX. It has been good to me. | You cannot grow if you shame yourself. Be proud of your accomplishments! You have worked very hard to get where you are today despite the obstacles, and remember that this is just the morning of your life. I know all of this probably sounds formulaic and annoying, but I swear that as soon as you start being a little easier on yourself, things start looking up | 0 | 277 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu05yyo | iu06fjr | 1,666,886,799 | 1,666,886,977 | 5 | 7 | I feel you OP. Life can be super hard and unsatisfying at times, often long stretches. I went to music school and am a professional musician and at 34 I am now working a starter job at Walmart (back room hard work, heavy lifting for 10 hours a day) with managers nearly half my age lol. It’s all good though because I have been working my ass off there going above and beyond and my bosses are definitely noticing. The entire culture of my department has changed a lot since I’ve been there and we transformed from one of the worst in the state to one of the best. It’s not what I dreamed of doing as a kid.. but I find satisfaction in it anyways. I know that as long as I can stick around and keep up the work ethic I will be able to transform my life for the better and I’m ok with it. | You cannot grow if you shame yourself. Be proud of your accomplishments! You have worked very hard to get where you are today despite the obstacles, and remember that this is just the morning of your life. I know all of this probably sounds formulaic and annoying, but I swear that as soon as you start being a little easier on yourself, things start looking up | 0 | 178 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzqcxa | iu06fjr | 1,666,880,630 | 1,666,886,977 | 5 | 7 | start learning about meditation. The root of the problem is deeper. The things that have happened are the fruit of a deeper issue. | You cannot grow if you shame yourself. Be proud of your accomplishments! You have worked very hard to get where you are today despite the obstacles, and remember that this is just the morning of your life. I know all of this probably sounds formulaic and annoying, but I swear that as soon as you start being a little easier on yourself, things start looking up | 0 | 6,347 | 1.4 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu04wt1 | iu06fjr | 1,666,886,382 | 1,666,886,977 | 3 | 7 | Do you have an equivalent to at least one year of full time work experience in the industry? Because if so - you most likely qualify for immigration to Canada through the skilled worker category. With your education, English skills and experience it should be relatively easy for you to get that approved and get a decent mid-level architecture position in Canada. Just make sure you put together a portfolio that combines your school projects and professional work. It doesn’t have to be very long 5-6 projects should be more than enough. And don’t worry too much about having unbuilt projects, it’s not that important unless you want to get a job doing construction admin. I’ve also been in the profession for a long time - almost 15 years and still struggling through some aspects of it. While I’ve had some pretty good jobs I’m still not done my M.Arch and have probably another 3 years to go. But a lot of my colleagues also took almost at decade to finish their schooling and most people don’t even become a license architect until they’re in their 40s or later. It is a tough career so don’t feel bad about being behind because chance are you’re not compared to most other people. However you do have to ask yourself if you actually find satisfaction in this career because it does take a lot of will power to stick through it. Best of luck. | You cannot grow if you shame yourself. Be proud of your accomplishments! You have worked very hard to get where you are today despite the obstacles, and remember that this is just the morning of your life. I know all of this probably sounds formulaic and annoying, but I swear that as soon as you start being a little easier on yourself, things start looking up | 0 | 595 | 2.333333 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzys4z | iu06fjr | 1,666,883,990 | 1,666,886,977 | 2 | 7 | As cliché as it sounds, you can try to go into tech UI/UX. Its probably one of the lower barriers of entry with decent pay. Also same as programming, there are resources to learn this online. Reason i am saying this is because UI/UX needs the same mix of art and problem solving - like industrial design. | You cannot grow if you shame yourself. Be proud of your accomplishments! You have worked very hard to get where you are today despite the obstacles, and remember that this is just the morning of your life. I know all of this probably sounds formulaic and annoying, but I swear that as soon as you start being a little easier on yourself, things start looking up | 0 | 2,987 | 3.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu04wbw | iu06fjr | 1,666,886,377 | 1,666,886,977 | 2 | 7 | First and foremost, work on improving your mental health. That will make everything easier to accomplish. Next, try to understand what you want out of architecture. It sounds like you want to do the design part, but are less enthusiastic about the process of documenting a design to get it built. The reality is that no firm is going to put green hires into a lead design position, and almost all of us start doing grunt work and work our way into more parts of the process. A good employer will work with you to achieve your goals, but you also can take advantage of learning from the gruntwork- for instance, learn technical details from what you are drawing, try to understand what the design is trying to do and ask the leads about the process. Look up the requirements for licensing and use that as a guide to things you need to work on, even if you aren't planning to get licensed. It will give you some direction in a job and a way to approach your bosses about things you want and need to work on. Finally, not every firm is a good fit for a particular person. I love working in a small firm- I got to be part of the design process early on, and I wasn't simply a cog in a big machine. The work isn't as big and sexy as many large firms, but I was seeing results of my design input in built projects while friends at large firms were still detailing public restrooms. | You cannot grow if you shame yourself. Be proud of your accomplishments! You have worked very hard to get where you are today despite the obstacles, and remember that this is just the morning of your life. I know all of this probably sounds formulaic and annoying, but I swear that as soon as you start being a little easier on yourself, things start looking up | 0 | 600 | 3.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0v9li | iu04wt1 | 1,666,896,559 | 1,666,886,382 | 5 | 3 | You need a therapist, dude. It sounds like you’re your own worst enemy and the “woe is me” self deprecation that is subtextually there in your post is really not helpful. | Do you have an equivalent to at least one year of full time work experience in the industry? Because if so - you most likely qualify for immigration to Canada through the skilled worker category. With your education, English skills and experience it should be relatively easy for you to get that approved and get a decent mid-level architecture position in Canada. Just make sure you put together a portfolio that combines your school projects and professional work. It doesn’t have to be very long 5-6 projects should be more than enough. And don’t worry too much about having unbuilt projects, it’s not that important unless you want to get a job doing construction admin. I’ve also been in the profession for a long time - almost 15 years and still struggling through some aspects of it. While I’ve had some pretty good jobs I’m still not done my M.Arch and have probably another 3 years to go. But a lot of my colleagues also took almost at decade to finish their schooling and most people don’t even become a license architect until they’re in their 40s or later. It is a tough career so don’t feel bad about being behind because chance are you’re not compared to most other people. However you do have to ask yourself if you actually find satisfaction in this career because it does take a lot of will power to stick through it. Best of luck. | 1 | 10,177 | 1.666667 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0v9li | iu0lld6 | 1,666,896,559 | 1,666,892,834 | 5 | 3 | You need a therapist, dude. It sounds like you’re your own worst enemy and the “woe is me” self deprecation that is subtextually there in your post is really not helpful. | I don't see any failures just possibly insurmountable obstacles. you haven't really done anything wrong. here I thought you had designed a building that wasn't to standard and people had been injured or died or had done something professionally unethical. it does not appear that you have done anything unethical. you have circumstances that are hard due to immigration and personal/ family issues. | 1 | 3,725 | 1.666667 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | itzys4z | iu0v9li | 1,666,883,990 | 1,666,896,559 | 2 | 5 | As cliché as it sounds, you can try to go into tech UI/UX. Its probably one of the lower barriers of entry with decent pay. Also same as programming, there are resources to learn this online. Reason i am saying this is because UI/UX needs the same mix of art and problem solving - like industrial design. | You need a therapist, dude. It sounds like you’re your own worst enemy and the “woe is me” self deprecation that is subtextually there in your post is really not helpful. | 0 | 12,569 | 2.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0v9li | iu04wbw | 1,666,896,559 | 1,666,886,377 | 5 | 2 | You need a therapist, dude. It sounds like you’re your own worst enemy and the “woe is me” self deprecation that is subtextually there in your post is really not helpful. | First and foremost, work on improving your mental health. That will make everything easier to accomplish. Next, try to understand what you want out of architecture. It sounds like you want to do the design part, but are less enthusiastic about the process of documenting a design to get it built. The reality is that no firm is going to put green hires into a lead design position, and almost all of us start doing grunt work and work our way into more parts of the process. A good employer will work with you to achieve your goals, but you also can take advantage of learning from the gruntwork- for instance, learn technical details from what you are drawing, try to understand what the design is trying to do and ask the leads about the process. Look up the requirements for licensing and use that as a guide to things you need to work on, even if you aren't planning to get licensed. It will give you some direction in a job and a way to approach your bosses about things you want and need to work on. Finally, not every firm is a good fit for a particular person. I love working in a small firm- I got to be part of the design process early on, and I wasn't simply a cog in a big machine. The work isn't as big and sexy as many large firms, but I was seeing results of my design input in built projects while friends at large firms were still detailing public restrooms. | 1 | 10,182 | 2.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0v9li | iu06x53 | 1,666,896,559 | 1,666,887,167 | 5 | 2 | You need a therapist, dude. It sounds like you’re your own worst enemy and the “woe is me” self deprecation that is subtextually there in your post is really not helpful. | Only you have the power the change your circumstance here. It starts with changing the story you tell yourself. Your post shows that you are harboring a lot of negativity about yourself. You absolutely have to free your mind from this or this will become the norm. Try not to look to others for approval, your opinion of yourself is the one that matters first and foremost. In spite of your perceived failures, you have achieved a lot more than many many people who have lived on this planet. Your past is a series of step stones and learning that has led you to where you are today. | 1 | 9,392 | 2.5 | ||
yepboi | architecture_train | 0.91 | I've decimated my professional career . pls help me out. What do I do, ? \[TLDR\] : I (34) have nothing to show for the last 16 years I've spent in this profession spent studying, struggling to manage, trying to hold down jobs, burning out frequently and now too tired of myself, lost any & all will, kicking the life's bucket seems too enticing. Hardest part is, I don't even know where to begin rebuilding back up from this pit of despair. Please bear my long plea as i don't know where else to post this. **My Career's Illustrious failures so far.** ● started B.Arch in a new country in **2006** (*took 7yrs instead of 5, struggled with archaic third world curriculum, self pacing, resources, moved from a second World country..* ) ● Hardly worked 6 months after my 6 month internship. Quit/ let go due to lack of challenging work and low pay. 1 hospitality project, that later shutdown. ● started M.Arch in a new western country in **2014**, funded on partial debt, liked the curriculum, but too poor to focus on academics, had to 12hr work days as a CAD monkey just to meet the High Cost of living. Took three years to complete instead of two. Burnt to a crisp. Quit cad monkey job due to lack of work satisfaction, (too long to get to completion). 0 built projects to show for. ●2018, moved back to parent's basement (third world) after messing up and failing to lodge right work visas, any and all plans to contribute to family's small business rejected almost evicted from my own home. Living locked up as a recluse, haven't professionally worked a day since 2017. Survived initially of saving and now on scraps and handouts. On the verge of homelessness. ● **Major underlying cause seems to be my Undiagnosed Untreated ADHD / ADD, procrastination, anxiety, toxic perfectionism, being an economic refugee from a dysfunctional family made it even worse.** Had no friends ever to fallback on. No one ever want to be my friend / mentor not even my dad. *yay! daddy issues*. ●Compensate dark grim thoughts with distractions online that i am addicted to / sick of, dreaming diverse grandiose plans but do nothing much or burnout asap and spiral back into depression and back to cheap distractions. ●**Overqualified for the local job market, hate the type of work being done locally, harder as a minority and social outcast in the society, lack of native language skills other than English is an barrier as well**. ○**Would it be too unreal for me to dream of a stable job with a decent work life balance and some semblance of job satisfaction. I've wanted to help ppl but no one ever wants my help.** ○What it would be better for me to leave the profession and get into UX for shorter project turnarounds alone, the learning curve seems daunting and have no time i feel, given my situation. ○Do I strive to relocate to where my M.Arch is valid or worth it? immigration is hard and takes forever. or (easier to migrate) do I look at PhD positions and live off a stipend. I like research aspect but hate the idea of teaching others into this drudgery of high effort low reward profession. °Losing my mind, losing my time, please help me get out of this rut and shine. \[PS\]: Mods please remove of its inappropriate here. but please tell me why. \[PS\] Also. If I have doxed myself and you think you know me , i am sorry to be an embarrassment. | iu0c2u2 | iu0v9li | 1,666,889,175 | 1,666,896,559 | 2 | 5 | What country are you from? | You need a therapist, dude. It sounds like you’re your own worst enemy and the “woe is me” self deprecation that is subtextually there in your post is really not helpful. | 0 | 7,384 | 2.5 |
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